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Arcane but with Hannibal dialogue p.2

Part 1 • Part 2

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Arcane but with Hannibal dialogue p.1

Part 1 • Part 2

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Parallels that make me feral ~ Jayvik & Timebomb edition

(This post focuses on 2x07 because there are plenty of other parallels between these four characters in various combinations and iterations of themselves, but I just rewatched 2x07 and have a lot to say about this episode specifically.)

● AU Ekko doodles AU Powder, his lab and romantic partner, in his journal & Jayce doodles Viktor in his.

● AU Powder and AU Ekko work together to participate in the Innovators Competition & JayVik reminisce about their time at the same Competition in 1x09

● AU Powder offers her help to Ekko (and Heimerdinger) in their experimentation to build the anomaly & Viktor offers his help to Jayce to make Hextech in 1x02

● Ekko falls in love with AU Powder (and, by extension, with Powder/Jinx of his own timeline) while working with her & Jayce falls in love with Viktor while working with him (as we know, this happens in every timeline but this, since they're 💀💀 in this AU)

● Together, Ekko and AU Powder build the reversed anomaly & together, JayVik built (and are) the original anomaly (more on that in my Jayvik meta)

● "Can we just pretend like it's the first time?"

Ekko asks this before AU Powder kisses him because it's the first time for him, while it isn't for her (since AU Ekko and Powder were already together). Then the scene cuts to Jayce arriving at the top of the Hexgate tower, where another version of Viktor awaits. This is Jayce’s first time—seeing Mage Viktor’s face, realizing they’re in a loop of their own making, and experiencing it all—while it isn’t for Mage Viktor.

It’s a brilliant foreshadowing of the final JayVik revelation in 2x09, while also paralleling Jayce—who has finally reached his partner of another timeline, standing in what feels like an oasis of peace, separate and protected from the storm raging below—and Ekko, who finds his partner of another timeline in the oasis of peace that is the AU timeline.

● Ekko leaves AU Powder to return to his own timeline, leaving her with the AU version of himself & Jayce leaves Mage Viktor to return to his own timeline, leaving him with the original version of himself (again, see JayVik meta)

I kept this one for last because, so far, the character mirroring has been Ekko/Jayce and Powder/Viktor, but as I said earlier, there are many different parallels and combinations. This is relevant to this episode so I had to include it:

● Ekko gives the necklace to AU Powder & Mage Viktor gives the rune(s) to Jayce.

While Jayce always keeps the rune on himself for his entire life and makes Viktor his whole raison d'être, Powder places the necklace in her drawer alongside the Hextech crystals she has kept—a memento of "what could have been".

I've seen people interpret this scene as suggesting that Powder might become the future inventor of Hextech in this timeline because of Ekko’s influence, but I strongly disagree. She says it herself: "I like my life. I don't wanna lose what makes me 'me' chasing some wild dream."

She has no interest in pursuing this "wild dream" because she already has everything she needs: a support system. She has her dads, she has Ekko, she has her friends... she has love. She’s grieving her sister and always will, but she’s not doing it alone.

That’s the difference between her and Jayce. Powder already has the love she needs to survive, while for Jayce, the love he needs to survive will always come at the cost of dooming the world.

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You may be wondering what Arcane and Olivie Blake's Atlas Series have in common, and my answer is: everything.

It starts with a man who cheats death to save the one he loves, only to end up dooming the world. It starts with a man who tries to end the world's suffering (or perhaps just his own) by building a new world, only for him to bring about the end of the world. Is this man Jayce? Is he Viktor? Or is he, perhaps, Atlas Blakely?

It's all about humanity's paradoxical condition: pain is an unavoidable component of the design-without it, there could be no love. That which inspires us to our greatest good is also the cause of our greatest evil. Our loss is an ocean, but we are a speck in the sand. The more one understands, the more one realizes the vastness of their ignorance. Left to their own devices, humans will inevitably resort to baser impulses, to self-eradicating violence. Left to their own devices, humans will inevitably care for one another at great detriment to themselves.

The fact that this list is a combination of quotes from both stories, but you cannot truly tell which is which (unless you know them by heart), is proof enough that these are the same story in different fonts.

