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[lynnvermi]

Graveyard Encounters: Chapter 1

Aaaah what should I do I just clicked the post button and I'm just afasflsgflsg

Hi there! If you're reading this, there's a higher likelihood that you've read my previous fic, so thank you so so so much for giving this fic a chance! The main inspiration for this fic was actually an encounter that happened to me when I visited a cemetery. Meeting someone you know at a very vulnerable place is very awkward. Another inspiration for this fic is the internet rabbit hole I fell in when I researched about death omens for analyzing Shakespeare in literature class.

Anyway, there's nothing much in this chapter, and I am writing more slowly compared to my first fic. It took me half a year to gain the confidence to even post that one hahah. I'd like to think my first fic is simply a stroke of luck, and I kinda don't have high expectations for this one either? Not that I've ever had high expectations for anything I do. I just want to write it out and let my mind's theater enjoy the scenes I've written.

As I said in my previous post, this fic will be very Dadzawa & Izuku-focused, and it's kinda darker than my first fic? If I get to stressed writing depressing stuff, I'll probably take breaks and write pure IzuEri fluff.

Aaah I'm actually kinda worried that the way I started the fic seems to... floaty? Idk how to actually write without heavy dialogue, but Aizawa is so tacit it doesn't make sense for him to ramble like Izuku and Eri did with each other. I was also contemplating on giving the gatekeeper a name, but I'm not sure if I want to make my readers learn a new OC name. As a reader, I sometimes find it hard to remember OC names. Was I too descriptive about what's going on inside Aizawa's head? it was my way of compensating how little he talks and please tell me if you think there are other ways to do this.

Aaanyway, that's a lot of rambling and if you're still reading this word vomit, you're an amazing human being because I myself cannot tolerate my own ramblings. I love you, my dear readers, and I hope to see you in the comments section <3 <3

[lynnvermi]

It's finally here!

Heavy stuff, apparently, takes a long time to write. That's a future note to myself to think twice before outlining fic like these. This post is just gonna be the fic info. There's another one just for the authors' note.

Graveyard Encounters by lynnvermi

Summary:

Aizawa Shouta has a tradition: an annual visit to Oboro's grave and a pledge to be heartless and merciless rather than watching his students die. It's hard to keep the tradition this year, though. Not with the hellspawn class that wormed into his heart nor with a certain green-haired student who he keeps spotting at the same gravesite.

Basically, it's just Dadzawa slowly becoming curious about Izuku's visits to the same cemetery as he goes to and discovering there's more to the problem child than it seems.

Fandom:

僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia

Relationships:

Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku

Minor or Background Relationship(s)

[lynnvermi]

Graveyard Encounters – A Sneak Peek

I'm writing the 2nd chapter right now, and I'll upload the fic once I'm halfway done writing the 2nd chapter, okay? Just in case spoilers are not your thing, I'll put that "keep reading" thing before the sneak peek.

Thus, when he accepted Nedzu's offer to teach in U.A., Shouta pledged to himself: never, in any circumstance, would he ever teach students only to send those youths into an early grave. Rather than being the cause of lost lives, he would rather be the cause of lost dreams – breaking the illusion of heroic ideals early on before it causes any of those children to be buried six feet under.

So, as a reminder of this pledge and why he's doing all this in the first place, Shouta set up a tradition: on the day before the first day of the new school year, he would visit the grave of Shirakumo Ooboro and pay his respects.

This is Aizawa Shouta's tradition – the same one he does every year, but the events in store this year might make his next visits diverge from said tradition.

Some things I can warn you just in case it isn't your cup of tea:

It's a cemetery, funeral, death-themed fic. There's no major character death, of course, but the fic is gonna be significantly more angsty. I actually kinda doubt that there's fluff at all?

The main relationship I'm focusing on is Dadzawa and Izuku. For reasons that will, later on, be explained in the fic, the fic is basically just Aizawa coincidentally spotting Izuku again and again in the cemetery over the course of the canon timeline

While last time I kinda bashed All Might and Nighteye, this time the scapegoat is just society itself?

There will be a bit of manipulation of canon content but not much. I'll try to stick to the canon timeline as best as I can, but there will be things that make you go "hmm, I don't think canon is that way." Especially for you who have read ahead in the manga.

This one is a bit more of a descriptive read than dialogue-heavy, I think. It's also just because Aizawa is taciturn so I can't imagine him talking a lot

Sooo..., yeah! If it's something you're interested in, uhhh, maybe tell me some things that you're expecting just from the sneak peek alone? Is there too little information? What questions have popped into your head? Some things you're hoping for in general? Maybe I can sneak some in my writing!!!

[lynnvermi]

Just finished replying to comments....

My heart, ugh, I can't– What did I do to deserve such amazing readers??

