#he was there

[mrs-snape5984]

„You’re not alone, together we stand. I’ll be by your side, you know, I’ll take your hand…”

“Just stay strong, ‘cause you know, I’m here for you…” (“Keep holding on” by Avril Lavigne)

I decided to set a trigger warning on this post: Miscarriages, high risk pregnancies, ICSI treatments, traumatic wish for a child journey, hysterectomy. So, please feel free to skip the following x paragraphs, if you feel triggered by these topics. Thank you.

Those of you lovely people of Snapedom, who know me and my way of blogging about Severus and my personal hardships might have noticed, that I’m mostly venting about ME/CFS and the crumbs, which are left from my former life. Since I can’t do much about it right now, I decided to “fix” another one of my countless issues…an internal wound, which desperately needs to heal!

As some of you might remember, I’m a mother of three wonderful children. There are my eleven years old twins and then there’s my six years old daughter. My pregnancies were the result of a long and painful journey of ICSI treatments, several miscarriages, way too many tears, about ten surgeries - due to Endometriosis and myomas - which eventually ended in a hysterectomy four years ago.

My desperate wish for a child led me to some decisions and life choices, which I probably wouldn’t have made, if I would have been clearer…maybe more stable in my whole mindset. One of these choices was a totally over rushed marriage to a narcissistic man, who made me believe, that he wanted the same. Gosh…I’ve been so desperate and so fucking stupid! Well, at least I got my twins because of him.

I went to the appointment for the transfer of the embryos on my own. He didn’t want to join the procedure…and I should have known, that he was already saying “goodbye” back then.

The pregnancy was rough. I had to lie in bed from the 8th week of pregnancy until they were born as premature babies in the 29th week of pregnancy. The last 4,5 months of pregnancy, I had to stay in the hospital…fighting for my babies’ lives all on my own. The father of them had decided, that he didn’t want to be a father anymore…wow…

I don’t want to go further into details about this phase of my life…at least not yet. I commissioned my friend @alinearthp for this project and asked her for several drawings of the different phases of my journey to become a mother. This artwork will be the start of my healing process…and I’m incredibly grateful, that you’re doing this for me, Aline! I know, that you’ll need time to draw all these wishes of mine, but I’ll be patiently waiting for each of your breathtaking pieces of art, my dear!

So, for the next couple of months, Severus will accompany me on my path through this phase of my past…just like he did back then, when I spent months in a hospital bed in “Trendelenburg” position. During this period of my life - and to be honest, in so many other phases of the past 21 years, as well - I clung to my imagination of Severus in order to feel less helpless and alone. His resilience and determination have always been my inspiration to keep going through all these hardships, which life kept throwing at me. He’s the love of my life…and he will forever be the guiding light in my darkness.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

[scintillyyy]

it is funny. while i know tim's presence at the circus pushes the timeline along in a way people don't like sometimes wrt ages the amount of times i see things that confidently say that it's canon that tim was a fan of dick through old video recordings....

[thiziri]

Sir Tim Laurence attends the Guinness Six Nations match between Scotland and England at Scottish Gas Murrayfield Stadium, on 24 February 2024.

[oifaaa]

Just noticed that the circle around my pfp got bigger and now you can't see Howl at all

I'm so sad :(

[dr3smile]

Daniel was there for the team celebrations.

[itsatorchwoodthing]

im sorry what do you mean The Unquiet Dead is set in cardiff in 1869, aka the year jack got to cardiff to look for the doctor — im unwell

[imawriternotamagican]

Me the first time listening to Juno Steel and the Promised Land:

OMG OMG omg

[mishyoona]

Do forgive me. My memories seem to have a mind of their own…

[sancastarcs]

i know everyone seems to love zoro's speech and everything and I do agree with some things, such as yes leaving the crew on impulse should be a big deal but like. man. all of them except luffy and chopper know that they can trust usopp. all of them know that he was sogeking, that he rescued robin. And Luffy knows that at one point Usopp was there with them, and he knew that Usopp was the one who gave him strength to fight Lucci. And if Usopp didn't take Merry like that they would all be dead by now. Yes it was impulsive and stupid and disrespectful and plainly BAD the actions usopp made but like. he was there. he was with them in enies lobby. The discussion over Usopp's loyalty should not even be up to debate. Usopp had no obligation to come a rescue Robin, but he did it anyway.

[lets-steal-an-archive]

Lost Illusions: The Untold Story of the Hit Show's Poisonous Culture

"The show was a groundbreaking smash, but behind the scenes it devolved into such toxicity that even co-showrunner Damon Lindelof now says of his leadership: 'I failed.' A powerful excerpt from the new book Burn It Down" by Maureen Ryan."

→ http://okbjgm.weebly.com/uploads/3/1/5/0/31506003/final_statement.pdf

[fortheturnstiles]

guys i saw weird al at the museum today

[demisexual-eddie-diaz]

Jules’ number being 17 and Charles leading the race on lap 17 is still painful.

It’s like a little message from Jules that he was there with Charles.

[thiziri]

Princess Anne and Sir Tim Laurence attending the Six Nations match between France and Scotland at the Stade de France, on 26 February 2023.

[pensat-i-fet]

[imminent-danger-came]

tip toes here im probably just gonna ramble incoherently but

i know youve talked about the theme of other people stealing mks power and using it for their own gain, im gonna add my two cents in with the simple fact that, them taking his power backfired. badly.

spider queen tried to rule the world using that power, ended up getting her mech destroyed and would’ve probably crawled back to the sewers if not for lbd.

lbd basically built her ass mech by taking a BUNCH of mks power, ended up being super mega deluxe dead.

Azure well. Yeah, “… but it wasnt in my power, it was in yours.” He DIRECTLY manipulated mk, and mk destroyed that guy, putting the world at risk of being torn apart i might add. (rest in peace azure lion beach episode featuring you wouldve been too powerful). Yknow it kinda seems like his power is getting more unstable throughout the show, i might talk about that later not rn.

NOW FINALLY TO THE POINT. We may not know much about the hooded underworld figure, but if their objective is to use mk and his for their own means? to control chaos itself? i dont think thats going to go very well. not for the antagonist, not for the world, definitely not for mk and his friends.

oki das it srry if that was unclear n stuff i dont talk ab my thoughts much baiiii

Haaaiiiii

Yeah, there is a pattern in lmk of someone taking/using MK's powers, succeeding for a little while, before MK, and partially themselves, are ultimately their undoing (Macaque in 1x09, SQ in s1-ROTSQ, LBD in s2-s3, Azure in s4). Like we are 4 for 4 on each season including this trend, I doubt s5 is gonna be different. This is the "stories repeat over and over again" show

And like, our next antagonist is probably going to continue the "fixing the world/removing pain" pattern, this time through chaos, but using MK like everyone else did. It didn't go well the last few times, and it's not going to go well this time.

Personally, I think it'll go a step further and have MK feel the repercussions for using his own power you know. It's not going to go well for him either, in whatever way he's trying to control the world ("So as long as I have my friends by my side; this world is perfect!" , "I'm kinda liking the world as it is right now. So if it could just stay like this forever? That would be awesome.")

[upward-stair]

Me replaying cyberpunk 2077 for the first time in a couple months:

"I can't help but feel like this is where smasher comes in."

*Adam smasher comes in*

"I knew he was gone be here!"