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It doesn't feel like i've been alive for 3 decades. I mean I can barely remember when I was 10, 20 is becoming blurry and sometimes I never know if I am coming or going. I don't know who my friends are or worse if I actually have any. I know alot of people but i'm not sure if any one actually knows me. Many now know the pastor, as amazing as it is, it's such a heavy load to carry especially on my own. Some know me as a colleague, we have managed to break down the walls of professionalism but there still seems to be invisible walls that stop us from going that one step deeper. Some know the brother which just means responsibility, others know a helper, the person God used to assist them in a tough situation and some know a complicated relationship, The guy that they should be with but has to many issues of his own that he is terrified of commitment so the moment he starts getting loved he will do whatever he can to run, maybe the athletic genes were external manifestation of an internal longing.

The other day, I was pushed in the middle of a dancing circle at a wedding and I immediately moved out, I hated being the centre of attention. So i think it goes without saying that I don't like my birthday. I appreciate the letters,posts and occasional gifts I get but I can't stand the consistent calls, having the same conversation multiple times and also those people who pop out the wood work to come and say hi. I genuinely do not know what people are celebrating, I was born and I've come and haven't really done anything significant on this planet yet, I haven't built anything, I haven't started any movement and if I were to die today, my obituary might have some kind words but withing a couple of years, I'll become another one of those forgotten individuals except for the handful of people that either depended on me or those that loved me. Every year on this day I am reminded of all the time I wasted, The souls i passed by and the things I was born to do. One day I will genuinely celebrate this day, but for now I'll keep taking a drive and reflecting on the year that has passed and focusing the next cycle.

I'm grateful to be here in this moment in time,i'm excited for the times to come and have taken notes on the times that have passed.

love,

Is

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"I wanna thank You for kindly taking away the thing I had Cause it coulda hurt me, protection don't feel good in the moment But looking back, wasn't trying to be disrespectful You know I'm stubborn, I never would've let go But trust is hard for the broken heart But with You, I finally learned It felt like You didn't come through for me When You didn't do exactly what I wanted But You always give me what I needed Foolish of me to box You in The shape of my broken heart didn't leave You much room But You always give me what I needed" Chandler my hero Moore

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Her laugh

Johannesburg 10/08/2024

When I close my eyes, I can hear her laughing, immediately my blood pressure rises but not out of sickness more like being drowned by oxytocin. The only thing is that the laughter changes depending on the day.

Sometimes it's the sound of peace, still waters and clear skies, afternoon strolls and sunset meals before a gentle kiss,first on the head, then the eyes, then nose followed by both cheeks, then a romeo and julliet peck, a stolen piece of history.

Sometimes it's the sound of a storm, lightning with dashes of thunder, organized chaos and leaves you with that roller coaster ride feeling, anticipation, excitement and a sprinkle of fear. The fear of life without them, what do you call a leopard without spots? zebra without stripes?(Horse?haha), tortoise without a shell or like coldrink without coke?.

Sometimes it's the sound of hope, as bright as the rainbow. Do you remember when we planted beans in school? Everyday you would water it and check if something had happened? we all knew it wouldn't grow in a day but it never stopped us from checking, till we saw a little green coming and then made sure that yours was growing faster than your friends. It's the break of dawn, all the night terrors have failed to defeat you and trouble is in your rear view mirror.

Sometimes it's the sound of joy, that white rose in winter, like tracks left in the snow, a reminder that you're never alone despite no one else being in sight. It's coming home to French onion soup, marshmallows around a bond fire and tiramisu waiting in the fridge. It's sharing a throw on a bean bag.

Then there is the nervous laugh, sometimes it comes with tears. I get tensed, muscle memory wants to hold you, reassure you in your doubt, tell you that you're stunning in your breakouts era and lay in bed in your i hate the world era and eat ice cream and cake, someone asked me to choose...like that's illegal!

when I open my eyes, I see you then I hear the sound of forever. That scares me.

Love,

Israel

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Johannesburg 05/08/24

To all the people you were, and those you're yet to become:).

I didn't know how to start this letter to be honest. I think it's mainly because most times we get another chance, another chance to see you smile, another chance to hear you laugh, another chance to wake up to the smell of you hanging on my sheets like a kite hanging on the wind. Another chance to dance the pain away and chat the day away. If I had another chance I'd do it all over again, why you might ask?

