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There’s no day, when my heart isn’t aching and breaking for him. And it will never stop beating for him… 🖤

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This is freakin’ adorable! 🖤

“minerva? are you decent? albus informed me that i must escort you to the Great Hall for breakfast, seeing as it’s your first full day back.”

“really, severus! i never knew you to be a gentleman.”

“rest assured i am not, madam. merely following orders from our illustrious leader…hang on, you said you were dressed!”

“i am, boyo, do you see me opening my door to you with only my undergarments on?”

“no, but…your hair. you havent tied it round yet.”

“ah. side effect of my convalescence. can hardly lift my arms up round my head.”

“surely the house elves could assist you?”

“severus! it will be cold day in hades before i request a house elf to assist me with such vanities. i was able to dress myself adequately. the students will not mind a different hairstyle on me now and again.”

“like hell…sit down, woman.”

“if you so much as touch that brush, young man!”

“get a hold of yourself, minerva. i do know my way around a hairbrush and bobby pins.”

“i find that hard to believe!”

“my da used to do my mam’s hair when i was a boy, into buns and plaits and things. i did it for my mam later on, when da was too busy at the mill. i did lil—my friends’ plaits sometimes as well.”

“by hand? severus snape, you never cease to amaze me. is that…when the lower form slytherins have their hair in fancy plaits during school holidays when they have to stay at the castle…is that your doing?”

“i’ve not the slightest idea what you’re pertaining to.”

“oh, severus, you are a marvel.”

“if you breathe a word of this to anyone, i’ll have peeves string you up from the highest turret, mark my words.”

“i wouldn’t dream of it. now i believe you were about to demonstrate your hidden talents…?”

“…utterly insufferable. sit down then.”

“thank you, severus.”

“highest turret, don’t forget.”

“i wouldn’t dream of it.”

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after the umbridge era incident which lands minerva in st mungo’s, the potions master shows his relief at her return to the school by offering to do her hair

aka

severus’ love language is acts of service

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Pure beauty! I’m in love with this artwork! 🖤🥹 What a wonderful style.

severus, the victorian goth of all time

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Incredible artworks!! I’m stunned… 🥺🖤 That’s exactly, how I’m imagining him.

Severus Snape - art by Vizen

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Endless support for you, my friend! 🖤🫂

!Trans Severus Snape

so, this drawing is inspired by my experience with the trans-tape in the last few days… and it went pretty bad…

