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About me Art nickname - msRhaxoz Discord & Steam - G1gg1L3s. She/her, Russia, 23 y.o. ♏︎ I'm an anxious person X twitter Art status comissions - primary closed trade - yess gifts - friends only collabs - primary closed request - depending on the mood

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My Tav I have two stories with my Tav. 1st - canon Tav's story 2nd - House of Hope AU Canon Otto's story Otto's reference Otto's biography Otto x Astarion 1 Otto x Astarion 2 Otto x Astarion 3 House of Hope AU First meeting with Haarlep Confession of feelings Trust Desire Between friendship and duty Otto's betrayal Non-canon Otto's drider form Absolute ending Otto x Raphael sugardaddy!AU NSFW Otto x Haarlep 1 Otto x Haarlep 2 Otto x Haarlep 3

Besides Baldur's Gate I have content with other games.

You can search #darksouls #teamfortress2 #eldenring #attackontitan #hollowknight #deadbydaylight #darkestdungeon #borderlands #overwatch #sekiro #dishonored Personal tags #myart #myscreenshots

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Definitely sfw art >>> here I would like to explain why I did this, but mind empty

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Some drawings of my OCes I don't think I'll ever talk about them because... well it's complicated. I see my characters more as the embodiment of my emotions and feelings.

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Otto's biography

I want to share with you the backstory of my Tav. This is the story before the events of the game. His name is Otto. He is a bard/rogue, trickster with an ambiguous character and a lucky guy with a love of life. He's also a bit of an idiot. Enjoy!

In the depths of Otto's memories lies a foggy recollection of his early years. Yet, through the haze, a handful of cherished moments with his family still shine bright.

Hailing from the dark depths of the Underdark, Otto's family carved out a life far from the bustling heart of the dark elf city, nestled near a temple dedicated to the Dark Maiden. His mother ruled with an iron fist, while his father exuded warmth and kindness. Alongside Otto, the middle brother, stood his siblings: the authoritative Audrey, who played both big sister and second mom and with whom Otto shared both resemblance and interests; and the youngest, Tae. It was Audrey who fostered their shared love for music and dance, though Otto diverged from her in his fascination with magic and warfare. Despite Audrey's attempts to impart basic magical knowledge and combat strategies, the boys often disregarded her guidance and forged their own path.

But the real tale lies in Otto and Tae's bond. Despite their five-year age gap, they were inseparable — so much so that they were often mistaken for twins. Where Otto went, mischief in tow, Tae wasn't far behind. Their connection ran deep, Their connection was so tight that punishment meant for one often extended to the other, under the pretext of "company" and "just in case," as their sister wryly remarked.

Otto exuded a serene aura, seemingly detached from the world around him. His devotion to his goddess knew no bounds; he prayed fervently, joined in the nocturnal rituals with zeal, and found solace in in expressing his emotions through the graceful movements of dance and the soothing melodies of the harp. Despite the mistreatment endured by his fellow drow, Otto remained unmoved, dismissing the tales of the fearsome goddess Lolth as mere myths. Yet, whenever he ventured beyond his secluded realm to gather provisions at his parents' urging, he encountered the disdain of surface dwellers. Thankfully, his protective sister often accompanied him, ensuring his safety amidst the hostility of the outside world.

This marked the sombre conclusion of happier times from the past. At the age of fifty, tragedy struck, forever altering the course of Otto's life. During one of the reverent nights devoted to dancing in honour of the goddess Eilistraee, malevolent dark elves launched a merciless assault on the drow community. The ensuing carnage was unfathomable - nearly all participants in the sacred ceremony were ruthlessly slaughtered by the followers of Lolth. Though Otto's parents were absent that fateful night, he, along with his sister and brother, witnessed the horrifying massacre unfold. Despite Audrey's valiant attempts to resist the attackers, her bravery cost her life, her severed head serving as a grim testament to her sacrifice at her brothers' feet.

Desperate to spare their lives, Otto pleaded with the dark drow, willing to endure servitude or any other fate to ensure his and his brother's survival. Whether out of exhaustion from the night's bloodshed or for other reasons, the drow relented, sparing a handful of captives to serve as slaves. And so, Otto and his brother found themselves thrust into the heart of the city of Menzoberranzan.

