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"I'm the Doctor. Well, they call me the Doctor. I don't know why. I call me the Doctor, too. Still don't know why."

- The Doctor, The Lodger

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"Kidneys! I've got new kidneys. I don't like the colour."

-The Twelfth Doctor, The Time of the Doctor

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Cranium command wallpaper by Jou Ling Yee

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"Legs. Still got legs, good!! Arms. Hands. Ooh, fingers. Lots of fingers. Hair. I'm a girl! No. No, I'm not a girl. And still not ginger. And something else. Something important. I'm, I'm, I'm... Crashing! Geronimo!"

- The Eleventh Doctor, The End of Time

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Detective Rogers modelling on the streets of Hyperion Heights…

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"Hello. OK - oh. New teeth. That's weird. So, where was I? Oh, that's right. Barcelona."

- The Tenth Doctor, The Parting of The Ways

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"Run!"

-The Ninth Doctor, Rose

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"Doctor no more."

- The War Doctor, The Night of the Doctor

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A huge grin covers my face as cheers fill the room. My best friend hugs me as my lover chuckles through their headset.

“I feel like I need to quote Neil Armstrong.”

“Well, this is a giant leap for mankind.”

I can see their head shaking in my mind, knowing they appreciate my sense of humor.

The director of the mars walk project steps back towards the monitors, adjusting their headset so they are able to talk clearly.

“Alright, prepare to disembark.”

“Yes sir.”

Worry gnaws me as my lover prepares to leave the ship and step onto Mars.

I look up quickly as their voice fills my ears.

“Come again. I didn't catch that.”

My best friend snorts, taking notes on the different pressures crossing the screen. I press my headset closer to my ears.

“I love you. More than anything.”

“I love you too.”

My hands move to the pair of rings resting on my necklace. They gave me their promise ring before they left, assuring me that they would come back alive. The cold metal feels wonderful against my palms as I watch them on the screen, finishing final preparations to disembark onto Mars.

“Ready to go sir”

The director nods at my best friend, signalling them to depressurize the cabin. I keep my gaze on the monitor, watching as my lover opens the shuttle door.

“Taking first step onto Mars.”

They step carefully onto the surface of mars, keeping a grip on the ladder to the shuttle as they adjust to the low gravity.

The moment their foot lands, a shiver crawls down my spine, like someone had walked over my grave. I didn't think anything of it until my best friend turns to me.

“Felt like someone walked over my grave.”

I stand up and look around. Everyone in the room is rubbing their arms or shaking their head, trying to make the feeling vanish. As I look around, I go through my history. There are no records saying any life had ever existed on mars. However, one of my old professors had always said that when you shiver, it means someone is walking across the grave of your past life.

My lover's voice comes across the headset.

“Guys, I got a bad chill. How is that possible? These suits are temperature controlled so i don't feel the cold.”

The director and my best friend both turn to me. I close my eyes, going over the history one more time.

“Guys, you might want to see this.”

One of the other staff grab my arm as I open my eyes and follow where a news flash is playing. My lover spoke again.

“What's happening?”

I read what is written on the bottom of the screen.

“All of humanity experienced a shiver when you took your first step on mars.”

My best friend looks at me, trying to figure it out in their head.

“What does that mean?”

I grim, excitement starting to make me bounce.

“It means that there is a lot of research coming.”

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I believe

if you’re reading this

a lump sum of money is on the way to you

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My childhood called and I must answer the call. If you need me, I'll be on top of some gymnastics mats reading near the ceiling.

Time for Childhood for you 90s/Early 2000s kids

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“Come on now. You could cheer up a little bit.”

Brown hair falls into my eyes as I raise my head from the table and glare at my best friend. Ocean Blue eyes meet forest green eyes as my stomach does flips. I can’t tell them what I am really feeling. Not when they were happy with someone else.

But they give me that stupid smirk that just promises trouble and grab my hand.

“But I don't want to be here.”

“What do you mean? Books have always made you happy. You hid here for two weeks when your dog passed away.”

I look around at the shelves of library books surrounding us, thinking on the truth of what they said. Reading always brought me great joy. We always came here as kids and spent hours giving each other new book recommendations. I turn to face my friend, watching as they run a hand through their pitch black hair, and return their smirk.

“You're not wrong but that still doesn't explain why you brought me here. I'm telling you, I'm fine.”

