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🎀 Kawaii Shop 🎀

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Grell <3

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Super excited to finally reveal my piece for the @kidpirateszine

After sales are happening right now--> kidpirateszine.bigcartel.com

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HAS THIS BEEN DONE!? I’m sorry if it has!

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Bepo's beauty belongs only to Law anyway

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when toddlers neurodivergently hyperfixate on half of everything within their sight they "are gifted"

but when i

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people on this god forsaken website love saying horribly ableist stuff about autistic people and then end it off with "don't worry, im autistic which means i can never be ableist towards autistic people ever!!

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I find, again and again,

That my hands do not hold other hands

They do not gently cup faces

They do not sweep stray hairs out of the way

My hands do not find gentle tasks to fill

My hands clench tightly, white-knuckled and aching

My hands heave heavy bags, hold knives and flip pans

My hands burn with knicks and cuts,

Flushed with burns and purple with cold

I hold my own hand, gently cup my own cheeks,

Soothe my own hurts, bandage my own wounds

My hands cling, and clutch,

Desperation tightening my fingers around snapping threads

My hands hold burdens

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i love u sosig...thank u for being my best friend

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💘🌈

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when are people going to speak up about how hard it is for neurodivergent women & girls? we are told to mask our entire lives & we often go misdiagnosed/undiagnosed just because we don’t act like your average white five year old autistic boy. we are told we aren’t neurodivergent, but then are ostracized for the crime of being neurodivergent. we learn how to mask very early on in life because of strict female socialization, but the second we get tired of masking or get comfortable enough to deviate from societal norms; we get called weird freaks. we get mocked for the simplest things, such as being so heavily interested in something & daring to talk about it. we get called lazy & creepy for not knowing how to fit in, for not getting social cues, for not understanding how to “act properly” & for questioning this neurotypical-centric world & its societal norms. we get called rude, mean, blunt, we get lectured for “being way too literal” & “not having a filter” just because we are being our authentic selves. i cannot count the numerous times people have called me a mean girl & talked behind my back about how rude i am, or straight up yelled right in my face how i “need to quit being so fucking mean”. whenever i asked what the problem was, i would be faced with a “you know what you did. own up to it!”. i would be called manipulative, cunning, i would get told i had a victim complex. all neurodivergent people face such struggles, but we need to acknowledge that our society is a patriarchy, and that medicine is androcentric & it is harder for women & girls to be diagnosed because neurodivergency has a male model base, and medicine simultaneously ignores & fails to consider sexist socialization. neurodivergent women are subject to more dangerous forms of misogyny, and are more likely to be victims of sexual assault & sexual coercion. and because males are generally allowed a freer childhood, neurodivergent men & boys generally face more sympathy & feel more free to express themselves without the need to mask.

**also, all neurodivergent women & girls feel free to talk to me about their special interests/and or hyperfixations, on this post and in general**

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I try to read rooms. I do my best to be patient. I stay quippy and relevant. I hone this skill for decades.

People still turn away when I talk.

I know they love me, I know it's just part of socializing, I know I commit equal sins of dismissal.

People still turn away when i talk.

I read books to build empathy and patience and kindness, i watch videos on improving relationships, i practice differentiation, i have calm, loving conversations where i worry i'm complaining too much or can only be sad too often or i'm being too harsh or defensive.

People. Still. Turn. Away. When. I. Talk.

I can handle it tomorrow, but today i'm just gonna be sad about it.

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Being a neurodivergent woman sucks

Everything you do is wrong.

Don’t be serious but don’t be unserious.

Don’t make mistakes but don’t ask questions.

Don’t get excited or act childish, but also don’t be blunt and honest - even though the neurodivergent man in your team can be - because when he does it it’s ok, he’s neurodivergent. You can go fuck yourself tho…..

Don’t be quiet but don’t be loud.

Read the room at all times and decode the secret language of the neurotypical assholes who tell you to try harder and to stop using your traumas or disabilities as a “crutch.”

I give up. I don’t know what anyone wants anymore and every time I try to explain myself it’s met with hostility or misunderstanding and interruptions. I am trying my fucking best and I don’t care but I do deserve a pat on the back. This is hard ok?

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Me going to the gay club thinking I'm going to flirt with so many women but instead I'm naming five things I can see so I don't have a breakdown

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As an adhd person I just want to say that I love every autistic person on this website.

You guys are literally the best fandom archivers out there. I’m so serious.

If you are new in just about any fandom search for the one autistic person whose special interest your newfound fandom is and it’ll be like you just met god at a nightclub.

You guys are too powerful and I thank you for your service from the bottom of my heart.