Because you're the much needed energy in my life, the one that has taught me more than most. The one I hate to admit I admire, your strength that shows through your weakness, your dedication that comes alive in your commitment, your protective instincts, your kindness that goes beyond what you have but giving of who you are. In my heart and in my head you'll always be,

The mother of the house, you don't know this but the house needed you and when you came, we didn't want to lose you. I never said this much but thank you for helping us start to feel like a home from your warm meals to your clean floors, the little disciplines and order were much needed.

In my head and heart you'll always be T-rex, the fossil creator! I have never played rough with any one before and don't know if I might ever again but you had a way of making pain exciting. I'll definitely say around you I was always scared for my life

Which in a way genuinely made every moment count so much. I'll wear my bite marks on my soul like tattoos hidden under formal wear, not to be seen by others but the carrier not only knows that they are there and are precious in so many ways. If dental records are there long after you die and can't be merely burnt away, well I guess the record of you will come back even in my next life.

In my head and heart you'll always be the girl that pushed a car in the middle of nowhere during covid after lock down wearing a wedding dress (even though it wasn't white). I'll never ever drive past that place and not think of you. I had so much fun that night and will keep more than just a photo to remember it by. That car was symbolic in many ways of our relationship. It starts without too much problems but after a certain distance it would need some water and also a chance to cool down because wow, things could get over heated really quickly. Then we would have to push it a little till it got some momentum to kick-start again and we would drive until the next obstacle. However we kept moving forward despite it all and eventually arrived.

In my head and heart you'll always be Liora, the light that always put a smile on my face and joy in my heart. I'll never forget how you sat through a movie wanting to tear my clothes off or how we would sneak around like thieves just so that we could spend nights together. I'll never forget the trips we took, with or without people, we always found a way to do us. I think our fake hike is one of the last ones I took and the memory of you will float in my heart like we did at the spa, weightless, effortless and above all permanently.

In my head and heart you'll always be the storm chaser. My favourite ride of them all. Never really know what to expect next but once you totally let go of the fear and control, it's going to be the ride of your life and I hate getting off. It's no wonder you had Jonah tendencies and ran away from things but as life would have it, there was a whale always waiting to bring you back. Like every storm many things along the way may be collateral damage, but hidden behind the crazy weather is the source of life itself and the potential to power up everything.

You will always and forever be my friend and part time fellow rule breaker. Thank you for it all and I wish you nothing but the best in your new journey. Let not the past, define your future.

I love you now and always,

♠️ Israël

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Habits

27/06/24 - Dar Es Salaam, Tanzania

So I want to stop some bad habits and replace them with good habits. See if the world was that easy I guess we would all do it right? I mean why is it that the bad things give us instant gratification and we suffer the consequences later? and the good things give us instant punishment and the benefits later? think about it...if you eat junk, instant gratification and the weight is only seen later, watching porn, instant gratification and the consequences are only seen later, snoozing the alarm, buying things you didn't plan to buy etc, but when it comes to the other side of the coin well to spare you the pain I'll just use one example; exercise...don't you wish the muscles showed up immediately after the session? or the scale went down? nope, all you get is an energy drain and then pain after that as your body recovers from the unfamiliar strain you put it through. Is there a way to potentially trick yourself? well I'm going to figure it out. Here are a list of some of my current habits and also a list of some of the habits I'd like to begin. Let's see how this plays out. ready to come along this journey with me?

Current Habits;

Sleep late

Binge watch shows

Wake up at random times

East everything and anything

No exercise

Spend without a budget and accumulate debt

I don't want to date but always have someone there along with all the sexual stuff (making out, oral, masturbation and porn)

New Habits;

Sleep by 10 p.m, Wake up by 5.30 a.m.

Read everyday, the bible in the morning and a book at night

write everyday, whether a poem, a song, or even just share an idea or work on my book. However I MUST become a writer and write everyday

Exercise every day, except Sunday( got to keep the Sabbath day holy)

Pay down debt every month without fail

Invest every month without fail.

I'm going to offer my body as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable. I'm also going to open up the cage and let the humming birds fly.

It's always best to start at a new beginning so July, it's about to go down! except point 7...that one we start on the 7th of the 7th month, Ah it feel all kinds of prophetic and exciting. Buckle up!