‘I'm dying inside. Help!’

My inner demons scream. I watch an eyebrow go up on my friend's face.

“Right. Like I would believe that. Come on. Go look for some books for yourself and me. We'll meet back here in 30 minutes.”

They go running off towards where I know the adventure books are. I try to stop them but there is no real effort in it. A genuine smile reaches my face for the first time in what seems like weeks as I wander towards where the biographies are kept. I love biographies. Reading about where people came from and what led to some choices they made always gives me hope that there is more meaning in my life.

As I look through the titles, I notice a book by someone with the same name as me. I grab it because I've never even met someone in real life who has the same name as me. I start reading it, immediately drawn into the narrative, easily getting through the three chapters.

As I continue reading though, I feel a sense of deja vu coming over me. I then realize that I know this story. Not because I've read this book before but because it was my life. Everything that had ever happened to me was written in these pages.

What sealed that feeling was when I started chapter 6 and experienced the worst day of my life all over again. Reading through it made everything I has trying so hard to hide come to the surface. Sobs start breaking out as I sink to the floor, my legs shaking. I clutch the book tightly to my chest, holding my place with one of my fingers.

‘This is too soon. I can't keep going.’

I look at where I am in the book and see that I am barely a quarter of the way through. I look at the beginning of chapter 7 and read through the events of today. When I reach the moment where I find the book (this book), I'm at the bottom of a page. The chapter isn't over yet. I could keep reading and see how my life unfolds. What stops me is all the science fiction shows I have watched growing up with my best friend. How knowing the future and how things would unfold was torture. How trying to change certain events actually made things worse. I look at the book again, making my decision as footsteps start to echo closer to where i am.

I close the book and place it on the ground, leaning my head back against the shelf behind me. The footsteps I heard earlier stop in front of me.

“There you are. I was worried when you didn't show back up.”

I smile as I open my eyes and chuckle at my friend.

“Why? You should know by now that I was going to be lost in another world.”

They shook their head as a hand extended down to help pull me up. I take it but almost lost my balance again as I finished standing. I stumble but they are quicker than me.

“Don't worry. I've got you. I won't let anything happen.”

I clutch their chest, glad for their strength and for their quick reflexes.

“I know. Thank you...for today.”

“It's no problem. Come on, let's go to the movies. I heard…”

I start to tune them out as they guide me from the aisle I was in. I turn back and look at the book i left on the floor. I gently smile. Just looking at it, I knew that somehow, no matter what it seems like now, I knew that things were going to be just fine.

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23 DAYS OF TOM ↬ day twelve - others about tom ↳ Bonus:

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Girls don’t want flowers girls want Tony Stark to be alive and eat cheeseburgers with his four children, Peter, Morgan, Harley, and Nebula, and his wife Pepper.

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BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!!!! On 6/3/18, I will no longer will be working at Launch Bay. I will be help open Toy Story Land on June 30th!!!!!! I'm so excited to be a part of this team. I'll see everyone at Toy Story Land on June 30th!!!!! #waltdisneyworld #disneyshollywoodstudios #thepowerofmagic #toystoryland #openingjune30 #playbig #toystory #slinkydogdash #alienswirlingsaucers #openingteam #instadisney #disneygram #disneyaccount #disneygirl #nerdydisneygirl (at Disney's Hollywood Studios)

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5/4/18. I celebrated my birthday....by going to launch bay and meeting the characters. Nothing changes. #waltdisneyworld #disneyshollywoodstudios #thepowerofmagic #starwars #starwarslaunchbay #launchbay #launchbae #starwarsbaby #maythe4thbewithyou #kyloren #bb8 #chewbacca #instadisney #disneygram #disneyaccount #disneygirl #nerdydisneygirl (at Star Wars Launch Bay)

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4/26/18 and 4/27/18. Our last two days in the parks. We took Thursday morning and just relaxed then on Friday went to cast splash at typhoon lagoon. I miss my mom but had such a fun time with her. #waltdisneyworld #epcot #magickingdom #typhoonlagoon #thepowerofmagic #internationalflowerandgardenfestival #aurora #sleepingbeauty #francepavilion #worldshowcase #merida #brave #moana #captainhook #mrsmee #peterpan #castsplash #chefmickeys #instadisney #disneygram #disneygirl #disneyaccount #nerdydisneygirl (at Walt Disney World)