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(Important) Update: Where I've Been All This Time <3
TW. Mentions of (NOT GRAPHIC) IRL sickness in this post
Hello, my wonderful friends! I hope you all have been having a wonderful time <3
I know I've been AWOL here on tumblr for quite a while now, and I feel I owe - for the sake of my sanity at the very least - an explanation. Sorry it took so long to get to this.
This year so far has been - in many bad and good ways - a whirlwind for me in my life. College hit me hard, with a lot more assignments and classwork than I was prepared for, and unfortunately so did my health. I've been struggling with physical health issues since the August last year, but had chalked it up to stress and side effects of the fibromyalgia I already have.
My health has been on a steady but sure decline since then. But it was only this year it really plummeted. I've been diagnosed with a rather late stage of Lyme Disease, that has been untreated since last year because I didn't realize I had it, and that's why my life has been utter hell. The symptoms are not easy to deal with, and I don't quite want to get into detail about it.
Long story short, this means I've been barely able to keep up with my classwork demands, let alone my own personal needs, and my books have fallen to the sidelines (which has made me quite depressed but that's not the issue) because I'm physically unable to sit down and write without feeling sicker or having to lay down because I'm in too much pain to do anything else. I want to write, I want to post and I want to do my comissions and start my comics, but its impossible for me to keep up right now.
Quick disclaimer: I am NOT giving up on this blog or stopping writing. I'm not. I really want to continue and I have so many wonderful ideas I wish I could put in motion, but right now I just don't have the time, health and unfortunately ability to do so. This is just an update so you guys know I am NOT abandoning this blog <3
Pls keep tagging me, pls continue including me in tag games, it really means a lot to me, and I want to catch up as soon as I can! For now, I'll participate here and there - because I want to - but if I take longer than usual, y'all know why now <3
Hugs, the Mystic Duck (:
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My characters when I try to write a transition scene:

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New REBLOG Game
Just fucking lie about the previous poster
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prev absolutely does not add extra years to their life by traumatizing fictional children and crushing their dreams (:
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New REBLOG Game
Just fucking lie about the previous poster
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Me while writing: oh hell yes this is such a good sentence I'm the master of poetic imagery
The writing when I go back to edit:
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Six Song OST Game!
Feeling inspired to do one of these tags again!!!! So let's go with Tristan Mallory, Ilya Vasilyev and Chion Strihdda from Crash Stardom! for this one!!!!
Tristan Mallory
Event that defines your character's past: Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself 'cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side, so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh Every day of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with!
How your character sees themselves: Alone With Myself - Citizen Soldier
I'm alright, I'm okay Lying to myself just to make it through the day The sun still shines on my face But what's inside my head would scare the devil away Feel like a burden asking you to stay But I've been living in the darkest place Feel like a burden asking you to stay, but will you stay? Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone Don't leave me alone here with myself 'Cause this ain't a home, this cage made of bones And my head's a prison cell Every day a living hell that no-one sees I would rather be with anyone but me Don't leave me here alone with myself I'm a mess, I'm insane Every thought's a bullet blowing holes inside my brain I suppress flash-flood rain Can't take another second 'cause the dam's about to break
How others view them: Ultraluminary - Caleb Hyles cover
I'm the light every night in your world Are you ready to watch me be legendary? 'Cause I'm Ultraluminary You wish on me in my glitter light First star you see tonight So wish away, wish with all your might Upon this radiant sight The stars ignite They flame from dust Born out of gravity and force, they combust And though they try in rivalry They'll never shine bright as me! I'm the light every night in your world, hey You revel in the glory of my beauty! You ready to watch me be legendary? 'Cause I'm ultraluminary!
Whoa, welcome to lunaria Whoa, so spectacularia Whoa, super singulary 'Cause I'm so very, very Extraordinaria! The cosmic shine of my fine display Can turn the night to day I hear they say that the Milky Way Can't help but envy me, I am the brightest star Superb, spectacular!
