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So blessed to have Daryl in my life. Wait.. mag bisaya lang ko karon lol. Di ko kalimot di ko ganahan nya kay ga base rako sakong mga nadunggan. 😅 Hantod sa nag share sya about himself, about sa iyang past, ug sa mga present na panghitabo ato na time. The more I got to know him personally, I realized I was so wrong for judging him based lang sa mga giingon sa ubang tawo about him. I realized naging one-sided ko and I felt bad kay naging judgmental kos tawng di pa jud nako ka close and wa ko kybaw sa tanan nyang gipagdaanan. Kapoy na type so mu skip nalang ko. Lol. So yeah, grabe, after all I’ve been through and I know most of you wa kybaw sa mga gipagdaanan nako sauna - mga nahitabo sakoa na wa ko natagaan og hustisya, etc. Now, God gave me someone who treats me like a queen. Tanan gusto nako since uyab pami hantod ron, iya nang ihatag (food na sya ha, di ko materialistic lol). Grabe iyang respeto sakoa and tanan na deserve para sa babae, iyang gipakita ug gihatag. Samot na ron na minyo nami mas misamot pa iyang pag alaga. He loves me in ways that other men didn’t. Na appreciate kaayo nako sya and sa tanan nyang gibuhat. I thought wa nay muabot na tamang lalake for me but naa jud diay plano si God sakoa. Worth it kaayo ❤️ Tinuod jud diay na muabot ra ang right time and I’m so thankful kay God for all the blessings na gihatag Niya karon especially gibiyayaan mi’g baby. 🥺💕

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It was so fun, thanks girls 🥰

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Young, wild & free 😍

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Watch "Road Trip | Banff Cinematic Travel Video" on YouTube

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I know most of you were shocked at my weight loss. Yes, everything got smaller - shirt size was S now XXS, and waistline was 26 now 24. Forget about the bra size 😂😅 Danggg, I'm sooo petite. Wtf? Lol. I don't like being called "tiny" before but hey, you guys finally have my permission lol

To those who were complaining, stfu! To those who were asking why I got so skinny, read this.. It's kinda long.. 😅

It started in March this year. My mom and I had an issue, we could've fix it but she involved our immediate family that it gotten so big. I was so stressed that I couldn't handle it anymore so I ran away. I moved to a new city that's 6 hours drive (580.1 km) away from them. Just in 2 or 3 days after I moved, I got quarantined for 2 weeks for being in close contact with some individuals who were COVID-19 positive. It was that period when I noticed my boyfriend losing his interest in me. I asked, he denied, but boy I felt it. *sigh* Do you know how hard it is to immediately leave your 2 jobs, your friends, and moved to a different city while having bad terms with your family?

I found a job after quarantine. My family and I were finally in good terms again, yay! I was happy, I felt lighter and refreshed but unfortunately, after a week I got tested positive for COVID-19 (variant). It felt like my world turned upside down because I know I will be effin isolated. 😔 I thought I was slowly working on getting life back on track, but I was wrong. I had no idea my life is already on its way downhill again. So much has happened during my isolation, there's one night I wanted to go to the hospital because I was having a hard time breathing, I asked for help but my bf didn't care about me at all. Fuck it! It seemed like I was just a silent wind, he can't see and hear me. 💔 During those days my bf and I broke up, I also found out everything - I was living in a world full of lies, and that is more painful. I did what I think is the right thing to do, and that is to let go - the greatest act of love. Trust me, I've been through hell and back. I have past traumas, I've survived things no one should ever go through. My life has been nothing but a misery since birth. 🥺

Everything I've loved became everything I lost. I'm experiencing health and financial struggles... until now. ☹ My job got really affected because of these bs, yep I passed out while working!! When I was in the ambulance, paramedics couldn't start an IV on me because of severe dehydration. They tried looking for my veins from both of my hands tho, kept poking me over and over till they gave up lol that hurts btw!! I was diagnosed with Vasovagal / Neurocardiogenic syncope. Dr told me fainting can happen again in the future and can be worse. A lot has happened why I'm experiencing severe emotional distress, but I decided not to mention them here. I know I've been through shit, but these never happened to me before. Tbh, naa pa'y uban health related issues na wa na nako gi mention diri. Mygod, how embarrassing!! So, I finally gave up my job which I really love and came back home to my parents' place.

Too much damage has been done. I am emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically drained. I need to save myself from the dangerous person I've become. Please help me pray for my peace and complete healing. 🙏

To the guy who ruined my life, you have made me vulnerable and have opened up my wounds from the past. One day I'll get back up and hopefully forgive you even though you weren't sorry for the things you've done. I've let you go, I've set you free, I've made a lot of sacrifices for your happiness, even if it's without me. But it's alright. You know why? Because I know my worth and you don't deserve me.

I'm leaving everything behind na. God is watching. He knows everything what happened. To the person who made me walk through hell again, I didn't bother mentioning your name. You know who you are. If you get to read this, good. If not, then it's still ok. Wa na nako gisulti tanan nahitabo kay mutaas kaayo. Hehe anyway I don't wanna talk about this shit anymore. Bye!

Xoxo,

L' Vonnessa ♡

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05.24.20

📍West Kelowna, BC

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05.22.20

Always take the scenic route. #nature #shadesofgreen #longdrive #roadtrip #beautiful #explorebc #beautifulbritishcolumbia #canada

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I can wipe the tears in my eyes, but I can't wipe the tears in my heart. 😔

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Being alone in nature is so therapeutic, it makes all my troubles disappear. 🍃💚

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May 5, 2020 ~

Had a walk with friends in the morning. FYI none of us are experiencing any symptoms of CoViD-19. 😬

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“Everyday I wake up, and nothing has changed. The sun peeks through my blinds and I lay in bed, staring at the sliver of light in my room. I feel as if I’m defeated, down, dust. But everyday I pick myself up, I open the blinds and let the sun in. I make my bed, and I think ‘I’m doing this for my future self’. The present isn’t what I want it to be, but one day I will wake up, and it won’t be so hard to climb out of bed. One day I will wake up and be thankful I didn’t give up.”

-n.c. // if i can’t live for today, i can live for tomorrow

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Theres a part of me that wishes you miss me. Theres a part of me that will never stop loving you. I’m sorry. You shouldn’t have to deal with that. You shouldn’t have to live knowing that. It’s a burden. I dont want to hold you back. I want you to find happiness. But theres a part of me.