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Liam really is just like the little kid bringing home a feral dog he somehow caught eating scraps out of a dumpster and swearing to his parents (Scott) that he’ll train it and feed it and it’ll be his responsibility meanwhile his parents and his friends and even the dog itself are all going ‘this is a terrible idea but maybe when the dog either runs away or bites him it’ll be a valuable life lesson’ and then that little shit somehow turns that snappy, rabid little beast into the most loyal dog you’ve ever seen. Bites literally anyone else, but adores the little boy who gave it a home and shelter and love

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Theo would die if Scott bit him.

I mean, they transformed him at 9 YEARS OLD and Theo has lived like this ever since: between his probable previous health problems (heart? asthma? something else?), the complete shift and the existence of a coyote, his natural side is totally fused to his human side and biting him would be like tearing his being in half.

He would not survive the transformation, especially since he would probably be bitten while already seriously injured. Theo is the first and last chimera and will die like this.

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almost 2 weeks out from Sunrise on the Reaping, what are your thoughts on the book??

Thank you for the ask nonny!

I’ve currently got the SOTR tags blocked while I try to sort my feelings, but let’s just say I’m frustrated.

“Oh but Molly, you’re just upset because your headcanons were wrong”

I’m upset because the character we, the readers, (as well as Katniss and Peeta for that matter!) thought we understood and trusted was all an… act?… an outright lie?

There's only one way Haymitch could have won, and Peeta says it just as I'm reaching this conclusion myself.

"He outsmarted the others," says Peeta.

Oh my loves, but how wrong you are…

Sunrise on the Reaping Critical under the cut

Let’s talk about the 2nd Quarter Quell Recap from Catching Fire

Haymitch's name is called last of all. It's more of a shock to see him than my mother. Young. Strong. Hard to admit, but he was something of a looker. His hair dark and curly, those gray Seam eyes bright and, even then, dangerous.

Dangerous? I guess?

Also including this to remind y’all of what Haymitch looks like, since he doesn’t really bother to mention it. There’s a decent amount of discussion about the difference in Merchant class vs Seam, but suddenly we seem to be shying from discussing skin tones?…

Whatever, moving on

"So, Haymitch, what do you think of the Games having one hundred percent more competitors than usual?" asks Caesar.

Haymitch shrugs. "I don't see that it makes much difference. They'll still be one hundred percent as stupid as usual, so I figure my odds will be roughly the same."

The audience bursts out laughing and Haymitch gives them a half smile. Snarky. Arrogant. Indifferent.

"He didn't have to reach far for that, did he?" I say.

Snarky. Arrogant. Indifferent. and according to Sunrise Haymitch- completely an act! But… that’s what we see in the trilogy, so… is his personality through the first three books all an act as well? One that not even Peeta sees through?

24 years of drinking have made his curated interview persona his real personality… chalk it up to literary irony or something… I guess

But what she doesn't know, and what he does, is that the ax will return. And when it flies back over the ledge, it buries itself in her head.

Meanwhile

Perhaps that Capitol-loving, rule-abiding, snot-green-wearing Career will be afraid to follow me beyond the established boundaries of the arena.

…

My knees, already on the verge of giving way, fold like wet cardboard and I collapse to the dirt as the ax whistles over my head into the canyon.

That’s when I remember the force field. And what happens to dropped objects. I watch, breathless, for what the love of my life would call poetic justice.

No Katniss, he didn’t lead the District 1 girl back to the ledge to set a trap. He just thought she wouldn’t follow him past the hedges because… ???

Adrenaline, blood loss, whatever, whatever, whatever, but now all of the sudden he’s not outsmarted the games, they have outsmarted him.

Finally Peeta says, "That force field at the bottom of the cliff, it was like the one on the roof of the Training Center. The one that throws you back if you try to jump off and commit suicide. Haymitch found a way to turn it into a weapon."

lol - nope! We’ll call it a(n un)happy coincidence?

Trilogy Haymitch is perceptive and smart. He’s strategic and thinking several steps ahead… It least that’s what I thought… But where was that guy in SOTR? And how did he become those things while drowning himself in liquor for 2.5 decades?

"Not just against the other tributes, but the Capitol, too," I say. "You know they didn't expect that to happen. It wasn't meant to be part of the arena. They never planned on anyone using it as a weapon. It made them look stupid that he figured it out. I bet they had a good time trying to spin that one. Bet that's why I don't remember seeing it on television. It's almost as bad as us and the berries!"

