#tw dormancy

[plural-affirmations]

Here's to headspace exomemories!

In complex dissociative disorders, headspaces/innerworlds are often defense mechanics a young child comes up with to feel safe. But, for you, it might just be somewhere to hang out with your headmates! Both are normal experiences, and should be appreciated!

Shoutout to:

Funny headspace moments, like inside jokes and such

Violence of some sort, whether "cartoonish" violence or real violence (we have experience with this, shoot us an ask if you're in a similar situation or need advice)

Sad moments, like headmates going dormant

Happy moments, such as getting to hug your loved ones

Anything else I missed!

Headspaces can be full of whimsy, joy, grief, and every emotion in between. Take some time today to appreciate yours, too, if you have one!

Stay safe!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[thattheater-kid]

That alter no one in or out of the system likes, coming back out of dormancy to fuck shit up.

[scrunklycryptid]

[phantomhunt]

So apparently it's not 2018.....

Hi I just got out of dormancy(?)

I was gone ever since 2018

Anyone wanna catch me up on internet culture??

Mark is helping me catch up on personal life stuff but wtf is a rizz

[anti-endo-haven]

found this blog, sounded nice to do an anon talk. Bit of a vent if that's okay

i recently came out of dormancy (last month, only revealed myself to the system recently) and it's kind of weird seeing the reactions from the alters I used to know

there arent many from when I was here originally. Only achroma and v now. I miss my old friends. -⚙

(Is it okay if I take -⚙ as a sign off?)

I hope everything is going well beyond missing old friends. It's always okay to vent, and this blog will always be a safe place to do so.

I'll add the sign off to the document :)

[fictive-culture]

fictive culture is going dormant out of pure loneliness

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[problematic-alters-unsilenced]

tw for being locked up, isolation for no reason, shitty ex of ours, dormancy/sui mentions

im the host and had the misfortune of one of my alters meeting this girl.

originally, i would be locked in my headspace room if the caretakers/protectors/headspace leaders didn’t deem me safe for myself.

it was always because i apparently threw a tantrum.

but it didnt happen much before we met this girl.

long story short, she was mainly using us to play whatever fantasies she had with two alters that were fictives from her favorite animes.

I have hundreds of alters at this point and she asks for and demands for only two at all times. the alter that met her and told her we were a sys is not one of them.

he really had feelings for her and it just feels like she used it to get him to convince me to not be with anyone else.

the story gets very complicated but basically i ended up wanting to be with someone else. and as the host, i feel like it was my choice. the body is mine, and i felt lots of love for this other person.

she didn’t like this person, they knew each other, and didn’t like that i wanted to be with someone else.

when i was ignored always?

anyways when i tried to be with this person, she didn’t like it. and the two alters she always talked to liked her too and basically always did what she wanted.

and because i wasnt doing what she wanted and was apparently acting like a child and throwing tantrums, i was put in my room for weeks.

whenever i did front, i would try to talk to her and only felt ignored. so i went back to talking to the person i did like.

eventually they got annoyed because apparently i wasnt learning my lesson and started being put in this empty room. completely bare, no decor no bed no nothing just empty and dark and alone.

i think i remember trying to die multiple times, hoping to stay dormant permanently and just not have to deal with any of it.

we arent with that person anymore, we have a partner system now (i think you can call it that?) and i have someone that tells me they care for me now

i just wanted to talk about this because its something thats been on my mind for a few days now and it’s been upsetting me.

it still happens occasionally now, but my alters reasoning now is that i get hysterical and wont calm down. empty rooms scare me though

- 💖

Not putting on anon cause i don’t care pft

that is absolutely horrible D: you deserve to be listened to and understood and respected just like anybody else. That is just.. horrible. I hope you're doing better now and that it gets better in the future <3

[i-never-grew-up]

You'll often see posts on this blog about silly quirky system things like 'hee hoo silly introjects brain go brr'

But those are just the parts we choose to disclose.

You don't see how much sleep we lose over not knowing who we are, you didn't see what happened when the host first discovered the system and forced a protector into dormancy, you didn't see when the host went dormant and his 9 year old self formed as an alter and the fear in her eyes when she looked at her phone and saw how long it'd been since we were actually 9, you don't see the fake claiming, the imposter syndrome, the flashbacks to our past, being told that our trauma isn't severe enough to have a dissociative disorder..

