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Am I sensible or just boring?

As a teenager I always thought by 26 I would be married with children, a house, a steady job and have my life settled. Settled. A word that has come to haunt me. Our culture has completely changed. Travelling, getting a creative job, experiencing and trying everything once, seems to the only way to be justified as 'living life to the full'. What I previously expected to be living life, is now thought of as a cop out, as settling, as boring, and as not really experiencing. I feel a shame in living an easy comfortable life, like I am boring, and not grabbing life by the balls. Being a teacher in the same town I have grown up in seems frowned upon. Shouldn't I be out experiencing the world, living wildly, freely and with creativity because I am young? When I am old, will I look back at my comfortable life and wish I had lived more dangerously, rather than sensibly and carefully? These questions arose after a family conversation, talking about teenage rebellion.. and I realised, I hadn’t had any. I never got extremely drunk, never sneaked out the house, never messed around with boys I should have, never smoked, never gone on a girls holiday where I spent the time drinking and sunbathing. That made me question.. am I dull?? There is a pressure I feel as I am getting older. I should have decided by now. If if I am to stay in this town and have the ‘sensible�� life, should I be settle into it by now, have the house and the job. Then again, I still feel too young to settle into the life I will have forever, but also, feel like I have missed the window to pack up and start again in a new city with a new career. I see people form school, either married with babies and a house and a job, 'adulting', like proper 26 year old grown ups; while the other half are living in big cities to fulfilling creative careers, or living vagabond existence's constantly travelling and living from place to place.. Where as I am trapped in the middle, at a crossroads. Which choice do I take. If I go for the sensible option, am i being a cop out, will I regret that I wasted being young, by being too sensible. Or if I choose the creative route, have I left it too late to be successful and I will be behind all my peers. So many questions, so little answers.

 I am an over thinker.

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I've never had a proper boyfriend before and cant bring myself to have one because of my self confidence. Im paranoid that they will think i cant kiss or i'm too fat etc. Even when someone likes me i'm too scared to do anything about it. what can i do??

I'm unsure of your age, or who you are, but I have one simple piece of advice..do not worry, boys don’t care! I had exactly the same hang ups as you, I was single for so long, purely because of my own insecurities that I wouldn’t let my guard down. As a 26 year old who managed to overcome them, I have learnt that honestly, boys aren’t bothered. If you’re not stick thin, if you haven’t shaved, if you aren’t an expert kisser, they’re just appreciative to have a girl with them, nothing else matters. I think us girls give boys a bad wrap sometimes and build them up to be scary creatures, chances are they’ll be insecure about something too! And if you happen to find the one boy in the minority who is judgemental, he clearly isn’t worth your time and you shouldn’t stigmatise all boys to be like that, because honestly, they aren’t. Just go for it, be confident in your body and your personality and thats all that you need to do :) 

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Summer darkened her skin, lightened her hair, and set a fire in her heart.

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Everything you want is coming. Relax and let the universe pick up the timing and the way. You just need to trust that what you want is coming, and watch how fast it comes.

Abraham Hicks   (via exoticwild)

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WHEN YOU THINK SOMEONE LIKES YOU AND THEN THEY GET IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE ELSE JOKES ON ME AHAHAHAHAAH

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Literally every boy that ever likes me, when I start liking them, goes off me and gets a girlfriend called Laura.

What is this joke. its happened 5 times now!!

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Never trust a person that has let you down more than 2 times. Once was a warning, twice was a lesson and anything more than that is simply taking an advantage.

(via sherlinanym)

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It’s been a few months and I still don’t know what I miss more: You, or the future I created with you.

c.j. (via wherethoughts-escape)

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Fuck

For the past 4 months now I’ve been caught up on a boy who has made it well and truly clear he is over me. I had accepted that I would probably never see/hear from him again, but I still can’t get him out of my head. I’ve been on dates with 2 people since him, as I was starting to wonder if it was the attention I liked not the actual person, I couldn’t understand why I liked this boy so much because he is the total opposite of my type. But the 2 boys I have dated since have been really keen on me but unfortunately for me there was no spark there at all despite them being lovely, which made me realise, that this boy has a total hold over me.

Well today I saw him in a shop, he walked towards me, I absolutely crumbled. My heart was pounding, I was shaking, felt sick with butterflies and didn’t know how to talk. I’ve never felt like that looking at someone since I was 18. I went to catch his eye to say hello, and he stared straight ahead and carried on walking, totally blanked me. I could have shouted so he had to look, but I knew he had seen me and had chosen to not to make eye contact.

And now I’m back to square one of missing him, and being annoyed at myself for feeling this way about a stupid boy.

The total dilemma is that in the back of my head i’m wondering ‘maybe he didn’t actually see me’, in which case I could always go back to the shop because thats obviously where he goes on his lunch break and ‘accidentally’ bump into him this time being prepared to speak. But if he did purposely ignore me I cant go back because then I look like a stalker. Either way I’m 100% annoyed at myself because whether he ignored me or not, I totally should have said something, I missed the opportunity to get my chance to speak to him again. I should have made sure he saw me.

Why am i still fighting for someone who so clearly doesn’t care.

Fuck

Rant over

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love this picture its so cute ^^

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So I tried. I made the effort hoping for a second chance and it categorically failed. He text me back being his lovely self, then did his usual trick of never replying again, his way of not wanting to continue the conversation. Don’t know why I’m bothering to put myself out there for someone who I know isn’t interested. I just need to let it go but thats proving a lot harder than I expected. I never expected to feel this way at all and it sucks wanting someone who has changed their mind and there is nothing I can do to change it back. I need to stop waiting and hoping, and i need to stop looking on his social media because its just winding me up more. I know i will move on, and meet someone better but at the moment, I cant imagine clicking with someone aswell as we did, just a shame he had to go and change his mind. 

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To the one who loves her next, She’s terrified of spiders. So when you’re out late with friends and she texts you freaking out because there’s one on her window, please go kill it. She won’t sleep otherwise. She is a total textbook introvert. She won’t reply for hours and sometimes you won’t see her for a week. You will take this personally. Don’t. She’s simply taking care of herself and she’ll tell you how much she missed you while she was away. She’ll get very jealous. My god, she gets so jealous. Those brown eyes will turn a deep green. She hates that about herself, and she doesn’t mean to do it. Remember, she loves you. Reassure her that you love her too. On that topic, she needs constant reassurance. Tell her you love her and mean it. If you can’t do that, leave. She deserves more than that. There will be nights when she goes out and drinks a little too much. She’ll call you to bring her home. When you do, she’ll try to keep you up all night by tickling you and repeating “I love you and I’m sorry I’m annoying.” She’s not annoying. But make sure she has plenty of water and don’t let her pass out until she drinks it, or she will be miserable in the morning. She is the most independent woman I know. But she’s so insecure, it still breaks my heart. So when she starts an argument with “you don’t love me.” Do not get upset. Remind her you do and the reasons why. She’ll come around. The cat comes first. Always. Don’t ever think otherwise. Make her tea and remember the way she takes her coffee. She will notice. When she’s having an anxiety attack, wrap her up in your arms and rub her back. Tell her she’s safe and remind her that she has medication if she needs it. If you cannot treat her like royalty, let someone else. That girl deserves the world. Losing her is a pain you will never shake. Your world will come crashing down on you and those pieces won’t ever fit the way they used to. Don’t let her go. She will love you with all she’s got. Please give her the same. I am begging you to not hurt her. She is golden. Don’t let that shine die out. Give her your all and she’ll return the favor. You will never have to ask the universe for anything ever again.

Sincerely, a name you’ll hear in passing. (via bl-ossomed)

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