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Thank you again for this incredibly amazing drawing, Sadie! You gave me so much… 🖤🥹

~~~COMMISSION~~~

✨Beginning Autumn Walks in the Woods 🐍🍁🍂✨

@mrs-snape5984 Commission of Self inserted of her Oc Jules & Severus

I’m incredibly honored to do this special commission 💖✨

Sorry for not posting this sooner but I was so touched by Julia words

I wanted to write something meaningful about this situation, So drawing this commission

that made someone’s day & made them feel good also be proud of their self’s …

Its freaking amazing feeling💗 That’s the main reason I become a self insert artist that was my goal!

To self care and let people feel better and be happy 💗✨Thank you so much ✨💗✨✨✨

for letting me draw and experience this commission for your special and amazing moment 💖🪄✨

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Something that we’re having in common… (ignoring food and water over months…)

Severus ignores the alarming signs of his health because 1) he uses negligence as self punishment 2) "it's not that much of a big deal" 3) doesn't think he would stay around long enough to face the consequences

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“Oh, breathe, just breathe…”

“'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable. And life's like an hourglass glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button, girl. So cradle your head in your hands and breathe, just breathe…” (“Breathe (2AM)” by Anna Nalick)

Sometimes, you just have to accept, that there are things, that can’t be changed or fixed anymore…at least not right now. I guess, I’m more and more coming to terms with this insight, considering the fact, that it just doesn’t make sense to wrap my head around the reason for my disease ME/CFS.

I can’t alter my previous decisions. For the past two years, I’ve blamed myself for catching Covid on an Open Air concert of my German favourite punk rock band “Die Ärzte”…especially viewed in the context that I avoided social gatherings since late 2019 because of my medicinal immune suppression. But when I got these tickets as a gift in 2022, my brain must have shut down and I started to belittle the potential risks of catching the virus by telling myself, that I would stand in the back of the crowd, beneath the open sky. This was also the first occasion, when I didn’t wear my mask…after enduring being bullied and mocked for wearing masks everywhere and rejecting every single invitation to parties and simple get-togethers.

Well…only one week later, my life- as I knew it before - came to an abrupt halt. I don’t want to go into detail about my current situation in this post. Whoever knows me and also my prior posts, is probably already fed up with my complaints about ME/CFS and its results for my life.

So, all I can do now, is to breathe. Deliberately slowly…breathing in…and breathing out. Calming my nerves…soothing my troubled mind with my fantasies of Severus and my absolutely self-inserted OC Jules…

I’ve commissioned someone new for this project. Someone different from all those lovely artists of Snapedom, who I regularly contacted for my usual coping mechanism of commissioning artworks of Sevy and Jules.

This time, I reached out to @pinklovecharm, an incredibly kind and understanding artist, who made me speechless with this drawing. I asked her to help my imagination of Severus and Jules, being on a walk in the forest, come to life.

I can’t tell you, how much I’m missing this simple activity of enjoying the autumn sunshine and some fresh air on a walk in the woods. In my fantasy, Severus would apparate us to a secluded path in the middle of the forest, wrapping his arm around my waist to support my steps. We wouldn’t talk much…but Severus would remind me of the importance of breathing…and he would exercise it with me…patiently waiting for me to eventually calm down. He’s my safe haven…my home.

My dear Sadie, you can’t imagine, how much you soothed my soul with your mesmerising art and your kind-heartedness. You really achieved to put me into my OC Jules…with all her emotions and physical attributes….and you even integrated my cane into your drawing! Normally, I don’t show my reference pictures publicly, but I’m too impressed by your dedication to the details of my appearance, that I can’t stop myself from presenting them here. Thank you for everything, you wonderful person! I hope, we’ll stay in touch and that I may commission you again.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy and Jules🖤

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Magda, you can’t even imagine, how often I’m thanking the universe for sending me you… 🖤🫂 You’re my light…the brightest of all. I love you. 🖤

Distance is a bitch, but I feel you in my heart every day.

„I hope, I’ll always have you in my mind, so that I know to find you every time.“

„Put your head on my chest, that’s your safe place. We‘ll fall deeper in love every day. From life unto life and for always.“ („Soul Mate“ by Flora Cash)

There’s something in my current life, that came hand in hand with my disease ME/CFS…slowly creeping into my fibres…infecting my mind with sadness. It’s loneliness, that I’m talking about. Overwhelming, crushing, suffocating loneliness.

Before this cruel bitch of a disease put a stopper in my life, as I knew it from before, I haven’t been healthy, either. But neither my severe Colitis Ulcerosa, nor the other few sicknesses and disabilities had achieved to break me the way, ME/CFS broke me!

What’s left, is only a shell of myself…a sad shadow of the woman, I’ve been prior to today. Where did the intelligent, sassy, witty and caring person go to, when she disappeared so insidiously from my personality? On some days, I still get a little glimpse of her, when I’m talking to my beloved friends @vulnus-sanare, @preciousthelmadonna or my bestie Miri, who often just “enjoys” sitting beside me in my dark room…embraced by silence and darkness. These tiny jiffies, when I’m recognising my previous character…my true nature, even though it’s only for a brief time, I’m feeling a little less anxious…a little less worthless.

But sadly, these moments become more rare with each new PEM crash of my disease (PEM = Post-exertional malaise = worsening of symptoms after certain activities). It feels as if I’m fading away from life…I’m fading away from other people’s lives as well as from my own.