Why exactly aren’t they showing reruns of that? Seems like Plutarch did a good job patching that up. If it wasn’t too rebellious to not show in the recap and wasn’t seditious enough to make a public example out of him (he wasn’t punished for that! That was freak house fire and appendicitis! If he didn’t have bad luck he wouldn’t have any at all.) Then why haven’t Katniss & Peeta watched recaps of his game, if only to torment Haymitch?

"Almost, but not quite," says Haymitch from behind us.

In what universe is Haymitch, with intent, nearly breaking the arena twice not as bad as the berries?!?! In what world is he still alive when the Gamemakers have sent mutts to target tributes after lesser offenses?!?!

I guess in the one where president Snow is more interested in keeping Haymitch alive long enough to watch his Covey girlfriend die…

And I understand, Haymitch’s likely not at liberty to explain all that on a Capitol train, but ffs if SOTR was the intention all along - give us a hint that that’s not the full story!! Even if Katniss doesn’t pick up on it, Peeta would have! And Katniss would have noticed Peeta reacting even if she didn’t know what it was about!

Side note: Now I’m laughing, because, were the Gamemakers pissed that the allies were cooking tree rat meat on the forcefield in the third QQ- Hey!! You’re not supposed to do that! That’s not it’s intended purpose! This is treason!!

I've spent all these weeks getting to know who my competitors are, without even thinking about who my teammates are. Now a new kind of confidence is lighting up inside of me, because I think I finally know who Haymitch is. And I'm beginning to know who I am. And surely, two people who have caused the Capitol so much trouble can think of a way to get Peeta home alive.

This is a big revelation for her!! (and the reader) and SOTR yanks the carpet out from underneath us.

Sorry Katniss - guess you were wrong 🤷‍♀️ how does that make you feel about yourself or your chances now? 🙃

Katniss and Haymitch’s understanding and trust of each other is so important and the implications of SOTR is that it was all based on lies… and how is that love?!

I don’t know guys, this book has left playing my own game of real and not real

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Update:

I nod, then let the conversation drop. But secretly I'm wondering if Haymitch sobered up long enough to help Peeta and me because he thought we just might have the wits to sur-vive. Maybe he wasn't always a drunk. Maybe, in the beginning, he tried to help the tributes. But then it got unbearable. It must be hell to mentor two kids and then watch them die. Year after year after year. I realize that if I get out of here, that will become my job. To mentor the girl from District 12. The idea is so repellent, I thrust it from my mind.

This is also SO much more compelling (to me) and says more about his character than Haymitch’s immediate decent into drinking after Lenore Dove’s death.

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And to be fair, I will say, there is also a little bit of frustrations around HCs being wrong as well

My big example: I think Mr. Everdeen being Haymitch’s best friend doesn’t add any depth to Haymitch’s bond with Katniss it cheapens it - it said more about his character when he snapped out of his haze and stepped up for two random feral kids rather than him having his decision tied up in his old BFF’s daughter (especially after Burdock and Asterid were the last to stick around and Katniss spends a lot of time over three books talking about debts and owing), who he’s been paying attention to for years apparently?!? (And in all that time he never thought to buy a god damned squirrel (or cheese!) to help his old friend’s clearly struggling family?!? At this point Mr. Mellark is doing more for the Everdeens based on some 30 year old crush) Meanwhile - doesn’t all that mean that Haymitch never actually intended to help Peeta in the arena even before he wrote himself off?!?

Real or Not Real?

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If Arcane writers wrote Attack on Titan:

- After his devastating attack on Marley and the battle in Liberio, Eren suddenly ditches his desire for revenge. He adopts Falco and the two live in a hideout together. His friends ask him why he has suddenly become so passive after committing that huge attack. "Eren is dead" he says, and continues playing with bugs with Falco.

- In Season 4, Hange is revealed as the true villain of the show after she goes too far experimenting with Titans. Since mad scientist Hange loves Titans so much, she now thinks that everyone should turn into Titans. She plans to steal the Founding Titan to ascend to godhood and forcefully turn everyone into a hivemind Titan army. Eldians and Marleyans forgive each other and join forces to take down Hange.

- Two episodes before the finale, School Castes AU is made canon and given an entire episode's worth of screentime within the actual show. Mikasa travels to the alternate universe by quantum leaping into the body of her alternate self where she has a romance with Normie Eren.

