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Concerns 1

Sentients. This one has news. Upon encountering Raxor in the halls of the ship, this one inquired into their change in disposition. What could crush the spirit of this one’s companion so?

Raxor’s response… It is worrying.

--- TRANSCIPTION BEGINNING ---

RAXOR:        The Terrans… they do not enjoy war.

ELYSIA:        That is good, yes? Too many of the new races seem to revel-

RAXOR:        No.

ELYSIA:        No?

RAXOR:        They are a war race. Their history and evolution are paved in the ashes and blood of their enemies. Yet they do not revel. The Skellesian Bloodmites revel. Their weapons are made to draw out battle and prolong suffering. Barbed rods for the rending of flesh. Heated blades to ensure the enemy stays standing no matter how much is chopped off.

                      The Stol’oon of Grumha revel. Their cowardly tactics involve slowly terraforming the planets of surface-bound races while they are defenseless to stop them. Slowly cooking as the atmosphere of the only home they have known becomes their crematorium.

                      The Terrans? They do not revel in war. They hate war.

ELYSIA:       This one does not understand. The race was molded by war, yet hates it? Do they hate what it has made them? Are they a drink that hates the shape its container has forced upon it?

RAXOR:       They hate the acts. This one asks Elysia to consider, if one despised an action but the action was needed, what would they do?

ELYSIA:       This one does have experience with this. This one dislikes having to configure variables in simulations. This one wrote a script to automatically program variables if given a planetary identification code.

RAXOR:        Why?

ELYSIA:        To get it done as quickly… and…

RAXOR:        Yes.

ELYSIA:        By the Queen. Have the Terrans… streamlined… war?

--- TRANSCRIPTION ENDING ---

This was not the end of the discussion, Raxor proceeded to request a cancellation of the mission. They claim that the Queen would not have allowed the mission had she known.

Unfortunately for Raxor, after more than the expected number of delays, the ship has already entered the Sol System.

On this, the Terran Date of May 21st of 2030, or XD 4682C 4A 2L, and with an uncertain future, this is Elysia of Xyloptha, signing off.

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Crop Domestication

Humans have been selectively breeding and modifying crops for centuries, from apples to corn, shits wild. It creates the illusion of a plentiful planet, when in reality humans have, over thousands of years, dramatically altered the appearance and heartiness of these crops.

Now this could have an interesting effect in a haso universe, with aliens treating earth as a deathworld because of its wildlife and environment, but entirely disregard the fact that some native plants are hostile for the fact that we have such convenient crop foods!

No, we made those. Everything hates us.

Human: you all seem so fascinated by our wildlife, it's like you didn't even notice the murder plants!

Alien: well it seemed well balanced by the planet's generous flora

Human:

Alien:

Human:

Alien: What??!

Human: did you think corn was naturally that big??????

Alien: fuck's that mean?

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Laughter would be such a confusing emotional expression to alien species. I was watching a comedy live play tonight and laughed so hard that I cried at one point and somewhere in that fugue state I realized how absolutely bizarre a response that is.

Like, relieving tension is a response that aliens would almost definitely understand, but there are more intuitive ones. Massage, deep breathing, exercise, hell even sex make more sense than laughing from a purely biological perspective. But laughing? Briskly expelling air from your lungs so fast that it can overwhelm your system and sometimes cause even more physical tension? Wild.

You text an alien friend "lol" and they ask what it means and you have to look up the etymology because it's 2781 and it's just been its own word for centuries to tell them, "laughing out loud."

"What is 'laughing out loud'?" And then you send them a GIF and they text you back in all caps "ARE YOU IN DISTRESS?? DO YOU NEED MEDICAL ATTENTION??"

And you have to talk them down and explain and they start to feel better until you let slip that at least it wasn't so strong you couldn't breathe and then they spiral again because "this response causes asphyxiation? And it's INVOLUNTARY????"