Since I can’t leave my dark room - and most of the time even my bed - I’m not capable of joining social gatherings anymore. It’s impossible for me to endure listening to more than one person at once, so even my three kids have to “visit” me one after the other in my chamber. There are days, when I can’t even reply to messages from others, just because screen time is killing me.

All the more, I’m grateful for these few friends, who stay with me, no matter how silent I am, because they make me feel worthier and loved. And yet, I’m afraid of not being able to give them the same amount of support in return…due to the restrictions of my cruel reality, which are confining me.

So, there are many days, which I’m spending in total gloominess and silence with nothing but solitude surrounding me. And even if I’d be capable of sending text or audio messages (since I can’t type them out properly sometimes), I often hold myself back from reaching out to these understanding friends…only because I don’t want to be a burden to them.

I commissioned the lovely artist @hannisimp for this beautiful piece of art. Lin, you gave me exactly, what I needed with this tender artwork of yours. You gave me the feeling of being less alone. Severus accompanies me for 21 years now. He’s the safe haven, the comfort blanket, which I’m clinging to so desperately! My dear, I can’t stress enough, how grateful I am for your fine art. You made the love and the trust between Severus and my - oh, so self-inserted - OC Jules become palpable. There are no words to express my gratitude, so I just stay with these: Thank you for everything, my friend! Thank you for your talent, your kindness and each of your messages. I won’t ever take these things for granted.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

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Gasp…

Yes, please! 🤤🖤🖤🖤🥹

I’d do it like that: Save a horse, ride a cowboy! 😉

“Wanna ride on a real Cowboy?”

Nsfw with this one anyone?😉😉😉

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„I hope, I’ll always have you in my mind, so that I know to find you every time.“

„Put your head on my chest, that’s your safe place. We‘ll fall deeper in love every day. From life unto life and for always.“ („Soul Mate“ by Flora Cash)

There’s something in my current life, that came hand in hand with my disease ME/CFS…slowly creeping into my fibres…infecting my mind with sadness. It’s loneliness, that I’m talking about. Overwhelming, crushing, suffocating loneliness.

Before this cruel bitch of a disease put a stopper in my life, as I knew it from before, I haven’t been healthy, either. But neither my severe Colitis Ulcerosa, nor the other few sicknesses and disabilities had achieved to break me the way, ME/CFS broke me!

What’s left, is only a shell of myself…a sad shadow of the woman, I’ve been prior to today. Where did the intelligent, sassy, witty and caring person go to, when she disappeared so insidiously from my personality? On some days, I still get a little glimpse of her, when I’m talking to my beloved friends @vulnus-sanare, @preciousthelmadonna or my bestie Miri, who often just “enjoys” sitting beside me in my dark room…embraced by silence and darkness. These tiny jiffies, when I’m recognising my previous character…my true nature, even though it’s only for a brief time, I’m feeling a little less anxious…a little less worthless.

But sadly, these moments become more rare with each new PEM crash of my disease (PEM = Post-exertional malaise = worsening of symptoms after certain activities). It feels as if I’m fading away from life…I’m fading away from other people’s lives as well as from my own.

Since I can’t leave my dark room - and most of the time even my bed - I’m not capable of joining social gatherings anymore. It’s impossible for me to endure listening to more than one person at once, so even my three kids have to “visit” me one after the other in my chamber. There are days, when I can’t even reply to messages from others, just because screen time is killing me.

All the more, I’m grateful for these few friends, who stay with me, no matter how silent I am, because they make me feel worthier and loved. And yet, I’m afraid of not being able to give them the same amount of support in return…due to the restrictions of my cruel reality, which are confining me.

So, there are many days, which I’m spending in total gloominess and silence with nothing but solitude surrounding me. And even if I’d be capable of sending text or audio messages (since I can’t type them out properly sometimes), I often hold myself back from reaching out to these understanding friends…only because I don’t want to be a burden to them.

I commissioned the lovely artist @hannisimp for this beautiful piece of art. Lin, you gave me exactly, what I needed with this tender artwork of yours. You gave me the feeling of being less alone. Severus accompanies me for 21 years now. He’s the safe haven, the comfort blanket, which I’m clinging to so desperately! My dear, I can’t stress enough, how grateful I am for your fine art. You made the love and the trust between Severus and my - oh, so self-inserted - OC Jules become palpable. There are no words to express my gratitude, so I just stay with these: Thank you for everything, my friend! Thank you for your talent, your kindness and each of your messages. I won’t ever take these things for granted.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

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i want 60 thousand votes by next thursday

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And here you are, sweetheart! Whatever it is, that you might be searching down there, we will share it soon! 🫂🖤 😅

He’s here with me…

I’m sitting here on my balcony, enjoying the natural darkness (it hits different than the darkness, that I have to endure in my room all day long) and some fresh air. Stargazing and breathing…deliberately slowly…in and out…. Gosh, I’m grateful for these occasions, whenever I’m feeling strong enough to leave my bed and step out to my balcony…ignoring my wobbly legs and my aching body.

My beloved friend Magda, @vulnus-sanare, told me about the possibility to see the stars, which are right above me, by using an app (“grandma” didn’t know that this existed! 😂). I just had to try this out!

What can I say? Right in front of me is my zodiac sign (Virgo)…and right beside her, there’s a crow. In my mind, there has always been a connection between Severus and crows!! Our wings are touching each other. And you know what? It gets even better!! We’re framed by not one, but two snakes!! Some tears left my eyes…and I don’t feel so lonely anymore. This might be super cheesy, but I know, that he’s here with me….like all the 21 years, since I fell for him, before. My heart swells with gratitude…not only for him, but also for Magda. “This is the most Slytherin you could get…,” she said….and damn, sweetheart, you’re so right about that! Feel hugged my precious friend. I love you.