With determination,

Israel

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The gift of teaching

10/06/2024 - Monday in Johannesburg

I woke up super early today, similar to yesterday but unlike yesterday I had no flight to catch this morning. However one thing I have picked up about waking up early is that you're able to get so much done and if you're wise, no day will leave you behind again. I've been reading more and hopefully i'll be writing more as well. The exercise thing is still difficult but i'm running tomorrow morning and I'll write to you about it after the run (Provided I don't die obviously).

Okay onto the matter at hand. I don't know if i've had really great teachers along the way or if i'm just a brilliant student (Highly improbable) but i've always enjoyed learning new things and going on adventures. I realized from a young age that I enjoyed teaching too, my brother was my obvious lab rat but I think I did a relatively decent job. Teaching for me isn't just about sharing knowlege or building someone else's skills but it's a form of achieving mastery. Think about it, most things make sense in your head but the moment that they need to be shared with someone else then we find ourselves either saying or thinking "That sounded so much better in my head." However to reach mastery in anything you do, you need to be able to pass on that wisdom to someone else in a way that they will e able to build on what you have given them.

The Students; one of the most important elements of teaching is always the students. I believe a great teacher is one that understands their students and finds a way to customize the learning experience for every student. We all think differently but as my University maths teacher responded to me when I asked why am I learning this proof? he responded and said "we are doing this so that we teach you how to think" I mean how did i get to university without thinking?mmmmh. I guess maybe what he was trying to say was that, he wanted to teach me a way of thinking,or maybe open me up to new realities. The problem he faced was that I was the kind of student who had given up on memorizing things and had my attention and focus on applying what I learn to the real world. See some kids are verbal, others visual etc. If we use a style that isn't appropriate for the student than we lose out on an opportunity to truly take what we have to the next level. The mistake we make as teachers is to adopt a one size fits all and unfortunately, students come in all shape and sizes,that's why I enjoy rugby because it caters to the fat and the thin, the short and the tall, the fast and the slow, somehow, what might appear to be a weakness is merely a platform for another stregth to be made manifested. So students matter and good teachers, adapt to their students.

The lesson; sometimes the lesson itself is a problem. I've learnt that as humans we all have different values and goals (The by product of eating of the tree of knowledge of good and evil) which means that unfortunately we all have a hierarchy of needs that need to be met. If the most basic needs are not met than no one will focus on the highest level of needs. So when ever i teach, i try to make sure that the lesson first serves the most basic of needs, or in another way, the lesson would benefit even a fool. It's critical to simplify things because when things are complex, many people tend to check out and start focusing on their basic needs. If you can't teach what you know to a 5 year old (4 year olds are going through an early life crisis to really learn) than the truth is you have no idea what you're talking about. We can hide behind jargons and big words but when you go into the dictionary, well I guess everything can e explained by smaller and simpler words. The lessons I think should be focused on three layers, the identity of an individual, what would this knowledge or skill help you to become, secondly what are the process to actually make it a reality and lastly what are the outcomes of acquiring such knowledge or experiences. What we tend to do is start with outcome; i.e. we want the child to be able to play a few notes maybe a song so we get them an instrument and begin giving them instructions. However the truth is, the outcomes we have are fundamentally a result of the processes that we follow which are fundamentally the results of the person we believe we are. So if you change what people believe than you can change their outcomes and I guess that's why identity politics is so powerful and dangerous at the same time. If i can make you believe that you are a bird than i shouldn't be surprised if the next thing you do is try to fly without technology of course. So always make sure that the lesson helps people become who the want to be and they will begin to do what the people they want to be do naturally.

The best part of it all; For me the best part of teaching is the opportunity to learn. You get to learn how what you think actually sounds like, what other people think, the things you missed while thinking and also the things you could never have thought about on your own. Teaching is a gift or rather a super power. The one that can teach appropriately has learnt how to use incentives and rewards appropriately, they have learnt how to communicate effectively and also how to negotiate in such a way that everyone benefits. Teaching ia a journey of exploring an idea or set of ideas and not just spitting out facts or propaganda. If we go back to taking the time to figure things out as we learn, we might get a few more people who are willing to come along the journey with us, why knows where it might lead to?

So make sure you teach someone something everyday, it is the first step to becoming a master at what you want and love.

with wisdom,

Israel.

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I don't date...

07/06/24...Friday in CPT

This is a motto I've lived by since I almost got into a marriage I probably would have regretted. I always said that I hate hurting people and we all know I have a fair share of broken hearts in my jar.

