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I can't believe I ever disliked Jumin.

This man is just like "I like striped shirts because you can still see the stripes when you fold them" and "nothing is more important to me than my cat."

Like... !!!!!!!

Listen he's adorable

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The boys from Mystic Messenger would never treat me like this.

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Who knew that it would be Zen's route that would make me actually start being interested in Jumin lmao

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Lol talking to Yoosung in this route feels like a two-person Zen fanclub lmao

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What if MC had no choice but to reset? What if, after enough cycles through each story, they know exactly which night they'll go to sleep next to their love then wake up all alone with a text telling them to go to an address they already know by heart. What if MC was cursed with repeating the same events over and over again, falling in love but never getting to grow beyond a certain point with the love of their life?

(lil drabble below the cut. There's a little bit of reset theory sprinkled in, along with a smidge of reference to a song I think goes with MysMes perfectly)

Which guy I'm talking about is intentionally vague so you can imagine your fave <3

Angst with a happy? bittersweet? ending

Not proofread, I don't have time for that shit, sorry lol

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The first time it happened, it was jarring. A panic setting in as you woke up, back in your old old apartment, no sign of him anywhere. Had it all been a dream? Surely not.

Then came the text, and it all came flooding back. What was happening?

You were less fearful this time as you walked up to Rika's apartment, even knowing all that you did now about the mysterious circumstances that had brough you here.

When they, the RFA, your family, greeted you as a stranger, it stung in a painfully nostalgic way. Had they really forgotten all about you? But it wasn't that; they hadn't known you in the first place.

You did some things differently, this time around. You gave more attention to one of the members that you'd brushed off the first time. Confusion clouded you on day five when everything began to drift away from the story you remembered. Despite this change, your new bachelor managed to sweep you off your feet, though you always felt guilty whenever he, your lover from the first time, called or texted. You felt guilty having to push him away to stay loyal to your new man.

You had almost forgotten about that jarring day when everything had reset. Almost. Until it happened again. You were more prepared this time, but felt almost exceedingly empty as you read the text asking for your help. You wanted to ignore it, to stop this toying with your heart. But you knew you couldn't stay away from the RFA. You were bound, heart and soul. So you did as 'Unknown' asked.

You began to dread it more and more each new route, never knowing when you were going to wake up alone and start the cycle all over again. It became numbing. Heartbreaking. But you could never stay away.

Eventually, you'd seen every possible way it could end. There had been a time you'd hoped to find a road that wouldn't end. A path that wouldn't lead to you waking up alone, forced to greet your closest friends as new strangers. But you'd long since given that up.

You'd seen every success, every possible failure. Felt every swell of new love, every shattering heartbreak. Made friends, made enemies, just for it all to be washed away.

There was a time when you'd begun to intentionally run everything into the ground. It was easier to repeat random 5-day loops than to go months, years, before having it all ripped away from you. But bringing them heartbreak hurt you more.

You were careful now. So careful. Especially with him.

You could never bring yourself to be careless with him. You didn't know why, but after a while, he began to stick out to you more than all the rest. No matter which path you walked, he always caught your eye. The way he said things, his way of thinking, how he tried to look out for you in his own little way.

So you pursued him. You'd won his heart before, many times, but you did it again with a purpose. You knew it wouldn't last. You knew one day, you'd wake up and it would all be over. But you loved him. You really loved him. And when the night came that you knew would be the last, you tried desperately not to sleep. But it was as if some curse took over you, forcing your eyes to close. When you awoke, it was all gone.

But you wouldn't let that stop you. Again, you followed him, your north star, your guiding light. Again, you won his heart. And again, you woke up. It was the third time when you noticed something different. Just a moment. A spark. A faint look in his eyes when you saw him face to face, some wondrous shock, as if he couldn't believe you'd chosen him. More than that usual look in his eyes when he saw you for what you believed to be his first time.

But the look wasn't enough for you to say something. Not yet. But a fourth time, you chose him. Then a fifth. Till finally, on the sixth time through, he gave you a look as if you'd gone insane, and he loved you for it. You'd asked without thinking. "You remember, don't you?"

He hadn't had to speak a word for you to know the answer. You knew him too well. He woke up alone, the same as you. And you loved him fiercer. Again and again and again, determined now to always choose him. No matter how repetitive, no matter how painful, you couldn't choose anyone but him, knowing he'd have to watch you fall in love with another man if you chose any other path.

When the fateful night settled in, wrapped up in each others arms, you were silent. You both knew what this night meant. When the daylight comes I'll have to go. You felt his tears trickle into your hair. "I don't wanna start all over."

And you didn't either. "I know, baby, I know." You held him so close, promising, "I'll choose you. I'll always choose you." And you meant it. You'd never be able to make it through now without him. You had him, now, and you weren't letting go.

And when the daylight comes I'll have to go, but tonight I'm gonna hold you so close, 'cause in the daylight we'll be on our own, but tonight I'm gonna hold you so close.

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Zen sounds so defeated 😭😭😭😭😭

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I was right. Imma fight this bitch.

Oh gosh this isn't gonna go how I think it's gonna go, right??

Zen (and Jumin probably) are gonna get publicly shamed. I'm gonna die. This will actually crush me from second hand embarrassment (not really embarrassment but you know what I mean).

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Honestly same

I am so in love with Yoosung Kim

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Oh gosh this isn't gonna go how I think it's gonna go, right??

Zen (and Jumin probably) are gonna get publicly shamed. I'm gonna die. This will actually crush me from second hand embarrassment (not really embarrassment but you know what I mean).

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Saving the game now and then turning off notifications. I have two hella busy days and will miss so so many chats, so I just saved and I plan to go back to today's save on Sunday so I don't miss any chats

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When I got that picture of Zen under the stars I literally gasped

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I didn't expect to be absolutely head-over-heels in love with the theatre kid who kept bragging about how hot he was but here we are

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Thinking about kissing every freckle in his body to show him how beautiful he is

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Oh shit. My stupid ass just realized there's about to be drama.

Ya girl just forgot that MC is blissfully unaware of the fact that Echo Girl is in Zens apartment.

Paired with heavy foreshadowing from Jaehee being all like "if a fan sees you entering his apartment things will go to shit"

Thanks Jaehee. Now I'm stressed.

Gosh, can a girl not catch a break???

Bonus: MC on her way to go visit Zen like

She gonna get her day ruined lmao

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The fact that I get to go visit Zen has been overshadowed by the phone call I just got from Seven. He's a goof and I'm in love.

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Okay ouch

This app making me feel so guilty about not choosing Yoosung. Poor struggling depressed college student. I relate to him so bad (as a fellow struggling depressed college student), and not being able to help him is painful.

He's all "I'm so glad Zen has you to help him, I wish I had someone like that"

Got me all 😢😭🙃