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[nine-passion]

...I had a Dream I was in love with you

...I had a Dream I was in love with you & damn what a feeling it was.. Feels right & much safer as a Dream.. For I'm blinded for things I really want In the real world for all we do is Dream for wants I so think I know I want you in the Real world Doubts of telling myself it could never happen in the real world Is the root of me rubbing my chin shrugging of my shoulders holding of my tongue The thinks about the think abouts That maybe shouldn't be said too loud So I keep it quiet and just dream And this one had me feeling something I never felt before.. When I layed eyes on you And we touched like we done it before Or should of been done before I felt so in love with you For a Dream should I look at you the same way again in the real world?.. Don't answer that just yet.. I'm still Dreaming..

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For a Few

Dreams of open space and palm trees And open minds of you're Beautiful Some days I wanna put on a show for you We can choose who is watching I think.. Next Week I wanna be alone for a few What's better feeling deserted or undeserving? I'll put my emotions on the ground for you And might light one in the sky for you Bow down in prayers for a few Is this Art worth feeling Vulnerable? I just might say I love you for a few When my mind isn't made up the World seems to choose for you But what do they know? I don't even know I may give my time for a few I hope you truly get to know me What's better feeling misunderstood or disownment? I'll put my emotions in the sky for you I just might start a fire for you Bow down in prayers for a few I Really hope this Art is worth feeling Vulnerable..

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In the middle of humble and calming my ego Talks to myself for yall display I swear these Art forms No one can ever Replicate Creating Worlds in these illusions Fighting to feel comfortable in not being the same If only you could see what I'm becoming Release just enough to feel my Different Still watching what I put into the Universe Until I garner enough Power

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To Nia One 22/22 High off Speed Feels so soon But I may just Love you More than likely Promise me you won't disappear too soon If I do tell you I might just be In Lust or just interest In guiding you in a adventure I mean something about this feels So special Or I just wanna treat you special High off Speed I want you to believe The chemistry does feel Special So special that you don't need me to Believe To achieve a feeling when I'm not here But of course I wanna always be here But I can't But in your mind you could always find me If you don't let these worlds create a maze To alter your memories I hope you never forget me And forgive me I feel High Off Speed Hard to focus on you But I always make time for you Its sometimes hard to be me to you It shouldn't be this way Part of me saw it coming Its human to believe our wants first Are we really human ? I wanna belong in your same world If possible Files may be corrupted But there's is ways to fix And the skies are the limit W.A.Y.S More to make us not feel afraid I been through so many phases That seem to end up the same Everyone seems to think to know what we must do Dont let them make us go astray Please don't disappear too soon Promise me

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I wish we had more time More time to understand With more than just a glance Hard to Trust Freely Without an Hint of Anxiety Put in a World To Put Your Bills First Before your Soul Desires If only we was given more Time

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Maybewecouldbesomethingmore

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Angry Flowers

Made a tune the other day

It felt like Angry Flowers

I don't know why

Felt of another world

Started to wonder what is even an Angry Flower

Is it when the bees come take the nectar from them

Wonder if the bees even say Hi how are you doing first

I Could Relate..

Angry Flowers can we really be?

If we are meant to allow our sweet kindness to be taken and spreaded

Some are meant to be Flowers and some could just be Bees

I Wish I could be more like a Bee

I Just Need More Light

I Just Need More Time

And when their Petals doesn't seem the Prettiest

And all the nectar seems to be gone

When they rather just be alone

Or Just Bee for a moment

Will you be available or can tell?

What even an Angry Flower is..

I Just Need More Light

I Just Need More Time

I Just Need More Light

I Just Need More Time

[nine-passion]

To Nia. 4/24/21

Whats Up..

First I wanna apologize for not writing to you in so long. Time has really flown but you definitely been on my mind every second of the day. I definitely meant to put some time aside earlier this year especially after taking some months off from doing New Slaves shifts. I definitely haven't been trying to ignore you or not acknowledge you I'm really doing all this for you anyways. I hope you're doing ok and still waiting for me. I feel even more now we are destined to be but I still feel anxious throughout the nights and mornings I haven't been sleeping well at all. Think I'm doing better in becoming an Earthling though trying to play America's game better. Speaking of game can you believe I actually committed to being more of an Introvert for over an year now? Enjoying the escapes of video games anime and Twitch Streams. Actually helped inspire more of my Creates and even became cool with some Dope people over the internet. Although for some reason my ability to connect easily still makes me feel alot more lonely for some reason. Or I haven't had a Pleasurable loneliness yet I been wanting for a while and a true appreciation of my value. Hopefully this Summer I get it and of course alot more time with you you're really all I need really..Also going to London end of the August should be Dope it's crazy though how everything has come together though. I hope by the time I go out there I'm alot happier and maybe I could even afford an extra round trip for you to come too. We could actually stay out there if we like under the Sunlight out there compared to America sounds way more appealing anyways. Well I'll write you soon before I head out there.

