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Everyday I miss you. I haven't stopped thinking about you since you've left. You say you'll be back soon. Though, soon feels like forever. You say some things take time. I told you I'm not patient... But I'll learn to be for you. I'll learn to patient, despite the pain of your absence. I'll learn to be good at waiting because I have to be, because I only want you.

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I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

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Dear love,

What I feared most, what I stayed up late at night pondering, why I held on so ferociously... so consistently has happened. Whilst I was falling, nay, plummeting in love with you, I have been just a fleeting, temporary, presence in your constantly moving existence. To you, I was always meant to be just a memory when you decide to move on. I knew that. Still, I thought I could make you love me. I hate you for making me love you. I hate myself for loving you. I hate you for not missing me like I miss you. I miss you. I love you.

Farewell,

A memory

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I beg of you, be as obsessed with me as I am with you. Unrequited love will end me.

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Catastrophically in love. Catastrophic. Love. Catastrophically in love with you.

*screams into pillow in this will never happen to me*

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I've read more books about love than I can count. Watched more movies about it than I'd like to admit. Every imaginative heartbreak I've cried. I've mourned the relationship of fictional characters. I thought I knew what it was going to be like. I haven't lost him yet but the very thought of loosing him is like a hole being punched through my chest. The very thought of the emptiness is more than I can bare. It hurts. I've grown too attached to him. I know that. And when my heart eventually breaks, I don't know if I'll recover. But I'm in too deep now to protect myself.

-My thoughts

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I don't know how I'm supposed to get over you. I don't know if I can. I don't know if I want to.

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Currently waiting for it to stop hurting

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Intimacy

I love the way he smells

I love how the way my hand in his feels

I love the way he fucks me, chokes me, bites me, licks me, caresses me, holds me

I love his hair

I love his van

I don’t know if he loves anything about me

I don’t know if I care

I am going to love him

I am scared -Me A.P.

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I think it's about time I read/watched the dead poets society