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Is there a Nu:Carnival fandom here on Tumblr?

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Thoughts on Alice in Chains?

Alice deserves to be free

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hello all. i have an announcement. everyone please preemptively cheer.

i am all caught up on homework now!!!

i got overwhelmed and some personal shit happened and i had to get extensions on my gender studies paper and two assignments and an essay for my academic writing course… but i have now completed them all!!

the pain in my neck and shoulders is fading! finally i can relax!! i’ve been so stressed about this stuff for like three weeks and now it’s finally all finished and submitted and i can forget all about it.

i even got back my mark for my gender studies critical reflection… 95%!!! that is so sick!!! i would have been satisfied just to pass but 95 makes me so happy.

and honestly, i deserve it. i worked hard and that shit was pretty good i think.

anyways i still have upcoming assignments but i’m no longer behind in any of my classes and that makes me feel very relieved and content, which i haven’t felt for a long while now.

i mean… i’m still a tad stressed because my second biology midterm is this friday… and i am actually not very smart and have a bad memory and a hard time conceptualizing biology stuff…. and i’ve been focused on my other classes so i haven’t studied much…… and my professor is not great at teaching and i can never understand anything he’s talking about and he never describes things very well or how they relate to each other and he provides less than bare bones notes to follow along but taking good notes is basically impossible because his teaching style is so bizarre and he constantly goes off on tangents in the middle of explaining something so by the time he gets back to the point i’m totally lost so all i have to go on is the textbook which he does not follow so not everything he talks about is even in the textbook so i don’t know if it matters enough to be on the exams because he literally constantly will go on tangents and then be like “but that’s not a part of this course, that’s just trivia you don’t need to know”. LIKE? GIRL! TELL ME THAT BEFORE YOU SAY IT!

okay. taking a deep breath. i don’t have to worry about this until tomorrow evening when i get home. there is nothing i can do about this so i am going to completely forget about it now so i can chill and smoke weed and sleep.

this still feels like a win! especially after ranting a bit! yayyy!!

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Trying to jerk off quietly but my tail is wagging so much U can hear it thumping against the wall

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Hi there - re: your stance on proshipping, doesn't Nu Carnival have elements in it that could be considered problematic? Aster fits pretty neatly into the 1000-year-old loli/shota trope, and consent in intimacy/H-scenes is sometimes rather dubious. Are these somehow not problematic things? And if they are problematic, doesn't continuing to play the game while acknowledging that basically constitute taking a proship stance toward it?

Alright. I'm not targeting this specifically at anon, but I am really sick and tired of Aster being called shota bait so I thought I'd put that to rest with a little anatomy lesson. Bit of a lengthy post ahead

I'm going to be using this image as a reference, since it lists all the measurements needed in making an anatomically accurate adult male. While the origin of the image is a little old, the measurements are still used today so I believe it can still be applied:

These are all those measurements applied to Aster. Specifically, his default sprite:

Woah. Seems like a lot, right? Let's go step by step, then. Or rather, list item by list item. Click on each image to see them in full. It's also important to note right off the bat that each line is EXACTLY THE SAME LENGTH, and each line is THE SIZE OF ASTER'S HEAD

"An adult stands 7 to 8 heads tall" - Color coding each line to make things easier to see, if we count all those lines up from the top of his head (hat not included) to the bottom of his feet, we have 7 lines. 7 heads. Anatomically correct for an adult male

"The width of a man's chest (under the arms) is equal to the width of his hips" - Aster is standing at an angle so I can't give 100% exact measurements in this particular part, but he's close enough to be forward-facing that it's safe to assume his measurements line up. Even if they're not exactly the same, the difference in length between his chest and his hips are not apparent enough to say that his proportions are childlike rather than adultlike

"The crease at the inside of the elbow will be near the waistline" - Seems to check out here too!

"The distance from the elbow to the finger tips is 2 heads" - Since Aster's hand is at an angle, I added a third little line to connect his finger tips to the tip of the other white line (which, bringing this up again, is the same length as his head.) Using a ruler to keep the lines perfectly straight, I was able to successfully connect the lines together, checking off this box as well

"The length of the head, the length of the inner forearm, and the length of the foot are equal" - These seem to match up as well, though his foot might be a liiiiiittle bit smaller

"The distance from the heel to the knee is 2 times the length of the foot (2 heads)" - If you look back at the reference image I'm using, "heel to knee" refers to the heel of the foot to the very beginning of the knee — meaning at the very very bottom. My measurements seem to match up to that as well... And that checks off all the boxes on the list

Conclusion:

Aster is proportionally correct for an adult male. He is just short. Short men exist.