I'm so hug deprived, but aaah if you're reading this, can you just– uh, hug yourself really really tight? It's from me because you have no idea how much I wanna hug each one of you so so bad.

Sooo sooo many people are talking about my fic making them cry, and I didn't even know I had the capability of doing that at all?? I had to try so hard to stop myself from writing essays as replies because aaaaah how can I show you how much each comment means to me??? I failed to prevent them in some of them though (oops) so hahah, don't worry I even stuck a tldr at the end just in case.

Also I'm not the type to check emails on my personal account so I was cleaning it up for a zero-inbox goal the other day, and I'm getting feATURED??? IN RECOMMENDATIONS? HOW??? Someone slap me in the face because some things aren't real. Just putting it out there when I lurked in ao3 fics for bnha I always use recommendations from Bnha Bookclub Discord and also the best bnha short stories reccs (if you say you're out of fics to read but have never checked out these recommendations then you haven't run out of fics to read). I don't know how to explain the overwhelming feeling of being a part of something like that. Do you know that I have been hesitating on joining a bnha fanfic community via discord and then this happened????

aAND THEN SOMEONE GIFTED ME A WORK!!! Forkwithagun was inspired??? by the fic???? aaaah I'm making a separate post for that but uhhhh help how.... how do you people do it?? the commenting on people's works thing?? My entire attention today has just shifted into learning how to write ao3 comments just like how I spent hours on the internet researching on how to reply to comments.

Okok... wait. Deep breaths. *exhales* Okay, so three things you can expect be posted soon on this blog:

a post about the gift fic

me freaking out over ao3 statistics because aaaASHHAFGLA

and ooh want some sneak peeks on the fic I'm currently writing? Prologue is kinda long so it's immediately a first chapter. I'll write it under the post, but when I post it, I wanted to hear some things you're expecting from the sneak peek alone, if that's okay??

[lynnvermi]

Bruh wait i just read your storytime fic and now Im crying omg it just hit every feel ive got and then gave me more. Your writing is awesome and I cant wait to read more of your stuff!

Aaaah you're my first message!!! Super duper glad you liked it, and thank you sooo much for giving it a chance and reading it in the first place <3 <3 Have some tissues tho?? and some virtual cookies. I'm gonna write a sneak peek for the next fic I'm currently writing real soon and uhhh it's kinda wayyy more painful and filled with the Feels™ but yeah!! I hope to see you in my future fics if any ever strikes your fancy :DDD

[lynnvermi]

Guess who's alive?

I'd like to think it's me, but *nervous laughter* I feel 50% alive?

So... yeah, I've graduated! School's done, and I initially expect to immediately get cranking up all those productive stuff I've been itching to do because y'know those times you suppress your overly-distracted brain cells to work on an arduous task? I promised said brain cells years and years of creative expression once the whole school shenanigans are done.

The moment graduation is done and school is officially over, did I immediately start getting over to my work table and draw, write, and create all things I promised myself? NOPE! Instead, I fell into a two-week-long hibernation. I was only awake for 8 hours max., and it's mainly spent on the bed and occasionally remembering to shower and eat proper meals.

I would've stayed that way for a whole month if it weren't for my mom barging in and literally dragging me to my laptop saying "That fanfic outline about the kid and his teacher – WRITE IT!!!"

Most of the fanfic ideas I have actually serve as a bedtime story between my mom and I. I once told her a sneak peek of how my next story is gonna be and she insists on me writing it XD. And that's how the first part of the fic – the prologue, I guess? is done.

Uploading the work may take another week or two, I think, because I generally upload once I have a certain amount of chapters completed. So, you'll either hear from me from the occasional tumblr posts, or my replies to your comments which by the way holy damn your comments make it sound like I'm writing the best thing since the creation of fanfiction itself and no??? are you sure you're writing comments about the right fic???? What did I do to deserve this?? nothing- nothing at all!

*coughs* Anyway, I'll get to writing the next section of this chapter and replying to all those very, very lovely comments before I couldn't hold back my other excitement and freak out over certain... statistics in AO3. That deserves a whole separate post filled with a lot of caps lock and heart emojis.

[lynnvermi]

To write, or not to write...

Okay, calm down! I'm just torn between writing out the fic outline I've kinda completed, or to outline another fic idea that has been also floating in my head.

So... I may or may not have written another full outline for the next fic I'm writing, and... and it's more painful than the first fic I wrote?

Hopefully I'm not spoiling too much by writing this, but here's the basic premise: Aizawa keeps on spotting Izuku in the cemetery when he visits Ooboro's grave. This time I'm trying to make All Might not as bad of a person? Because the fic would involve gravesites, so there's definitely mentions of death but- like, for minor characters only. I'm pretty nervous about this fic because I needed to add OCs? Minor ones, obviously, but it's one of the major things I'm worrying about when I wrote out the outline.