Otto spent the better part of his life toiling as a slave, his days consumed by labor in the mines and kitchens hidden beneath the earth's surface. For 137 long years, he lived in the shadows, cut off from the moon's gentle light, gradually losing touch with his goddess, surviving solely by sheer luck - or so he continues to believe to this day.

Despite being forcibly separated, the brothers occasionally crossed paths during their assigned tasks. Otto often found himself consumed by thoughts of Tae, grappling with the harsh realities of their existence and haunted by memories of past horrors. Yet, Tae remained a beacon of hope, preventing Otto from succumbing entirely to despair. As long as his brother endured, Otto found solace in their shared struggle. Despite the hardships, Otto found some comfort in knowing he wasn't alone. However, this hope was short-lived.

Tae endured nearly eight agonizing years of enslavement alongside his elder brother. Over time, the once hopeful drow siblings grew weary, their dreams of freedom fading into the darkness that surrounded them. Despite the dwindling hope, they pressed on, silently bearing the weight of their captivity. Unexpectedly, Otto honed his culinary skills, perhaps finding sustenance and purpose that helped him to linger amidst the darkness that shrouded their existence.

One fateful day, Tae, utterly drained of energy, made a grave mistake in the warden's presence. Exhausted beyond measure, he collapsed under the weight of a heavy load, causing sacks of provisions to spill and inadvertently ensnaring a pair of goblin slaves next to him. Otto, who happened to be nearby, watched the scene unfold before his eyes. As punishment for his blunder, Tae was mercilessly dragged before the hungry rothe, and since he was guilty of depriving them of food, the little slave had to pay for it. To make matters worse, the warden overseeing Tae's punishment happened to be one of the drow responsible for the massacre during the night of Eilistraee worship. Upon recognizing the brothers, the warden, sporting a smug grin, gestured for Otto to approach him as Tae stood by the two wild rothe.

"Rothe may be herbivores, but they possess quite the temper," he taunted Otto with a smirk. "And this pair happens to be the most voracious and vicious of them all." With those chilling words, the drow warden launched a rock at one of the rothe, striking it squarely in the eye. Caught off guard by the sudden violence, Tae gasped in terror, triggering a frenzied response from the hungry beasts. Wild and merciless, they lunged at the defenseless brother, unleashing a barrage of kicks and trampling him underfoot. Frozen in horror, Otto watched helplessly, his hands trembling with silent anguish. His heart felt as though it might burst from his chest as he witnessed the brutal onslaught. Tae's desperate screams pierced the air, drowned out by the sounds of agony and chaos. Blood mingled with tears as Tae's eyes reflected a haunting crimson hue, his neck veins pulsating under the strain of the rothe's relentless assault. With a sickening crunch, Tae's belly was torn open by the beasts' horns, and he fell still only when his head was crushed beneath their hooves, his existence snuffed out in an instant.

And Otto just watched in silence.

He watched as the light faded from his brother's eyes, his gaze unwavering as he bore witness to the final moments of Tae's existence. The drow warden's mocking voice briefly pierced through Otto's numbness. "Perhaps you're not as feeble as you appear. Your selfishness served you well," the drow sneered mockingly.

Otto possessed a sharp intellect and a discerning eye for danger, especially in tense situations. It would have been naive to assume that the dark elves would permit him to aid his brother. With a sinking feeling of dread, he realized this was a blatant provocation. Even if they survived the rothe attack, the wardens would likely execute them both for insubordination, at best. Feeling utterly helpless, Otto made the agonizing decision to live on, letting his brother die alone.

In that moment, a torrent of negative emotions flooded Otto's soul - the suffocating weight of guilt, the insidious selfishness instilled by the warden. The sheer volume of these feelings overwhelmed him, erupting in a chaotic cacophony that left behind a haunting emptiness. Otto experienced a paradoxical sensation of both intense emotion and numbing detachment. Despite the turmoil within, not a single tear escaped his eyes. He knew that, in time, the suppressed emotions would resurface, threatening his sanity. To avoid succumbing to madness, he hardened his body against exhaustion and his mind against the encroaching chaos, embracing a chilling resolve to endure.

The passing century blurred into a directionless existence for Otto, a routine settled into over time, overshadowed by a constant fear of death. He witnessed the brutal executions of disobedient slaves by the drow, observed tears streaming down the faces of tormented men crumbling under the cruelty of the priestesses of Lolth, and watched with detachment as spiders feasted on the anguished cries of goblins. Yet, these harrowing scenes no longer stirred fear within him.

