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New buddy that speaks Spanish hasn't shown up again... worried about them. Hope they are fine.

[luminae-system]

Feeling very lonely and tempted to do rash decisions like making a new headmate just because. Instead, I think I'll try and fix/better my relationship with Daena. they're already here after all.

Does anyone have ideas for spending time with headmates? Like... bonding activities you can do while in the same body (besides small talk and stuff)

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Racism in the plural community is a real problem. Racism in the medical community is a real, dangerous problem.

Pour one out for POC DID/OSDD systems that go undiagnosed or misdiagnosed because the psychiatric institution dismisses them.

Pour one out for all POC systems who feel isolated because the online community often conflates plurality with whiteness.

Pour one out for POC systems who get called racist or appropriative because their systems incorporate aspects of their own culture, but people automatically assume they must be white.

Pour one out for POC systems whose voices are silenced because of their ethnicity.

Uplift POC systems. Talk to POC systems, not over them.

[luminae-system]

Can i do one of those note thingys? But differently? Yes? I can?

YAYYY- ahem Im lacking motivation in completing my stuff so-

For every 5 notes this post gets, we will start a draft for x

For every 10 notes this post gets, we will start a draft rentry

For every 15 notes this post gets, we will finish coining a term

For every 20 notes this post gets, we will fully complete an alters prns cc

For every 35 notes this post gets, we will either find or coin a term for (x) experience (a need for labels xx)

At 50 notes, we'll finish the system bio, and the rentry explaining how our system works

If (for sum reasen) this gets to 100 notes, we'll make profiles for the masks and my "singletsona"

For every note after that, we'll finish (1) part of a rentry, a coining, a pride pixel, or wtv we need 2 do :3

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And maybe this is a cold take but you guys need to really stop checking things that upset you/insult you/make you feel not real. Stop checking r/syscringe. Stop checking syscourse tags. Stop interacting with things that hurt your mental health more. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter. And it won’t get better just because you keep checking back on it.

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Hey..... so its apparently not normal to go through system colapse multiple times? We might be circutien, since this is the third time we are going through the whole "gaining new members after a long while of radio silence"

[luminae-system]

friendly reminder to not get involved/interact in anti-endo bullshit.

block them.

they will not listen, they will not change.

ignore them.

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Looking at the bright side, seems like we have a new headmate! They prefer to speak Spanish so I think I'll have to translate for them whenever they want to post, if such a time ever comes, but it'll be fine.

Any tips to figuring out a name and stuff? Daena was born with a name, so we dont know much about name searching or how to help a fragment consolidate into a full headmate.

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I think it is time to accept that Aelius is not coming back. Of course, if he does, he will have a warm welcome... but it's been years. We're adults now, and I don't need a father figure the same way I did years ago.

-Danny ✨️

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Is this anything. was thinking about it while doodling and this happened. may as well post it ig

[luminae-system]

top 5 tips for someone who is pretty sure theyre a system but dont know anything about their alters or plurality?

If I tried to order all my tips in order of recommendation we'd be here forever as I reorganize them endlessly, so I'm just going to give you the first five tips that come to my mind.

Don't try to push yourself to figure everything out immediately! It's fine and perfectly normal for self-discovery to take time. And you don't want to rush anything that might require delicate work, like the possibility of trauma that's been tucked away somewhere or conflict between alters just becoming aware of each other. As interesting as questioning would be as a speedrun category, you sadly cannot speedrun figuring out who you are and how your life may be changed in response to something like this.

Decide for yourself how you feel about roles and labels. You can have a billion of them, you can have none of them, you can make your own, you can have ones that seem "contradictory" at first glance, you can have super specific ones, you can have the vaguest ones known to mankind. Don't let anyone tell you how you should or should not feel about roles or labels.

Keep a journal! It can help so much to have something outside of your head to keep track of everything. Something you did was oddly plural? You feel this way about something whereas you felt this other way about it earlier? You think you might not be a system after all but enjoyed the introspection anyway? It's all there for you to get out of your system (no pun intended)!

Similarly to the last one, use a template to create profiles for your maybe-alters. You can branch outside of this later, but early on, when you're trying to figure out who everyone is and what you're doing, it can help a lot to have a clear-cut list of questions to answer (or pass on). And remember to include something silly or fun as one of the questions so it's not all super serious and intimidating!

If it turns out you are plural... don't neglect intrasystem bonding and your overall system health. It's easy to get caught up in how things are going in the meatspace; how you're going to balance your life out here, but... you all need and deserve some time and space to be yourselves, too. Accommodate for individual expression where you can. Organize bonding activities with your alters. Be polite to them. Don't push them to be open about themselves if they're not ready or berate them for not perfectly masking if they can't. Even if you don't see each other as individual people, you each have all of a person's needs for individuality and respect. Allow them to be themselves. Allow yourself to be yourself. And don't be afraid to care about each other. That's how you build a healthy system, like how you'd build any other kind of healthy community.

