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Tues 24th June

Office day. Got up late bc I woke up at 4.30 and couldn't get back to sleep 🫠 had a pounding headache by the time I got up. The weather was weird so I tried on like 5 different outfits, found one I liked then slopped toothpaste on the top and it stained so had to get something different. I was so late leaving for work but somehow got there on time.

Was training a newbie, but she mostly knows what she's doing so it was okay. But everything I worked on was just a bit of a nightmare, I had to call colleagues for help a lot and it was just a lot of stressful shit on accounts that needed put right. Got there in the end though.

Had lunch with my bestie, then took calls with the new girl listening to me this afternoon. I was getting increasingly pissed off with the guy opposite me who A) is extremely lazy and will do anything other than work, B) regularly falls asleep at his desk and C) is ridiculously loud on the phone. At one point me and the new girl had to move away to the other end of the office to be able to hear the person we were speaking to. And THEN I transferred a call to another department, explained exactly what needed to happen and the guy I transferred to messaged me on teams saying 'has anyone told you that if they do X then Y doesn't apply any more?' (I don't want to give details but it's like a super basic, fundamental part of my job to know that). I messaged back yes I know so if they're doing that then it will be fine. He tried to mansplain some more and I just didn't open the message, the patronising cunt. I fucking hate men jfc like he knows I've been here 18 months and he knows I know how to do my job. So that put me in an even worse mood. Drove home furious, calmed down a little bit listening to podcasts in the car. Didn't even do my yoga bc I was so exhausted I just collapsed on the couch, had an angry cry then had dinner and a bath and now going to bed. But I did tidy up all my clothes from this morning instead of leaving them in a pile until the weekend so that wad my little act of self love. The plan is to wake up at 6.30 (a lie in if you can believe it) and do some yoga to start tomorrow better.

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Monday 23rd June

Got up at 4.45 🤢 to walk Mags as we both had to leave at 7am and Matt had worked late last night. It was beautiful and peaceful

Came home for breakfast, got ready and went to work. My work bestie was back and it was lovely to see her ❤️

Went straight upstairs to work out when I got home before I could lose the motivation. Was so excited for a heavy leg day, then fucked up my hamstring picking up my kettlebell after the first set of lateral lunges 🤦🏼‍♀️ so had to go unweighted for the rest of the workout and be very careful bc it kept cramping up. I still enjoyed it but I hope it sorts itself 😬 maybe back to yoga tomorrow and I can do my harder workouts when I'm working at home the rest of the week

Had a bath, dinner and cuddles ❤️

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i mean this completely seriously but… a cup of coffee can save your life a little, a shower can save your life a little, making your favorite meal can save your life a little…….little things actually add up to really big things in the long run if you let them, the secret to surviving everyday is infusing a little bit of magic into the mundane i truly believe that

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Happy pride month to my dad. When I came out as bi to him, this man googled what it ment, look at me and said "ohh. Yeah. You get that from me. You'd have far more siblings of I only shaged women." And went right back to his work emails.

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Shadows and lights in Glacier National Park.

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Sunday 22nd June

We found a new nature reserve to explore this morning! It was lovely. And we had a thunderstorm last night so the air was sooo much cooler and fresher. There were water lillies! And cherries! Most weren't ripe yet but we did find a few and they were delicious

Came home for lunch, Matt picked up a shift this afternoon so I went to see my best friend and her husband and their son. The little dude was so full of himself today! Had to show me every toy he has. He was just adorable and I love him so much. I think next time we meet up we're going to take him to the aquarium 😅

Called in to see Nanna Mary on my way home. She was pretty down bc her friend just found out she has v late stage cancer and has literally weeks, possibly days left. She went to visit her in hospital yesterday and said she looked terrible. It must be so sad and scary having your friends die around you like that. Makes me cherish every minute I spend with her even more. Ik that sounds dramatic but literally I don't take any time with my nannas for granted, I am so so so lucky to have them around to be my friends in adulthood. Just reminds me I am going to be a fucking disaster when they do pass away, I warn Matt regularly.

Came home and walked Maggie in the last of the sunshine, had some good play time with her ball and there was no one around so she was off her lead most of the time which was nice for her to be able to relax more than usual.

Made some protein bars, been craving much healthier foods now my period is over. Did a little yoga

And had a lovely snuggle with my girl

Until her dad came home. Then she was no longer my girl 🙄

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This is the kind of cute shit I thought I'd do with my border collie. Not get slapped in the face and burped on the second I wake up, and get barked at for sneezing in my own home

Doing yoga

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Lives rent free in my mind

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Sorry I wrote this at midnight and forgot to put a TW.

TW suicide

My friend's bf is such a piece of shit. In the past 3 weeks he has threatened to leave, ignored her cry for help when she told him she was sucidal, taken time off work and spent that time with her trying to support her and talking about how he wants to make the relationshio work etc and is now saying he needs to think about what he wants bc he's not sure it's her???

I hope she dumps him bc she deserves so much better but god I am worried about her. I can't go to sleep in case something happens. I think I'll go see her Monday after work maybe

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We all know what erectile dysfunction is but literally no one is ever taught what vaginismus is and it can cause people to feel extremely lost, broken, and cause people to take their own lives. Raise. Awareness.

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Sat 21st June

Not thinking about how it's the longest day of the year. But it was well spent ❤️

Got up early to walk Mags bc it was going to be hot again. Wore shorts and a vest and was still sweating after 20 mins walking pre-7am 💀

Got dressed and went to brother & sister in law's house to get things ready for the baby shower

We had a lovely day! Everyone brought food, we had a bbq, we chilled out in the garden and thankfully it was a bit more overcast aa the day went on. We played some lil games and stuff too. It was just really nice and chill

Then came home and walked this sweet girl

Now on the couch with a completely dead social battery, eating party rings. It was funny to watch Matt's social energy run out at the same time as mine, there was a point where we both just went very quiet and looked at each other like ah, home time 😴

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