Their closest relationship: I'll Be There - Walk Off The Earth
When the tears are rolling down Like a river to the ocean And there's no one else around You won't question my devotion Everybody needs somebody And you got me You know that I know that you know that I'll be there for the highs and lows Give you mine if your heart gets broke By your side when you're all alone I will be there When you're down and down on your luck No ride home, and you got too drunk 2 a.m. I'ma pick you up I will be there I'll be there, I'll be there, I'll be there for you I'll be there, I'll be there, I'll be there for you When you're down and down on your luck No ride home, and you got too drunk, woah I'll be there, I'll be there, I'll be there for you When your heart could use a break And it's too broken to be open I'll be patient, I will wait Until you're ready to be open
A major fight scene: Idolize - Caleb Hyles
Were you told what is real and beautiful? Were you told to subscribe to lies? Do you feel like you're lost, delusional? All your time is monetized? Get the camera to capture all your tears There's a currency in your cries They are listening close to all your fears Your emotions weaponized I can see it in your eyes! You and I are more than numbers on the screen To analyze, just close your eyes Are you searching for a window into me To idolize? Idolize Bring a tithe to the altar of success You will not be demonized The adrenaline coursing through my chest In a virtual paradise Is there anywhere left where I can rest? Is there ever a private life? I'm expected to show you all my best And it's leaving me paralyzed You and I are more than numbers on the screen! To analyze, analyze Are you searching for a window into me? To idolize? Idolize Maybe one day we will be reborn Or is this humanity's final form? Into the mirror, we are tired and worn Must I fight for more?
End Credit Scene: Are You Satisfied? - Marina & The Diamonds
I was pulling out my hair The day I got the deal, chemically calm Was I meant to feel happy that my life Was just about to change? One life pretending to be the cat who got the cream Oh, everybody said, "Marina is a dreamer" People like to tell you what you're gonna be It's not my problem if you don't see what I see And I do not give a damn if you don't believe My problem, it's my problem That I never am happy It's my problem, it's my problem On how fast I will succeed Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? High achiever, don't you see? Baby, nothing comes for free They say I'm a control freak Driven by a greed to succeed Nobody can stop me 'Cause it's my problem if I want to pack up and run away It's my business if I feel the need to smoke and drink and sway It's my problem, it's my problem if I feel the need to hide And it's my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die
Ilya Vasyliev
Event that defines your character's past: Gladiator - Jann
I know your addiction's attention, let's start a show Is it everything and more than you were hoping for? Show us something we ain't never seen before Smash your competition, baby Show us some good entertainment Victory's your only payment Gladiator, gladiator Welcome to the party, I know it's kinda funny That everyone is acting like they know you personally Just play along, be nice and all You won't get far being on your own They've all been dying for a little drama Their favourite stars getting out of coma To fill the news with 90's nostalgia It will take more than just a pretty face to top that [...] I know your addiction's attention, let's start a show Is it everything and more than you were hoping for? Show us something we ain't never seen before Smash your competition, baby Show us some good entertainment Victory's your only payment Gladiator, gladiator Fake it 'til you make it Mask on, never take it off Wear it 'til wearing it feels natural Whatever you tell yourself, it's not true Power's what I make it Pixels like it's 8-bit I'm picking your new favourite You buy it and I savour it
How your character sees themselves: Never Good Enough - Citizen Soldier
Here I am, once again Way too close to the edge Terrified, open eyes I'm seeing red I would rather die tonight Then let you down one more time (One more time) Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth? Is misery what I deserve? Am I just so void of love? That I'm never good, never good enough Demonize, criticize Your words eat me alive Just like knives Tearing me from the inside What you want I'll never be Why can't you be proud of me? (Proud of me) Sick of coming undone Letting down everyone Mediocre at best Maybe better off dead Am I a failure from birth? Is misery what I deserve? Am I just so void of love? That I'm never good, never good enough I hate to disappoint you But it's in my DNA Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace I never asked to be like this A grave mistake you can't forgive A filthy stain, oh, what a shame Can you just wash me away?