On top of that, children are typically drawn with chubby, rounded features. Aside from his thighs and hips, Aster's design uses a lot of sharp lines to accentuate his features — such as a sharp jawline and sharp, slender fingers

One might argue that his voice is high pitched, so he must still be shota bait... But men can have high pitched voices too. Anyone can. Men are more likely to have deep voices, yes, but it's not a guarantee that all men will have deep voices

One also might argue that Aster is childish but... Is he really? Sure, he acts cutesy, but that's to get attention from people (especially Eiden.) That's really the only childish personality trait about him. Other than that, Aster is a natural leader. He's demanding, he's business-minded, and he's sly. Aster has no issue taking charge and giving instructions. After all, he's been the owner of the mansion ever since Huey left AND he's the owner of several businesses all throughout Klein. He spends most of his time working and doing business-related tasks. Hell, one of the things he complains about is how much work he has each day, but he knows it has to get done

"But he likes cute things!!!" You can be an adult and like cute things

Honestly, I see no reason why anyone would genuinely believe he's shota bait other than he's short, likes pink, and likes cute things. Those are all traits that can be seen in an adult. Traits that don't take away the fact that someone looks and acts like an adult

This isn't targeted at anon but tbh... People who insist Aster is shota bait are weird bro. Why are you so determined to say this is a sexualized child?

Side Note:

You mentioned that there are moments of dubious consent in some h scenes, and I agree. Especially with Edmond and Karu who are typical tsunderes, sometimes their scenes start off a little iffy. I am in no way saying that those moments are totally fine, but it is important to note that every single one of those scenes quickly escalates to them expressing their pleasure both physically AND verbally. They start the scenes aroused and okay with the idea of sex, but their tsundere nature can makes the consent come off as dubious — I get that. Though I don't recall ever seeing a scene were consent is explicitly ignored or consent is forced. Eiden is a very patient and understanding man, and he's shown that he will stop if his partner truly doesn't like what he's doing. So while the consent can be dubious at times, I wouldn't say it's entirely problematic

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Catherynne M. Valente, from The Bread We Eat in Dreams; "The Red Girl," published in 2013

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the home he hates.

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I keep getting posts about “how to cope with failing an exam” and idk think it’s tumblr’s way of telling me to lock the fuck in otherwise i’d be looking for these posts in 3 weeks ;-;

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Bethany what are your thoughts on forcefem? @isuggestforcefem

An Evil Dream but a good one indeed

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things are not completely hopeless!

i am using my academic and technical writing course notes to help me write my gender studies paper on gender nominalism vs gender realism and whether or not gender is real (i think it’s not (obviously, i’m literally a genderfluid person)).

in my writing course we read a passage from a book that provided templates for how to introduce a conversation about any topic and it is saving my ass from having a meltdown over which transitional phrases to use where and how to start my paragraphs. it is amazing. yay templates!

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if the library were open 24/7. i would accomplish so much.

all of my assignments would be done at the library at 11:45pm and i wouldn’t have to suffer through trying to wake up in the morning to go out and do homework…

i would leave the house at like 4pm but still have many hours to do all my homework… but at home everything feels overwhelming and impossible.

i just want to spend my life at the public library is that too much to ask !!!??!

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So basically dating Mothman would be great

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"my daughter is completely fine" your son is whimpering and whining and barking and begging to be fucked by mean trans girls and the most loser boy trans boys to ever exist.

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cant post

suffering through uni

i feel like im drowning in google docs files

here are my hot girl pics of the night

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like, my parents were 27 when i was born. and whenever i look at old pictures of them with me as a baby i am still like, those are my parents. like yea that's my mommy, even though i am now older than she is in those pictures. no matter how much time passes they are always going to feel older than me, even in those pictures. and that's how it is for dean and sam, though even moreso because mary never ages beyond those photos. they only ever know her as a young adult. and she's still their mommy, even as they get older than her. she's always going to be their mom. and they're not insane for seeing her, resurrected, and now younger than them, and still thinking "mom." and this is the hill i will live on, build a beautiful house on, and take others down on.

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junji ito’s graphic novel rendition of no longer human by osamu dazai totally fits here too. that shit had me feeling every negative emotion

The Dark Sh*t •ᴗ•

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