And the moral of the story is this: the world doesn't end-only we do. Our own personal world is always ending, while the world at large will live on. That's what it means to be human. The only thing that matters is the choices we make with the resources we're given, and the only thing that lessens the pain is the connections we build in the brief time we have. It's the love of a parent, the love of a sibling, the love of a lover, the love of the other half of your soul, the love of a friend, the love of a stranger who cares enough to be kind to you. No, it's never about the world-it's only ever about one person.

"We can't change what fate has in store for us, but we don't have to face it alone."

There were so many moments throughout Arcane that reminded me of The Atlas Series: characters, philosophy, quotes, themes. It feels fitting that I started 2024 in a state of existential despair, partially due to The Atlas Complex, and I'm ending 2024 in a strange mix of ever-present existential despair and adoration, thanks to Arcane.

If you loved Arcane, then you should read The Atlas Series. If you loved The Atlas Series, then you should watch Arcane. If you've already read and watched both, then you understand exactly what I mean.

"I understand it now, the meaning of life. We are given exactly as much time as we need to be as human as we are, and that's it. That's the entirety of the magic. I don't want to rule the world, I don't want to control it, I don't even want to influence it. I want to sit beside you in a little garden, I want to put your needs before mine, I want to fetch you a glass of water when you're thirsty. I want to laugh at your jokes, even the bad ones."

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Made an arcane fan animation hehe

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Parallels that make me feral ~ Jayvik & Vanco edition

In episode 1x03, Silco tries to convince Vander to join him one last time. After everything that happened between them—after Vander tried to kill him—he still wanted Vander by his side to see their dream come true.

Sound familiar? That’s exactly what Viktor wants and keeps trying to achieve throughout the second half of S2. Jayce basically kills him, and yet Viktor never stops trying to make Jayce see.

Both Silco and Viktor fail. And then this happens: forehead touches and bringing back the hidden parts of your other half.

Jayce brings Viktor’s humanity back through the power of love, while Silco brings Vander’s violence back through the power of hatred—a hatred that was once love.

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Jayvik parallels that make me feral ~ 1x02 edition

● The parallel between Baby Jayce's flashback & the scene in 2X07, where Jayce sees the mage upon landing in the other timeline and calls out to him:

● Mage Viktor teleporting Baby Jayce to safety/creating a new timeline & Mage Viktor teleporting Jayce to meet him in his original timeline:

● Jayce telling Viktor how beautiful the magic he saw as a child was (without either of them knowing he’s actually talking about Viktor) & Jayce telling Viktor he’s beautiful in the finale:

● The parallel between Viktor saving Jayce/giving him the rune back & Mage Viktor saving Baby Jayce/giving Jayce the runes + Viktor introducing himself & Mage Viktor revealing his identity in the finale:

● Not exactly a parallel, but the moment where Mage Viktor creates a new timeline for Baby Jayce, the world he holds in his hand becomes Jayce's eye... we know now Jayce is Viktor's entire world, so 😭

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If you were to ask me what my favorite romantic trope is, my answer would be the "I'll find you and love you in every universe" trope. It's actually very niche—or at least, finding a well-written one is. Now, imagine my absolute shock when Arcane just… did THAT.

Of course, I had to write notes upon notes about it, rewatch it many times, and try to untangle it all. So here we are, with an essay that is part speculation (time loops always require some good old mental gymnastics) and part analysis.

"In all timelines, in all possibilities, only you can show me this." ~ JayVik and The Making and Unmaking of Worlds.

As Maggie Stiefvater would say, depending on where you began the story, it was about Jayce Talis. Jayce, the child dying in a snowstorm, saved by magic and given a little rune by his savior; the brilliant inventor, looking for a way to harness magic through science because he has seen how beautiful magic is and how many it could save; the man about to commit suicide when his dream is shattered, saved by a stranger who would become his everything and who returned his dream to him.

But depending on where you began the story, it was also about Viktor. Viktor, the powerful mage who brought an end to the world's suffering; the lonely mage who realized that, at the end of it all, there’s nothing but fields of dreamless solitude—because to end all suffering is to end humanity; the grieving mage, who built a monument out of the man he loved and lost in pursuit of perfection, and who decided to try again: a different equation, a different result. Viktor, who went back to the child that had been the man he loved, and saved him from the snowstorm over and over again. A different rune, a different world.