Not that aliens are humorless of course, but I definitely don't actually lol at most od the Reels my friends send me. I just smile at the cleverness or the stupidity. This, I think aliens would understand—they smile at humans' cleverness and stupidity all the time.

I almost wonder if they would assume the other side of laughter first, due to its oddity to them. Because we know very well that sometimes laughter can let off tension in a bad way, too. A witch's cackle, a villain's chuckle, a little girl's giggle in a horror movie.

Would it be affirming, I wonder, to see the horror on a human's face when they lose contact with a member of their crew planetside and when they finally make contact again, all they hear is a slow, dark snickering through the comm?

After all, it's such a strange thing to hear, laughter.

Would it be a relief to see their faces pale with the same unease that the aliens' feel every time they hear that odd sharp sound from the depths of human throats?

Or would it strike an even deeper chord of fear, to see that sound that makes every human smile turn their face, instead?

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This is 100% my ADHD experience. I was diagnosed at a young age. Yet I learned that all of my symptoms were "excuses". I was lucky to get diagnosed early, but diagnosis does not always translate into understanding or support.

My parents and I were talking about job hunting, cause I need a summer job, and how I need to be reminded to do things cause ADHD. So I chime in with “I have executive dysfunction,” and my dad I kid you not replies “no you don’t,” with a straight face.

My good sir, what do you think the ADHD does!

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Fork, why do you betray me!!!

TW: rant about sensory sensitivities around eating and utensils

The forks at one of my favorite restaurants have betrayed me.

For some reason these forks' outer tines have sharp corners on their edges. If I close jaw a little too much the corner can scrape across my teeth.

The rasping sensation travels through my tooth into my jaw and then straight into my brain. It is like a nail file being scraped across my exposed nerves.

If you think that is be the worst part. You would be wrong. The worst part is that the feeling persists in my tooth. Then I become horribly and completely aware of every sensation in my mouth. Especially, fixated on the single tooth involved. It is awful. Makes me never want to eat food again, with a side order of ripping out the adult tooth in question.

Fortunately, their food is good enough for me to continue eating, most of the time.

Nearly had a meltdown today. Excused myself to the restroom to regulate and it had clearly been carpet bombed with air "freshener". The cloying scent at least gave me a different sensory hell and distracted me from my teeth.

I survived without crying, and I finished brunch. I will call that a win.

TLDR do not become hyper-aware of your teeth and mouth sensations

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I bought the guild poster from @ssavaart not knowing how I would display it. I bought it because I wanted the coloring page and I have always loved their work.

Today I remembered that I had an old plastic frame from the 90's that held a kitschy name art from a tourist spot in Hawaii. Short story long, it worked beautifully. Now I have the poster hanging on my wall and I am getting hyped to start my coloring project!

The picture is low quality. If you do not know the artist, I recommend you check out their art on tublr or on youtube. The process videos for this piece were such a joy to watch!

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Asking for accommodations around time blindness is so hard!

My workplace had a group meeting where management said that all client meetings should be 15min long. When they asked what help the support staff or management could provide to make this happen, this was the conversation:

Me: I have ADHD. I cannot track time in my head. Can we get clocks in the meeting rooms?

Them: No, checking the time during a session is rude to the client. I don't want to see you checking watches or phones either.

Me: can the front desk who assigned the meeting tap us when time is up?

Them: No, that is not their job. (Managing flow and environment is literally their job. They even tap you when you have a new walk-in. This had just been described to us and they were asking for more ways the front desk could help out.)

When I mentioned that most of my clients have more complicated problems due to the nature of my field they said, "Yes is is fine if you go a little over time just make sure you are done in 30 minutes."

Me: I think you misunderstand my problem. I have no idea how much time has passed when I am focused on a client. 😅

Them: Don't worry, you have been doing fine. This is not about your meeting length.

Me to myself: WTF you mean it isn't about my meeting length? I know I go over 15 minutes regularly! Is this a RULE that you are trying to enforce or not.

I continued to do as I had before without any complaints. I think they just wanted to keep me because I was one of the few in my specialty.

