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Wait pause

As I use my own computer it just hit me,

Noelle really has Kris as her background, and a fucking plant named Krismas

Oh my god wait

Wait

What if

What if

So you know how Kris’ side of the room is empty despite actually doing well in class and being really talented at playing the piano? Bro what if

What if Kris got rid of all his important stuff regarding Noelle so the player couldn’t find it like they deleted whoever called them during chapter 4

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KIPOSTING

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so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

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Kriselle has robbed my mind. Back to the Ao3 we go. Lost and Found

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Tw (pranking):

Keep reading

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If we call someone's good writing fire, does that mean that when someome's writing flops it's water?

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I came out to live, so why would I live quietly.

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I know it’s not hard to point out reactionaries hypocrisy when it comes to like safe spaces or hug boxes or whatever but genuinely how much of an echo chamber do you have to exist in for you to think this is a reasonable thing to say

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As long as your aversion to death is "Dying would be very bad and I would rather not do that at all" instead of panicking at every mention or remote possibility, you should be okay.

god i hate being afraid of dying

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There's nothing scarier than shedding away from a life you're used to, no matter how bad it is, into the unknown.

To fundamentally strip yourself from everything familiar, yet still fundamentally wrong about yourself and almost recreate yourself from scratch, body, attitudes and even identity, it's terrifying as shit.

And yet, if you don't do it, you'll suffocate and die, if not in body, in spirit certainly.

Even if you're afraid, you have to be yourself. There's no worse death than dying inside because you are not yourself.

Even if not everything at once, take at least one step. You deserve to be yourself.

I Saw The TV Glow is so important to me because the most terrifying thing i ever did, was transition. i knew i wanted it more than anything, i spent 10 years learning everything there was to know about hrt and the effects it would have and saving up all my money. i cried after getting my prescription because it was the happiest i had ever been but also because i was so /scared/. i took my weekly shot for MONTHS being terrified of how everything would change, all the while i knew i would die without it. i was terrified of the same effects i was counting down the days for.

and i never told anyone because i was afraid saying i was scared meant people would think i didnt want it enough, that i was lying. it's so cathartic to see a portrayal of being trans, and acknowledging that, as being /scary/.

transitioning (to me) IS burying yourself alive and feeling insane, hoping you're doing the right thing but knowing you have to anyways because you'll suffocate if you dont.

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Organised crime? Nah girl I'm into disorganised crime. If a goon doesn't have ADHD they aren't getting hired

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A lot of viewers are expecting an easy resolution. Some closure to the emotional wringer they went through.

I saw the TV glow doesn't close the door to a positive outcome, but also doesn't shortcut it. Instead, it lets us see how many years it can take in some cases to come to terms with it.

Isabel's story is not a cautionary tale (at least, not in its entirety). It's also a portrait of what it's like to not understand and/or not having the courage to be yourself.

There's a lot of pain, but also, a lot of hope.

Within discussion of I Saw The TV Glow, I hear a lot of people frame the plot as a kind of "darkest timeline" or "bad future" for a trans person, but I think this misses the truth of it.

For a huge amount of trans people in our society, this is just how it goes (in an emotional sense). Spending years of your life denying yourself your true identity isn't a worst case scenario or an alternative bad future so much as a commonplace occurrence.

Jane set out to rewrite the often simplistic and white-washed stories of trans people's transition, not because they have no interest in trans joy or something, but just because treating transition as a binary process, where you start out as one thing and inevitably become this other thing, just isn't how it is for most people.

I know for myself that I spent years living in limbo with seemingly no direction or hope for myself, and the only thing that kept me going was the vague hope that I would figure myself out at some point, that being a man would make sense eventually, that I would discover my perfect career, perfect degree, etc. But it never happened.

Simultaneously, understanding why Isabel's story is just a rather commonplace occurrence for trans people is key to understanding why so many people see hope in the ending. If the intention really was to basically do a "Don't Do Repression" PSA about what happens if you don't transition, then there would be no hope by default, because the intention would be just to show the worst possible outcome.

But seeing as this is just a realistic story for many trans people at some point in their lives, then the ending is truly meant to leave you with a sense of ambiguity, where the ending is completely up to the viewer to decide. Many do spend years in that hole of dissociation and grief for lost time before they eventually escape. Or maybe they don't, but the point is that this isn't actually a permanent failure state for most trans people.

It feels like death, it feels like the end, it feels like you're never going to be happy or hopeful again. Then one day you are, and who you were back then suddenly ceases to matter.

And then you are beginning another season.

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i can't wait for their friendship to be put through the wringer

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Organised crime? Nah girl I'm into disorganised crime. If a goon doesn't have ADHD they aren't getting hired

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package deal

from this draft:

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Came to me in a dream