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Cancelled the second date so I can keep writing Joel fics 🩷sorry for cheating on you all, I’m locked in again

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Actually fuck y’all for writing Joel fics cause how the fuck am I supposed to go on a second date with a 27 year old who LIVES WITH HIS MOTHER on Saturday after reading all that 😭😭😭😭 need yall to work in a lab and cook me up a real life Joel cause God doesn’t make men like you do

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i love girlhood i love girls on tumblr writing x reader fics for joel miller i love the bonding experience this is i love seeing tiktoks of girls talking about how obsessed they are with joel fics i love them asking for recommendations i love other girls giving recommendations in the comments and talking about their favorite authors (girls on ao3, tumblr writing joel miller x reader) I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH

i hope you don’t mind sending this to all my favorite authors cause I JUST LOVE ALL OF YOU

Ahhhh i don’t mind at all, I think thats so sweet 😭🩷 I feel the same way, whenever I see a tik tok about him I’m like wow am I home??

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Does anybody else experience crippling anxiety when it comes to dating? It’s like my body can’t tell the difference between someone taking an interest in me and a lion chasing me at full speed, I feel so anxious and afraid for no real reason 😭😭😭

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just know your husband joel miller would have loved it and showered you in kisses for thinking about him

I love you forever

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how do I tell people I teared up while shopping with my mother today because I saw a woodcarving tool and I couldn’t buy it as a present for my husband Joel Miller because he is made of pixels

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Joel wearing a bracelet instead of a wedding ring to construction sites because he would have to take it off when handling concrete (I have no idea how construction works)

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Had a full blown panic attack because I convinced myself he’s going to kill me so I texted him and he said he won’t 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 thank God men never lie, crisis averted

Date on Sunday with a guy severely out of my league and suspiciously funny, might get murdered (worth it)

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Date on Sunday with a guy severely out of my league and suspiciously funny, might get murdered (worth it)

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Was thinking about this writing the new chapter, and I think one of the worst parts about being SAed at 15 was how it made me feel about other people. Yeah, you are made to feel your body only belongs to you until someone else decides it doesn’t, and it fucks up this youthful state of basically being a functioning narcissist, in that you no longer have this experience of the world in which you are the main character, which I think is what most people mean when they talk about the world losing colour etc. afterwards. But as an adult who still struggles severely with trusting people, as in my ex told me she loved me and I had a panic attack so bad I threw up, what makes me the angriest, is that one single indulgence in desire by someone stronger than you can completely warp your perception of people you love. Which tells you that at its core, fear is the most base emotion, and stronger than love by far. Love won’t save the day and it can’t overcome anything, which is quite…chastening to realize as a child when you‘re supposed to be full of hope and faith. Idk it’s so insane to me that a guy did that to me and for him it’s this most likely random night, and I will forever doubt the people I love the most. Such an extreme discrepancy of consequence idk

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Talked to my Dad for an hour on the phone cause he had a very important medical checkup after his cancer treatment last year and he’s officially cancer free 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 haven’t felt this relieved since they successfully removed his tumor holy shit. My parents are thinking of moving into a smaller house at a little lake “to celebrate this new period in their life” and less than a year ago we thought he was going to die

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Maybe a weird question but is it usual for celebrities to have someone doing their hair for all of their projects like Coco does for Pedro? Does she also work with him on set? I think it’s so sweet and I can imagine it’s nice not to have some random person you don’t know touch your hair and face all of the time

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killing is sometimes justified, self defence like one anon said, but raping someone? There is absolutely nothing that justifies rape, rape is not something you do to defend yourself, rape is not something you do in order to survive. It is only for the rapist's pleasure and that is why rape is the worst thing someone can do to another human being. I understand what you've said about your friend, about having an ideal perspective about this kind of thing, but just because she wouldn't be able to live having kiiled someone, that doesn't mean she can't see and understand the people that would choose to kill their rapist.

100% agree with you! There’s many scenarios in which I would condone killing, none at all for rape, though. I think my friend is quick to apply her perception of the world to others which isn’t necessarily a mean trait, just one that comes from having lived a sheltered and privileged life. She’s been assaulted, too, though, so I don’t want to deny her her opinion, I just think she shouldn’t judge other women for reacting the way they do in those situations. I told her, though, and she was very understanding and agreed with me 🩵 she really is a very good person and friend, I feel like I did her wrong by posting this lol i was just baffled

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Im sorry if I was too harsh talking about your friendI just relate to you on this topic and so I blurted out what I thought about her words. I hope you’re doing well ❤️ And I understand your way of analysing the topic, I just believe she should’ve chosen her words better considering everything. Sending love <3

Not at all, I completely understand where you’re coming from! I just wanted to clarify why she thinks the way she thinks, because she’s generally very empathetic and a kind person. You’re right though, it was an insane thing of her to say lol. I’m really sorry you can relate to that topic and I hope you’re doing well, too! If you ever need to speak to someone, my inbox and messages are always open 🩵

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wtf is wrong with your friend, honestly. Women should definitely kill their rapist if they have the chance to 🤷🏽‍♀️ And her statement doesn’t even make sense because unfortunately a lot of rapes end up with the man killing the woman to prevent charges and stuff, so are we just letting men do anything to us because “killing is wrong”? Raping is as bad as murder in my eyes. And there’s this thing called self defence and I’m going to use it ma’m.

Yes, I agree with you. I love my friend dearly and I think she has a very idealistic view of the world which unfortunately not everybody can afford, some people have to be realists. I do however think that she has a tendency to turn any emotion inward, i don’t think her statement is necessarily careless or mean, she just genuinely thinks she would rather live with having been raped than having killed or hurt person herself. When you’re in that situation you don’t get to make the choice like that, though, cause you never know where men are going to stop, like you said. But yeah I don’t want y’all to think she’s a bad person or vindictive or something. Idk why I even posted this lol but I don’t talk about my experiences regarding SA in real life so I just needed to tell someone idk

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Talked to my friend about a movie in which a woman kills her rapist in self defence and my friend said she should’ve let him rape her because killing is always the worst a person can do. Genuinely didn’t know what to say like you KNOW about what happened to me what do you mean women shouldn’t defend themselves