Love You

[nine-passion]

Jot Notes Like a Young Basquiat and Pac

I Been Hiding Angry More Than Any Other Feeling

Yearly Wishing Things Be Different

Grow Free With The Gifts Given

The More I Know The More I Feel In a Prison

Maybe It's Better Off That Way

To Accept The Highers Of Our Regions

Truly Don't Care About Us

As the Numbers Go Up

Artifical Or Not

You See Who Really Cares About You

Have You Heard From Someone In Seasons?

No Point For Fighting For Them For a New Year

Need To let it go like Forty-five

Feelings Thought Wanted Forever All My Life

Became Riots in My Soul

That Only Art Can Control

With Alot Things Broken

It Keeps Me Whole

Just Hoping

Praying Forever becomes a Smoother Ride

Happy 🐐 Day

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Saturday Morning Cartoons

Simpler Times

When Rhymes Hit Different

Getting Up For 9am

Wasn't as Hard

A Few Stations

Of Adventures

Before DVR

Had To Choose

What Your Eyes Will Show

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L.E.S Story Part 3 Finale

Recklessly playing this game Like there Is Unlimited Tokens For Such a Prize I Just Met You But I'm willing to Drop Everything To Experience More Of You Me : Nia.. (She walks past me ignoring my call of her name ) Rey : Hmm I Guess It's Too much excitement for her. Me : Shut-up ( I Mutter ) Thanks for ruining something else for me before It even began. Rey : Ummm I recall you kissing me. Or should we ask her? 

( She Smiles with Sarcasm)

Me : You Know what you're a real.... Rey : A what? ( She Interrupts) You need to take accountability for your actions. I know I'm fine irresistible and everything (she chuckles ) but I didn't force you..this time.. Me : Whatever Rey I'm Outta Here 

( I start to head towards the exit turning my back towards Rey) Rey : I'll Hit You Love. Cause I know you can't block my number. You'll get over it soon. We'll hang. ( She Smiles and Returns to dance with the crowd) I Exit to look for Nia to see if I could catch her. She was standing near the curb on her phone seemed to be looking for an Uber. I approached her not knowing how she would respond to me.  About Eight steps away not knowing what to say. How can one prep so quickly for something that happened moments ago with one decisive word could be a difference from a distant Memory to something that could last forever. Me : Whats Up Nia 

L.E.S Story Part 3 Finale Part II Preview

Everything I Ever Wanted Everything I Ever Needed Maybe it's just feelings in the moment How Can I Tell You If I think less of this moment And let it be Greater Give us more time I think we could be Greater

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L.E.S Story

Part 2

Who would of thought

Taking a chance to ask your name

Would put us here together

Having an moment

Sipping on spirits

Feeling your Vibe

It’s Happening so fast

Don’t know if I’m prepared

But im open for whatever

Let’s see where the Night leads Us

Nia: So What’s your type?

We been at the Bar closest to entrance to Pianos for almost an hour. It started to get close to the Prime hours of club nights. Smooth Party songs blasting people dancing trying to make their way to the dance floors at the back of the venue and upstairs. She was on her third glass of white wine and I was on my third long island ice tea. It started hitting me nicely cause I didn’t fully registered what she asked me at first.

I replied “ What You Mean”?

Nia: Like looks wise what’s your type?

Me: Umm Nice eyes Nice hair Nice lips

I love girls with flat stomachs fo'sure.

She looks at me smirking sipping her wine

Nia : Well Honey I’m all that and more is that why you stopped me?

Me: ( I laugh ) Cocky much?.. Nah you’re pretty but it’s something about your eyes

I saw adventure in them.

Nia : Extra!!! Extra!!! Read all about it (she yells jokely)

Me : ( I laugh ) I’m serious though

Nia : Ok sure let’s see if you could handle this adventure upstairs let’s go dance.

She graces off the barstool with her back towards me to go up to the upper dance floor but not before reaching her hand out for me to take it and follow.