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PSA: tomatoes are not spicy. Tomatoes and tomato products should not be spicy. Pizza sauce isn’t inherently spicy. Tomato-based pasta sauce is not spicy. Ketchup is NOT spicy.

If tomatoes are spicy, you have an allergy to tomatoes.

This announcement brought to you by my almost 29-year-old husband learning for the first time in his 2.8 decades of putting food products into his mouth that spaghetti and saucy pizza aren’t spicy foods

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At some point in your life, you were taught that being slightly annoying is an unforgivable sin. Maybe it was by your parents or a teacher or a friend or a bully or an older sibling. But someone taught you that being slightly annoying is a crime punishable by death.

You must unlearn this.

You must accept that all people will be annoying at some point or another in their lives, maybe all of their lives, and that this is okay. It is okay for strangers on the bus, it is okay for children in the grocery store, it is okay for people on social media, and it is okay for you.

If you ever want to truly love your fellow humans, if you ever want to truly love yourself, you must have forgiveness for being annoying.

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Adults: Following rules is good, not following rules is bad

Little me: Okay :] *follows a rule*

Adults: Oh my god look at this loser. He doesn't know that this rule is Secretly Okay To Not Follow. Dumbass. Let's all laugh at him

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The kitty harvest is bountiful this year

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Neurodivergence rant

*undiagnosed parents eddition*

Let me start this off by saying, I love my parents and genuinely feel they did their best.

There is a form generational trauma that comes from undiagnosed neurodivergent parents. My parents struggled in school. They both had areas of excellence and areas of extreme weakness. My father is classic ADHD hyperactive presentation. My mom is the AuDHD combo pack with OCD. They are dyslexic and discalcliac with varying presentations.

So no surprise, I am a wonderful blend of their genetics. When it was clear that I was struggling in school and social life they tried to get me help. That was how I got my ADHD diagnosis (the ASD diagnosis was considered mutually exclusive with ADD at the time which dates me a bit). Even then my father refused to accept it.

My father hated seeing me struggle in similar ways to his own struggles. He hated it even more when it was pointed out that those struggles were due to ADD. His additude was, "I don't have ADD, and I struggled like that so obviously you are doing something wrong"

I got yelled at constantly for things I did that were identical to my parent's behavior.

At the same time my mom enabled him because he wasn't "as bad" as her alcoholic father. He was not "as volatile". She also dismissed any struggles that were similar to her own.

I was the dark mirror of their own failings. My father saw in me behaviors he hated in himself and that anger got directed at me. My mother saw my struggles and dismissed their severity because I was still coping.

Incomplete lust of nurodivergent behaviors I got in trouble for and the parent who does the same thing:

- losing things (father)

- not looking people in the eye (mother)

- struggling with perfectionism (mother)

- not completing tasks (father)

- losing track of time (father)

- getting absorbed in a task to the exclusion of all else (both)

- flat affect / sounding sad (mother)

- leaving the dinner table as soon as I was done with a meal (father)

I saw the hypocrisy as a child. I learned quickly that it was worse if I pointed it out. So I learned to mask, people please, and minimize my own struggles. This was all in the context of a loving household where my parents truly had my back from external problems like bullying. They even wanted to help me with my obvious struggles.

They got me diagnosed and then continued to punish me for behaviors that were due to my diagnosis. "Don't use your ADD as an excuse." Was a common refrain in their house. Or, "I hope you can grown out of your ADD and be normal."

If I am not normal, and struggled in similar ways as they do, then that means they are "not normal". It scares them. I took on the brunt of that fear.

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hot artists don't gatekeep

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.

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hi bear, remember when you made post about horses hooves being a toe? im drawing a centaur rn and remembering that helped me

so i had struggles with how certain horse leg position would look like and so i brought my finder up and looked at it, and turned out to be kinds similar you just need to add shoulder joint in end

hold on ill doodle examples

anyway thank you for horse toe

Oh heck that cursed thing actually seems pretty useful

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