m0llyander

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[m0llyander]

25.03.2024

I am very proud of myself. I lost 600g since yesterday. I walked a lot and did some exercises! I will hit the 60kg goal in this week. I can feel it!

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me when i gain 0.2 lbs

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y’all i REALLY need to finish this diet

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My story with Ana

(storytime / vent) tw Ed, drug abuse, mental and physical abuse

Perhaps, sorry for misspellings. English isn't my first language.

First of all, I am molly, 22 years old and I have a Ed since I am 13 years old.

I was always the fat child, the ugly one. That was a dare to boys. I was heavily overweighted. I was brutally bullied back in school.

People threw stones on me, laughing at me and beat me up. It was terrifying for me and i needed to switch schools.

I was in a bit abusive home, my mom was a drug addict back then (she is finally sober!) and my sister were always in some problems (she killed herself 2019)

After I was in that school for a while, nobody but one guy made fun of my weight. Then something switched.

I never wanted to be the bully victim again, so I found this old ana letter what were a thing.

Ana immediately took me in, my whole life was curving about Ana. I lost in the first month 20lbs. Immediately everyone were Nicer to me. Boys even had a crush on me for the first time. Once in my life, I felt in control. That something was only in my hands. I felt in love with Ana so much, I can't even describe it.

After a or two years I lost 40lbs and felt better than ever. But then I met the wrong people and became a alcoholic. I used a lot of drugs like speed, mdma and weed.

After I overcame that, my sister took her own life. At the same time my ex abusing me sexual and mentally. He took my guilt and suffer for make me alcoholic again.

And a lot of more happend. I am clean now, so I did that very good.

All the time, ana was by my side and made me feel in control in some way.

Sorry for that vent, but I feel very bad for a while now.

Xoxo, keep going guys

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Some current faves 🖤

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Just for myself

Height: 1.63m

Current weight: 63, 3kg

GW 1: 60kg

GW 2: 55kg

GW 2: 50kg

Complete GW: 45kg

Wish me luck guys 😭