#settling

[howifeltabouthim]

No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't fall in love with Tony. Yet somehow he always boomeranged back to her, and she was afraid she might get stuck with him out of simple inertia.

Anna Biller, from Bluebeard's Castle

[doreenchloepoetry]

we would’ve hated what we became

[chilaig]

[fizpup]

a valentine to send to your deerest friends 💝

[innocent-cat]

May I request an angsty Vax (vox machina) x reader, where the reader likes Vax but he doesn't know it especially paired with his feeling for Keyleth at the time. But when he figures out he rethinks his feelings, but by then the reader feels like the Second pick. (It can have a happy or angsty ending, whatever feels right to you)

GUYS IM BACK!!!! have this and two others im keeping on the burner to write. There were five, so if you don't see your's pop up anytime soon, its because I didn't know how to write it. Loved the ideas, though◡̈

Vax'ildan Vessar x Reader

Warnings - None

"An option, never his priority.", Vax x Reader

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The fire whips in the direction of the wind and crackles in defiance against the small pellets of snow fall onto it, burning the firewood, which was already charred on nearly every side.

You sat next to your best friend, Vex, who had known about your love for Vax for months now. All she could feel was pity for you when she watches you stare off into the dark and starry night, looking anywhere except the two people in front of you.

Vax and Keyleth. Vax shot empty flirts at Keyleth without any reaction from her, as she blankly looks into the fire uninterested in him.

From the corner of your own eyes, you can feel Vex looking at you with a look on her face that you hated. It felt embarrassing for her to give you that look of empathy for so long, and it brought you back to the moment.

Taking a deep breath in through your nose, you held it for just a second. You let it out through your mouth and watch the air fog for just a moment. You look at Vex through the side of your eye, making eye contact, and she quickly looks away.

You sigh. The silence between the entire group was killing you, and you caught second hand embarrassment from Vax flirting with Keyleth like no one could hear them.

To be fair, no one but you and Vex were paying attention. Percy was tinkering with something that you couldn't be bothered enough to ask about, Pike and Grog were fast asleep. How could they fall asleep so quickly in this cold?

You slid off the log you sat on, the rough texture of the bark along it pushed against you and the snow crunched under your feet when you stood. Without looking around, you simply walk away into the snowed in forest.

"If you get lost just give us a shout." Vex's voice ringed through your ears, and you gave her a nod without turning to look at her.

Snow continued to crunch under your feet as you trudged into the forest. It was extremely dark, and the trees made you feel crowded. The trees rock as you push the pines out of the way, feeling the snow piled on them seep into your mittens, creating a soggy feeling on your hands.

Turning to an opening, you see a few logs turned to one another. It seems another group of travelers had passed through here once or twice before too. The world is really small, anyway. Not too hard to think about. You cast a fire spell on their old fire pit, watching the charcoal burn again. You sit down on a log, and stare into the sky, enjoying lonesomeness.

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(third person POV switch)

Keyleth awkwardly stood up and followed you after a few minutes of awkwardness with Vax. She tightly gripped and wrapped her faux coat around herself. Vex and Vax make eye contact, and glance between themselves and Percy. Vex shrugs and speaks.

"You know she doesn't love you. Quit bothering the poor girl, Vax."

Percy glances up at the siblings, but opts to continue fixing and cleaning his trinket.

Vax sighs, and turns his face away from Vex, not saying a word, waiting for her to say something he would choose to continue off of.

Vex scoffs at his stubbornness to the conversation. "Have you ever paid attention to how they look at you? YOU guys would work out. Not you and Keyleth!" Vex's accent gets thicker as she continues to voice her complaints about Vax's irony to not notice anything around him.

Vax pauses, and looks as if he's thinking to himself and piecing together evidence in his head.

"...You mean to tell me, that this whole time, all those gifts, and all the times they've been flustered without reason, was because they're in love with me?" Vax mumbled to Vex, still putting it together.