You don't see that shit! You only see the 'hehe quirky brain people' mask we put on because we're scared of trauma dumping!

[potato-system]

Just like a general warning in case anyone ever plays Fallout New Vegas and then the DLC Dead Money, there is a character with DID and the only way to save them is to convince them to "merge" or force one to go dormant

[plural-affirmations]

Here's to systems who experience doubt about their systemhood.

System doubt is a very real and present issue for a lot of plurals. This one goes out to them.

Shoutout to:

Hosts who doubt themselves or the existence of their system a lot

Alters who were made to think they're singlets by abusers or toxic people in their life

Littles/syskids who don't understand they're part of a system

Traumaholders who are so traumatized that they end up shutting down the possibility of being a system

Systems that go through frequent collapses/dormancies

People who aren't sure if what they're experiencing "counts" as being plural

Plurals with severe amnesia that leads them to forget the others

Those who are convinced their sysmates are "just" hallucinations, kintypes, BPD, etc.

The ones who have been professionally diagnosed, but still don't fully believe it

And anyone else I missed.

It's going to be ok. I promise, doubt is normal -- it's distressing, and it's hard to handle, but it's normal. I even doubt my own system from time to time. You're not alone.

Be kind to yourself today, ok?

🖤💜💙💚💛

[thattheater-kid]

Shoutout to those alters who go dormant for long periods of time but return when they are most needed.

[vexedallay]

We lost a headmate who likes to bake by hand during our most recent system collapse. We now all experience a bone-deep urge to mix everything by hand. Wtf

[ven-system]

tw: possible fusion/splitting/dormancy

we're friends with another system, and we think the alter we knew the best might have split, fused, or gone dormant. one of her headmates put their name and pronouns on discord. and it's not listed on simply plural anymore. not in the host category, and not publicly. i don't know what happened to her, but i'm going to ask whoever is fronting later. if they tell me that she fused, or split, or went dormant, what do i say? what do you say in that sort of event? somehow "i'm sorry" doesn't seem adequate

Hmm that's a tricky one but a good question!

Of course give your condolences as something like that can be very damaging to the system

I think I would want a friend to say to us that like

They'd be here to support and help with anything

Giving support and comfort is so helpful when learning that someone could've went away

I don't know if that helps much bdjjdsj - Ven 💜

[boxofbrokenrecords]

Shout out to alters who come out of dormancy years later.

We just had a caretaker from when we were around 6-9? Come out of dormancy and he’s having a rough time adjusting.

We are letting him mourn those who are no longer around and the time he has lost. We are giving him all the space and support and love he gave us as a child.

Be nice to your alters who return, they need time to adjust to the new reality ❤️

-Blurry (Any Prns)

[dandycandyboi]

Who was here before me?

I know I am living here now. I know there is one that came before me. I knew her. She wasn't so different from me, except that I'm a man now.

I only realized today how many have come before I did. Where is Lysa? Where is Ashlee? Where is Izzi? Where is Siva? Where have they gone? Who were they when they were here? I can look through diaries like looking through someone else's life, but I can't remember. I remember, but I don't. I know what happened when she wrote about her first communion, quinceniera, first crush, but what do those things mean to her, outside of what she put down on the page? Who was she outside of these lines? I don't know if I can ever know, and it devastates me. They are lost to time like figments of imagination, but they were as real as I am. I worry I wonder if I will one day be lost as they are lost. If my words and visions and loves will one day be just words on pages that mean nowhere near as much to the reader as they do to me. I am only 21. I am 26. I am 6 months old.

[anti-endo-haven]

Hi!! So so so sorry about blocking you I was going through something and did it very irrationally 😭

I have a question, do alters have to front frequently for you to be a system? Mine never front at all and it makes me feel like I'm faking :( they talk to me frequently and I know they helped shield trauma from me in the past(I think, I never knew about certain traumatic events until my parents told me about it) but they don't do it currently. It's not like I need them to do so since my life is much better now.

-imperial.

Don’t apologize about blocking us. If you need to at any point and then come back, it’s fine. Do what you need to. No hard feelings.

No, alters don’t have to front often or at all for you to be a system. You can have alters never front at all and that won’t make you any less of a system.

If they’ve gone dormant, it could be due to your life getting better and not needing them as much anymore, but that doesn’t mean they’re completely gone.