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I feel you. I was misdiagnosed as a type 2! I was so close to being in a diabetic coma and I was in DKA when I was admitted and finally told I was a type 1. I was practically eating NOTHING and I still felt like shit every single day.

Newly diagnosed

It’s crazy to think two weeks ago I nearly gone into a diabetic coma! Just over night I became insulin-dependant and my pancreas packed in, I’m still confused why did this happened to me? Rapid weight loss, excessive thirst etc but yet I chose to ignore I had those symptoms. These past few weeks have been like a roller coaster of emotions; one moment I accepted it other times I lashed out in anger then to sadness feeling like an outsider. First time injecting myself in public I took a panic attack, the whole mall glared at me from the beginning. How fucking rude!! Then facing unsympathetic relatives and friends: ‘you could end up curing yourself’ 'diabetes is a total lifestyle change you won’t be able to do this or that’ 'that’s a shame your not allowed sugar, I would hate my life’ 'You won’t be able to be a teacher, you may scare kids with hypos’ ’ haha your like a junkie injecting’ Lack of knowledge passes as ignorance, remember YOU know all about YOUR condition. YES I KNOW ITS LIFE CHANGING NO NEED TO CONSTANTLY REMIND ME I HAVE DIABETES. I eventually realised those people do not have a single clue and I’ve done a lot more things than people with better health have. I still eat,breathe,walk,talk and feel the same only change is injecting myself 4 times a day. Don’t let it define you..

Please RT or reply to this blog if you have diabetes I would like to speak to others :-) Share your story!

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same shit, different day

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It's hard.

It has been difficult to change my eating habits. I haven't craved anything surprisingly but what it's been hard for me to eat the veggies. The taste of steamed vegetables I can't. The cauliflower is good but everything else is eh. I was eating some baby carrots and I could not swallow I gagged but I made myself eat it. I want to be able to enjoy eating veggies. I had a salad for lunch. A HUGE ONE for my standards, lettuce, spinach, tomatoes, garbanzos and chicken. I ate it. It was okay. I didn't enjoy it but I enjoyed knowing it was good for me. I guess I need more recopies. ANYONE can give me LOW CARB DIABETIC FRIENDLY recopies it would be great. I wanted to eat bacon but my mom said it was too fattening but I was under the idea it was okay because it had no carbs? I don't know I need stregthn 6 more days to my surgery and only 4 until I have to reach 160 or lower to get approved for surgery. Help.

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I just wanted to thank you for your advice. I am so new to diabetes and scared. its good to know I have people who can relate

Scrubs is a show about DOCTORS and it can’t accurately portray diabetes or use it as anything more than a joke

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Diabetes

  So today I woke up and went to my pre op screening. They were going to do all kinds of tests to ensure I was ready for surgery. Well, turns out my urine had too much glucose and they pricked my finger to make sure. My blood level was 307 which I was told was high. I felt like something just crushed me. I could not believe I had diabetes. I felt like a failure. I know what my mom would say and the worse part is that it's true. I didn't take care of myself and now I am being forced to because of my health. I didn't want that to jeopardize my surgery but they told me as long as my sugar was under control I would be okay by next wednesday. You should have seen how fast I ate all the vegetables my grandma put on my plate. Is it normal to feel ashamed? I do. I feel like a predictable fat girl who got diabetes. I always had that. Always took pride in the fact that while I was obese I never had any health issues. Well it caught up to me. I'm 23. I don't want to live like this. I feel so alone. If anyone reading this has type 2 diabetes and could give me some advice that would be great. I was put on NO CARB diet because we need my sugar to drop in time for the surgery. I was wondering is this the same as when I did lindora? Can I have sausage? I love the big pineapple ones but I don't know if thats good. I looked up some meal ideas but they all have some sort of grain or bread which I was told NOT to have.. Help?

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Reblog this if you have Diabetes.

So I have Diabetes and I was just wondering how many other Diabetics are there on tumblr. So Reblog if you have Diabetes. 

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Depression

Does anyone have experience with antidepressants? I was prescribed Paxil 10mg but I read some scary shit about it… Anyone got advice or suggestions?

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So like I said before, I got a TON of bathing suits (4 to be exact) and I only paid for one basically. The reason I wanted to get so many of them was so that I can try them all and give an honest review on them.

These are the following I bought. I got them all in size 16 top and 18 bottom...

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More power to you! I am so sick and tired strangers thinking they are entitled to tell you how to live your life. I'm not going to sit here and say that those things don't tare me down but I am actively trying to ignore that bullshit. You look great in that dress. FUCK ANYONE WHO TELLS YOU THAT YOU DON'T

Today when I was wearing this dress a woman told me I should try shopping for cloths that were more flattering to my figure.  If this had been 3 or 4 months ago it would have taken a big hit to my ego. I was someone who thought covering every inch of my body in cloths would help my self esteem but it was just me trying to hide myself from the people around me. I’m not a small girl but I’m not going to let that stop me from dressing the way i want anymore. I love this dress on me. The best choice i ever made, was deciding to love my size, and love myself! 

