#i love severus

[mrs-snape5984]

„You’re not alone, together we stand. I’ll be by your side, you know, I’ll take your hand…”

“Just stay strong, ‘cause you know, I’m here for you…” (“Keep holding on” by Avril Lavigne)

I decided to set a trigger warning on this post: Miscarriages, high risk pregnancies, ICSI treatments, traumatic wish for a child journey, hysterectomy. So, please feel free to skip the following x paragraphs, if you feel triggered by these topics. Thank you.

Those of you lovely people of Snapedom, who know me and my way of blogging about Severus and my personal hardships might have noticed, that I’m mostly venting about ME/CFS and the crumbs, which are left from my former life. Since I can’t do much about it right now, I decided to “fix” another one of my countless issues…an internal wound, which desperately needs to heal!

As some of you might remember, I’m a mother of three wonderful children. There are my eleven years old twins and then there’s my six years old daughter. My pregnancies were the result of a long and painful journey of ICSI treatments, several miscarriages, way too many tears, about ten surgeries - due to Endometriosis and myomas - which eventually ended in a hysterectomy four years ago.

My desperate wish for a child led me to some decisions and life choices, which I probably wouldn’t have made, if I would have been clearer…maybe more stable in my whole mindset. One of these choices was a totally over rushed marriage to a narcissistic man, who made me believe, that he wanted the same. Gosh…I’ve been so desperate and so fucking stupid! Well, at least I got my twins because of him.

I went to the appointment for the transfer of the embryos on my own. He didn’t want to join the procedure…and I should have known, that he was already saying “goodbye” back then.

The pregnancy was rough. I had to lie in bed from the 8th week of pregnancy until they were born as premature babies in the 29th week of pregnancy. The last 4,5 months of pregnancy, I had to stay in the hospital…fighting for my babies’ lives all on my own. The father of them had decided, that he didn’t want to be a father anymore…wow…

I don’t want to go further into details about this phase of my life…at least not yet. I commissioned my friend @alinearthp for this project and asked her for several drawings of the different phases of my journey to become a mother. This artwork will be the start of my healing process…and I’m incredibly grateful, that you’re doing this for me, Aline! I know, that you’ll need time to draw all these wishes of mine, but I’ll be patiently waiting for each of your breathtaking pieces of art, my dear!

So, for the next couple of months, Severus will accompany me on my path through this phase of my past…just like he did back then, when I spent months in a hospital bed in “Trendelenburg” position. During this period of my life - and to be honest, in so many other phases of the past 21 years, as well - I clung to my imagination of Severus in order to feel less helpless and alone. His resilience and determination have always been my inspiration to keep going through all these hardships, which life kept throwing at me. He’s the love of my life…and he will forever be the guiding light in my darkness.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

[elysiamus]

𝚂𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝙷𝚒𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚒𝚏𝚏, 𝚛𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚊 𝚠𝚒𝚣𝚊𝚛𝚍. ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

[squid1442]

I live and breathe Severitus fics, so here is some Severitus fanart :)!!

[sevsgirl69]

Defending Severus Snape is not enough. I need a fucking gun

[galbalmuhet]

Here, in Severus arms, love and desire were coming together for her in the most perfect way possible... 🖤

Found on Pinterest

AI

[lumina-snape]

Detention🩶

[ilovesevsnape]

I love severus snape, and if you don’t that’s fine, more for me

[thesecretsofseverussnape]

Me, having 2 solid ideas for fanfics featuring Severus Snape, but being afraid to share my work, feeling like no one would care.

Also me knowing that I can't finish my own thoughts, let alone a full blown fanfiction.

[fandompuppet]

Hehe selfship art go brrrr

Collecting f/o’s like Pokémon cards at this point

[mija-novella]

I remember the day that Alan Rickman died like it was yesterday.

It was a sunny Thursday and I'd just finished my shift in a retail job I'd only been at for less than a year. I was ready to go home and waited to leave. I checked my phone and had three text messages from my friend. I could only see the last message on my Lock Screen: "I'm so sorry!"

I wasn't sure what she was sorry for in that second. I thought it was an "I'm sorry wrong person" message but it wasn't. I opened the texts to find these three messages:

"OMG Mija"

"Alan Rickman's died."

"I'm so sorry"

I just stared at the screen for what felt like hours but had to have only been seconds. I couldn't comprehend what was happening and was panicked. A colleague came down to leave so I asked them to check if it was true. She did and it was front page news. I was devastated. It was like part of my world had come crashing down!

Ileft work and started walking through the town centre. My vision was blurry with tears so I called my dad to pick me up. I couldn't walk home. I got home after crying in the car, with a couple text messages from other friends who were sending messages saying sorry.

I put on my pyjamas, ironically it was a shirt that said "I Solemnly Swear that I am up to no good," made myself a cup of tea and just sat staring out the window of my bedroom, wishing it had been a dream.

The thing is, Alan meant so much to me, not only as Snape, the main character I had ever watched him play, but through his interviews and behind the scenes of movies he had done. I, like many others, found comfort in him and the way he was. I never knew him personally, but I knew him through the screen.

It's bizarre in the end, how one man changed the way my mind worked the things that made me smile so immensely without a second thought, who when mentioned today makes my cheeks go red with happiness as I just speak on his brilliance. I miss him every day and this tattoo just reminds me of his impact on my life. Xox

[mrs-snape5984]

“Shhh…please don’t cry, Sevy. I’m here for you…”

And again, I’ve found an outstanding talent here on tumblr! The lovely @capysnapeart drew this beautiful piece of art as a commission for me and I’m more than happy with the outcome of my idea! This will definitely be framed and added to my walls in my Severus themed room.

Dear @capysnapeart, I’m incredibly grateful for your work and especially for your nice messages. You are a wonderfully kind person and I’m glad that I’ve found you here. Thank you for enlightening my darkness today.

Since I’m day and night in my dark room (fuck you, ME/CFS!), I’m surrounding myself with the artwork of some artists, I’ve found here on tumblr. You all are a godsend to me!

🖤 Severus and Julia 🖤

[elysiamus]

Turned the contrast down and the brightness up.. let’s just say Severus Snape is packing. * ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

[squid1442]

Severitus Wip :)!!

This is basically the Christmas scene in ‘A patchwork family’ on ao3 by @aspionagee , it’s an TOTAL work in progress buttt thought I should share it since I’m not reallyyyy sure wether I’ll finish it or not. It’s a pretty big piece lmao.

Also I love that fic.

[severussnapemylove]

Things in this side blog;

Severus Snape appreciation

Minerva McGonagall

Rubeus Hagrid

Anything from the Harry Potter/Fantastic Beasts universe that makes me feel something.

[galbalmuhet]

I'm coming to you sweetheart... 🖤

Found on Pinterest

AI

[lumina-snape]

💜🔥hes so sexy..