Oh! Speaking of my outline....

Yeah, that's my "outline".... hahah

I was thinking of trying to not do the 5+1 thing twice in a row but I won't like that the 5+1 structure is so easy to use and straightforward. Structure brings certainty, and certainty calms me down. Take away structure (aka this fic idea) and I took a long time trying to space out how many chapters this fic should be. Based on the outline.. I'm predicting another 6-8 chapter fic. However, I don't think this one would have omake scenes like my first.

Exams are coming by the end of this month, so that's why I'm hesitant to start writing out this outline. I guess for now, I'll just continue writing out a new outline XD

[lynnvermi]

Ok Google: How Do I Title My Tumblr Posts?

Guess who had delay replying comments because of one, precious English A Individual Oral? Ladies and gentlemen and every living organism capable of comprehending this, that's me.

Every once in a while, in the midst of my frustration of why a BMW Used Car ad would correspond to a scene in a southern gothic play, I would just open my inbox, and the result is this:

That, whoever is reading this, is the most accurate depiction of my heart's internal state as I read the comments out loud. My poor mother probably thinks her daughter's circuits are malfunctioning- again.

Do you know that I really didn't know how to explain the fact that all the comments made me feel so happy and nice and aaghhh because feelings are hard to say out loud let alone type down. Like, can I just send each comment a recording of me reading out your comment and a verbal reply?? but then your poor ears would suffer from the high-pitched squealing or happy sobbing of said recording.

I don't think I'm brave enough to admit how many times I've typed this out in this week. I may or may not have spent 3 days researching on the debate on whether replying to comments is a good idea or not. Apparently some think it's boosting the amount of comments in their fic, which I didn't realize at all? because I just check my inbox and see stuff from there? I don't even know the difference between a bookmark and a subscription. But oh well, I'll just do me, I guess.

And then the moment I send back replies the replies of my replies came so fast and like- I was just refreshing my browser and literally fell off my chair because I was too excited to get a reply back and read it out loud?? Note to self: never refresh my AO3 inbox in the middle on online class.

Anyways, I gotta tell myself to be patient! School is literally ending by the end this month and I will soon be free and I'll get to actually write down comments for so many fanfics (I made a whole list!) because I devour approximately 300k words a day XD and also flesh out the next fic I'm writing. Psst, I think this one is gonna be a bit more depressing than my first?? but it may not be as long??? I probably can't say anything about the length because I myself don't know. Actually, maybe I should research on the etiquette of spoiling the fic ideas you wanna write because is telling people what I'm gonna write a good idea? aaah my head hurts from thinking, but writing this was fun enough.

[lynnvermi]

Oh, You're Here!

This is my long-winded, emotional author's note for the final chapter of Eri and Deku's Storytime!

First of all, you, my dear reader, have decided to click a link from a first-time writer in AO3 and read her word-vomit of sappiness. Well, you decided to read my fic anyway, so maybe the sappiness is tolerable? When I was writing this, I am minutes away from uploading the next chapter. I am so so nervous on what your reactions are. What are you guys going to write in the comments? What do you guys think of the ending? Is it too open-ended? Too wordy or descriptive? I usually reply back to comments with a "see you next update/chapter!", what am I supposed to say now, when I'm not really sure when the next update is?

Daydreaming has always been something I go back to when I needed comfort. I would purposely lay down hours before my appointed bedtime just to get away from the world and transport myself to the world of my dreams for those couple of hours until I fall asleep. This fic is the first one I decided to write down in an unexpected stroke of confidence. While I like creating and producing writings, art, and many others, I never found the confidence to share said creations – opting to hide it away from my surroundings and the world. After all, this fic is a piece of my feelings and soul, and I don't feel like sharing it to people physically around me who aren't close enough to be exposed to such private things about myself. Thus, the anonymity of internet platforms.

Real-life, day-to-day interactions with people is tiring, and I wanted to try connecting to people online – where there are people who would show similar interests to mine. Where I am, I'm the only one I know that enjoys what I like not that I'm brave enough to share it openly hahah, so uploading this story is a first step in building my confidence online. I didn't know how else to interact with people within the fandom because are you supposed to post an online broadcast message of "hey! I'm into this thing so contact me!!!" isn't something I think I can ever do.

Fanfiction is amazing. It allows us to take the foundations from the original piece of work and bend and shape it to be delivered in a variety of ways. It allows us to create stories that lets us think about ourselves and our place in the world as a whole. It allows us to expose certain parts of society and ourselves that we want to focus on along with difficult topics that is hard to handle in real-life conversations. Boku no Hero Academia itself as a basis of many fanfictions is amazing as well. The anime provides an allegorical perspective on discrimination and inequality and the unfairness of the world to a demographic of viewers who are relatively young.

