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These two invented yearning

destiny can’t be changed dean, all roads lead to the same destination

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this is the face of a man who reciprocates

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You’re so right they make me so insane

my next Destiel hot take be upon ye

I often see the following idea presented, with only slight changes to wording: "Dean wants Cas to choose to stay (choose Dean) vs. Cas just wants to be asked to stay (to be chosen by Dean), but neither of them can say that and therefore it is the inherent tragedy of their love."

I could be wrong, but I think a lot of this interpretation stems from this part of the script in 15x09, "The Trap."

DEAN: I know you're sorry, Cas. About Bel, about Mom. CAS: I was talking about Jack. I already apologized to you. You just refused to hear it. DEAN: Sorry I brought it up. Maybe if you didn't just up and leave us. CAS: You didn't give me a choice. You couldn't forgive me. And you couldn't move on. You were too angry. I left, but you didn't stop me.

I think this actually speaks to the fact that Dean usually does try to stop Cas from leaving, and that he didn't is what was different this time. Because Dean always seeks a way to forgive Cas, even if it means compromising his own worldview ("Dude, if anybody else – I mean anybody – pulled that kind of crap, I would stab them in their neck on principle.") Dean does, regularly and repeatedly, try to bring Cas in from the cold. He does, regularly and repeatedly, tell Cas what he means to him.

I need you, I'm glad you're here, I'd rather have you, check your messages, I'm not leaving without you, why didn't you wait for me, you've got one job to do and that's to heal, you're the best friend we've ever had, never do that again, let's go home. Etc.

Cas is not waiting to be asked to stay; HE HAS BEEN ASKED. It's in this specific and particular instance that Dean doesn't ask. And that's the problem. It implies that Dean has finally had enough of the way Cas doesn't treat Dean as a partner the way that Dean treats Cas as one. Cas has regularly shown a tendency to go away and try to take care of their big problems alone, without communicating, and come back with proof that he's more than the mistakes he's made-- not for Dean, but for himself. Dean's aware that Cas has this issue! He acknowledges it especially in s12 - "And he's so desperate for a win right now, he can't even see straight." Dean is usually very sympathetic to it even though it drives him absolutely crazy.

Mary's death is not at all Cas's fault, of course. But the fact that Cas ditched them and went to seek help from God and the angels again when he didn't know what to do about Jack -- instead of talking to Dean about it -- is the part that I think pushed Dean over the edge. The fixed point in their relationship - that Dean will always forgive Cas when he runs off to try to save the day - turns out to not be as fixed as either of them thought it was. And to really twist the knife, Dean questions whether his feelings for Cas are even real. I don't think Dean actually believes Chuck has forced him to have feelings for Cas (familial or otherwise), but it reminds me of the way Dean says Jack isn't family in "Unity" - he doesn't truly believe that, but he has to find a way to emotionally justify making an impossible choice between which members of his family he loves more. Cutting out Cas, cutting out Jack, because he is actually literally at his mental and emotional breaking point and there has to be a justification to get Dean through it.

I think the inherent tragedy is a lot more in the fact that Dean wants Cas to stay and Cas just can't do that. You can't remove the noble knight from his natural habitat of questing; he'll waste away. They have incompatible self-esteem issues. Dean needs to feel more important than the mission in order to believe he's loved, and Cas needs to complete missions to prove himself worthy of love. They're fucking idiots, your honor.

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Dean Winchester makes me cry

Dean being gentle with his angel even though no one ever showed him how

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Thinking about Taylor swift songs in the context of destiel is the best worst thing ever. Like Come Back Be Here and Say Don’t Go are literally just Dean and Cas’ povs on their divorce. Like in the season 15 purgatory scene Dean mentions that Cas left and Cas says “I left but you didn’t stop me.” And Say Dont Go said “I would stay forever if you say ‘don’t go’” CAS WOULD STAY FOREVER IF DEAN SAID “DONT GO” IM GOING INSANE. Come Back Be Here is so Dean it say “and I don’t want to need you this way come back, be here”

Please tell me I’m not the only one that’s been scouring Taylor Swift lyrics for things that apply to destiel 🙏

Don’t even get me started on This Is Me Trying in the context of Dean Winchester I might start foaming at the mouth

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RIP CHARLIE BRADBURY YOU WOULD’VE LOVED CHAPPELL ROAN

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So uhhh, my friend and I made some observations…

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Reactions to Arcane content on instagram vs tumblr are so funny because it’s so obvious that Instagram isn’t a fandom space like tumblr and is not used to fandom content. I’ll see comments on a JayVik post yapping about how the creators said that it was brotherly love or about how they’re not cannon like ok??? When has that stopped any fandom ever. It hasn’t. Modern fandom is based in delusion and people can ship whoever they want and I love that tumblr (at least what I see) understands that. I love that for fandoms that we get to take characters and interact with them through fanworks and have our own ideas to soothe the delusional and obsessive soul ☺️

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I love that Vi never questioned how Jinx ended up with Isha and was just like “yeah, she’s doing a good job”. I think it’s so sweet that despite the fact that she hates Jinx she’s still able to see the impact she’s had on Isha and see her growth even though she’s angry everyone’s just so adorable 😭

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So uhhh I disappeared for a year?? Dw Arcane has brought me back for glorious evolution.

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apparently “”limiting my emotional range” and “crushing my libido” are symptoms of the wrong medication, and not, in fact, the sorcerers curse

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@taylorssversionn

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love the red on this one. real

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Henry Kissinger wants to kiss you 🫵

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I just finished shadow and bone and let me tell you it is going to take me a bit to recover. Like (spoiler alert) David’s death??? I- he was making her a ring, with her favorite gemstone. And now he’s dead like what. How come the characters that I don’t care about are fine but my sweet traumatized child Genya just keeps on getting more shit thrown her way?. She doesn’t deserve any of this 😭😭😭

On the other hand I love the wesper I was thriving, literally giggling and kicking my feet. They’re so adorable and so precious and if I don’t get more content soon I will die.

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Why is there Hamilton fan art on my dash in 2023???