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Summer is starting right now.

School's out, we just got through it.

Summer starts now, so let's get to it.

'Cause summer is starting.

I THINK WE ALL KNOW WHAT THIS IS REGARDING.

'Cause there's a brand new summer and it's starting right now.

It's starting RIGHT NOW.

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Teacher Appreciation Week --

Where is the appreciation?

AM I A JOKE?

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With the current political situations, I'm going to take a leaf out of Zero's book and make my own ideal country.

My bedroom will hereby be my new nation. I pledge allegiance.

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I describe my asexuality and aromanticism to people in that it's like describing colors to someone born blind.

Can I just say, uh, I’m pretty sure noticing you’re asexual is harder than noticing you’re gay, straight, pan or otherwise. Like, I just read someone’s desciption of hitting puberty and, like, there’s nothing like that. There’s no sudden ‘boob’ moment, no sudden ‘fuck, I’d fuck that’ moment, not sudden anything. You just, like, plod on through life as usual going ‘oooh, that’s pretty, I’d like that hair’ or ‘oooooh, they’re nice, I’d like to be close to them’ but there’s no like, ‘oh, someone would want to fuck that but I don’t’, you know? You just- you don’t notice, you don’t realise everyone else has ‘had a moment’ but you haven’t, you just- keep going as you always have.

And then, much much later, you start to wonder why people are getting so caught up in drama for romance or sex, like, why bother? It’s not worth it, they’re not worth it, why are you doing stupid things for something that’s so- and then you wonder if there’s something wrong with you, start mentally over compensating. Like ‘uh, okay, um, who should I date? Who can I stand to date? Who could I stand to fuck?’ like- it’s not, it’s not something you want, but you want to fit in, to be normal.

Sometimes you don’t even know that you’re doing it.

Sometimes you don’t even know asexual’s a thing.

I dunno, I guess, I just feel like, uh, people should understand more?

idk sorry thank you for listening to me

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Burnout is so real, but these precious fur babies make everything better.

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Sometimes in this world I forget that people can be kind and thoughtful.

Then, when I'm on the receiving end of that kindness, I feel guilty for inconveniencing someone. What did I ever do to deserve such kindness?

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Me: *trying to write*

Nova: Look at me. I'm adorable.

Nimbus: *getting the good sleep* She'll learn...

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Always together

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Can we call them best friends/found family yet?

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Also just. as a personal update.

After the snow days, I was hit by the flu. So my priority has been getting better, helping the cats acclimate to each other, and getting back to work. So I will get to responding to people and updating at some point! I have not forgotten fandom! <3

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I was so afraid to adopt her because he might not like a kitten in his territory.

ARE YOU SEEING THIS?!

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Night 1: Success

Nimbus is accepting -insert name here-'s scent. One hiss, and then just intense curiosity at the bedroom door.

She's interested in his scent from the other side of the door too.

Maybe they will learn to tolerate each other. Best case scenario, they will be best friends. If only!!!

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I already have a gray and white cat, Nimbus.

Both Nimbus and Nebula are scientific names, related to clouds (even if Nebula is a bit of a stretch, with interstellar clouds).

Nova is short and sweet, space-themed, and she is a new, bright little star. Her eyes can also be related to stars?

Please help a girl out.

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It is amazing how peaceful and inspired I feel when I don't spend the majority of my day pulled in 20 million different directions, managing dysregulated mini-humans.

There is space for me to do what I want. I have felt inspired to write twice in the past week. TWICE. @_@

This is unheard of.

I still miss my mini-humans though.

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All I want is to

cuddle my cat

drink coffee

eat comfort chocolate

sleep

read

daydream soft moments of my OTP

outline ideas for aforementioned fluff fanfic

be actively involved in fandom

binge-watch shows

reflect on myself and everything else

easily pay for basic necessities

get organized

feel safe in my home

juggle ALL THE THINGS

conquer the feeling of Constant Overwhelm

ask questions without judgment

understand the world

make a difference

model inclusivity and kindness

teach kids to read

write gay porn

Is that too much to ask?

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I'm hearing that I should look into working at McDonalds instead.

I'm struggling to pay my bills September-June too (despite basically living in my classroom during the school year) because teacher pay is so low. And not to mention admin coming for you on top of parents and politicians.

Everything is ALWAYS the teacher's fault. ALWAYS.

ALSO you must be a miracle-worker and solve every kid's every problem in every subject area AND teach kids how to behave respectfully and be kind to others and care about the world, in a world that sure as fuck doesn't actually care about them.

“National teacher shortage” is a fun way of saying that the USA has made a passion driven job so ungodly inhospitable that even people who “just care about teaching, not the money” don’t even care about teaching anymore.