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September 23rd

So yesterday, I tried prepping to stream for the first time. I have already come to the conclusion that nothing will go right and i just need to start now and fix later. I have had this beefy computer since black friday last year and am finally getting a chance to use it to its full capacity. I organized my desk which was sorely needed for leg room issues, but when it came to just pressing the button, i couldnt. I kept looking at the clock and trying to time manage with things like dinner, or when my wife would get home, and kept psyching myself out that it would not work out. So instead of streaming for hours, I played with no audience for hours instead. It did feel good of course to get lost in another world, but then you look and its 2am and realize you have to be up early for the first time since you lost your job.

Doing things like driving everyday are underappreciated honestly. Everytime I go a week without driving, I have to acclimate to the car and being on the road with people. I make simple mistakes and cause issues for my wife. She always gives me this look that says “i knew i should have drove.” The thing is i need that time to acclimate or it wont get the gears turning again. Its the same with applying for jobs, if you havent done it in a long time, its going to go poorly at the start and really just kill your confidence. Especially when the rejection emails start coming in, those sting pretty bad. I found a game company that recently moved in to SFL and I was shocked! We have no video game production studios anywhere. So I applied for the only position I was qualified for. Immediately I get back a response that I dont have enough experience in the video game industry. Well no shit, you need to work in the video game industry to have experience in the video game industry. I sure as hell wont take an unpaid internship to gain experience. That is ludacris when bills are a thing. So then what the hell can I do? The last 2 jobs I have taken were for gaining experience in the gaming industry, and they amount to absolutely nothing to employers.

I feel like im trapped sometimes. All the jobs I do want are in LA, Seattle, New York, hell even Atlanta. My wife’s job is here in SFL, so what am I supposed to do? Tell her to get a job somewhere else? I cant do that to her. It would not be fair. I could leave for some time to one of those states but then I would miss her and be paying rent on 2 different locations. Not a very practical thing. She says she would follow me where ever I would go, but I know she doesnt want to leave. I have to find a way to win here at home. Alternative ways to make money are possible. I just need to apply myself more and more and I can make it. Hopefully…

Thanks for reading,

Chris.

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September 22nd

To stay consistent with these blogs I am hoping to start writing very frequently. After I lost my job, my mind went to a really dark place. Luckily I have a wife and a group of loving friends to back me up. When things get tough it's possible to rely on them. But my mind won't let me. Instead it holds everything in, thoughts cause me to sink deeper and deeper into worrying waters. Waters so deep and black you can't see just below the surface. Phrases like “im fine” and “don't worry” are all that come out. I am by no means self harming, but I worry if I dont pull myself out of this nosedive that I will head in that direction. When things get tough or I need to get out of my head, distractions like video games get my focus on things other than the thoughts that bubble up when I am alone in my silence. 

This is my new normal. I do not know how long this will last, but I need to get a job soon. Therapy needs to be my immediate first step once I secure the job. That was the plan with this previous job. The insurance was awesome, but having to share a car with my wife prevented me from having time to get to an appointment. I was starting to see the sun on the horizon when it was all snatched. Literally the week that my wife got a new mode of transportation from her job, the company canned me. I have been at fault for getting up late of course, but the job had an “laxed start time” so i thought nothing of it. 

Apparently that was the straw that broke the camel's back and they proceeded with termination. That word still hurts to this day. Literal heart break when i heard those words. I felt my ears swelling shut and words changed to mush when all i could ask was “why?” I think that my lead just did not like me as a person. I am really good at following directions, I am really good at picking up new information. But what I am not good at is listening apparently. Im told i am reactive, defensive, argumentative. All of the “ives”. I think that's what really lost me the job. I was not the same as him. I was outgoing and conversed with the rest of the office. I would participate in activities and conversations around the office. When it was time to work, I was fast, I got the job done correctly, and was open to criticism because I was obviously new. How would I know what's right or not? Things were great at the start but it was around the 60 day mark that it went way worse. I made the mistake of eating at my desk during breaks to have access to the internet. The optics of the situation were ultimately what led to my downfall. I took just as long a break as everyone else, but they weren't  in their first 90 days. So Monkey See Monkey Do doesn't really apply in the job world. Which is bullshit really, but what am I gonna do about it? Probably just bitch up a storm or suffocate in the voices of everything I did wrong. 