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He’s here with me…

I’m sitting here on my balcony, enjoying the natural darkness (it hits different than the darkness, that I have to endure in my room all day long) and some fresh air. Stargazing and breathing…deliberately slowly…in and out…. Gosh, I’m grateful for these occasions, whenever I’m feeling strong enough to leave my bed and step out to my balcony…ignoring my wobbly legs and my aching body.

My beloved friend Magda, @vulnus-sanare, told me about the possibility to see the stars, which are right above me, by using an app (“grandma” didn’t know that this existed! 😂). I just had to try this out!

What can I say? Right in front of me is my zodiac sign (Virgo)…and right beside her, there’s a crow. In my mind, there has always been a connection between Severus and crows!! Our wings are touching each other. And you know what? It gets even better!! We’re framed by not one, but two snakes!! Some tears left my eyes…and I don’t feel so lonely anymore. This might be super cheesy, but I know, that he’s here with me….like all the 21 years, since I fell for him, before. My heart swells with gratitude…not only for him, but also for Magda. “This is the most Slytherin you could get…,” she said….and damn, sweetheart, you’re so right about that! Feel hugged my precious friend. I love you.

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It’s so tender. I like the idea and I love the way, how you’ve drawn this beautiful piece of art! 🖤🥹

safe.

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on the tobias apologist train again. based on my own childhood memories of falling asleep during mass and my dad picking me up and letting me catch some z’s on his shoulder 😌

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„You’re not alone, together we stand. I’ll be by your side, you know, I’ll take your hand…”

“Just stay strong, ‘cause you know, I’m here for you…” (“Keep holding on” by Avril Lavigne)

I decided to set a trigger warning on this post: Miscarriages, high risk pregnancies, ICSI treatments, traumatic wish for a child journey, hysterectomy. So, please feel free to skip the following x paragraphs, if you feel triggered by these topics. Thank you.

Those of you lovely people of Snapedom, who know me and my way of blogging about Severus and my personal hardships might have noticed, that I’m mostly venting about ME/CFS and the crumbs, which are left from my former life. Since I can’t do much about it right now, I decided to “fix” another one of my countless issues…an internal wound, which desperately needs to heal!

As some of you might remember, I’m a mother of three wonderful children. There are my eleven years old twins and then there’s my six years old daughter. My pregnancies were the result of a long and painful journey of ICSI treatments, several miscarriages, way too many tears, about ten surgeries - due to Endometriosis and myomas - which eventually ended in a hysterectomy four years ago.

My desperate wish for a child led me to some decisions and life choices, which I probably wouldn’t have made, if I would have been clearer…maybe more stable in my whole mindset. One of these choices was a totally over rushed marriage to a narcissistic man, who made me believe, that he wanted the same. Gosh…I’ve been so desperate and so fucking stupid! Well, at least I got my twins because of him.

I went to the appointment for the transfer of the embryos on my own. He didn’t want to join the procedure…and I should have known, that he was already saying “goodbye” back then.

The pregnancy was rough. I had to lie in bed from the 8th week of pregnancy until they were born as premature babies in the 29th week of pregnancy. The last 4,5 months of pregnancy, I had to stay in the hospital…fighting for my babies’ lives all on my own. The father of them had decided, that he didn’t want to be a father anymore…wow…

I don’t want to go further into details about this phase of my life…at least not yet. I commissioned my friend @alinearthp for this project and asked her for several drawings of the different phases of my journey to become a mother. This artwork will be the start of my healing process…and I’m incredibly grateful, that you’re doing this for me, Aline! I know, that you’ll need time to draw all these wishes of mine, but I’ll be patiently waiting for each of your breathtaking pieces of art, my dear!

So, for the next couple of months, Severus will accompany me on my path through this phase of my past…just like he did back then, when I spent months in a hospital bed in “Trendelenburg” position. During this period of my life - and to be honest, in so many other phases of the past 21 years, as well - I clung to my imagination of Severus in order to feel less helpless and alone. His resilience and determination have always been my inspiration to keep going through all these hardships, which life kept throwing at me. He’s the love of my life…and he will forever be the guiding light in my darkness.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

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I couldn’t agree more. When I read this scene to my kids last year, they giggled a lot (they’re young). But quite soon, they asked me, why I wouldn’t laugh about this scene, so I had to explain it to them….with fucking tears in my eyes!! But I’m glad, that they understood the cruelty of this situation eventually.

Let‘s talk about how Remus Lupin.

Humiliated his colleague.

Who he and his friends had already tormented for years before that.

Who was almost murdered by his friends.

The man who kept his mouth shut for years and did not tell anyone about Remus true nature.

Eventhough he almost died because of it.

The man who never receieved a single fucking apology.

Because, you know.

They were just silly teenage pranks.

Right?

Let‘s talk about how Remus Lupin humiliated his teenage bully victim once more as an adult by encouraging Neville to imagine him in his grandmothers clothing.

In front of the whole class.

Knowing fully well that not a day later every single student in the castle would have heard about it.

And laughed about it.

Let‘s talk about how fucking cruel Remus was towards Severus.

He did it deliberately.

Fully knowing what would happen.

For a laugh.

Just like in the good old days.