I don’t know if it was the liquor but in that moment her touch her leading me I felt safe I trusted her I felt special like an weird type of high. Like I would follow her anywhere..Maybe she spiked my drink cause she got me buggin.

Nia : Come on!!! ( She Yells at me )

It was pretty crowded and Travis Scott “Antidote” was blasting. We nodded our heads ferociously as we joined the crowd to turn up yelling “Don’t you open up that window!!! Don’t you let out that antidote!!!”

It was hard to stay close to her in the crowd we got separated at one point so i went to take a break by the wall while the DJ transitioned to Kanye’s “Father Stretch My Hand”.

Me : I just wanna feel liberated!!! (singing to myself)

A random familiar face pretty girl approaches me.

Random Pretty Girl: Hey Love..

(She says to me confidently with an hint of soft seduction with an caress to my face)

I looked at her not knowing whether I was too drunk or confused.

Random Pretty Girl: Don’t you act like you don’t know me.

I look a little harder.

Me : Oh Shit!! Rey?

Random Pretty Girl: Yeah N**** you don’t recognized someone you was in Love with?

Me : Stopppppp it

Rey: (She Laughs) Ohhh who got you acting Brand New? Who you F*****?

( She grabs my face and pinches my cheek)

Me: ( I push her hand away) Girl no one move. What are you doing here?

Rey: What You mean what I’m doing here?

You know I’m about this Party Life.

The DJ starts playing Bryson Tiller’s “Exchange”

Me: Unfortunately I found that out the hard way

Rey: Stop trying to play me. So you here by yourself?

As she asks that I manage to spot Nia in the crowd dancing. I guess peeping her beauty stand out put an glow in my eyes that made Rey noticed. She turned around to see who I was looking at and smirked.

Rey: So that’s who messing with? I don’t know why you bother hope you don’t want nothing serious.

Me: Nah we just hanging ( I replied)

Rey : Yeah ok so ditch her and come with me if that’s the case.

Me: Girl Nooo F*** You

Rey:  Exactly. That’s what I want and I bet that’s what she wants just some New D Money and some New excitement.

Me: You don’t know her Shut up

Rey: I bet you barely do either.

The DJ plays “Needed Me” by Rihanna

Rey: So stop with all these games leave that chick alone at least I’m honest with it, do you wanna waste your time with her and get hurt?

( She comes in close and grabs my belt buckle)

Rey: Or come with me and getting the pleasure of knowing what it is already?

I just stood there with her hands still on me with no deny or acception of the offer. I glanced away to see if I could spot Nia again . She was in the middle of the dance floor slow wining it seemed in slow motion like Chilli in Usher “You Remind Me” video looking at me. I watched as Rey continued to try to get my attention and a dude comes behind Nia and starts to grind on her. I guess Rey saw a expression that showed a sign of discomfort and not just from her trying to seduce me.

Rey : (Whispers In my ear) See she’s not here for you everybody is for everybody (She tries to discreetly kiss my neck)

Nia still dancing continued to looked right at me while the guy hands start to rub her waist affectionately.

I don’t know if it was jealously the liquor or if Rey's scent & neck kisses began to overwhelm me. I just knew I was angry at Nia and what Rey put me through before and now. I needed to release it..

Me : Rey..

I lift her chin and brought her lips to meet mines. Kissed her for a good Whole Note but I didn’t feel anything. I felt more by Nia’s touch earlier that’s when I knew i made a mistake as I open my eyes to see Nia walking towards me and Rey…

