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I have many regrets. And i wish i could take things back. I hate who i was. And i wish i could be better.

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Do you ever just miss a bond you had with someone? Like regardless of what happened between you two, you miss the conversations, the laughs you guys had over the stupidest things, or the way that they were there for you when you weren't at the best. The little things matter.

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it's never too late to start brushing your teeth again. i basically never brushed my teeth for a whole 10 years. a decade. A DECADE. i still struggle to brush my teeth once a week, but it all started with brushing my teeth once every few months. so i mean it when i say brushing your teeth once a week, a month, a year, or even a decade, is better than nothing.

and still, nothing is not shameful. it is not immoral to struggle with self care. and it is also not pointless to keep trying. anything you can do, even if its wiping plaque off with a towel, is enough. it is good to take care of yourself however you can, even if it's just trying to muster the will to. reading this post is good, too.

i believe in you and i am proud of you, even in the smallest of steps. it's okay. you can give yourself grace.

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Max Ritvo, from Four Reincarnations: Poems; “Living it up”

[Text ID: “I wish you would let me know / how difficult it is to love me. / Then I would know you love me / beneath all that difficulty.”]

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Hélène Cixous, from The Selected Plays of Hélène Cixous; “Portrait of Dora”

Text ID: It’s in your silences that I’d like to touch you.

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“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

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“I killed a plant once because i gaveit too much water. Lord, I worry that love is violence.”

-joseolivarez

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Vladimir Nabokov, Letters to Véra

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A happy ending:

“She agreed to love herself deeply.She was finally the sun of her own life.”

-Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

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Mary Ruefle, in The Adamant [ID in alt text]

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on the self

mary oliver a thousand mornings \\ marc chagall blue lovers (1914) \\ jean-paul sartre nausea

kofi

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The things that I regret in my life are not errors of judgement but failures of feeling.

Jeanette Winterson, from Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal?

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― Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms

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I Still Love Him Song By Lana Del Rey

James Joyce, From A Letter To Nora Barnacle Written C. August 1904

Sorcery Of Thorns By Margaret Rogerson

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I wish I didn’t care so deeply. I want to be numb. I want to be cold. I want… I want to stop letting people in.

Yet no matter how hard I try I still let them in. I still care and I feel every jagged step taken.

I just want to be ok.

-I just want to hide.