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Lately I've wanted to give up on everything in my life but my boyfriend.

I wouldn't mind to quit uni, even though I have one month left to finish my career, but it has really messed me up.

I never thought i would like to hurt myself again, and even kill myself, it wouldn't matter if I do it, but i love so freaking much my boyfriend, I won't leave alone my dog and I know it will messed up with my cousin, she is like my sister and my best friend.

So, I'm here, trying my best, that I know it's not my best, and probably i will have to do a lot of changes to finally have my project approved, and its the thing that its killing me.

I really don't know what to do with my life, to continue or just stop everything that doesn't help my mind.

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I know i'm no eating like I should, and i gave myself the excuse of being occupied with my final project from uni.

But today i got 2 red stretch marks in my stomach, just killed me, all day, because i don't even have that many normal stretch marks, and to find out that I have red ones, it just kills me.

And I know that if you have stretch marks it's not a problem, it's normal, but my mom has made me hate myself, hate my body, and I've been trying to love myself and I have done it for the past years, but with the stress of uni, binging like never before and now this, just makes me feel awful, I hate these, i hate myself and I know it's going to kill me for the rest of the year

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I'm binging again, gaining weight, and I just don't have the time to really take care of myself because of uni, this is going to really fuck my life

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I'm falling for him