Pick a side of the story—it doesn't matter which one—they're both the beginning and the ending of what I'll call the Original World.

I’ve come to believe that these are the Original Jayce and Viktor, from the Original Timeline. One that went down differently from what we’ve seen, yet is fundamentally the same, as there are constants in these worlds—things that keep happening one way or another, such as Jayce using Hextech to save Viktor (whether from an explosion or his illness, it doesn’t really matter). I think, however, that in this timeline, Jayce and Viktor went down the hive-mind route together, as Viktor was never pushed to become the Machine Herald. This means Jayce never rejected him in the first place—because why would he? He wouldn’t know where their efforts to build a world without suffering would lead. But that they did it together or alone doesn’t change the fact that, in the end, humanity is lost—and so is Jayce.

So Viktor goes back, over and over again, giving baby Jayce a new rune each time to try to fix the ending, creating the loop. A different rune dropped is the flapping of a butterfly’s wings that creates a new world—the small change that sparks a new timeline.

I believe every timeline was created and destroyed by Viktor in his attempt to find the right equation: one that would result in a perfect world with no suffering, but also a world that still has Jayce in it.

At the end of the Original Timeline, the lesson Viktor learns is that a world without Jayce isn’t a world worth living in. At the end of all timelines, when every equation is solved, the ultimate lesson Viktor learns is this: there’s no prize to perfection. There is no Jayce at the end of a perfect world because humanity is imperfect. And that is the beauty of it. That is the human condition: you can’t have joy, life, or love without some intertwined pain.

This interpretation of the story is, I believe, proven by the existence of the AU timeline we’ve seen—the one where Hextech wasn’t invented. Even that timeline begins in the same way: baby Jayce receives a rune, and he grows up trying to bring magic to the world, but Vi dying in his lab prevents Hextech from being developed. Either Jayce dies in the explosion, or he doesn’t try to defend himself in court, and therefore Viktor never finds out about his research. Without that information, Viktor isn’t there to stop him from committing suicide, and Viktor himself will eventually die of illness.

This is a world where things are actually better—not perfect, but with less suffering than in every other iteration (this, too, deserves a more in-depth analysis that maybe I’ll write someday). This is a world where the cycle is broken, and Jayce and Viktor do not bring about the end of the world. So why isn’t this the final timeline? Why doesn’t Viktor stop looking for a perfect timeline after he realizes that a world without him and Jayce is actually a better world?

I’ll borrow Olivie Blake’s words to answer that (her Atlas Series actually has a lot in common with Arcane in terms of themes and philosophy, if you’re interested): "It’s never about the world. [...] Everything you do. Everything you believe. Every mistake you ever make and every dream you ever have. It’s not about the ten billion fucking people you’ll never meet—it’s only ever about one."

Every world ends because Jayce will always save Viktor. Every world starts again because Viktor will always save Jayce. A good timeline without Jayce in it is not a good timeline at all. A timeline without the joy and companionship Jayce brought to his life is not a timeline Viktor even contemplates. Without Jayce, the only thing Viktor has left—both the man and the mage versions of him—is dying alone. And that is the most human fear of all.

So how do we break the cycle, if no world is good enough without Jayce in it, but every world that has Jayce in it will always end in a field of dreamless solitude?

Original Viktor finds an answer to that question after endless trials and errors and that answer is actually what a younger version of Jayce would have suggested: "We crank it."

He finds the equation that sends Heimerdinger and Ekko to the AU timeline with no JayVik, so that they can develop the device that will eventually give Jayce an opening to bring Viktor back from the full Machine Herald form, while also bringing Jayce to see their future, to make him understand what will become of them if they don't put an end to it.

So now Jayce understands, truly, for the first time, what it means to be Viktor (he’s literally put through a sped-up version of Viktor's own life struggles), understands his own mistakes, and what the two of them mean to each other. He finally understands the "why" of it all, and he promises to end the loop. A promise that, this time, he won't break.

When Jayce is sent back to the main timeline, he has a mission: crank it. He has to reject Viktor's various attempts to bring Jayce to him, which is where so many other timelines, including the Original, failed, and he has to push Viktor to turn into the worst possible version of himself, which is also the most powerful, because by doing so, they will give this world a chance to survive.

