mari-0910

[mari-0910]

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

[mari-0910]

unfortunately, I'm very much still alive and kicking.

[mari-0910]

Is it possible to feel so lonely despite being around people?

[mari-0910]

Mental health getting so bad, I'm self sabotaging and ending all of my remaining friendships.

[mari-0910]

- I Guess the Old You is a Ghost (#589: June 25, 2014)

[mari-0910]

The feeling of emptiness when you're with people.

The gut wrenching feeling when people are happy.

The feeling when people ask the heart pounding question "Are you okay?".

The feeling someone is looking at you even at your own home.

The feeling when someone ask what's wrong with you.

The feeling of waking up.

The feeling you'll never recover.

[mari-0910]

i need to (remembers that suicide jokes only hurt yourself and those around you) fag it up

[mari-0910]

I really want to end it all right now, its so damn tiring. What's the point in living anyways? I can't even bring myself to seek help anymore, why bother asking for help? I should just end it all, why i am hesitating? I am already tired, i don't see myself getting better either.

[mari-0910]

having access to things that can kill me is so comforting

[mari-0910]

Living just keeps getting harder by the day, I don't know if i can keep going like this. I hate going to school. The way people look at me is so suffocating. The way people talk about me. Why do i have to suffer like this? Is liking someone a crime now? Just because i liked a guy? School isn't fair, they only got off with a warning. I can't even bring myself to look at people anymore, i feel like i am the one at fault, and not the victim with the way people look at me.

I hate highschool.

[mari-0910]

I thought that everything was going great and i was getting better, then everything started to go downhill again.

[mari-0910]

why is my mind trying to kill me

its a genuine illness to be living and simultaneously battling the other half of myself from self destructing

[mari-0910]

will someone end my life PLEASE

[mari-0910]

I don’t want to be another mistake in someones live.

[mari-0910]

the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day

[mari-0910]

[mari-0910]

they said it’d get better, it’s been years and it’s still the same