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Hello. I'm in high school andI want to be an actress. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my dreams. it feels so impossible. Not because I lack talent but because of my parents. They are afraid as hell. That I'm gonna be poor someday and stuff like that. But I really hate my life right now. Because nothing is going to change unless I stand up. But I just can't. Once I tried to tell them but we had the biggest fight. I'm 16 and I don't know what to do. I want to be free. Justwantedtoshareq

Hey,

Trust me I totally get that, my parents have never been on board with it either. I mean they’re super supportive but they don’t want me to make an irresponsible decision and then end up with no money.

I think the best thing to do as a teenager is make your own work. For me, the acting industry where I live is really small so there aren’t many opportunities to do professional work. So I write my own plays/film script and find people to shoot them/recruit my friends to be in them. While you’re in high school if you can try to convince your parents to at least let you do it as a hobby I think that’s a good idea. Do workshops and weekly out of school classes and just get all the experience you can to be as sure as you can that this is your passion.

I know it’s scary, and hard, and it feels like a constant uphill battle with no one standing by your side. But if you truly love it it’s worth it. xx

I really hope this helped, always free for a chat <3

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Your own Best Interests

I’ve thought a lot recently about when people say they’re doing something “in their own best interests” because I think we’ve been using this phrase wrong.

To me, doing something in your own best interest is doing something that feeds your soul, doing something that will make you the best version of yourself but I feel like this notion has been lost. When I hear someone say “best interests” they generally talk about a “sensible decision” and “financial security” and “mature choices” and this all just seems so wrong in my eyes. Doing something for yourself should be truly and deeply doing something that fuels the passion inside of you, that makes you so excited you stay up all night working just because you want to, and to because you self something to the last minute.

To anyone out there who is being told to act in their own best interests and feeling like they’re betraying themselves with the decisions they’re making. Dig deep, don’t feel obligated to do something to please others, always move in the direction of the best interests of yourself.

You are strong, you are confident, and you can depend on yourself.

From a college drop out who’s doing things for their own best interests xx

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snippets of my bullet journal ♪( ´▽｀)

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08/11/2016 | First day back to class and I’m already on the grind. Developmental neuroscience lecture notes, first class of the day. [55/100]

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i made a spread inspired by all the bullet journals in my tag that will hopefully help once i start using dailies 📔

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Hello again, my lovelies! I bring you part 2 of my “Starting a Bullet Journal” Masterpost! See part 1 here. Now that I’ve told you a bit about the supplies bullet journalers use, we can move on to how to actually start a bullet journal!

View The Official Bullet Journal Video

Identification Page

This should be the first page in your bullet journal, normally. In the off chance that you lose it (I’m constantly worried about losing things), the kind person who finds it can return it to you! I suggest writing your full name and a way to contact you at the least. Here’s a picture of mine, I’ve added a doodle I’ve made.

A Key

A lot of bullet journalers have keys to keep their thoughts organized. I, personally, don’t have one. But you can watch the Official Bullet Journal Video to get an idea of what a key should include!

This key/legend by @sushi-studies is beautiful!!!

Table of Contents

To make it much easier to flip back and forth through your journal and to keep it all organized, start by numbering all of your pages in a way that works for you. Leave at least 3 pages (or as much as you feel like you may need) for a table of contents. You can add to this as you work through your journal. This is mine as of right now. So far I’ve only used about one page but I can already tell I’m going to need all three, and maybe more than that.

Yearly Overview

For me, It’s good to be able to see my entire year on just a couple a pages. I just have mini calendars with important dates next to them. I transfer these dates later on into my monthly spread with more detail (we’ll talk about this later).

Extra Pages

This is the point where I left several pages blank, because I knew I’d want them later for spreads that I would come back to on a regular basis. So far I’ve used these pages for “2016 Yearly Goals”, My Personal Reading Challenge, A wish list, and a budget/spending list! There are so many great ideas out there. I’m really in love with 

Monthly Spreads

This is where I’ll talk about the earlier mentioned “Monthly Spreads”. This is where I make a bigger calendar that I add lots of detail to. I also transfer any dates from my yearly overview to the monthly spreads. I add goals sometimes if I feel like I need the motivation.

Habit Trackers

Habit trackers are a really good way to stay busy and productive! I’ve seen so many amazing ones. Some people make one fro the entire month and fill up a whole page with it. I prefer to make a smaller one on my weekly spreads (which I will go over next) because it seems less overwhelming to me that way! Some of my favorites are …. this one by @successaesthetics and this one by @eyesonthestars-feetontheground

Weekly Spreads

This is my most common spread. I make a new one each week. This is where I write all school assignments and things that have to get done in that specific week. I try to vary the way I lay them out from week to week so I don’t grow bored with one. This is where I put my habit trackers as well. I used to use two pages a week, but at the moment I’ve been cramming it all into one because I don’t like feeling like I’ve wasted space. If I end up needing the space, I can go back to two. This is a good example of how versatile the bullet journal is. You can always change it to fit your needs. Don’t ever feel pressured into doing it a certain way!