My self esteem took a huge dive.

I barely remember how I got home that day. I do remember that word though, terminating. Still like a spike in the back of my head. The pain travels straight to my heart and cuts open the scarred tissue. I get heart broken all over again. Its been happening less and less as the days go by of course. Things get easier, but that makes other things harder. I just hope things stabilize soon. This is my new normal…

Thanks for reading,

Chris.

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The new normal....

September 21st:

Today I start what will hopefully be a long and fruitful endeavor to help myself and others. I have recently lost my job in the worst way and time in my life. I left my good job of 3 years for a good reason. They did not want to promote me even though I had been there 3 years doing all that I asked. I think I was better to them as a low level tech going out to do all the grunt work. 

So when a great job opportunity came up that would not only give me a sizable money increase, but also a flexible work schedule and no manual labor, I jumped at the opportunity. Due to reasons, I was let go from the position only after 2 and a half months. I took that leap of faith and did not stick the landing. I think I forgot what it was like to start new in a company and certain things caused it to spiral out of control. It wasn't from the lack of doing my job correctly. I didnt of course have any experience in the field, but they offered to train me because of my prior relatable knowledge. I was using them as well to get experience in QA, so that I can then use it as a stepping stone to get into a Video Game QA job. That's the dream right? Playing video games for money. But every dream ends and reality hits you like a sobering splash of water to your face.

Now for the past week and a half I have been scrolling through job boards trying to find a way to get a job. Every post I look at makes me repulsed for the experience that is needed, or the qualifications I don't have because I did not apply myself in just the right way for the position. I squandered my youth in the same ways I do now. Nothing has changed. Is that a symptom of society or is that my mind telling me that I have always known what I wanted to do?

I have always wanted to play games, talk about anime, tv, movies, and comics. It just isn't something that people will pay for. So I need to get a traditional 9-5, to sit in an office and have somebody write me a check so I can live another day. So I can provide a decent life to my wife and dog. It repulses me just thinking about it. That sent me down a spiral of passive income searches which isn't as fruitful as I thought. It takes a lot of startup when what I need is immediate. Rent and bills are a bitch, and even when I do eventually find a job, It leaves me with no time at all to do the things that I actually want to do like writing, or playing games. So I am using the opportunity to just get things out while I have the free time to. I am not gonna stop applying for jobs of course. I need to make a living immediately to not end up in debt or evicted. Nothing would be worse for my mental health than to end up back at my parents house with a wife and dog and an apartment full of stuff crammed into my tiny bedroom.

Hopefully doing this will allow me to speak about the things I need to so they don't sit in my head becoming negative thoughts. A lot of the time I try to plan things and say “im gonna do this or i'm gonna do that,” but I learned by being a dungeon master, that it's often better to just do the things and worry about it later. Plans will die on the shores as soon as you hit land. Make a plan, throw out the plan, wing it. So I am saying fuck it. Just going to start making things and hope something sticks. 

Thanks for reading,

Chris.

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Couldn’t get to sleep so I took a walk to the park at 3AM. All the Pokestops had lures and it was totally full of 20/30-somethings wandering around, pacing back and forth, adjusting their position, and talking about Pokemon.

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hey i beta tested pokemon go and i have some tips to share with you all:

you can use incense and multiple lure patches (on different nearby stops) at the same time

if you spin the pokeball around, you get a cute little animation with stars 

if you get the pokeball in the colored hoop you get a bonus (”nice”, “great”, “excellent”) which gives you extra exp. the bonus is based on how small the hoop is.

pokemon will get stuck on your radar a lot. it’s good to restart your game if you suspect the pokemon is stuck, though usually if you’re moving the radar will at least somewhat correct itself

triangulate to find pokemon most efficiently; keep walking around in triangle areas until the little footsteps decrease. usually once a footstep has decreased i keep walking in that same direction

that said, i find the best way to approach this game is not to seek out specific pokemon, but just to keep walking in one general area and see what pops up.

evolving pokemon doesn’t do much to power them up, and most of the time you can just find evolved pokemon in the wild already, so if you’re going for power you can probably just save your candy for when you find an evolved version. the exception is i suppose if you spend a lot of candy powering up one pokemon first, then evolve it, then power it up again, but even then im wary if its worth it

 hatching eggs gets you waaay more candy than catching pokemon

use your infinite incubator to hatch the 2km eggs if you have them, hatch everything else with your other incubators

you can beef up your teams gyms’ by fighting against them, plus you get more exp and badges that way, so do this thing. 