I say I don't date but I go watch movies, I have dinners, I have lunches and sometimes breakfast. None of them are alone. I pride myself on being honest and always share that I'm not in a place to be dating nor do I date. It's always accepted in the beginning but the longer I hang out with someone and get to know them and they get to know me, then like an accurate prophecy, we end up having difficult conversations and 99.99% of the time I become the ass. I say I won't have sex and been successful at that but i've been more intimate without having sex than I could be if I had sex 10 times a day. I've been everything from the first face one sees in the morning, the last touch they feel at night, I've been the hand that catches the tears and the energy that ignites the laughter. I've been the ear when words run out and the presence in the dark.

is it possible that I am just scared? maybe I'm scared that if I actually commit then I'll genuinely be at risk of Karma kicking my ass for my foolishness as a kid. I'm scared that the person I'm willing to die for will be living for someone else, I'm scared that when I commit I'll see a side that I'm not capable of handling, then marriage will be a serious discussion and what kind of husband will I really be? We all know what we ought to do but most times we fail to do what is clear and obvious. I'm scared I'll miss out on an adventure, the thrill of meeting someone and getting to know them without the guilt of having to go look into someone else's eyes and lie or feeling dirty. I'm afraid that at some stage my jokes won't be funny anymore, that my problems will be bigger than my shoulders can carry and would anyone really want to add to their own baggage?

Maybe I'm scared that I'm not enough, that like so many people before me, it's the allure of stability that draws people in. If tomorrow all I have is a bible (God willing the word doesn't leave me also), how many people would look at me twice? What if the same thing that was in my granddad is in me too? I'm scared of truly being vulnerable,having my heart in someone else's hand is like jumping out the plane with no parachute and expecting the wind to feel sorry for you. I'm scared of love because love doesn't make sense and as much as I'm a crazy chap, I like it when things make sense!

I don't date I say, but maybe it's just a way for me to say I'm scared, I'm so scared of being hurt that I end up hurting others. I don't date I say, and I know that the evidence is incriminating, I don't date I say but what if i'm just a compilation of broken pieces that haven't made peace with myself that I'm not capable of being truly one with someone? I don't date I say, but maybe I don't like myself that much, given my track record (off the field obviously) you wouldn't like me either. I don't take I say, but I've fallen in and out of love like a comma patient, so desperate to hang on to life that I let go of my dreams.

I don't date I say, not knowing that i'm sharing a condition that I've been suffering from and hope that someone out there has a cure.

I don't date I say and now I think I finally realize what that actually means.

Israel

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Thursday 06 June, 2024 Cape Town ...

Value

What's true value?is it the money you're willing to pay of something?or the time you're willing to exchange for something? Or is it as the economists tell us scarcity? Why do we value diamonds more than gold?why do we value education over wisdom? What's the true value of a piece of art?

Today for the first time, I understood what it's like really losing something I've always taken for granted. Remember the first few phone calls you have with some you like and how you look forward to every text no matter how long it takes? Then at some stage what used to excite you begins to irritate you, that's the point where the extraordinary becomes ordinary, when the day light becomes dark and that life threatening disease becomes cured. I wish I could stay in the place where your voice was my freedom, your face my only reference to beauty, your laugh the only energy source I lived off.

I hate that I stopped looking at you like Adam looked at Eve, like Isaac looked at Rebecca or Jacob looked at Rachel, that you're my present for all eternity. It's true that the good ones go and you have been the best.

It hurts but I know realise that I'm part of everything that has been holding you back and causing you pain. I heard eagles have to go through the excruciating pain of breaking their own beaks in order for new ones to grow, that will then allow them to pluck their wings in order for them to fly even higher or die in their current form. You were always a dream and today someone woke me up.

It hurts so much but it's necessary. No more beacon for this fella. I'll watch from a distance as you reach for the stars.

I love you, now and always.

Adamjies

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Thursday 30 May 2024 -Johannesburg.

Today is the day after elections and life is almost back to normal. Instead of voting yesterday I went to play soccer partly because I think politics is a game and also because I belive that making an uninformed decision is just foolish.

However I feel like my life is coming up to an election cycle, where I'll need to vote not only who will be the president of my life but also the key members of parliament. In this area of my life I don't have the luxury of not casting my vote because I am the population.

There are several candidates as per all elections and all have extremely good policies and philosophy. They are well spoken and the evidence is clear to see what all of them bring in their own ways.