- Grisha Jaeger's remains were found in the woods after Eren ate him. From his remains, he is revived into a werewolf-Titan hybrid monster. Eren and Zeke join forces to look for him. He attacks them but luckily recognizes them at the last minute. They have a family group hug which Falco joins (Falco is there). Later they take him to Hange to be cured but things go south and Grisha goes crazy again. Falco blows himself up to kill Grisha and save Eren. Unfortunately, Grisha survives. No one mentions Falco again. Eren sacrifices himself by killing Grisha to save Zeke.

- Gabi never has an onscreen arc of realizing she is being used as an indoctrinated tool against her own people. She fights Hange's Titan army while wearing the Warrior Unit uniform. Many Eldian civilians are also convinced to help Marley defeat Hange and they are all given Marleyan soldier uniforms during the final battle. At the end of the show, Gabi is still happily a Warrior soldier. "Are you still in this fight, Gabi?" asks a Marleyan elite. "I am the dirt under your nails," she replies. "Nothing's gonna clean me out."

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The Vander/Silco Shitshow - generic, juvenile, and gimmicky slop

So, I think that Vander/Silco flashback was terrible. Tropey, careless, juvenile, clichéd bullshit that stripped away everything that made their season 1 story nuanced and poignant, while simultaneously ripping open a fat plot hole because the team got careless and did not catch the discrepancy between the story they'd written in their heads and the visuals that ended up on screen in season 1. This is just going to be a long rant post detailing the reasons I absolutely despised this flashback. Obligatory disclaimer that this is just my (strongly held) opinion.

1) The timeline plot hole

No, I'm not misusing the term. So a plot hole is an inconsistency in a fictional narrative that cannot be explained away by any plausible in-universe justifications. There are many moments of weak writing in Arcane that may be contrived, rushed, weird, convenient, etc. but aren't plot holes.

This Vander/Silco situation however. Oh boy. If you all remember, Season 1 opened with the bridge massacre, also known as the Day of Ash. Vander is shown cracking enforcers' skulls. He looks like this.

The sisters, seemingly recognizing him, ask him where their parents are. He gestures to their corpses, the sisters cry, Vander has his "violence is not the answer" epiphany, drops the gauntlets very dramatically to underscore this massive turning point of character development for him, then picks the girls up and leaves the bridge.

In episode 3, we are shown a flashback. Vander is trying to kill Silco in the river. He looks like this.

Let's compare this to how he looked like on the Day of Ash.

Yeah. According to the visuals shown in Season 1, the falling out of Vander and Silco seems to have occured in the past before the Day of Ash, evidenced by how much younger Vander looks. Unless Silco is a time traveller who jumped forward to the future to throw a molotov at the riot because he just loves violent extremism that much, or Vander took the time to shave his beard and apply heavy duty anti-aging lotion on his face before hunting Silco down, there are no plausible in-universe explanations for this inconsistency. Not to mention, if Silco and Vander were really as close as brothers and the sisters knew Vander, then it's impossible they wouldn't have known who Silco was.

Yet, in Season 1, that's exactly what we see - not a single sliver of recognition between Silco and the girls, nothing to imply they knew of his existence before episode 3. Not a single conversation between Jinx and Silco implied that he knew, let alone was close to, her mother. Nothing from Vi throughout the entire first season indicated that she knew of his past friendships with her mother and Vander. They acted like total strangers to each other.

Many fans already caught this inconsistency during the three-year gap after writers' comments online implied Silco was involved in the Day of Ash. We had hoped the writers would catch on to this discrepancy too and either iron out the timeline if they want to do serious flashbacks, or just avoid calling attention to it completely by not doing flashbacks of their falling out. Alas.

2) Leonardo Dicaprio pointing meme

Death to the everybody-knows-everyone trope and lines that only exist to invoke the "Leonardo Dicaprio pointing" meme. Throw them into a fucking fire. Boring, mind-numbing, clichéd, overdone garbage. Not every character needs to have some kind of half-baked relation with each other. Not every major incident needs to be tied back to the main characters. Not every single detail needs to be overexplained and justified and again, somehow tied to a main character. They are unnecessary, and make the world feel so much more claustrophobic and smaller than it should be.

"The enforcers actually commited the Day of Ash massacre because SILCO threw a molotov. Vander actually tried to kill Silco because of VI AND JINX'S mother. She knew both Silco and Vander personally and TOLD THEM to help her raise her kids. VANDER named Vi."