L.E.S Story Part 3 Finale Preview

I’m becoming what I looked down upon

Or maybe what I always been

She and You made me realized

I’m just of a fool

I just wanna know where Lover Lies

So I could just stay away

If I Must

And go there with you

Please reach out your hand again

We don’t need to make any scenes

As long as this isn’t our Ending Credits

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To Nia 11/3/20

Feel like only my second time writing to you all year if i'm not mistaken. It's been quite a year but trust me you been on my mind every single day. I was just thinking earlier how I didn't get to enjoy a real Summer with you. Grateful to be healthy and everything but missed out on cool stuff like family cruises and concerts. Would of been my first time seeing our favorites Janet and Tinashe also if wasnt for the shutdowns. The Internet actually has been a safe haven of more entertainment for someone that loves being out and off my phone. From Verzuz battles, Mastery Series, Random Instagram Live Concerts Mostly Tinashes, Chloe X Halle Thursday Tea Time, Rnb Money Podcast actually was digging the NBA Bubble Vlogs until The Sixers got knocked out the playoffs & wasn't feeling them Fakers. Inspire in Peace Kobe Though. Recently Now I been Vibing in Elite Twitch Streams watching Code Lyoko and playing bumb ass 2k with the fam. basically had alot of cool distractions throughout the year introvertly from how much bad is going on. Alot of Cool distractions but as every November I lowkey get emotional and think more about you and how I wish I had more time for you. Heading into 2021 soon in my 28th year and still battling to have you always near. Later today is Election Day I already voted Friday I feel 45 won't get reelected but the energy of the world of country I should say during this time I will never forget. It's disappointing and scary but this year I feel I could see where people hearts truly lie. Part of me just want to be an loner and just go hard for you alone. But an Dope trip to Syracuse for a week with other Dope minds gave me so much confidence and more belief. I truly know now im capable of alot more its just so much going on and a fight to strive for more in comfort in this world. I don't wanna continue to sound down just felt needed to check in as I should of been doing. I'll write you again before the New Year and I will have more Good News To Tell You. Actually ill give you all Good News Next Time I write you. Talk to you later

Love Me

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Poem Of The Month

A Couple Golden Rings? My Love For You Must Be Insane Been Searching For A While Burned By So Many New Flames I Can't Complain But All These Options Got Me Wondering If I Love You Just For The Excitements Thinking We Should Just Stop it Jump Ship We Shouldn't The Ride Just Started and It Feels Like A Dream Cruise Baby Be Nice To Love You I Don't Know If I Wanna Cuff You Is It Ok If Touch and Say Some Things Come Here Close Love For You To Sang My Name

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You know that I've, I heard it all before

You're hesitant, wish you could give me more

I know you like to play those silly games

When you're done, call my name

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Tell Me What's Regular

Can't Be Considered Normal

I Know

Things Will Get Better

Aching me to stand for nothing

When want to stand for something

Tell me what's considered regular

Working Hours On Your Feet

My Heart Beats To Stand For Something

For More than just minuimm wage

Whats the point I can't even afford to stay sane

Taxing Our Dollar

Like We ain't Oppressed enough

We Work Hard Enough America!!

To At Least Protect Us

( Protect Us Protect Us)

( We are Not Target Practice)

Tell Me What's Regular

Can't Be Considered Normal

I Know

Things Will Get Better

And they have the nerve to be mad when we dont

Wanna ball in a bubble

When our people are falling victims to crooked police

Want Our Rich To Forget The Struggle

To forget where they came from

If they have the voice

They could speak for us if they want

Things Will Get Better Yeah

Gotta Be Positive

Things Will Get Better

Gotta Be Positive

Aye

Gotta Get

Things Will Get Better

Tell Me What's Regular

Can't Be Considered Normal

I Know

Things Will Get Better

Things Will Get Better

A Moment Of Silence

They love to see the Art of our pain

Fatal gunshots & chokeouts on the unarmed & innocent

A disrespect to our humanity

Are we not loved the same?

We bleed the same color

We ache the same pain when we lose lost ones

No matter the color of our skin

So why are we considered so expendable?

They worked up over the phrase

Black Lives Matter

Black Lives Matter

Black Lives Matter

Like its a Competition or something

7 Shots 8 mins and 46 seconds of pain

7 Shots 8 mins and 46 seconds of pain

Centuries of hate on us

Someone's son Someone's daughter someone's father someone's mother

Someone's brother someone's sister

Someone's uncle someone's aunt

Someones cousin someone's lover

Someone make it stop

Someone make it stoppp

7 shots 8 mins and 46 seconds of pain

7 shots 8 mins and 46 seconds of pain

Centuries of hate on us

We just wanna live freely now

And further on

In peace please

Things will get better

Things will get better

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(1/2) 2019

Can't Remember

Both Drunk Off Spirits

Did One Of Us Say I Missed You

Everything Moves So Fast In The Moment

Unclear Remembrance of Everything Said

Replaying Your Touch

In My Mind

Few Days After

It Still Feels So Fresh

I Figured I'm Fine With What It Is

And What Was

But Can't Help But Think

If We Was To Let Go More

What We Could Become

&

You're Savoring For My Attention

Even with a Beau Present

I'm Playing It Pretty Cool

We Never Had a Label

But What We Had Was Something Beautiful

Half Of Me Wants To See If We Could Be Become More Beautiful