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It's so terrifying and disorienting to be gone from front for so long that I've found out we have new servers, new interests, new hobbies, new alters I haven't met because they're hovering around front and I haven't been. I used to be our co-host. That used to be my job. I'm the 🫀 mentioned in our pinned post. But I rarely front anymore. That's in part my fault, because since I was broken up with I've kinda crept away from fronting, plus I've been helping another one of us manage the system. But I also just... haven't been pulled to front. I fronted semi-recently, but it was to get us started on schoolwork, and I went back to headspace quickly. We have so many new friends. And none of them know me. 🌙 and I used to be known in tandem. Everyone knew us, we were the ones people spoke to the most. And everyone still knows 🌙. Nobody knows me, or my pseudomemories, or my experience from splitting into this system. I have to rebuild any connections I want to have, and I'm not social. But I want to have our friends. I've been so busy managing, and I thought 🌙 was doing okay, just to find out ✨ has temporarily (permanently? I have no clue) taken over the co-host role. I only found this out because someone mentioned something I hate about my source and it dragged me to front. I should be used to change, I've had to deal with so much of it. But our roommate doesn't know me. Our project team doesn't know me. 🌙's made friends with the people 🌙 looked up to and I wasn't here for it. 🌙 is like a little brother to me and I missed it all.

I haven't known about anything going on.

I'm terrified to miss more of it.

I want to be co-host still but I don't know these people and it's hard to build connections with people I don't know because my pseudomemories make it hard for me to trust people, and I don't want to re-enact the crap I put the system through when I split.

I used to be the go-to and now there's all these new people already easily connecting and I feel like I'm being replaced because I am even though I'm still allowed to be here.

It's as if ✨ is my successor or something. But I don't want to fade out and only exist in headspace.

I don't know. I'm tired. I came to front and I cried and I don't know what the hell to do.

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Split three days ago and I've been getting to flirt quite a bit <3 all the guys getting flustered are sweet :)

However. 🎧 has been getting on my nerves and I know it's probably just gonna end in us making out or something but for right now he's pissing me off </3

IGNORING THAT. I'm gonna see if our friends can call <3

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finally got to see someone from my source, in another system, after so long. i'm... so gay. doesn't really help that ✨ decided to flirt with me too... i haven't fronted in a year and now.. all this? /pos

i'm just happy, i guess

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Endo safe right?

Okay, I knew this day would come, and my answer is very complicated.

But let me try to say this in as few words as possible:

If you are a traumagenic DID/OSDD system, you are welcome on my page.

If you are not a system and just want to learn/like the memes, you are welcome on my page.

If you are a system that thinks they are traumagenic, but doesn't want to uncover those memories because you don't think you're ready, you are welcome on my page.

If you are endogenic...The truth is, I don't really know because I am not a psychiatrist. But I think there could be, in the mental health world, a chance that their is a disorder that can split the brain without trauma. Again, I'm not a psychiatrist, so there's totally a chance a diagnosis could be put into the DM. But, if that was to happen, it wouldn't be the same as DID/OSDD. So maybe the names for things would change. And, some people don't know what can actually form a system. You might think you're endogenic because you don't have trauma, but you actually do, and you just don't realize it. So technically...Yes? You are allowed on my page, but that is for educational purposes and helping people discover things about themselves that they might not have realized before.

HOWEVER: If you are a system hopper? And you threaten, or even say you have the ability to jump into someone else's mind? You are not welcome on my page. This is both because I frankly don't believe it exists, and also for the safety of the people that come to this blog, and anyone who has paranoia. Don't tell people you can take/give them alters. That's unsafe, and cruel. We've been through enough.

Another addition: If you believe in system resets or anything like that, you are not welcome on this page. Similar to system hopping, it’s simply not a thing. If you are a parogenic system, you are not welcome on my page. You can not will a system into existence, that’s not a thing.

If you are a Tulpa, you are welcome on this page, but it might not be for you. This is because from my understanding the creation of your parts, not alters, parts, is for purely religious purposes. I'm not one to bash religion, but this blog is probably not for you. And if you are using religion to pretend to be a Tulpa, absolutely not you are not welcome here.