Recently a candidate fell off the race, to be fair they had very little chance of being elected but none the less it's never fun seeing a party fall away after spending so much time invested in campaigning. The one thing that worked against this party was their inability to deliver on their promises. They were so desperate to be relevant that they took the path of any publicity is good publicity but tge news headlines and constant scandals made it extremely difficult for them to have any success at all. However they new how to host a good fund raising event and their parties were legendary. They were extremely thoughtful and personalised everything. In another life, I hope they have better luck.

Now on the candidates left there are 3 main one and 1 wildcard. In no particular order here they are;

1. The longest serving candidate: so you know how we all have loyalties to our liberators. The party that broke the chains and gave up everything in order to allow you to become that which you knew you had the potential to become. Over the years alot has changed,which is expected to happen when time passes. There were the inevitable strikes and massive disputes. They made deals that weren't beneficial to us but only benefitted them and at times it would be hard to know if they still were the candidate you elected. However as fate would have it, after a massive negative event say like covid, people really ponder on who they are and then the dormant seeds start to get watered again and then with time the inevitable will happen. The problem is this transformation has left the candidates with new ambitions and new philosophies which are no longer aligned with my hopes and dreams.

2. The complicated candidate: you know there is that candidate that when you meet everything just flows without effort or energy. The one who gets your political interest to rise again and the desire to change things becomes a dream that is so close to touch. So you do whatever you can to sign up and join, putting your all in it only to find out that when you get in there are skeletons in the closet. It's true that everyone has things they would rather leave buried but I guess when the grave yard is bigger than the garden planted then the outcome is always in doubt. The union aesthetically looks good but internally there are too many things that don't align. As any dreamer you always want to be the change and hope that you can turn any ship around, but what if you're headed for the iceberg that sunk the titanic? Would you risk the lives of thousands to find out?

3. The candidate that has delivered time and time again: see this sounds like an easy choice. I mean if I had to vite today, surely you put an x on the side of the face that has consistently improved, learnt and grown without fail. This candidate may not have been given the biggest provinces or municipality to run yet, they have done what they said they would (usually) and have consistently grown in favour and grace and wisdom. There is so much right with this candidate to tge point where you want to find the flaws because everyone has one right. The main fear is that this candidate isn't consistent with the small things, they deliver on all the big projects but on the tiny ones that can go unnoticed they tend not to deliver. That then leads me to question if, they got into power, what would they be like then? See running for office forces people to put their best foot forward and this one definitely has done so. Will they stick to their policies, mandates and philosophy once their in the seat of president?or will they show the other side of their face that has been tamed to win the race?

4. The wildcard candidate, see this one hasn't done any campaigns yet and will only come forward when the decision needs to be done. They are unknown, have no track record, policies and philosophies are not yet disclosed and they risks are currently endless. However they possess a newness that the other 3 don't, a blank canvas of some sort, potential to the highest degree and the opportunity to write a different story. This candidate could potentially change my future either by being elected or not elected. They are the leap of faith but the word hasn't come yet so is it really faith?should I turn my back on what I know in part for what I have no idea of?

I have no clue what will unfold but I can feel that the day is coming. There will be a new elected president and the landscape in my life will never be the same. I hate making big decisions but no choice is worse than the wrong choice. Well it's going to be interesting times ahead and I'm excited to see how it all plays out...

Love,

♤Is

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I've been going through the most recently, I hope it bears fruits because wow!

♤Israël

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Simba!!! My beautiful sweet baby 🐕

Today I failed as a parent. I drove my child and gave him up for adoption and the whole drive there I kept wanting to turn back. I kept wanting to bring him back home because family stays together and fights for one another but the truth is I've failed Simba. Yes I fed you and didn't wash you as often as I should have but I didn't give you the attention you deserved. I didn't give you the love you gave me and I didn't protect you as hard as I should have. I'm sorry for all the walks I never took you on due to my laziness, the journeys we could have had together. I'm sorry for the moments you were scared in the cold by the rain or by all the fireworks.

I'm sorry I neglected you and left my responsibility to someone else. I hope you find a good home where you're loved and protected like you loved and protected us. A home where you receive the kindness that you give, I'll miss coming back home knowing that someone is always excited to see me and the house will never be the same again without you. I'm grateful to have known you and will never forget you!

