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There is more to life

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I always hope for someone to love me deeply

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For me, blogging your thoughts, is not about how good you are in writing, how perfect your grammar is, how well you use words and anything, but blogging, for me, is a matter of how much you can express your thoughts effectively, and how your readers can relate to it. Blogging is not for gaining attention, but it’s gaining people who can relate and understand to you. Blogging is not also something you use, for vaunting but it’s used for your thoughts and feelings to be expressed. Stop criticizing bloggers who express their thoughts through writings, they’re not born to be perfect, but they are born to be understood.

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Was it easy leaving me? After saying all that cute and sweet stuffs then just walking away like nothing. I hope you didn't intend to do that literally because you see, you have ripped my heart into small tiny pieces.

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06- 16- 2013 My English assignment.

I remember this summer when I had run away from home. I want to share this story because I learned a lot from this that made me more mature and made me stronger to face more difficult challenges that may occur in my life.

This summer I ran away because I and my mom fought about something that I want to make it a little bit private. Because of our conversation, it made me pissed. I decided to call my dad for some help. Good for me he responded.  It took almost 1 month before I went home. I went home because my grandmother told me that my mom is almost sorry for what she had done. I accepted her apology.  Finally we talked again and felt okay for each other. We decided not to go beyond each other’s lives.

This even in my life become a light bulb moment for me because this experience helped me to understand more how to forgive and have a loving and forgiving heart.

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Never assume.

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Its hard to be with the people whom you hate. Sometimes you can't control yourself to do something that would hurt them. Its hard to be insensitive on what they're saying mostly when they reached the limit. 

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You can't escape the past that easy. Sometimes you need to refresh from the page of the past and glance a little but don't come back and suffer to it again. You need to learn things from the lessons that the past gave you. Be happy on it and live it. 

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Turn your weaknesses into strengths, and your strengths into weapons.

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It's hard to let go someone whom you love so much. The one whom you put so much effort. I can't say that I just wasted my time on the one I love just because he/ she didn't love me back. It's an honor. Being not loved back is not bad. It means that though he/ she didn't love you, you still like him/ her because of what she/ he is. Though it's hard to let go, I'll chose to let go to make you happier on the choice you'll pick.

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TSAMU 2013 was so dumb useless for famous people.

Being in TSAMU 2013 was so nice. I appreciated all the efforts of the organizers to produce an explicit meet up like that. I was just discouraged when I saw other bloggers who are so called "famous" that didn't participate. I don't want to mention names but they do know who they are. The organizers keep calling them but they were so deaf that they couldn't hear it. They were like having their own world in the TSAMU. Relaxing. It was so disappointing but ofcourse we shouldn't mind them at all. We should just enjoy it. Anyway it's their lost.

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Its hard to fake a smile mostly when you're so down and depressed. Trying your best to not let anyone notice that you're so sad. In my smile there is always a hurting heart a lonely one that wants to cry out the hurting feelings I have. Its hard to fake everything and pretend to be happy.

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Everything I'm going through, I trust God.

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Everytime I look at you, I'm falling. I like you a lot. Though your doing something wrong? I still like you. For me, you're perfect, though in fact your not. I know that no one is perfect but in my eyes, you are to me. I  love you until the last plastic rose dies.