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help we’re not dating yet what

and it was mean to front just to call me that :( /lh

but yes we cuddled :D

It's really funny when I'm enabled to completely fluster my boyfriend. Ended up calling him "babydoll" thanks to a server bit and he broke. Winning. Also we cuddled :)

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It's really funny when I'm enabled to completely fluster my boyfriend. Ended up calling him "babydoll" thanks to a server bit and he broke. Winning. Also we cuddled :)

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I just got "when is 🌙 coming back?"ed.

I was trying to introduce myself.

"Well I miss 🌙 so I hope he comes back soon"

How about you just... say nice to meet you? Thank you for answering the question I texted you about?

Gods. I get we're probably the first system she's met, but... still.

Imagine your acquaintance runs into you at a cafe. You're sitting at a table, they come over, ask you something, you start talking about what your plan for the day was. Then they go, "I miss [closer friend]." ...Okay, but were we not just talking? You try to get back on track, but they just continue, "I hope I see them soon." ...Soo, you don't care that you're sitting with someone who was talking with you, huh?

I get that she doesn't get it. But still. I'd like to be treated with a bit more decency than someone who's just here to block your conversation with your friend.

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no-one who'll send you asks you say?? /silly That said- ❤️&/💛 iyw?? ~@voidbornesys

bwahhh

❤️ - “What is your system name? How did you choose it?” one of our fandoms is omniscient reader’s viewpoint, in which a “nebula” is a specific group of people + the first floor of our headspace is a flat area that stretches forever, and all you can see are the nebulas and stars :-)

💛 - “Pick one (or more) alter(s). If they were a cereal, which one would they be and why?” hrrhrhmrhm okay. 🐬 [dubbing one of our littles as 🐬 for now] would absolutely be lucky charms, that just suits their personality + they’re,, so so hyper,,, /pos i think 💠 could be coco puffs. yummy but not crazy sugary like fruit loops or lucky charms, kinda a calmer, more moderate choice? i wanna do one more,,,

OH 🔥 would absolutely be cinnamon toast crunch. it just. it suits him. so much. [and 🩵 would be frosted flakes…]

yea :-D

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points at our one follower

you! go! /silly

🌈🌈🌈NON-INVASIVE SYSTEM ASK GAME YIPPEEEEE 🌈🌈🌈

❤️ - What is your system name? How did you choose it?

🧡 - Do different alters have different favorite games? What would you say is the most popular game among your system?

💛- Pick one (or more) alter(s). If they were a cereal, which one would they be and why?

💚 - Do you associate your system with any colors? Why those colors?

🩵 - What’s one thing your grateful to your system for?

💙 - If you had a million dollars, how would each alter spend it?

💜 - what’s something you thought was normal pre-syscovery that you have since realized does not happen to most people? (Can be as silly or deep as you want)

🩷 - Does your system play any sports? Are any alters better at that sport than others?

🌈 Bonus, non system related: Do you have any pets? What’s their name? Show a picture!!

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welcome in :-) this is our system sideblog, so as to keep our clutter away from our main!

-we use they/he collectively -we’re very fictive heavy -we use the term “alters” the most, but we also use “headmates”! we randomize

there’s around 50 of us! in order to preserve a bit of anonymity, we’ll stick to using emojis to signify who’s posting. our hosts can be recognized as 🌙 and 🫀! [this is 🌙, hi :-)]

we have diagnosed adhd, anxiety, and undiagnosed autism and a dissociative disorder [but hey, we exist, without a diagnosis :-)]

no idea what tags we’ll be using but we’ll add them in once we get going!

we just wanna interact more [or, i do…] with other systems that may be outside our specific fandoms, and just be more involved in talking about our system :-)

we won’t be involved with syscourse. we block freely. we are endo neutral - don’t make drama a big deal, and we’re chill! everyone’s free to interact :-) [we’re not putting our long speech about this into our intro post…] [also, we’re traumagenic. just ask our horrified friends. laugh past the trauma lmao]