Bullshit like this really fucks with immersion, because it becomes clear very quickly that the world is only occupied by a small handful of real characters while the thousands of other people in it are nothing more than inconsequential set dressing and wallpaper. The story and world no longer feel real, vast, and immersive. And these forced "connections" between main characters are so obviously manufactured to generate "OUGHHH" and Dicaprio pointing reactions. Idk about anyone else, but it takes me completely out of the story when I can obviously tell the writing is trying too hard to blow my mind.

The girls' mom waltzing up to Vander and Silco and just. Fucking telling them to help her with her kids lmfaoooooooo. (OUGHH and they both really ended up raising her kids WOAGH😱🤯). Jinx's mom saying choosing a name is stressful because her child will feel stuck with it (GASP and Powder ended up changing her name WOOOOWW😱). Vander coming up with Vi's fucking name. (OUGHHHH HE REALLY WAS MEANT TO BE FATHER ALL ALONG WOADGHHGHDHDH🤯🤯🤯).

Fucking kill me. Arcane Season 1 was surprisingly good precisely because they DIDN'T, for the most part, resort to tropey bullshit like this. It had, for the most part, originality. Uniqueness. In fact all the strongest aspects of Season 1, aspects I loved, were deliberate subversions of overdone clichés. For Season 2 to resort to this kind of writing reminiscent of Disney slop is insanely disappointing.

I'm waiting for a character to unironically say, "What are we, some kind of League of Legends?" in Act 3 now.

3) "Ohhhhh so THAT'S why he did that!!!!!!!!!"

Also death to overexplanations and giving justifications for things that never needed justifications. You know what I was never confused by while watching Season 1 of Arcane? Why Vander adopted the girls. Why Silco adopted Jinx. Why both came to care for their girls so much, they were willing to sacrifice so much for them. I thought the reasons for those things were very clear and poignant in the first season. I never needed an extra on-the-nose justification for the adoptions in the form of, "they wuved yo mama". It's not only redundant, it's also one of the most tired ass tropes in fiction. To me, Vander taking in the girls and Silco taking in Jinx are so much more powerful if they really were just random guys with no real connection to the girls' parents.

But I've already seen some positive reactions to this flashback with "Ohhhhh so THAT's why Silco/Vander cared for the girls so much, now I understand😯🤯😓" mf what exactly did you not understand before??

4) Character motivations

The motivations of both Vander and Silco are made downright bizarre by this flashback. So Silco was hellbent on murdering Vi last season, despite being close friends with her mom whose death he may feel guilty for? Literally despised her and wanted to kill her the entire time with no hesitation lol. So Vander had that aforementioned dramatic moment of character development, dropped the gauntlets, realized violence wasn't the answer, and carried the kids to safety... then doubled back to violently hunt down and murder Silco? But not before shaving his beard and applying youthful lotion of course. Can't kill your bro while looking crusty. Then he failed to kill Silco so he just... went back to the kids and pretended like nothing happened? Lol.

Silco being close to, let alone loving, the girls' parents makes no fucking sense for his character. Vander knowing them at least makes sense, but casual friends would have sufficed. "I was lowkey crushing (?????) on your mom and also named you" just cheapened the entire Vander/Vi and Silco/Jinx surrogate father dynamic. Vander's motivation for killing Silco being yet another fridged woman is also weak as fuck. First Viktor with Sky, and now Vander/Silco. They really should have left this one up to our imaginations if this was the boring tripe they came up with.

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Not to go on an ENTIRELY different segue here BUT ALSO Heather!!

Peter's possessiveness of Derek has one more layer to it, I think, Talia!!

We know through legend and others around them that Derek is both physically and spiritually like her.

Ducalian and Kali comment on his physical attributes (Literally his FACE) about how he looks a lot like Talia, and also Satomi talks about how he reminded her of Talia!!

Like _chews glass_

Let's not even get started with the level of guilt Derek must have around comments like this though. His mother, the fantastic leader murdered BECAUSE of him, but Peter!!