As Jayce says, as he asks for both Piltover and Zaun's help: "This isn't a fair request, but it is our only hope." Zaun and Piltover unite, for the first time in history, in a desperate fight for humanity itself, and while there will be death and suffering, the sun will also rise again, which is more than any other doomed timeline could hope for. But most importantly, the creation of the Machine Herald is essential to make sure the anomaly dies with them, both metaphorically, as there won't be a new timeline after this, and physically, as the Machine Herald incorporates the anomaly into himself to bring about the ultimate hive-mind. Ekko's Z-drive—being a reversed version of that anomaly—can cancel it out once and for all, preventing it from causing any more damage.

"In the pursuit of great, we failed to do good." This is how some good can still come of it.

So Jayce shoots Viktor in the chest, even though it pains him to do so. He abandons him, rejects him, and breaks his heart enough to make him give up his humanity (all but that blanket, the last piece of Jayce's warmth he has left and that he keeps even in his Machine Herald form) so that they can get exactly where they need to be. The only reason he can do any of it is because he promised Viktor that he wouldn't fail. His willingness not to break that promise is what powers him through.

What I really loved, rewatching their interactions and paying attention to Jayce's beautiful facial expressions (the animation was out of this world), was that through all of this, Jayce knew that Viktor wouldn't hurt him, not willingly, not even at the end as he connects him to the hive-mind. Jayce has never been scared of him.

Heimerdinger notes that "the anomaly behaves differently around Jayce," and we see it time and time again as Viktor treats Jayce differently than he treats everyone else. Even at his worst, Viktor tries and tries again to make Jayce see and join him willingly. Jayce now knows that everything Viktor does, misguided as it is, is for them. He desires that connection. This is a constant, just like everything else that binds them together in every timeline.

So, to finally break the cycle, Jayce had to realize—like mage Viktor has—that it was never about the world; it was only ever about one person: "I thought I wanted to give magic to the world. Now, all I want is my partner back."

Jayce had to understand that his inability to let Viktor go would always bring an end to the world, just as Viktor’s inability to let Jayce go would always start it anew.

When Jayce finds out Viktor is dying in S1, this is what Mel (who by now we know has the ability to see through a person and read the truth of them) tells him: "We can't change what fate has in store for us, but we don't have to face it alone." That is the truth he could not accept—that, limited as it is, our time together is all that matters. He wasn't ready to accept it back then; he couldn’t see it—not until Original Viktor himself showed him. This is the lesson Original Viktor learned from losing Jayce over and over again, and what our Viktor has to understand now, before it is too late.

"In all timelines, in all possibilities, only you can show me this".

When Jayce finally hugs him, Viktor sees himself through Jayce's eyes. He sees what will become of Jayce if he doesn't stop, and he understands that for Jayce, he’s always been enough. Jayce loved him—not despite the imperfections he was so ashamed of, all the things he tried so hard to fix at the expense of his humanity—but because it was all part of him, an inseparable piece of everything he admires about him. And most importantly, he realizes what his glorious evolution has always been about: a desire for connection, which is, ultimately, the only answer to any human’s question.

And so he tells Jayce to go—one last attempt at preserving Jayce's life—as he prepares to put an end to it and face his worst fear of dying alone, if it means Jayce can finally let go and live. But Jayce tells him no; they'll finish it together, as he has finally understood that they are the anomaly, the singularity that keeps self-replicating and self-annihilating. It's always been about them wanting to keep existing, together. And so it has to end with them, finally together, for eternity.

And one last thing, just to put it out there:

I find it extremely poetic that the first thing Viktor sees through Jayce's eyes at the end is a clear callback to the couple who died embracing each other in Pompeii. A couple that has only recently been revealed as a gay couple, locked in an eternal embrace. Tell yourself what you like, but JayVik's story speaks for itself, and I have rarely found a love story as beautiful and devastating as theirs.

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"The Message Hidden Within the Pattern"

Humanity Explained Through a Jayce/Singed & Viktor/Warwick Parallel

Arcane has always been full of parallels that play beautiful variations on the same fundamental principle governing humans: "That which inspires us to our greatest good is also the cause of our greatest evil."

