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draw ur fave in ur current outfit <3 i think it fits him anyway

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my little princess jiyongie ^^

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pushing my girl jiyong agenda on tumblr <3

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It's the same anon again!

But apart from the need for control generally I'd noticed some specific things relating to Jiyong. I remember he was at this conference talking about investment for humanoid robots and he was like I'd make one that looks exactly like Jiyong, and then in a different interview he said he had this fantasy of Jiyong as his military jr and then both times said something (retrospectively very creepy) about how he could make him do anything he wanted.

The way he kept bringing up how light Jiyong was during the last tour, kept touching or picking him up without asking with this sort of glee-to the point that Daesung warned him off it in a very stern undaesunglike tone.

Then that one time around 2009 jiyong had started to say in an interview that sometimes in private he got a little anxious about how much seungri seems to like him but then probably realised how it sounded and cut himself off.

The one time Youngbae said that if they were all drowning Seungri would save Jiyong and be secretly glad he'd drowned out any competition for his attention.

anon, oh anon, these are beautiful observations.

these are such eerie moments that just show exactly how seungri worked, he always knew how to toe the line by ensuring his actions could always be 'played off' as something light yknow.

that humanoid robot one really freaked me out because you know he really would, and with how he still to this day name drops gd and seems to have this fucking delusion that gd still likes him, it feels like he still would do it if given the chance.

the military and picking up bit of this ask is what i kind of try to play on the most in my fic, because as we know i've written him to have this creepy (and not inaccurate) glee with having control over him and being able to do things to him (i.e. that moment where he could have kissed him and yet didnt- instead relishing in the knowledge that he could have done anything he wanted in that moment).

his behaviour towards jiyong is definitely creepy, to say the least. and the fact that dae and tae have both acknowledged this in the past honestly makes me pissed off with my own characterisations of them in my fic as being manipulated by seungri, where they try to convince themselves that their mentality is "worry about jiyong now, handle seungri later" (thanks to seungri expertly escalating everything to make jiyong worse and truly need their help, hence diverting attention from himself).

he's always been jealous of the fame and attention jiyong (and top) got because he knew he would never ever be able to live up to their legacies. he knew that gd and top could be very successful on their own if they didn't have bigbang, and that he would be no one. yes the great seungri did well, but respective to jiyongs albums, he absolutely dwarfs it. he couldn't stand that they were more popular, and he was so obsessed with that and money that it led to obvious things happening.

i could honestly go on about seungri for pages and pages but i fear people may get the wrong idea, so i shall end here, but my god. what a freak. his fans are freaks too, you blur out his face in a pic and the ot5 comments are SEUNGRI IS INNOCENT!!!!!! HE DIDNT DO ANYTHING IF YOU ACTUALLY READ THE CASE HES INNOCENT KILLYOURSELFKILLYOURSELFKILLYOURSELFANDYOURMOTHER!!!!!!! he's not gonna suck you off for defending him love :/ calm down a little.

anyway anon you should totally dm me because i wanna know if youve seen anything else and you seem very observant <3

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The latest chapter of your Bigbang fic made the hair on the back of my neck stand up because I feel like this is first time I've seen someone pick up on an observation I felt only I had had, even years before the scandal.

Back then I hadn't wanted to upset other fans by pointing it out and after it seemed like it would trivialize the real issues at hand to talk about it.

But I sensed it too, that strange high from the idea of having control...in so many little things.

yes. a hundred times yes, reader. i love you for this because we’re clearly in the same boat. obviously with the power of hindsight it’s easy to say everything was SO obvious and why didn’t anyone say anything back then, but they clearly were not there to see bigbang’s fans 💀

people forget seungri was a really smart guy, and really talented too, but there was always this insatiable envy he just couldn’t get over, and that was his hamartia. it showed itself in small ways on stage when he commanded attention and diverted it from others, said things against the others, offhand remarks from bigbang. he clearly hated being “maknae”, as the oldest at home, he demanded respect and attention, and he realised he would never be anywhere near GTOP’s fame in bigbang. he had no control over anything in fact, and it drove him crazy.

but when he did have control, no matter how small, to me it was clear that it wasn’t normal how he felt about it.

thanks so much for reading my fic and leaving me this ask, it means so much to me :) i’m so glad i could make you feel those emotions just through my writing

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hi!! I just wanna say I absolutely love your bigbang fic, they way they're written is *chefs kiss* I love it sm. it genuinely makes my day whenever I see an update, I can't wait to see where it goes! <3

my god i was having such a trash day and this just made it instantly better (PLUS THE DAE PIC HOW CAN I NOT SMILE :C )

thank you so much for reading and supporting me :(( it means so much to me as a writer and a fan who still feels that throbbing betrayal from the scandal, so thanks for leaving this message <3

i hope you have the best day honey

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Hi, I'm writing to tell you that I love the way you write and I'm hoping to hear more about your Big Bang story.

hi reader! thanks so much for reading and letting me know you love it :) none of you are ready for this next chapter.. trust me

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posting chapter 15 while writing chapter 30 is a different kind of pain because who am i supposed to talk to about what’s currently going on in my fic when i’m on season 3 and you’re on season 1 🥀💔

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hes already drunk please😭😭😭😭

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SALESMAN YURI 😍😍😍

commission me to yurify ur fave boys

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current wip- yurifying the salesman 😩🔥

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first clip credit: @/umgeorge

second clip credit: x

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yuri game 🌸💫 the definition of toxic yuri btw if you even care

commission me to yurify your fave boys 😋😋

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fem mark webber leaving seb’s room (she makes seb call her daddy)

(ref is an actual picture of mark leaving seb’s room with his zip down 😱)

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Fem!Georgie at the gala or wtv

Idea and tags by my very cool george obsessed mutual @feketeribizli

georgina social media diva as always ofc

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this is THE post.

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mourning his curls so im finally posting this