By sheer luck, he narrowly escaped his fate. A riot erupted among the enslaved Minotaurs and Orcs one day, fuelled by the recency of their enslavement, their vigor unchecked by reason. The chaos of the uprising rattled the dark elves, as the Minotaurs and Orcs, in their bid for freedom, wreaked havoc by demolishing nearby structures and liberating the imprisoned rothe. In the midst of the turmoil, with the attention of the Lolth drow diverted towards subduing the larger slaves, it presented the only fleeting opportunity for him to seize his chance at freedom.

Perhaps Otto possessed a natural inclination for stealth, or perhaps he was blessed by the Dark Maiden that fateful night. With meticulous care yet swift determination, he navigated his way out of the city, utilizing every available hiding spot - be it behind corners, haystacks, or barrels. Meanwhile, the other escaped captives drew attention with their frantic and clumsy attempts to flee, providing cover for Otto's silent movements. Step by cautious step, Otto distanced himself

from the chaos, his path guided by the cool touch of cave walls and the enveloping darkness. Despite the uncertainty of his destination or the reason for his flight, he pressed on, driven by an instinctual urge to escape the confines of his captivity.

Emerging from the depths of the Underground, Otto greedily filled his lungs with the crisp air of freedom before hastening onward, propelled by a newfound sense of liberation.

He ran tirelessly, his destination unknown, his only focus on putting distance between himself and his captors. With each stride, he stumbled and fell, only to rise again and resume his frantic pace. Otto pushed himself until his lungs burned, his vision blurred, and his legs threatened to give out beneath him. Eventually, exhaustion overtook him, and he collapsed onto the cool grass, his body spent and gasping for air.

For what felt like an eternity, Otto lay there, struggling to regain his breath, his hands clutching the damp earth beneath him. Despite his fervent desire to rise and continue his flight, the searing pain in his chest rendered him immobile. As he coughed and gasped for air, he forced his eyes open, greeted by the serene expanse of the night sky.

Rolling onto his back, Otto found himself bathed in the soft glow of the full moon, its ethereal light casting a gentle radiance upon the meadow where he lay. In that moment, the young drow felt a sense of peace wash over him, as if the moon itself offered solace and sanctuary to the escaped prisoner. For a moment, the Otto forgot how to breathe, so mesmerised was he by the dark sun. And he finally remembered his goddess.

Tears welled in his reddened eyes, and an uncontrollable laughter bubbled up from his aching chest. Otto groaned, even screamed, burying his face and in his hands, gripping his hair. Turning towards the grass, he inhaled the scent of fresh greenery and damp earth, offering silent gratitude to some unseen force. Mumbling barely audible words, he offered apologies to his brother and sister. Thus, he passed the entire night, seeking refuge in the cool darkness until dawn forced him to seek shelter from the sun's burning rays.

Thus began the dawn of a new life for the former prisoner. Upon the surface, he would once again revel in the joy of music, the gentle strumming of the harp. He would seek out part-time jobs and explore new ways of survival, including, perhaps, resorting to stealing when necessary.

It's worth noting that the trauma of his survival would significantly impact the young man's behaviour. After experiencing a taste of freedom, Otto began engaging in impulsive actions that contradicted his moral compass. Stealing had never been characteristic of him, but the prolonged captivity and initial struggles to earn money pushed him to drastic measures. Thus, he developed kleptomania, an uncontrollable urge to steal even when unnecessary. Additionally, his youthful idealism, which caught up with him later, painted the picture of a naïve and irresponsible individual, despite his advanced mental maturity. He became a person marked by extreme chaos.

Many thanks to @mist1e for translating my text into English. I am very grateful to her for that!

