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It's not enough. it's not enough it's not enough it's not enough. I'm terrified. I'm tired. I need assistance but I need to not ask for assistance

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nah same here

does boredom only make me su*cidal?

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I'm like, miserable right now, like I'm just really fuckings bored, like I cannot express my frustration right now. I want to end this I'll end myself — anything but this.

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the silence is screaming

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I feel like people should legally be allowed to murder me

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fuck I started thinking about people standing up for me. about getting (social/psychological) support and (social) protection. send help

my heart bleeds. why do I have to have needs. why must they never be met

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song lyrics art (drawn by me, songs listed)

the songs:

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Forcing myself each day to grasp the ungraspable

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any reason to hate yourself is so stupid tbh

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I wonder if there's a reason I keep having like intense emotions doing schoolwork.

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I hate my mom so much

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I don't know what's wrong, but something is very wrong

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I can't help thinking back to things that might not have been malicious, but most definitely could be malicious.

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maybe I'm my own greatest fear

maybe I'm just scared to admit that

I might not be as dark as I think

maybe I'm not the person

that I never wanted to be

- art school wannabe by sorority noise

being afraid of who you are when you're really not that bad.

I think my fear of myself sabotages my friendships.

I'm probably missing something. But it might just be an inability to just let things be.

maybe friendships don't need to last.

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I just tried reading my journal from June and 😬 never again. it's both sad seeing my hopes that ended up uhh not being realistic at all and seeing my phase of leaning in to "everything matters" type bs. fun fact: not everything means something.

I could elaborate, but yeah no

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Why am I always wrong and bad...