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Bro of corse I wasnt connecting to personas/OCS I made. THEY WERE NOTHING LIKE ME

If you are constantly feeling in danger, you won't connect with an oc that barely wears clothes. Give your oc that physical layer of fabric so they feel safe!! Don't make them relaxed, give them that shoulder tension!!

Daily reminder that to feel connected to your oc they have to behave a bit like you!!

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Star shaped stimboard for anon!

I wasn’t quite sure what you meant, so I went with star shaped stim toy type things :)

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imagine what i could accomplish without chronic tension hedaches & migraines

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Source

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I have compiled a folder of Depersonalisation/Derealisation disorder self-help resources

It contains…

Six different tests used by psychologists to diagnose DPDR

Overcoming Depersonalisation and feelings of Unreality - a book written by several experts in depersonalisation disorder that includes some of the latest research about dissociative disorders.

The Stranger in the Mirror - a book by M.Steinberg a renowned expert in treating dissociative disorders

A meditative audiotape especially for DPDR

Several Cognitive Behavioural Therapy worksheets

Links to several other self-help resources including video and audio content, additional books and a forum for people with DPDR.

Link here at Mega

https://mega.nz/folder/JBpWVSTb#Ad6Mdz9xvO5oGUMOSJNxow

There is such little information about dpdr compared to other more common disorders like anxiety and I have still yet to meet a health professional that I haven’t had to explain the disorder to. Because of the general inaccessibility to DPDR resources and treatment, I have decided to compile some free resources, most of which were recommended to me by my psychotherapist. I wish I had access to all of these when I first started experiencing depersonalisation, so I hope this will be helpful to some people!

(updated 2024)

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When will I start feeling less *static noises*

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Teen me pre adhd diagnosis just casually disassociating from stress & anxiety👌💯

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you know when you’re overwhelmed and you just stand in the middle of your room like this

yeah

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Adults: Following rules is good, not following rules is bad

Little me: Okay :] *follows a rule*

Adults: Oh my god look at this loser. He doesn't know that this rule is Secretly Okay To Not Follow. Dumbass. Let's all laugh at him

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i often forget that everything being so God dam difficult is not a normal experience....

Like wdym not everyone is having to choose if brushing your teeth is viable today.

Choose between talking to a friend for 30 mins or doing homework... And still feeling exhausted even if you do neither.

Wdym.

There’s no such thing as work-life balance for neurodivergent & chronically ill people.

This is because everything in my life requires work:

maintaining friendships

keeping up with my hygiene

managing bills

making money

remembering my basic needs

sleeping regularly

outputting creatively

All requires some aspect of work for me.

And when everything in your life requires work, your balance goes out the window.

If you're neurodivergent and overwhelmed — I see you.

If you're chronically ill and overwhelmed — I see you.

You're not dysfunctional.

You're not incapable.

You're doing your best.

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a lot of the people you guys are calling narcissists could easily be replaced with the word “asshole”

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The most common argument you'll hear against self diagnosis is that people will fake being [X] for attention. But every disabled person, physical or otherwise, knows this could only work in online spaces - the world was not made for us, and brandishing your disability as a badge of honor that gives you ~special privileges~ is such a funny idea.

Like, honey - that doesn't happen. No one gets anything from being disabled. Maybe extra accommodations if you're lucky - but nothing else. And the internet isn't as important as you seem to think - eventually it just feels hollow.

Ask disabled people how often they had to fight to get diagnosed so their medical needs could be met and their complaints would be heard. Doctors are just hardwired to delay this as much as possible.

I knew I was autistic since late 2018 - I got an official diagnosis 4 months ago. Knowing yourself and how you can make your own life easier is a lifesaver.

And this isn't even going into how many *cons* there are to a professional diagnosis, like being met with disdain at best and denied services at worst.

I don't care if a 16 year old who self diagnosed after taking 1 online quiz about autism is wrong. And honestly I think it's weird people treat this 'issue' with so much hatred.

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you will never be a bad person for not reblogging a post on tumblr, please remember that

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by constantly talking about "disability fakers" and "attention seekers" you're contributing to a moral panic that severely harms actual disabled and mentally ill people btw!!

i have been denied help multiple times due to this disgusting fucking moral panic over, like, maybe 10 individuals per country

idgaf if someone's "faking", you can't tell if someone's faking without them truthfully telling you so stfu and believe people when they say that they need help

it's better to help a potential faker than deny aid to someone in need

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Being on the internet with OCD is like “I want to post a picture of my outfit because I look bomb but what if my full address and National Insurance number is written in the reflection of this random public bathroom mirror and I didn’t notice”

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Look, this is what moral OCD is like for me:

I walk past a piece of paper. I don’t pick it up because I had a long day at work and it’s very cold outside. This then becomes my internal monologue:

I didn’t pick up that piece of paper, I should have. Don’t I care about the environment? It’s not my trash, I shouldn’t have to pick it up. But also that’s how these things happen right? We place the blame on others as our environment degrades. It was just a piece of paper, it’s not like it can do that much damage. But also how do I know: I’m not an environmental expert. Maybe stray paper scraps are killing the frogs. You’re literally killing the frogs. You should look up how many frogs die a year so you know how shitty you are-No stop it.

I care about the environment, and I recycle and I joined green activism movements but is that enough? I could be doing more. I should be doing more. I should donate my entire check to charity. But isn’t it self serving to think that my one check could help that much? Do I really think I’m that important, how self entitled and-no stop it, reset! You are obsessing and if you fall for it, you will not eat dinner. Let it go.

Okay it’s just a piece of paper. It’s okay you skipped it this once: it could have had something dangerous on it. Yeah that makes sense. But also, that means I’m putting my own safety over trying to help the environment, which is very selfish of me. I’m just one shitty person: god how could I be so self absorbed. I should have picked up the piece of paper. I’m so selfish, and shitty and-no, no, stop it! This is not helpful. It’s fine.

It’s been a long day and I’m cold, that’s not a crime- no that’s being selfish again, you’re making excuses. You’re just a lazy piece of shit who doesn’t care about others, and selfish and God the fact you’re thinking this much about one piece of paper shows how selfish you are, you care more about if you’re a good person than anything else, you’re a piece of shit, you’re a piece of shit, YOU’RE A PIECE OF SHIT.

I get home and open up Tumblr. The first post I see says “if you don’t reblog this post about the environment you’re as complicit as an oil billionaire.” I close my computer and resign myself to looking up the state frog populations until I go to bed.

I don’t eat dinner.

The amount of frogs that die a year is somewhere from 200 million to over 1 billion.