In real-life, I don't handle compliments well. I think that's where Izuku's lack of confidence in the fic comes from, as it takes effort really wrap my head around the idea that there is something worth complimenting about what I do. The comments section is amazing. You, the one who is reading this, are amazing. Do you know how many times my heart feels like bursting out of my chest because of the amount of happiness your comments gave to me? How I would read your comments out loud again and again in hope that the excitement and giddiness bubbles down enough (it never did) to write a decent reply for each comment? How every once in a while, I would open my inbox and read each comment from the prologue until the most recent ones? I don't think words are enough to describe how much I am surprised and astounded at the way you guys have reacted to this.

So, Thank you. Really. Thank you for being so patient and anticipating each update as they come. Thank you for each press of the "Kudos" button, each subscription, each bookmark (and the things you write under said bookmark), and every single comment that has supported me, who wouldn't have known or realized what I did. Maybe, one day I would look back to this letter and see where I started gaining more and more confidence out of my shell – all because of a 7-chapter fanfiction and a group of very, very supportive readers.

If Deku is Eri's hero, and Eri is Deku's, then each of you readers are my personal heroes!!

[lynnvermi]

When you proofread by reading out loud

But then the final chapter has, like, two times the amount of words compared to the earlier chapters

It didn't take more than a couple minutes to start stumbling on my words I read. Aaaah if I can't even read it out loud properly, how are other people supposed to be able to read it???

Also cue me being a dramatic person and proceeds to fake sob as I read out Izuku's lines. The pain is very oomph. However, some sentences are just too long because I basically turned whatever movie in my head into a blob of word vomit. Do I wanna upload it immediately, or am I gonna wait a bit more? But then I don't wanna rush??

My poor, poor mouth has reread the same opening paragraphs for what? 7-8 times? Watch me be all cautious only to miss a letter or something that should be italicized.

[lynnvermi]

Sobs and Sniffles Galore!

Aaaah! I finished writing one of the longest parts of the last chapter of the fic! Oh, wait, maybe I should link the fanfic in one of my other posts later on, but I’ll do it later – I’ve got an epilogue to work on and a long chapter to proofread.

The gif above is my heart when I read the fanfic out loud while I was writing it. Actually, I’m kinda worried for this chapter’s length- there’s waaay more descriptions and long paragraphs. Aaah what if I described too much in detail and bore my readers? What is the pronouns are unclear and no one who’s doing or saying what? Also, I haven’t told anyone about this account, but I’ll probably mention it to this user named purpleshadow who first gave the idea of a tumblr account. When I upload the final chapter, I will link this tumblr in the author’s note? I was planning to maybe say generic “thank you”s on the end notes and blabber more on Tumblr. This way, I don’t clog up the author’s note with monologues from my sappy, emotional self, and it makes me feel more safe too -- knowing that people need to click certain links before accessing this blog.

I spend so much time looking for a quote suitable for this chapter. I was thinking of using Shakespeare, but I’ve used Hamlet and “too, too, sullied flesh” is just depressing. I tried quotes from Arisotle and Plato along with more contemporary writers like Fitzgerald, Hemingway, and Dickinson, but it lacks that conclusive feeling because the final quote should be special, doesn’t it? Then I realized: let’s just use a quote from BNHA. Will it be cringey? Probably. But does it tell you “all right last chapter, here we go”? To me, yeah.

Welp, I have one last section to work on, which is our baby Izuku’s letter to Eri. I’m still crossing my fingers in hope that the final chapter will be received well.

[lynnvermi]

Uh, Hi?

Hahah, I have no idea what I’m doing

Well, hello there! Call me Lynn (she/her) and I am currently reaching the finish line of my school days. I had always been too anxious to be active enough in any social media platform until I posted my very first fan-fiction on AO3. I usually lurk in the shadows of the internet – becoming one of those anonymous viewers that leaves as fast as they come. 

The main reason for creating this blog is simply to create a way for me to talk more with all the amazing people who have been giving me all these comments in my fanfic (if they want to, of course). However, a small voice in my head just tells me to write whatever I feel like writing and posting whatever I feel like posting. Maybe this will be a good way to practice online interactions on other social media platforms, as others seems too big, crowded, and hectic compared to tumblr. Then again, this is my lack of knowledge in social media platforms speaking.

I think I’ve enabled the “ask” feature, so I think that’s how you interact with me? Yep- I’m utterly clueless. Talk to me about anything! Actually, if you have any ideas on how to properly start using Tumblr (or social media in general, actually) or anything that will allow me to interact with you better, please please let me know!