Kid bro Peter who would have sulked all his life about being a Beta, (and probably killed one of the Alpha pack to get the Spark and then carved up the Hale territory), but like with others he wouldn't have wanted Talia dead, because SHE was also his.

okay so i was about to go to bed and address all my asks later but this one.....

listen do you know how the fact we never got anything substantial about talia and peter's relationship keeps me awake at night? do you?

there's implications and allusions but what i wouldn't give for peter to have actually spoken about talia. i actually talked about the impressions i have about the talia and peter relationship in my laura meta but as always i have more.

peter was in the house when the fire happened. peter survived but was trapped in his own mind for six years where he descended into madness.

peter was in the house. all that was left of talia were her claws. peter had to listen to her die.

talia was his sister. talia was his alpha. losing a pack member is like losing a limb.

he loved her. he respected her. he resented her.

she let him mentor her son. she took the memories of his daughter.

he thought she was too soft and made them into sheep instead of wolves but he never challenged her for power that we know of.

he killed her eldest daughter. he won't kill her son.

derek looks like talia. he acts like talia. peter cannot kill him.

he helped get her claws back because he wanted the memories she took but the claws were all that was left of her. there was no body to bury. hunters kept her claws as a perverted trophy denying the hales what was left of their alpha. denying peter what was left of his sister.

i think talia knew full well peter was lurking during the summit. he ran to her when he found derek and paige to tell her what happened.

she was his sister.

talia probably understood peter better and deeper than anyone else ever had or will. he hated it, resented it and misses it.

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Tossing my hat in the Teen Wolf meta ring, because I've been thinking about this all day. I've read various theories about why Peter Hale offered Stiles the bite and then accepted a refusal, when he didn't offer a choice to either Scott or Lydia. Most of these seem to involve Peter respecting Stiles more than the others, or being aware that Stiles would be a very unpleasant adversary as an unwilling bite-ee.

My theory: He offers Stiles the bite, because Stiles might actually accept it. He doesn't make the same offer to Scott or Lydia, because neither of them would say yes. Peter is a very patient man (usually). His modus operandi is sitting around, collecting information, avoiding conflicts, then swooping in at the perfect moment (usually late in the season) to mop up. He's a manipulator by preference, but if he can't manipulate, he'll use force. He needs Scott, and Lydia, and there's no point asking if they want the bite, since they're not going to give the answer he wants to hear.

Obviously, given the short window of opportunity, he can't just walk up to Scott in the forest at night and say "Hey kid, wanna become a werewolf? You can have claws and fangs, it'll be great. No asthma! Think it over. You've got ten minutes." That's not gonna work, so why bother? If Sheriff had found Scott, leaving Stiles alone in the woods, Peter wouldn't have asked him for permission, either. Lest we forget, Melissa McCall was also on his bite-happy list, and the premise applies to her as well: Nothing would have induced that sensible woman to say yes.

Meanwhile, he definitely stalked Lydia, and was in the room with her at both Macy's and the winter formal, where the conversations he had opportunity to overhear would tell him Lydia had her life on track exactly as she wanted it. She was not going to jump at the chance to become a supernatural creature of any sort (especially not to bail his sorry ass out in event of his demise). It wouldn't help with her school popularity or her winning of the Fields Medal, therefore… "Pass."

Stiles, however, is tempted (at least according to Peter). "Do you know what I heard just then? Your heart beating slightly faster over the words 'I don't want.' You may believe that you're telling me the truth, but you are lying to yourself." Hence Peter can shrug and walk away, because Stiles wants it, and that means Stiles can eventually be put in a position where he'll say yes.

We see the exact same behavior play out again a season later, with Lydia. The man who didn't care about violating her physical and mental autonomy is suddenly willing to play nice, asking permission to kiss her and backing off when she refuses. Why? Because while she would never have agreed to have her latent banshee powers triggered, she is attracted to him. She places boundaries and he accepts them, because it's only a matter of time before she capitulates. Sure enough, he creates a scenario that works for her in the very next episode. When she finds out who young!Peter is, she rejects any further make out sessions, and (although he remains the handsy stuff of nightmares) he does not force that particular issue. Given the "only have eyes for you" vibe every time they are ever in a room together afterward, he is presumably content to wait her out.

This, after all, is the man who says of teenagers: "One minute, it's 'I hate you, don't talk to me.' The next, it's frantic groping in any dark corner they could manage to find." This statement is the closest he ever comes to commenting on his own actions after spending a month in Lydia's mind. Teenagers, according to his self-serving universe, refuse things they secretly want, things Peter knows they want because he can hear their heartbeats. And if Stiles and Lydia say no, but mean yes, he's already won. He'll collect later.

So, tl;dr: Peter Hale, provided nothing urgently requires him to override the issue, does care about consent and is willing to abide by it - but only if the answer is eventually going to be yes.