Examples and ideas:

Weekly Spread by @tumblstudies

Weekly Spread by @bandaidsdontfixbulletjournals

Weekly Spread by @genspen

That about wraps it up for the contents of a bullet journal. Do whatever works best for you! Enjoy journaling! It’s not for everyone, but i think you should at least give it a try. It’s an amazing way to sort through your brain and keep everything organized. If you have any questions or need any more clarification, don’t be afraid to ask! Have a fantastic day everyone!

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100816 • tried to drawing a few watercolour flowers after studied English and math.

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19th July Cuddling up next to my heater on a cold winter day to do some text deconstruction and color psychology analysis for my newest assignment, lots of work, but I’m really enjoying it and that’s been making it a lot easier. Hope I can keep my motivation for the rest of the day

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Knowing When to Stop

Two days ago, I quit University. 

It was a weird day, the week before I had been so excited about my new degree and this fresh phase in my life. But after the first two weeks of intensely hard work and isolation from the rest of my life I found myself in a state I wouldn’t wish on anyone. I was stressed, alone, scared of stopping work for fear of failure and I felt like I had no one to turn to.

When I arrived home from uni on the Friday of my second week and said to my dad “eugh, Uni is so stressful I don’t even like it” his immediate response was “then quit”.

As a stubborn competitive girl who is used to working hard and winning, I got really mad at my father. I was angry that his immediate advice was to give up, rather than the pep talk I was looking for when I made the self deprecating comment. It surprised me that my father would tell me to do something like that, when he had pushed me and supported me through every challenge I had faced previously. 

After a weekend of thought and reflection, on the Monday morning of my third week of higher education I quit.

My whole life I have dreamed of becoming an actress, I have worked endlessly hard for little success, in the hopes of one day finding financial stability in my passion and love of acting. My parents, and their friends had warned me of the instability of the field and steered me towards a more stable career in the medical field. I had always done well in school, so I knew I would be able to achieve something without too much work in the medical field.

After spending my whole life living in a family who wasn’t sure if we could pay the next rent check, where everyone constantly gave up things like dancing and sports and music so that we could afford a roof over our heads, I was scared of living my whole life that way. So I followed my parents path for me and went to medical school. 

I told myself I loved it and found it interesting, but every second I spent memorising the bones in the skull or teaching myself chemistry I found little pieces of my dream were dying, and I was becoming more and more frustrated with them.

I could see myself working in the medical field, and I knew that I would be good at the job and really like my work and be happy, but I felt like I had never really given my dream a chance. I had never let myself accept that acting might be my reality and not just my day dream.

So I quit.

My family isn’t happy, and my friends don’t understand, but I am the happiest I have been in a very long time. Not because I quit something that was too hard, because I let myself dream.

I think we are too hard on ourselves sometimes when we quit something, letting the voices in our head tell us we were too weak to finish what we started. We constantly move towards our most prominent thought.

I’m letting myself try to reach my dream, and I’m going to work damn had for it. I hope you let yourself reach your dream too xx

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cell division is by far one of my worst topics but painstakingly making these flash cards really helped me to memorise it so that’s a small success!!

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1•11My November spread📖I’m attempting to complete both the 30 day minimalism challenge and munirastudies study challenge. So goals for this month, there are many including establishing a skincare routine, studying Spanish everyday for 20mins, squat🍑 and so on. But we’ll see how that goes.

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[05.11.15] Finished FEM notes by 11.15, pretty darn motivated now 💪🏻

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Saturday 31/10/15 • 21/100

Studying German 📔 with the other half of my lunch (i also had toast with cheese 👌🏼) & perfect coffee ☕️ :)

How are youu? 💞

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31-10-2015 / So I’ve been asked by a few people to post my bullet journal setup so here it is! I still have some work to do with regards to my timetable pages so I haven’t included those here.

1 / Contents page 2 / Deadlines page 3 / To be read page 4 / Calendar spread (unfinished) 5 / October ‘15 monthly view 6 / Typical example of a ~¾ day spread

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23.10.15 // Working on an English Language past paper *cries* 🍂

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29/10/2015 || Thursday

Studying Insurance Law at the moment. My exam is tomorrow! Time has flown. But, I’m feeling confident and prepared :)

Goodluck to everyone studying or working….you’ve got this!