matildeheckler

[matildeheckler]

hi tumblr! thought dump time.

won’t even lie i’m back on tumblr now to seek refuge from the tiktok ban. shoutout my middle school years. feeling very mixed about it. i lost a major platform that took me years to build, reaching new people everyday, at a rate that is really hard to replicate. not to mention the deeper issue at hand of the government censoring the media we consume in one form. hoping i can find my people on here <3

going to share music, art, my process, etc etc with you guys. there’s not many of you now but hey to the few!

so hey! i’m matilde, i make music. i make art. i play violin, i write songs. i scream sometimes. i enjoy long wanders and matcha lattes (basic). i have a cat named blair (maybe i’ll insert an image) who is my pride and joy (see inserted image below)

my songs aim to build sonic homes for people who grew up sideways, for those who need to scream, for those who love their cat, for those who have a hard time dealing with the constant passing of time, etc.

this song is my most recent, called bodybag! i hope you like it as much as i do. it has cool violin lines that i wrote and i love the lyrics and i love the cover art and it feels so uniquely me.

going to my friends place for breakfast today. that should be nice. i hope you have a good day too. xoxo

-matilde

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digicam takes

thinking about a lot today

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<3 bodybag mentioned

my favourite releases from 2024

Knocked Loose - You Won’t Go Before You’re Supposed To

Sabrina Carpenter - Short n Sweet

Magdalena Bay - Imaginal Disk

(LOCAL) Vacant Space - Lunch Break

Dora Jar - No Way To Relax When You Are On Fire

Doechii - Alligator Bites Never Heal

Charli XCX - Brat

(LOCAL) Weekend Goodbye - Baby Teeth

Megan Thee Stallion - MEGAN: ACT II

Ally Evenson - BLUE SUPER LOVE

Clairo - Charm

Fontaines DC - Romance

Chappell Roan - Good Luck Babe

Double Standard - Crush

SOFT PLAY - HEAVY JELLY

(LOCAL) CJ Wiley - Cheap Therapy

Annie DiRusso - Legs

Your Arms Are My Cocoon - death of a rabbit

homewrecker. - fall (split)

Oxis - Oxis 6

Griff - Vertigo

rosie - SYRINGA

Chloe Slater - You Can’t Put A Price On Fun

Matilde Heckler - bodybag

VIAL - burnout

Natalie Madigan - Hell Of A Dream

(LOCAL) Luella - Summer Bummer

Hana Eid - I Exist Because You Say So

Connie Campsie - Burner

(LOCAL) Bestfriend - WHY DO WE DO THIS?

Hinds - VIVA HINDS

Quivers - Oyster Cuts

Khatumu - hunting days

(LOCAL) Sunnsetter - I ACTUALLY DONT WANT TO DIE

The Dare - What’s Wrong With New York?

(LOCAL) Jacob’s Ladder - Sickness

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the perfect song to stare at a wall to

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this next song is deeply personal & about a time in my life that i wanted to rip out of my journal and burn. feels cyclical to write about it on tumblr. story will come soon. very excited. some lyrics below.

bruised lips, numb hands, biting my tongue

i’m driving blindly on back roads at home

lean out the window, her hands down my throat

cans line the couch, washing his mouth out with soap

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sucking the feelings! straight into my skull!!

been trying to capture the feeling of the constant hum inside of my body with words. it’s so hard to do. my feelings consume me with a fire that i cannot quite explain. it feels like an orb inside of me. but also not.

my big emotions are a blessing and a curse. i love and i feel and i appreciate and i hurt and i cry so deeply but i also love and i feel and i appreciate and i hurt and i cry so deeply.

when i was a kid people used to say i was wise beyond my years and so grown up for my age! i fear i was just consumed by emotions too big for my small body and maturity was the only way i could cope. i yearn for the child that was dampened so many years ago. i’d like to think she’s still in me somewhere.

weee wooooo. émotions. thoughts.

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getting too old for the crash & the burn

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had to purge my account out of fear that everyone would see what i reposted 10 years ago

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i’ve got a bitter taste that’s stuck inside my mouth

notes of last year touch my tongue i rinse and spit it out

hide the body in my closet in a bag shaped like myself

shed my skin, my bones, my vision set the corpse up on my shelf