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ist 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers (ू•‧̫•ू⑅)♡

*waves to you* ( ⸝⸝•ᴗ•⸝⸝ )੭⁾⁾

ᴬᵗ ᶠᶦʳˢᵗ ᴵ ᵈᶦᵈⁿ'ᵗ ᵘⁿᵈᵉʳˢᵗᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᶦˢ ᵐᵉˢˢᵃᵍᵉ. ᵀʰᵉⁿ ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ᵇᵉᵉⁿ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵏᶦⁿᵍ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ ˢᶦⁿᶜᵉʳᵉˡʸ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᶠᵒʳ ᵃ ˡᵒⁿᵍ ᵗᶦᵐᵉ. ᴬⁿᵈ ᴵ ᵈᶦᵉᵈ ᵃ ᶜᵒᵘᵖˡᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᵈᵘᵉ ᵗᵒ ᶠᵃᵗᶦᵍᵘᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ⁿᵒʷ ᴵ ᶜᵃⁿ ˢʰᵃʳᵉ ᵐʸ ᶦⁿᵗᵉʳᵉˢᵗˢᵎᵎ

Blue color I really like cold colors. Especially when I see blue in nature. I can look at a forget-me-not, brunner or iris for a long time. It's the same with the sea, the lake, even an ordinary puddle. For some reason it makes me happy.

Coffee It's my comfort drink. And also I'm a coffee addict. I don't think caffeine has any effect on me. I've been drinking coffee too long and too much. But it really lifts my spirits, especially when I try to take a break.

Autumn I have a lot of good memories related to autumn. Starting with various games and smells, ending with warm drinks and street coolness. Autumn is full of mysticism. Witches, skeletons, vampires and various evil spirits are strongly associated with All Saints' Day. I also love all kinds of trinkets: lanterns, mushrooms, dried leaves and flowers, candles, pendants, in general, everything related to autumn.

Cute little things Due to the fact that stress strongly affects my emotional and physical condition, I began to find comfort in cute things. For example, Japan has a lot of cute animal mascots. I like them! But my absolute favorite is Cinamoroll

Early summer morning As a teenager I could stay up all night. And most of all, I liked staying up all night in the summer. I have a lot of good memories associated with an early summer morning. Every summer I try to stay awake for at least one day to walk around my city or sit on the balcony listening to swallows

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I want to help my friend, check his awesome arts <з

Oh, love this dude.

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Raphael already has Haarlep as his sugar baby

uh- ‎૮ ྀི ′̥̥̥ ᵔ ‵̥̥̥ ྀིა

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I often feel lonely because I don't really have anyone to discuss Baldur's Gate with. I have listeners and I'm grateful that I have them, but I don't have a person with whom I can spend days and nights discussing the game, characters, oces. I have a lot of ideas but I'm showing a small part of them because it takes a lot of effort. My new acquaintances advise me to share my ideas and I try to take the initiative a little first, but anxiety often takes over me. I'm starting to regret what I'm writing. Even now. Why I'm doing this now can't answer for sure. Maybe someone will read this and understand me. Maybe for someone these words will seem close.

I also get nervous when I stop creating. I often think that I should post drawings despite my fears. But when I'm exhausted I feel vulnerable and useless and I can't support myself in these moments. And often at such moments all my friends are busy and I can't disturb them. I respect their space, I respect their time. I just get lonely sometimes. Because of this, I started smoking more frequently.

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I've been thinking about sugardaddy!AU all day. I was thinking about how Raphael treats his sugarbaby like a pet and he keeps track of his choice of clothes and jewelry I just asldkasj;jf;ldflak ( ; ω ; )

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I LOOOVE IT (ง ื▿ ื)ว

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ 𝓓𝓸𝓷’𝓽 𝓛𝓲𝓮 ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

ʜᴀᴀʀʟᴇᴘ x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ/ᴛᴀᴠ

⋆˙⟡♡ ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʟɪᴘᴘᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ʙᴇᴅ, ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛ ᴏꜰ ʀᴀᴘʜᴀᴇʟ’ꜱ ᴇᴍʙʀᴀᴄᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜱɪᴍᴘʟʏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴀ ᴅʀɪɴᴋ… ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴘɪɴɴᴇᴅ ʙᴇɴᴇᴀᴛʜ ʜᴀᴀʀʟᴇᴘ ᴀꜱ ʀᴀᴘʜᴀᴇʟ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘꜱ ꜱᴏᴜɴᴅʟʏ.

⋆˙⟡♡ Slight NSFW | Angst? | Dubious | Sloppy Kisses

“Aw, poor little mouse, so desperate~” Haarlep had said it in the most condescending way and it shouldn’t have made your tummy flutter as much as it did. Biting back a reluctant moan you tilt your head to the side, your eyes find Raphael sound asleep on the bed just a few feet away from you and the incubus…

Haarlep doesn't give you much time to think. He presses you into the floor, your knees trembling under the pressure of their body pushing against yours, “I’m awfully worried about you~”.