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One thing we are not doing enough is leaning into how much of an absolute goddamn disaster Derek Hale was in S1-2. I am so serious. My boy was on his last cobweb-thin strand of sanity. His shit was held together with glitter glue and scotch tape. He was thee richest person in Beacon Hills and he was living in half of a condemned house in the woods and then in a rusty ass train(?) depot. The only reason he ever seemed to have anything together is because the show is supposed to be Scott's perspective. Depending on your relationship with the timeline (derogatory), Derek is anywhere from 19 to 23 years old. You know how when you're 15/16, someone in that age group is, like, the Coolest Motherfucker Ever, right up until you actually get to be that age and everything sucks all of the time? That's Derek. He sleeps in his clothes regularly, he hasn't slept more than three hours a night in who the fuck knows how long, and he's surviving on takeout, Red Bull, and sheer Hale spite. I love him so much.

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I think about Scott’s obsession with Allison in season 1 and how he not only loved her, but needed her for his own salvation.

Because of her, he got to fall in love, he was able to regain his bodily autonomy, he didn’t have to have a single lycan-related conversation in her presence.

With Allison he was able to, for a brief moment, have the high school experience that he deserved.

I think about Allison’s obsession with Scott in season 1 and how she not only loved him, but needed him for her own salvation.

Because of him, she got to fall in love, she was able to be teenage girl without being chastised for her juvenile feelings and vulnerability, she could talk freely about anything after a childhood of fleeting friends and secretive parents.

With Scott she was able to, for a brief moment, have the teenage experience that she deserved.

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scerek week 2017: day 7 → love 

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Put the heart eyes away, Derek.

The first two seasons are so funny in retrospect because little sprouts of Derek’s future undying love and admiration for Scott keep cropping up at really weird times.

Like, he’ll literally threaten to murder Scott and then immediately risk his life to protect him.

Scott will beat the crap out of his Betas and he’ll be like “Even as a Beta you’re still an Alpha oh my God you’re so cool.”

And he is trying so hard to impress Scott all the time including when he’s beating him up. Especially when he’s beating him up. “Look how powerful I am, Scott! These lonely, desperate teenagers I manipulated into following me ten minutes ago think I’m a good Alpha! I don’t– I don’t understand why this isn’t making you like me? What if I punch you again, would that help?”

It’s also fairly tragic because Derek is only such an utter disaster because of what he’s been through and he wants to connect with Scott so badly and Scott is mean to him because he’s a stupid teenager and Derek presents himself as a violent, unstable asshole even when he’s helping. But knowing that they’ll figure it out and be good friends soon makes it more funny than sad.

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scerek week 2017: day 7 → love 

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I love the confounded way Derek looks at Scott in the first two seasons, like he just can’t make sense of him. Who is this fucking kid and why does he care so much and why do The Werewolf Rules just magically seem to not apply to him? I can flash my eyes and beat him up all day long and it does nothing. He’s the best–

The worst! He’s the worst. An annoying little shit. Can’t stand the kid. But also I would die for him without hesitation and I really, really want him to like me. Wonder what that’s about? Best not think on it too hard.

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Your tags in the post of Derek missing Laura. That hurst so much. I really wonder if Peter feels sorry or regret killing Laura. Did he ever apologize to Derek? We know nothing about hold older was she, but probably in his mid twenties. She was alone with his brother, with a alpha spark that was too soon to have. Did she even see that was Peter who attacked her?

it's no secret laura hale is my roman empire of teen wolf. i wrote a 5K essay on my thoughts about laura and my theory on the circumstances surrounding her death.

it makes sense that derek doesn't talk about laura. we already know he doesn't talk about these things.

in fact i think the only time he does talk about laura in a way that's not necessary to relaying information is when he goes to see peter in heart monitor and even then it's choked off by grief.

one of the testaments to how much derek is lost and grieving without laura though is that he declares brotherhood to scott hours after he's buried laura. he latches onto scott despite everything because not only does he see himself in scott but he sees someone he can save when he was unable to prevent laura's death.

there is also an element of desperation to derek turning erica, boyd and isaac. not only does derek need a pack for power in the face of hunters and the kanima but he's seeking the familiarity of pack which for derek is synonymous with family.

he would never admit to how alone he feels. he is a brother without anyone to be a brother to. a middle child cast adrift without his sisters to anchor him. derek in seasons 1 and 2 believes he's outlived his baby sister and now exists in a world without his older one.