With sadness,

♤Is

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Sunday 12 May 2024 - Johannesburg

The last basket to fill is reputation...I think of all the baskets this is by far in my opinion the most fragile. I know that trust is earned over a long period of time but one action that is inconsistent with the idea that has been portrayed and you might as well be called Hiroshima junior. Why is destruction so much easier and quicker than construction?

May it's because of order. I shared story with a friend today which was partly a confession about how I messed around with several girls at some stage. I know what you're thinking when you read this and for the most part you're right. In the quest for being transparent I was genuinely broken. I wasn't brok2n in the traditional sense nor was I bitter, angry or vengeful. I broken in such a way that I thought I could get all the benefits but with none of the negatives. I think everyone has their fair share of broken hearts and I thought my jar was fool so refused to get into anything with anyone. I told everyone that I didn't want to date which was true and some were really good friends and I ended up breaking their hearts anyway.

So I shared my story and when she said to me that she can't believe this and she thought I was a perfect person it broke me in a way. It wasn't the pride of my image being shattered but the light of her hope being put out. 8 years and she thought I was an angel and one afternoon all that was thrown away by one act.

It led me to ask this question, if bad trees cannot produce good fruits and good trees cannot produce bad fruits...how is it possible that bad people can do good and good people can do bad? What if we misunderstood this verse. What if the tree here isn't the person but the spirit which dwells within us. Since we are free beings than maybe every decision we make allows a certain spirit to be made manifest through us . He said his the vine and we are the branches. Think about it, without the vine the branch will never produce any fruit. In this social media age when you can be a success over night and cancelled while you snore. Man out to build their character brick by brick. It will take long and be painful but when you're done than you'll never have to think twice with the outcomes of your decisions for regardless of your circumstances or conditions. There will be a consistency in you, just like a tree planted by the Riverside, bearing fruits in all seasons!

We aren't definited by one decision, but by the sum total of every decision that we make. All those decisions are mere a manifestation of the beings that pocess you over time. What people think will change so don't stress about your current reputation but think about the legacy your character will leave behind that will last into eternity.

P.s. Happy birthday Mama and happy mother's day.

Love,

♤Is

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It will never really matter how big you get, or how smart you get or even how powerful you become. You'll always be my first born child. I never knew I needed you before you came but now that you're here, I understand why God saves the best for last. Happy birthday to you, the very essence of my soul!you've taught me so much in such a little time and can't wait for many more adventures with you!

I love you now and always,

♤Is

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What do you have?

Thursday 9 May 2024...Lusaka

So the 4th basket is about what you have. Resources are extremely important especially because according to economics there is only a limited amount of resources which in most cases is true but maybe not in the sense that we think. Do you believe that there will be a time where there is no more food,water or anything that we need to survive? They say we have limited amount of space but the most populated cities are not necessarily the largest in size. We spend so much time chasing after success, so we give up our health, give up our families, give up our joy and peace all in exchange of some money and don't get me wrong, travelling business class is significantly better than economy but just stop and think for a second. What if the greatest resources are intangible? A baby in a wealthy family isn't necessarily better off than a baby in a poor family. The both drink milk(naturally provided for because God is a G like that), mess themselves and their parents clean up after them, cry and adults need to stop what they are doing to give this child attention. Come back in two years and both babies are speaking to some extent and running around, breaking everything in the rich household and trees in a poor one. To a certain extent money wouldn't have benefited the rich kid. If then my theory that the most valuable resources are intangible than economic theory of scarcity would not hold. The world would be full of love, which then would significantly reduce crimes and violence, pain and heart break. People would be kind so like in the early church, none would like not because everyone had abundance but because everyone shared. We would be patient with one another and that would reduce many insecurities, anxiety, pressure, envy,jealousy etc because every tree grows at its own pace and evey fruit has it's own shape and taste and no one compares strawberries to lemons.

Think about it, you give up time which is the most precious resource by far for money that will then allow you to buy a family,buy assets,buy friends and buy admires, buy doctors and buy psychologist and buy education so that the next generation can repeat the cycle again.

However the world doesn't need more stuff in whatever form they may come in. What we are seriously lacking is the things that are found inside of man, for we have spent our lives trying to cover our outside that we have remained empty. So load up love,joy,peace,patience, kindness, goodness, Faithfulness,gentleness, and self control. Against these, there is no law which means there is no limit.

With Agape,

♤Is

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Who do you know?