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Thank you. I always have people with me, and I have always been avid on standing up for my self and others. These are some of the struggles I've faced despite of me telling them they have provide help for me. I have gotten better at moving my self around but it's still a challenge at times, like I can never break correctly I always end up hurting my fingers, thank you for your help and I will def. come to you with more questions!

lesgordis said:

"I have 2 herniated discs and have been in a wheelchair for 6 months. In this time I have seen first hand some of the struggles handicapped and disabled people face. I have gotten looks, people who don’t understand the handicapped stall is for...

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I have 2 herniated discs and have been in a wheelchair for 6 months. In this time I have seen first hand some of the struggles handicapped and disabled people face. I have gotten looks, people who don't understand  the handicapped stall is for handicapped only, and employees who get upset when I make them open the handicap register. I have seen people bump into me and not be sorry, literally jump over my legs instead of going around me, and people complain that I get to "cut" the line (when the aisles are so narrow I can't even sit in line). I have been in places that claim to "gladly help" disabled, yet the employees do nothing to accommodate me to go into the store to look for items. I have rolled out of stores because they don't want to let someone come into the dressing rooms to help me try things on.  And this has only been 6 months, and it is temporary. I really feel for people who have been alienated their whole life because of something that they can't control. This doesn't make anyone less of a person if anything, it makes them more amazing because having to do what people do everyday they do in a wheelchair. There are laws to make sure that disabled people are not discriminated but these laws are definitely not implemented.

Vintage on disability rights.

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Words suck

  Today I was eating with my boyfriend at a Denny's I have been going to since I was like 8 since it is literally around the corner of my house. I have 2 herniated disks and can't even walk too far anymore so naturally I have gained more weight but I have always been overweight. I'm awaiting surgery so needless to say it's pretty serious and I have been in pain EVERYDAY for the past 6 months.

   So of course all the waitresses have questions about why I was in a wheelchair etc. One of them comes up to me and tells me that I should loose weight because it's too much pressure on my body. I should watch what I eat and walk everyday. She then took our order. That comment made my appetite go away. This is the second day in a row I get someone telling me to loose weight. I ordered, but then immediately felt so hurt. I felt angry, upset, ashamed, disgusted. I was literally sitting there with the worst look on my face pushing my boyfriend away. I didn't want to talk about it.

  How can you talk about someone judging you and questioning the validity of your condition? What would I say to my boyfriend who has just recently gained some weight, how much hurt I was feeling? This isn't something that has been said to me once, this is my whole life. People thinking they know me because of what my body looks like. People feeling entitled to point out to me what I am doing wrong, when there might be thinner people in worse health conditions than me. Talking to him about this is impossible because for him, it's easy to say "don't let that affect you" since it hasn't been part of his life until now. 

   What makes it okay for a perfect stranger to tell another stranger how to live their life? I know she was trying to give me sound advice but I have been coming to that restaurant since I was 8! You would think she would know I have always been this way and I have tried to loose weight. It's like people think I wake up and say "I want to struggle with my weight my whole life. I want to look in the mirror and hate the person I see. I want to question every time someone gives me a compliment. I want depression to eat me up alive to the point that I won't get out of bed. I want to obsess over calories, fat, carbs, net carbs, and sodium. I want to loose weight and not give myself credit for how far Iv'e come " 

  To them it's just words but to me it's more than that. One comment can throw off my whole day. Make me question what is wrong with me. ME. When I should be wondering what is wrong with THEM. Sometimes I hate myself for not having the will power to be anorexic or bulimic. Then I think about it and those are horrible illnesses and I shouldn't feel inclined to want to do that. Yet why is it that I feel like people will respect you more if you have an eating disorder than if you don't. People look at me and assume I eat too much and have NO commitment. If anything I have MORE than people who have never had to diet, because I have had to start over and over and over again.

It's hard enough to get myself to love me the way I am. The way my body is right now. It's harder when people like her make me question what I am even doing here. Words can kill, I hope people realize that. 

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I am right there with you. Somedays I feel okay and other (most of the time) I hate my body.

I really wonder what my body looks like to other people. Is it what I see on good body image days or bad ones Is it even what I see at all 

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Holy crap! You are so gorgeous! I love your hair!!! You have inspired me to be more confident with myself.

In this OotD I present cellulite thighs, tummy, and my freshly dyed locks (partial courtesy of Foxy<3)!  I meant to take pictures without the cardigan too but totally forgot.  I probably made some people uncomfortable with my body today, but I felt cute as hell so idc. :3 Top ~ Target (XXL) Kimono Cardigan ~ Target (L/XL) Shorts ~ Torrid (26) Shoes ~ Modcloth (11)

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All i ever wear are dresses and skirts lol jeans don't fit me well.

I’m thinking about doing a little challenge where I only wear skirts/dresses for 2 weeks. Thoughts?? 

Sneakers - Converse

Dress/Top (worn over dress) - Asos Curve 

Vest - New Look Inspire 

Necklace - F21 

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