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Cravings

I really want chocolate,but instead I ate an orange. I know I should be proud, but I'm also a little sad. My cheat day is on Saturday. I'm going to try not to go overboard, but I can't make any promises. With that being said I have been eating better since the New Year. But damn I still want the junk food.

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Weight loss and Animal Crossing

Animal Crossing is my new obsession( sorry Pokemon). I got it for Christmas, and I am hooked. Also, for the first two weeks of owning it, was responsible for a large chunk of my inactivity. To be fair, I was technically the one responsible; I could have put the game down any time I wanted. But it is so damn addictive.

This past week or so I have been playing a lot less. I have also decided that I am not allowed to use my game until evening/night. This is to ensure I actually get some activity in my day, even if its just to do some cleaning. A daily walk or workout would be preferable. Playing towards the evening makes it into a treat, something to look forward to after a job well done.

Also, this is beneficial in helping me get a job. Searching/applying for a job is the only way its going to happen because,as far as I know ,the good people of England don't give away jobs. Though ,admittedly, that would be pretty rad. 

I've kept to my diet fairly well, though I really messed up over the weekend. I had two cheat days, which were more of a feast than a treat. Every other day I've stayed under 1700 calories, and most day under 1600. I decided to have one cheat day a week, and to aim for it not to be a binge.

On a side note: I can't wait to unlock Shampoodles in my game. This should be happening any day now. My Character is darling, but girlfriend needs better hair. 

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Dealing with my problems

Today I woke up to a frantic email from my mother. I won't get into too much detail, as it's personal, but it involves family issues. Oh, and I was accused of lying. It hurt my feelings, and made me angry that I could be hurt from half way around the world.

I had a few bad hours, and did end up crying, but I stuck to my diet and only had one cigarette. To me this is a big deal; self medicating is a major problem for me. I also stayed close to my 1600 calorie goal(went over by about 22), and managed to eat healthy. I was also able to email my mom back,and defend myself like an adult,rather than ignoring the issue at hand.

One of my biggest downfalls is takeout,which seems to be a staple of the English diet. I used to have no problem gorging on fish and chips, Indian, pizza, or Chinese. Usually our orders contained a main,as well as a few sides. And on more than one occasions dessert. I turned down the chance to get delivery tonight, and my guy and I got healthier food from the market.One day I will treat myself to some unhealthy stuff, but since it is so soon into my diet, I would take it as a set back.

It's too soon to tell, but I have a feeling I am going to be successful this time. Even If I'm not ,I won't go down without a fight. Losing weight is hard, but little victories make it easier.

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This is my exercise of choice. I jog in place when it becomes too difficult. My goal is to someday be able to finish it, without modifications.

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This commercial has made me irrationally angry, because it's been playing non-stop since New Years. I never thought an ad about dieting would make my diet more stressful.

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Starting Point

I've never been skinny,and I'm not sure I want to be, but at 25 being overweight is tiring. I'm really sick over being self concious, and not being able to wear what I want. Sure, there are cute clothes that come in my size, but I don't feel brave enough to rock them. Also, I'm so unfit it's a joke. I only get of the couch to charge my 3ds. Constantly feeling like crap has motivated this change.

A few days ago I brushed off the ol' calorie count account to keep track of my eating and exercise. I also decided to start this blog to keep track of my progress and, hopefully, connect with others who want to motivate, lose weight, or are just interested in what i have to say. My goal is to eat between 1600-1700 calories a day, and try to exercise 3-5 days a week. Also no coffee or soda for me , from now on I'm going to try to stick to green tea and water. Oh and I'm 5'8 and weigh just shy of 190lbs.

So far its going good but last night I dreamt I was surrounded by my favourite junk food and I had a massive binge fest. I woke up feeling really guilty,then relived it didn't happen. This dream is not unusual for me; I usually get it a few days into my diet. Does this happen to anyone else?  I have a weird relationship with food. Its all or nothing for me; either unhealthy large portions or not enough. I'm suprised I am eating 1600 calories a day on my diet. In fact I feel a little guilty about it. At the same time I have been tired and hungry the past few days, which is indicative of how much I ate about a month prior to doing this. I think its really telling that I have been craving chocolate more than cigarettes.