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Ugh woke up with a massive headache and forgetting like five fucking things on the morning of graduation this are going great for me. At least look cute in my kimono and hakama

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I think I should cut. It’d be real cutie pilled of me and remind me life sucks

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Mental illness says we’re gonna play copious amounts of modded Stardew to live out my yuri fantasies instead of get the massive, important projects for class done this last week. Which only increased my stress I was avoiding. Gods I hate my brain.

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“You shouldn’t self-ID as ADHD/autistic, you’re turning a very real mental condition into a trend” Ok then stop saying delulu. Stop speculating on which cluster C personality disorder the criminals you hear about on the news have. Stop saying “schizoposting” and “acoustic” and “is it restarted?” Stop using “psycopath” and “sociopath” as catch-all ways of calling someone a bad person. Stop saying “the intrusive thoughts won” when you bleach your hair and then turn your nose up at people who suffer from very real, very scary urges of physical/sexual violence. Stop saying “I’m so OCD” as a way of calling yourself neat. Stop treating BPD/ASPD/Bipolar as inherently abusive. Stop saying “OP I am living in your walls” without tagging for unreality. Stop diagnosing complete strangers you’ve never met on r/AITA with NPD.

You first. If you don’t want our disabilities to be treated like trends then stop belittling and minimising them. I’ll NEVER judge a person for trying find labels for their symptoms when an apathetic, racist, sexist, ableist healthcare system refuses to. But I will absolutely judge a hypocrite. Which a lot of you are

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i have an overwhelming amount of hatred for autism research because all they fucking care about is finding out the "cause" of autism. i am so sick and tired of having to educate every single professional I encounter about the barest basics of my disability I am TIRED.

Someone please just do a study that's like "Sensory overload is a thing for autism and it has these effects! This is how long it can take to recover! This is the kinds of things that can set it off! This is how it affects the ability to function!" Please please please I am tired of trying to explain to people that sensory overload doesn't immediately stop when the stimulus is removed and that seriously overextending my processing of stimuli will take multiple days to recover from.

Neurotypical folks don't have any intuitive sense of what things will cause sensory overload and a limited concept that this is different for every autistic person. Why is there no recognition of the need in research to define the scope and variety of autistic people's struggles so clinicians can actually help them.

No, the researchers are too busy studying social behavior in fucking zebrafish to discover the "autism gene." Autism speaks and its ilk can die in a fire

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Why was i born in the wrong body

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i'm not rotting in my bedroom i'm a princess locked in a castle

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Nobody is saying that people with cluster B disorders can't be bad people. We're not saying they can't abuse, that they can't manipulate, that they can't hurt people.

we're saying it's not their disorder that causes the abuse. it's their choices. my disorder might amplify those bad thoughts - as does any disorder - but it is still me that has chosen to behave badly in that moment, even if unconsciously.

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Love depression and having a breakdown at work earlier because of an email, feeling a bit better now but I was close to cutting and honestly kinda wanna still. Shit sucks I need a girl to fix me already

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she just like me she just like me fr

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You are going to laugh until your stomach hurts again. You're going to be in awe of a sunset. Watch your favorite show while you eat your favorite food. Find money on the street. Discover a great band you haven't heard of before. You will find your way back.

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Sometimes when you have BPD you're not always the victim. I've self sabotaged every relationship I've had because, I don't think I deserve a good guy. My actions have hurt people and inconvenienced people and, ain't nobody to blame but myself. Sometimes I'm my worst enemy, I'm out to get myself.

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Hard BPD truth, sometimes it is your fault, I know it hurts, but it's your fault.

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I need people to understand that sometimes autism is just this