They cup your chin and stroke their thumb across your lower lip, their nails just barely pricking the skin before forcing your head back to look them in the eyes. A wicked smile gracing their lips, “Raphael is quite inept, I'm afraid~ I doubt he pleases you even when he tries his best. Adorable, yet so disappointing for you~”.

You wanted to tell them how wrong they were but your words get drowned out by the incubus, who seems to know exactly what you're going to say, “Ah, ah, ah, don't try to lie to me, sweet one~”

“Y-you’re wrong, Haarlep.” You push against their chest, trying to create space between you and them, but it only causes them to press harder against you, “N’no- R-Raphael is not inept! H-he’s-“

A deep chuckle resonates in the room, making your core burn hotter than it already was, “No, no, you poor thing, I know the truth. And the truth is you crave something more~”. Haarlep’s tail curls around your delicious thigh, a light squeeze from it causes you to gasp softly.

Their tongue flicks over your lips before snaking into your mouth, a mixture of both of your saliva pooling in your mouth, threatening to drip down your chin. Haarlep’s tongue twists and twirls with yours, the taste of their mouth driving you mad. Their kiss was nothing like Raphael’s, ‘nn-no…’ , the taste was different- a taste that was distinctly Haarlep, and they were so much more aggressive. So much more needy and hungry and it made you weak…

“Mm~ ♡“ Their fingers thread through your hair tugging sharply at the roots, eliciting a moan from your lips before breaking away from the kiss- a thin strand of saliva keeping you connected before the incubus breaks it with a flick of their tongue, “You want me~ Tell me you want me, Raphael’s mouse. Beg for my touch~"

You whimper, biting your lower lip as your hands curl around their leather black straps. Your head feels light, thoughts muddled and fuzzy, and the only thing that makes any sense right now is, “I-I want you, Haarlep. P-please~ f-fuck me, Haarlep~”. Your eyes peering over once more at your precious sleeping cambion, Raphael… “I-I-I… n’no~ I need-“ You tried to fight the words, tried to shut your legs and stop your wetness, but Haarlep had you in their web, “H-haarlep~ you, Haarlep~. P-Please~”.

The incubus hums in delight, their grin broadening, the sharp points of their teeth glinting in the dim candlelight, “That's a good dove~ Such a pretty and perfect little thing you are~! Now let's have some real fun, hm?”

You could feel Haarlep’s tail spread your leg, the tip flicking teasingly across the skin before curling around the back of your thigh and yanking you closer to their harden cock, “let me show you who you really wish to belong to~ ♡ "

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A glass of wine :з

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i'm in stress again

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And then he laughed.

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Nine People I'd Like to Know Better

@the-biggest-soup and @dark-and-kawaii uuhhmm aah- t-thanks I guess

Last Song I Listened to: Don't Get Me Wrong · And One Currently Watching: YouTube shorts idk ajhsdj Sweet/Savory/Spicy: Why is there no salty? I like the salty taste (of my tears and blood) Relationship Status: I'm overwhelmed with feelings, but I'm putting myself into drawings to calm down a little Current Obsession: Baldur's Gate 3. This game completely changes me. And... I think Sky: Children of the Light. I've been playing this game for over three years almost every day. This is my absolutely comfortable game that relaxes me and it saved me in the days of loneliness.

I'm sorry I have no one to tag :(

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i'm a fan of OTTOMOUSE! OTTOMOUSE !

omg

hold him gentle like a hamburger

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Tag Game

@mist1e AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Last song: AND ONE - Sometimes

Currently watching: nothing Three ships: Halsin/Astarion, Jack/Rhys, Eren/Reiner

Favourite colour: black, white, turquoise

It's funny, but I rarely use cold colors in my artworks. But I love walking in dark and cold colours. Currently consuming: sea buckthorn tea

First ship: perhaps Knuckles/Rouge, I don't remember exactly

Birth place: Russia

Relationship status: I want to give love but I am rejected

Last movie: I... don't remember. I rarely watch movies

Currently working on: I have a bunch of ideas for myself and four more commissions

I... uhh... I'm sorry @dark-and-kawaii @ooohladymaria @the-biggest-soup

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N-new people hellooooo!!!!!!