How others view them: Oh No! - Marina & The Diamonds
Don't do love, don't do friends I'm only after success Don't need a relationship I'll never soften my grip Don't want cash, don't want card Want it fast, want it hard Don't need money, don't need fame I just want to make a change I just wanna change, I just wanna change I just wanna change, I just wanna change I just wanna change I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh no! Oh no! Oh no! Oh! One track mind, one track heart If I fail, I'll fall apart Maybe it is all a test 'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst So I always act like I'm the best If you are not very careful Your possessions will possess you TV taught me how to feel Now real life has no appeal It has no appeal, it has no appeal
Their closest relationship: Me, Myself & I - Bebe Rexha, G-Easy
Woo, it's just me, myself and I Solo ride until I die 'Cause I got me for life (yeah) Woo, I don't need a hand to hold Even when the night is cold I got that fire in my soul (uh) And as far as I can see, I just need privacy Plus a whole lot of tree, fuck all this modesty I just need space to do me, give the world what they're tryna see A Stella Maxwell right beside of me A Ferrari, I'm buyin' three A closet of Saint Laurent, get what I want when I want 'Cause this hunger is driving me, yeah I just need to be alone, I just need to be at home Understand what I'm speaking on, if time is money, I need a loan But regardless, I'll always keep keepin' on Fuck fake friends, we don't take L's, we just make M's While y'all follow, we just make trends I'm right back to work when that break ends, yeah Woo, it's just me, myself and I Solo ride until I die 'Cause I got me for life (got me for life, yeah) Woo, I don't need a hand to hold Even when the night is cold I got that fire in my soul
A major fight scene: Wish You The Worst - Ryan Mack
Wish you the worst Wish you the worst I think you owe me an apology, yeah Ever since I was a little kid, been giving me shit Always calling me a wannabe Saying I'm a loser, I don't have to prove myself to you And I know, I know That I should just forget about you But oh, oh-oh I got something that I'm dying to say When you're out on a date and you order desert I hope you spill and it stains on your favorite shirt And when you're trying to pay I hope your card doesn't work Yeah, I wish you the worst, I wish you the worst And I hope I never, ever see you again Yeah, fuck you and all of you friends You can all go to hell, I'll be driving the hearse Toss a coin in the well, and I wish you the worst Yeah I wish you the worst Wish you the worst Wish you
End Credit Scene: It's Alright - Mother Mother
Oh hey, I had a night I had a day I did one million stupid things I said one billion foolish things I'm not okay, I got a baseball bat beside my bed To fight off what's inside my head To fight off what's behind my meds I'm lonely, lost in pain It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay You're not a monster, just a human And you made a few mistakes It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay You're not gruesome, just human And you made a few mistakes It's alright Ooh, it's okay Ooh, it's alright, oh Goddamn I throw a brick right through the window My life ignored the signals I'm high and drunk on ego, can't see straight So I just feel my way around and I'm touching and I'm grabbing Everything I can't be havin' I am broken down in shame It's alright, It's okay, it's alright, it's okay You're not a demon, there's a reason You behaved in that way It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay And I believe, yes I believe that you will see a better day It's alright
Chion Strihdda
Event that defines your character's past: Never Let Me Down Again - Jessica Mazin (TLOU ost)
I'm taking a ride with my best friend I hope he never lets me down again He knows where he's taking me Taking me where I want to be I'm taking a ride with my best friend We're flying high We're watching the world pass us by Never want to come down Never want to put my feet back down on the ground I'm taking a ride with my best friend I hope he never lets me down again Promises me I'm as safe as houses As long as I remember who's wearing the trousers I hope he never lets me down again We're flying high We're watching the world pass us by Never want to come down Never want to put my feet back down on the ground We're flying high We're watching the world pass us by Never want to come down Never want to put my feet back down on the ground Never let me down
How your character sees themselves: I'm Still Here - John Rzeznik
I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard Or a moment that's held in your arms. And what do you think you'd ever say? I won't listen anyway... You don't know me, And I’ll never be what you want me to be. And what do you think you'd understand? I'm a boy, no, I'm a man.. You can't take me and throw me away. And how can you learn what's never shown? Yeah, you stand here on your own. They don't know me 'cause I'm not here. And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can the world want me to change? They’re the ones that stay the same. They don’t know me, 'Cause I’m not here. And you see the things they never see All you wanted, I could be