While this theme runs through every character's story (Silco and Vander's is my favorite from S1), Season 2 delves deeper by making Jayce and Singed—and by extension Viktor and Warwick—the perfect (and unexpected) parallel through which the human condition is dissected.

"Why does anyone commit acts others deem unspeakable? For love."

Singed, a brilliant scientist, committed the worst possible crimes, betrayed everyone, and did the unthinkable—all for love. He loved and lost his daughter, and everyone else paid the price for his grief when he decided he would find a cure for death, no matter the cost.

Jayce, a brilliant scientist, created impossible technology out of a genuine desire to help people. But when faced with the possibility of losing Viktor, he betrayed his mentor, broke promises, and used that technology to cure death. He did it for love, but that act (nearly) destroyed the world.

"What am I?"

"You're alive."

In his final attempt to bring his daughter back to life, Singed created a wolf-hybrid monster out of a dead man. In his final attempt to save Viktor, Jayce created a machine-hybrid monster out of the very person he couldn’t imagine losing.

Warwick and Herald-Viktor are monsters born out of love. One seems to have lost his humanity to the wolf, driven only by a desire to kill. The other seems to have lost it to the machine, driven only by the pursuit of inhuman perfection.

But their humanity isn’t lost. It’s buried beneath layers of pain, horror, and metal. In the end, it is love that reaches that humanity and brings it back—the very same love that created them.

Warwick fights the wolf inside himself and finds the remnants of his humanity—for his daughters. It was the love of a grieving father that made him the monster he is, and it is the same fatherly love that brings him back.

And in all timelines, in all possibilities, only Jayce’s love can bring Viktor’s humanity back. Because just as Jayce couldn’t accept a world without Viktor, Viktor cannot fathom a world without Jayce and that is both his ruin and his salvation. But that is something that deserves to be untangled in an essay of its own.

The crux of it is this: it’s in our nature to be compelled to do the unimaginable for love. Given the chance and the means, we would all create and destroy worlds for it. That is the ultimate truth—the two sides of the same cog.

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This world is a wasteland...

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9-1-1 mid-season rant

This is my first time watching 9-1-1 as it airs instead of binge-watching the whole season in one go. What I’m about to say could, potentially, be influenced by this because I’ve come to believe that this series is one that begs to be binged rather than watched weekly. That said, I’m not entirely convinced this is the only reason for what I believe is a very bad pacing problem.

Except for a masterfully written sixth episode and a few delicious scenes here and there, these past eight episodes have been very messy and poorly paced. Honestly, it almost feels like they aired them in the wrong order.

If we don’t count the three-part premiere—which advanced very little in terms of the characters’ personal stories, as is usually the case (though the first episode was actually one of the best, in my opinion)—episode 4 quickly wrapped up the Gerard storyline as well as Hen’s. These were the two storylines that should have been the focus of the remaining episodes, alongside Eddie’s storyline. Eddie, in episode 4, actually had some very cool and important moments, but more on that later. I was very confused by the decision to cut these arcs short, but I assumed something big was coming that would justify the rushed resolution. Sadly, that didn’t happen.

Episode 5 was a good Halloween episode, and episode 6 was incredible. But then episodes 7 and 8 happened, and I have no idea why.

They brought back the Hotshot/Brad storyline for no significant reason, since Brad ultimately served only as a final push for Eddie in episode 8. However, anything else could have achieved the same result without spending so much time on Brad and a pointless storyline. (The meta aspect was nice, but it didn’t need so much screentime across eight episodes.) In fact, what Brad did for Eddie in episode 8 had already been achieved in episode 4 with the cheerleader story.

This is why I said the episodes feel like they aired in the wrong order. A slightly different version of episode 4 should have been the midseason finale, resolving Hen’s storyline (which, in this case, would have had more time to develop), wrapping up Gerard’s storyline without brushing it under the rug, and bringing Bobby back to the 118. Only Eddie’s storyline would have been left up in the air, but it still would have led to exactly where it went in last night’s episode.

Eddie and Buck’s final scene in episode 8 was actually the only part that made sense in that episode, which otherwise felt flat and pointless (don't get me started on the cop cart bullshit or the cop story in ep 7)—and it definitely didn't feel like a midseason finale.