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Pokemon Go? More like

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Pokemon GO:  Eevee’s evolution is random!

JUST FYI. You also can only get the originally three. Flareon, Jolteon, or Vaporeon. 

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When Pokemon Go’s servers are down but you still wanna play

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SLEEPING LIOOON!!!! WOOOOO!

Kingdom Hearts Unchained χ to update to Version 1.3.0 on June 30th at 10:00 JST (9:00 PM USA EDT/6:00 PM USA PDT) in Japan!

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All im getting is ducks and moogles lol

Where do i need to farm to get 1* DDD riku? I only get the 3* ones

I actually never got 1* or 2* Riku in my JPUX playthrough, so. shrug. MYSTERY… maybe the first quest? I know you can get 1* Sora from that.

Can you get the sora event medal from the third quest? I’ve done it countless times and I have 7 each of the other two but I can’t find more sora.

I’m pretty sure, but Sora was the hardest one for me to get in JPUX, so… smh. You may be better off on the second quest, I believe the third one focuses a bit more on Riku.

What skill would you recommend for 3D Riku or 3D Sora? They’re only Tier 1, so maybe just Attack Boost I? Or since they are single target and can hit hard, use up an Attack Boost II medal?

Depends on your jewel-spending patterns. If you’re planning on hoarding jewels until a certain character comes out, go ahead and give them Atk+2. If you’re planning on drawing for epics, give them Atk+1 and save Atk+2 for the epics. All in all, whateeeeeeeeeeever floats your boat.

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NAUX: DDD 2.8 Event

A few days late and a few days earlier than expected, but happy E3!

This event will last a little over two weeks, giving you plenty of well-needed time to get 7 copies of each for guilt! This was the first medal-dropping event in JPUX, and these medals hold their own for a long time. I strongly suggest getting and guilting all three of these, especially if you’re f2p. They may be expensive, but at 3.91x multiplier at 5* for Sora & Riku, they’re extremely strong. Due to their cost, I would only bother gulting one of each, however; multiple copies won’t do much for you. Try to get them to 20%+ guilt if you can.

How do I get them?

They’re random drops from enemies and chests in any of the three event levels. You will get a lot of Meowwows. This is normal. You will thank the stars that it only costs 1 AP and you’re getting two weeks. I think it’s supposed to be Meowwow focused, Sora focused, and Riku focused, respectively, for the quests; but imo, the Meowwow volume… is just SO HIGH… on all three. If you can handle the third mission, you get more non-Meowows from it. I’m serious, though. Unless they’ve heavily adjusted drop rates, expect a Sora/Riku medal about every 10 tries at quest 3 or so. It’s not often. But it is worth it. Keep trying friends, and be glad they gave us this event post-guilt. B)

Is there anything special I need to do to evolve them?

Nope! Starting Friday does put you in a duck-dry zone, though. Consider summoning raid bosses to get the ducks you need. Darkside for Speed, Behemoth for Power, Trickmaster for Magic, Guard Armor for low evolution medals (more important after today), and Spiders for munny. There’s no easy way to get Type-specific Fairies, I’m afraid. Remember, to guilt a medal, you’ll want to fuse a medal with 2-dots to a medal with 3-dots at 6*.

Where’s the trio medal? How do I make it???

You don’t. This event is identical to the one that JPUX had last fall, not the one they currently have. At this point in time, it would be overpowered for NAUX.

Where’s Aqua?

In JPUX, they released the Aqua 2.8 and the DDD 2.8 event at different times. They may do this for NAUX as well (on Monday?), or they may not have an Aqua event at all; being able to guilt a tier 3 event medal at this point in NAUX would be insanely overpowered.