How others view them: Burn The House Down - AJR
Used to keep it cool Used to be a fool All about the bounce in my step Watch it on the news Whatcha gonna do? I could hit refresh and forget Used to keep it cool Should I keep it light? Stay out of the fight? No one's gonna listen to me If I write a song Preaching what is wrong Will they let me sing on TV? Should I keep it light? Is that right? Way up way up we go Been up and down that road Way up way up, oh no We gon' burn the whole house down Watch me stand in the line You're only serving lies You've got something to hide We gon' burn the whole house down We gon' burn the whole house down
Their closest relationship: Apollo - Timebelle
Like a bullet in my chest You're written, bound and etched Forever in my mind We are fading in our hands Lost somewhere in wasteland Not knowing up from down But when the walls are caving in The world keeps turning We got the love We got to love No, I will never let you go All the words won't make me fold It is never easy I'll follow you, Apollo No, I will never let you go Give it time and we will grow Ain't no fun in easy I'll follow you, Apollo I'll follow you, Apollo I wear my heart on my sleeve You do the same for me When autumn comes around So when the walls are caving in The world keeps turning We got the love We got to love No, I will never let you go All the words won't make me fold It is never easy I'll follow you, Apollo
A major fight scene: I Don't Wanna Die - Hollywood Undead
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, so you're gonna have to I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die No, I don't wanna die, so you're gonna have to Blood is getting hotter, body's getting colder I have told you once, I'm the only one who holds her I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, so you're gonna have to I look inside of myself and try to find someone else Someone who's willing to die just to watch you crying for help I know that blood will be spilled, and if you won't, then I will My grave will never be filled, it's either kill or be killed So let heaven be told that some may come, some may go Where I'll end up? I don't know, but I ain't dying alone I keep on asking the question, can I be saved by confession? You see this blood on my hands? At least they're still reaching to heaven I gotta pick up the pieces, I gotta bury 'em deep And when you look in my eyes, I'll be the last thing you'll see I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die I don't wanna die, so you're gonna have to I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die No, I don't wanna die, so you're gonna have to
End Credit Scene: Icarus - Bastille
[...] Look who makes their own bed, lies right down within it And what will you have left? Out on the front doorstep, drinking from a paper cup You won't remember this Living beyond your years, acting out all their fears You feel it in your chest Your hands protect the flames From the wild winds around you Icarus is flying too close to the sun And Icarus' life, it has only just begun It's just begun... Standing on the cliff face, highest fall you'll ever grace It scares me half to death Look out to the future, but it tells you nothing So take another breath Your hands protect the flames From the wild winds around you Icarus is flying too close to the sun And Icarus' life, it has only just begun This is how it feels to take a fall Icarus is flying towards an early grave You put up your defences when you leave You leave because you're certain Of who you want to be You're putting up your armour when you leave And you leave because you're certain of who you want to be, oh Icarus is flying too close to the sun
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YOU CANNOT RUN FROM THY RESPONSIBILITIES /lh I cry ):
me: i'm gonna focus on hyrde and my series for a bit
@mysticstarlightduck: (all the crying cat gifs the world has to offer while she waits for sunder & vale)
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note games are popular huh? i’ll give one a try, could use the encouragement (these are all “i will try to” but hey we’ll see where i end up!)
20 notes and i’ll wake up on time
35 notes and i’ll reconnect with friends i’ve lost touch with
50 and i’ll start saving early and get more work (+ apply for other jobs)
60 and i’ll exercise and get sun more regularly
75 and i’ll try and tailor a more comfortable, gender affirming wardrobe for myself
80 and i’ll buy a guitar and start learning it (and practice bass more frequently)
99 and i’ll be nice to myself more often
over 100 notes and honestly no idea, dealer’s choice
use etiquette, don’t spam (1 or 2 replies, 1 or 2 reblogs, 1 like, etc, you may tag others) thank you :)
#THIS IS YOUR CALL TO GET SHIT DONE BUDDDY LETS GOOOOOOOOOOO#YESSSSS YOU GOT THIS BESTIE <3#I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS#FREN
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"poor little guy," I whisper as I put my OC through unspeakable horrors
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PSA from Blobby. Something we should talk about more ❤️
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