Out of the corner of her eye, Vex could see Percy rolling his eyes to their conversation. It was obvious he could tell too, in fact, him and Vex had spoken about it a few times when they had nothing better to do.

Now, it's Vex's turn to roll her eyes. And that she did. "What do you think I just said to you?" She scoffs after her sentence is stated.

Silence falls over the two and only the wind, the crackling fire, and Percy's tinkering can be heard. Soft crunching and talking can be heard from the forest.

(3rd person POV switch)

I softly laugh with Keyleth as we step back to the group's makeshift firepit. Before I can sit, Keyleth sits next to Vex, which forces me to sit next to Vax. Before I do, Vex waves me over and whispers into my ear.

"I told him"

I give her an annoyed look and she smiles smugly at me. I quickly turn before anything can be insinuated between the others and sit next to Vax.

This time, Vax seemed to be nervous to sit next to me. He was drooling over Keyleth just a second ago, You couldn't understand how he could change his mind so fast.

You close your eyes and decide not to think about it, trying to sleep quietly. It was late, and you were too tired to talk after the grueling work done today, which had to be followed with miles of walking to do the next morning.

When Vax notices this, he wraps his arm around you and pulls you in to rest on his shoulder. While his touch his warm, and something you've yearned for, you didn't like it. You didn't welcome it.

It wasn't what you yearned for. It felt forced.

The vibrations of his voice rumbles on his chest, and you could feel it in your head, but your hearing was muffled. It felt like you could hear their conversation in another room. You felt him hesitate when talking to Keyleth, but he spoke to her in that same tone.

He was settling for you.

You could feel an unsettling sense in your stomach, it made you uncomfortable, and it made you squirm.

You didn't want to be his second choice.

[fly-care]

There's already a choice

[ostriches-because-i-said-so]

IS IT WEIRD TO GET FLUSTERED OVER FRENCH FRY

[sweet-fox-mari]

I've always had an immeasurable amount of love to give. All my life, my love has been bursting at the seams; it was too much for most people. I learned early to settle, for those who didn't run from it. Even if the love they gave in return came with their control over me; all their doubts and uncertainties about me. Even when it came at the price of my authenticity, and my peace. All my life I believed, it was better to be loved wrong than not loved at all. However, these days I couldn't disagree more.

[thixcy]

[unsalted-thoughts]

I like to imagine that after Jaylen Hotdogfingers got resurrected, her fingers had little grill marks like barbeque hotdogs

Y'know, like this.

[mrkmciver]

#No Apology

[sk-lumen]

I want to be done settling but I fear that demanding or asking for more could cost me everything in my life because it could cost my relationship.

How do I work on overcoming that fear of potentially having to start again at 0

Hi darling,

That's a totally valid fear but here's the thing: either you do it, or eventually life will force you to do it one day, and that day may be when you're not as young, strong and clear-headed as you are now!

You have two choices, to learn this hard lesson now, or wait until the universe does it for you. Speaking from experience, the latter can almost destroy you... but it might just put you together the way you were meant to, all along.

So please don't settle in life. For anything. Not a mediocre relationship, not a mediocre job where you start to feel like a zombie because your soul feels dead and numb. I wasted so many years being afraid to let go of these things. 10 years in fact. Don't repeat my mistake.

Cus here's the catch: it can and probably WILL cost you everything, and that's a good thing, because you can't attract an amazing healthy high value relationship while you're still settling for crumbs in a toxic one! You can't upgrade your life 10 levels higher if you're still clinging desperately to your comfortable routines and never doing anything to accomplish more in life.

You have to throw away the old to make way for the new. I would know, trust me.

Much love,

-L.

[howifeltabouthim]

'He isn't everybody's choice, of course . . . I wish he had been more like a film-star, but nowadays one has to be content with what one can get.'

L. P. Hartley, from My Fellow Devils

[random-xpressions]

Inside her is the place I wish to be. I wouldn't elaborate if that's the mind, body or soul...

Random Xpressions

[ebonyseuphoriatarot]