I don’t know if this half-season will feel better once all the episodes are available to binge. I hope so. But as it stands, it’s been very disappointing in terms of pacing and writing choices. Hopefully, the second half will deliver—and this time, in the right order and focusing on the right things.

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𝙊𝙣 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙 𝙛𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙮, 𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙡𝙤𝙬 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙨: 𝙖 𝟵-𝟭-𝟭 𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙖𝙮.

In episode 2x08, a very young Evan Buckley has a conversation about love with an old gay man whose husband has just passed away. This is how their conversation ends:

"𝐼 𝑔𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 ℎ𝑜𝑝𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑."

"𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡, 𝑠𝑜𝑛. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑖𝑡."

This moment is, I believe, one of the most impactful in the entire series. It's also an early declaration of intent because what 9-1-1 has been about isn't just saving strangers' lives; it is, first and foremost, about finding your own people and fighting like hell to keep them. It is about building a family different from the one you were born into and finally filling a void inside that you didn't even know you had.

You don't find it, son. You make it. And make it he did.

Throughout seven seasons, Buck has come a long way in his journey to self-discovery and self-acceptance. By wrapping himself around his loved ones to protect them and allowing them to fill that void in him, he has changed and has changed them in return.

Binge-watching his journey has given me so much joy. There was a lot of pain there, too, but the joy is all that I'll remember, especially now that that joy has become queer.

When finally, after years of hints and speculations, Buck opened that door and embraced that last piece of himself, all I felt was happiness. I wasn't there throughout the years, but I know how it feels, wishing for something like this to happen and being let down over and over again. I grew up in a time when it couldn't even be considered wishful thinking. It was just hopeless imagination. But now here stands Evan Buckley, kissing another man, in a mainstream show about firefighters.

Not that 9-1-1 has ever shied away from queerness, when one of the main characters has always been a lesbian paramedic, married and with kids, and gay secondary characters have always been present since day one. But still, that kiss made history.

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If you're lamenting the fact that you used to be able to shoot through a 500-page novel in like a day when you were in middle school and now you can't, it's worth bearing in mind that a big part of that is because when you were in middle school, your reading comprehension sucked. Yes, mental health and the stresses of adult life can definitely be factors, but it's also the case that reading is typically more effortful as an adult because you've learned to Ponder The Implications. The material isn't just skimming over the surface of your brain anymore, and some of the spoons you used to spend on maximising your daily page count are now spent on actually thinking about what you're reading!

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what really stuck with me was when his dad said that they are so proud of him and he's like why would you be proud of me I accomplished nothing

and they say well you're here now

and

this is what I try to remember every day, that I'm surviving yet another day

adam is right, most of the time it doesn't feel like an accomplishment, it's what everyone does, really, how hard can it be to survive into your forties?

but then-

adams parents didn't . harry didn't. all three died younger than adam.

sure, his parents got in a car crash, it's not their fault - but they were both drunk.

harry drinks himself to death out of loneliness.

it seems to be very easy, in a way, to not survive.

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the atlas trilogy char. aes. — Callum Nova

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One reason that I’m shipping Lokius SO HARD is this ship delivers the most heart warming message that no matter how unloveable you think you are, there’s still a chance you can find someone to love you. When you meet the right person, when you treat them with genuinity, it can lead to great things and it changes everything.

This is a time our generation widely consider love as a fairy tale for the immatures. But Lokius actually shows what a mature and healthy love is like and how wonderful it can be. The way they look into each other’s eyes makes me shed tears because it’s so beautiful. It’s something I thought was impossible. Their story made me have faith in love itself again and again.

I still can’t get over it that, in s1e1 Mobius said to Loki I can’t offer you redemption, but maybe I can offer you something better. And he did. He wasn’t there to just save Loki. He was there to love them. And that love, that love from a just-some-dude heals a god’s traumatized heart, made them see the potential in themselves, and eventually saves the whole univers. All these things are possible because the mortal loves and sees the god.

I’m astonished, even shocked, every time think of the whole story. I really need this. This is something I will hold on to in the darkest days of my life. And this is why I love them so much with every single cell in my body. I love them so much.