Wednesday 08/05/2024

The third bucket is about networks and relationships. We all know that having the right uncle in a powerful position or being neighbors with the ex-presdient or CEO of a massive company will definitely if used wisely bear great fruits. So we spend alot of time building relationships and pretending to be someone that we are not so that we can get ahead in life. However what if the most important person we should know we never get to actually know? could that fundamentally mean that we then will never fully become the best version of ourselves nor reach our highest peaks.

What if the greatest adventure is getting to know yourself? not necessarily what you like and don't like which if you think about it changes over time. I remeber I used to have a favourite colour and I'm sure I still do but which colour it is, well that depends on the season I am going through. My favourite food can unfortunately only be selected from the list of what I have previously eaten, yet there is so much more that I have never tasted ( This is extremely tragic). How many times have you told yourself that you will do something, but that very self fails to do what you said it would do? (dear subconscious please push me to exercise,thanks) .

When I speak about getting to know yourself I'm speaking about knowing why you exist and also for what you are willing to die for. Please be aware I'm not referring to the hollywood reasons to live. Those that are still chasing money,romantic love,intellectual achievement, fame, power etc...the reality is that one day you'll have a rude awakening and if you're not wise, It will break you to the core. I believe that one cannot fully know themselves without knowing where you come from. You're a combination of DNA which for you is your parents but for them is their parents etc. This means that if someone a couple of thousands years ago made a different decision than chances are, you wouldn't be you or atleast not the version of you that you currently are. So that then leads us to the first decision that was made, not by man for they too were made but from the one who was not made,the one before time, the one greater than space, the one that is the foundation of matter. It is only when you get to know the creator do you really begin the journey of self discovery. This is why society has gone out of it's way to make you believe that you're the centre of the universe and the consequences I guess are clear to see for all that are willing to look.

Therefore I leave you with this, it is impossible to truly get to know anyone if you first do not know yourself, for no one truly knows reality. All we know is our perception which is fundamentally based on what we believe. So find truth for the creator is hidden not to far behind what is true.

Love,

♧Is

[leprincedaunsh]

Thursday 2 May 2024,

This one is about the second basket...what skills do you have...

Have you ever wondered what the difference between talent and skill is? Talent is raw and God given in accordance to his will. It is best seen at a young age when a boy runs through a whole team, side stepping everything in his way like a ballerina, or that young shy girl that sings with the voice of 1000 angels, that noisy kid whose always in detention but paints like Davinci. I'm sure that some of you can relate, even those who can merely remember the talented people who made them feel crappy. There is just nothing we can do about what we are or aren't given...but there is good news. The kid with the highest grades doesn't always become the best entrepreneur, the short kid in the feint of the line may one day stand at the back and that fat kid who only ate chocolate can one day become a vegan or some gym instructor who doesn't eat carbs. The point I'm trying to make is that there is hope for those who are willing to pay the price. Most people who have finished varsity would have at some stage said, "I used to" if you haven't wait until 30 :). Then there are those who have gotten better with time, the C students who now sit in the C-Suite, the high school drop out with a whole empire. The thing that those that make it and stay at the top for a while have applied knowledge, diligence and hardwork to their talent.

Skills are what shows up in the most difficult moments, they are what rise in a sea full of talent. They are the reward of all of the hours put into your craft, at first it seems like you have to give everything else up! And in reality it's the price required for mastery. However when you get to the peak of mount everest, the whole world will be at your feet!

So I know you may not have started ahead but there is definitely a way for you to end at the top!

Sharpen up soldier,

♧Israël

[leprincedaunsh]

So it's been a while, I guess I wasn't too disciplined but I'll attempt to change...

Wednesday 1st of May 2024 - Lusaka.

Today is labour day and funny enough, I had no labour or atleast the labour that I do for my employer. The truth is work has stopped feeling like work and it's like something I actually look forward to especially when we have a juicy deal or a fancy structure. I hope may brings with it many new challenges that will educate and build me.

On the lesson's front I'm currently reading a diary of a CEO and it's really amazing. So I'll share my take with you as I go through it.

#law1 - Fill in your 5 buckets in the right order...first bucket is knowledge. I learnt today that despite your ambitions, goals and dreams that it is impossible to give from an empty bucket or hand. The only way to make a difference is to first acquire knowledge for without that, no change in the world will ever be made and all your talents will merely be points of debate when old age eventually arrives and regret positions itself to finally hit you with one last blow. So go out there and learn something, anything and everything.

Love,

♧Is