I hope these tips help!

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We made a less bright variant for accessibility purposes, hope that is okay.

-Luminae system (They/them)

This is the altpackgenic flag! Explicitly anti radqueer, it is when your origins are influenced by an alter pack/headmate pack/alter inspiration pack.

The green represents community. These packs are made by and for the community and can be used by and be helpful to anyone regardless of origin.

The yellow represents happiness. The happiness of community and helping others, as well as the happiness of creating these packs.

The white represents strength. The strength of being yourself in spite of everything, and the strength of the community to lift itself up and exist.

The purple represents creativity, as that's inherent to the community and for the alter/headmate packs.

And if I had to pick an emoji for this flag, I would choose 💭

Please do not start any discourse on this post. We would just like credit when asked who created this flag.

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thank you so so much for the long and thorough answer, it was very comforting to know its not bad to want to keep delusions even if this is one.

Now I feel more at peace, and well, Daena is less annoyed with me now XD /silly

Danny (host) speaking here. Could any systems with psychotic symptoms help us out? Questioning everything and it's a mess.

Tw: long post, system questioning, doubts, venting, hallucination and delusion discussion, bc of that possibly an unreality warning?

Man, the awful thing about having auditory hallucinations is that now I am questioning everything I believe about myself to see if it could be a delusion.

And well, the first thing to question is the stereotypical "talking to the voices in your head!". Could I be really talking to myself and not another headmate? Daena says I'm stupid and she is very much real but I don't know what to think anymore

Our syscovery was years before the start of these recent symptoms so, maybe that is proof enough that we are truly a system, or maybe it is proof that I have actually been psychotic (as in. Having psychosis symptoms) for years and need to tell my therapist about my 'system' to try and get help for my delusion.

I don't even want it to be a delusion, I like the company of Daena, they are very nice to me in their own way, even if a bit rough around the edges. Maybe they did start out as an antagonist but she has proven very useful in taking care of ourself, they have talked me out of stupid things and been there to comfort me when nobody was available...

I don't know if I should try and ignore her and make her go away. If we are a system, it will be very asshole-ey of me to do and will set back a lot of progress we have made, but if I am not a system and I am truly just stuck in a long term delusion, then I should really try to get out of it, I think...

So what should I do? Should I hide my system from my therapist and psychiatrist, or maybe only from the psychiatrist? Should I be honest and open about it finally? I don't even know If I want to break the delusion.... do you always have to break them? Is it unhealthy to want them?

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Danny (host) speaking here. Could any systems with psychotic symptoms help us out? Questioning everything and it's a mess.

Tw: long post, system questioning, doubts, venting, hallucination and delusion discussion, bc of that possibly an unreality warning?

Man, the awful thing about having auditory hallucinations is that now I am questioning everything I believe about myself to see if it could be a delusion.

And well, the first thing to question is the stereotypical "talking to the voices in your head!". Could I be really talking to myself and not another headmate? Daena says I'm stupid and she is very much real but I don't know what to think anymore

Our syscovery was years before the start of these recent symptoms so, maybe that is proof enough that we are truly a system, or maybe it is proof that I have actually been psychotic (as in. Having psychosis symptoms) for years and need to tell my therapist about my 'system' to try and get help for my delusion.

I don't even want it to be a delusion, I like the company of Daena, they are very nice to me in their own way, even if a bit rough around the edges. Maybe they did start out as an antagonist but she has proven very useful in taking care of ourself, they have talked me out of stupid things and been there to comfort me when nobody was available...

I don't know if I should try and ignore her and make her go away. If we are a system, it will be very asshole-ey of me to do and will set back a lot of progress we have made, but if I am not a system and I am truly just stuck in a long term delusion, then I should really try to get out of it, I think...

So what should I do? Should I hide my system from my therapist and psychiatrist, or maybe only from the psychiatrist? Should I be honest and open about it finally? I don't even know If I want to break the delusion.... do you always have to break them? Is it unhealthy to want them?

[luminae-system]

So yeah, its our birthday! The host (me, danny) is celebrating with our family in our behalf :D

Happy birthday to me! I am now 19, yaaay!!!!

[Pt: Happy birthday to me! I am now 19, yaaay!!!!]

Feels weird man, last "-teen" year of my life. But that's growing for ya.

So uh, just wanted to post about it bc im updating my blog bios.

If anyone has an age dni where i fall into, feel free to block my old ass (i know its not personal, boundries are boundries)

Also, isnt it funny i was born in the gay month?? Amazing. Love it. I was born to be funky and queer and amazing

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