this is why it makes me salty that derek and cora never talked about laura. they never let these two reconnect as brother and sister.

like, cora's entire predicament and why she's so fucking angry is entirely glossed over. maybe if she had stayed longer it would've been explored but the fact they couldn't spare one fucking moment is just egregious.

she thought she was the only survivor of the fire that killed her family only to hear there was a hale alpha in beacon hills. did she think her mother survived? or if not talia than her older sister who was clearly meant to be talia's successor?

so not only did she get kidnapped by the alphas but she's struggling with the relief that derek's alive while being angry he's the alpha when it wasn't supposed to be him which probably makes her feel super guilty.

than there's the anger that peter killed laura, that derek's just letting him loiter around but there's also the relief that uncle peter's alive too.

it's why frayed is so interesting. not only is it the episode that pivots derek and scott's relationship but it gives us the cora and peter adventure.

peter: It's just me! your uncle... uncle peter... cora: uncle peter who killed sister laura. peter: mmm, not my finest hour, no. but, i'm hardly the only dysfunctional family member! did derek mention that he killed me, too? slashed my throat, ear-to-ear. cora: so, that means i should trust you? peter : actually, I'm wondering if i can trust you. cora: you've known me for seventeen years! peter: i knew you for eleven, leaving the last six unaccounted for. and i'm not particularly fond of things unaccounted.

this ties in to the fact that i do believe that peter does feel guilt over killing laura but like everything with peter it's complicated.

i think if he had been in his right mind he wouldn't have done it but due to his circumstances killing her was the only viable path that he saw at that time. plus i believe nurse jennifer played a role in pushing peter.

peter regrets the way it played out and probably wishes it went differently.

when peter shares his memories with scott in co-captain we hear laura say his name as she approached him. she knew it was him and it's probably why she was slow to defend herself.

i think it haunts him but he would never say that out loud.

as for apologizing to derek for it? well. i think it was part of the reason he wanted to turn stiles and one of the myriad of reasons peter continues to help derek.

[lissara22]

I am completely normal about the hale family.

I’m totally not obsessing over any of the characters

Like Laura hale who haunts the narrative. Hell she’s was the creation of the narrative, her death is the reason that Scott and stiles were in the woods that night. She was a means to an end. She was an older sister. The girl who stays with her brother even after her death. We know nothing about her, and everything we do know is forever tainted by the biases of the characters that remained. The Aphla Heir, the first victim of the show. A body in the woods, a girl in a grave

Or Peter hale, who is a walking contradiction and Manipulator. He cares for his family but he sacrificed Laura and Derek (Paige) for power. He kills his niece, then later on he wants to save her (Cora). Peter who died in the house fire, all Derek was doing was putting down a corpse. Peter who died engulfed in flames in the house haunted by death and fire. Peter who knew how to bring himself back, who knew about necromancy and banshees. How young was he when he created a plan to bring himself back to life?

How about Cora?? A girl who lived in the shadow of her families death for years. Believing that she was the only one who lived. A girl who only knows how to run, who keeps her bags packed always ready to leave. It’s how she grew up. Cora who returned to her burnt out shell of a home at the mere mention of a hale alpha. Who leaves beacon hills once again but this time with her brother at her back. (Laura and Derek leaving after the fire parallel)

And last but not least, Derek fucking Hale. The man who blamed himself for the death of his entire family. Who lost everything, and despite that, got up every single day. Who never got to bury his family members, but never wanted to bury Laura. Who killed his uncle and buried him in the grave of their house, so he could rest among the rest of forgotten Hales. What’s one more grave to dig, One more family member to bury. Who helped people even when they didn’t want him to. Derek who was used and abused over and over again. Who was nothing more than a body. Someone with one foot in the grave and one on a train. He just wanted a pack again and had that taken from him as well. He leaves beacon hills, and comes back to once again help those in need. Who dies and comes back. Who drags himself with bloody fingers to a happy ending, with a son. Who takes care of a car for fifteen years as an act of repentance and love. And who still dies in a fire like the Hales that came before him.

What about Eli, whose legacy is pain, fire and death.

The hales who are tied so fucking tightly to beacon hills and to each other. They can never leave this place but they can’t stay. Nothing will ever be the same again. The fire is gone but the wood is still charred. There’s still an open grave

[lissara22]

Why when people make videos like Haikyuu Teams Theme Songs noone is choosing All The Right Moves by One Republic for Seijoh?

It's literally about them!