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I present to you all...The King of Pride! 👑🍎

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Small warm up practise animation ✨

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📺 Little Nightmares 📺

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🩵⛄️Winter times ⛄️🩵

My entry for the HHAI Seasons Zine ✨

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I can’t wait for more of them!! 🌈❤️

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As someone who is NOT touch-averse and moreso sex-favorable or sex-neutral (depending on my hormone level) and still discovering themselves when it comes to what my needs and wants in life are even though I am in my mid30s, I find The Ace Discourse around Alastor very stressful and unhelpful.

How both ends of this discourse talk about it and choose to portray Alastor feels very black and white to me, when that doesn’t reflect my experiences of romance and sex at all. And by this I don’t mean that theres a valid way of doing it and a nonvalid way of doing it. I think it’s more about how I would love people to understand relationships the way I see them and to explore the literal grey areas there.

I guess at some point we as a community need to spell the problems out, so I’ll try..,,

I think the biggest issue here mostly is that plenty of ppl who are ace and even sex-repulsed irl feel attraction to fictional characters and in many such cases that character is Alastor, they want to see him fuck or get fucked. So they like sexual and romantic content with him and try to write him to be demiromantic or sex-favorable or both or whatever else… and that is very valid and fair, because that does reflect the reality of many aroace people. Sometimes people completely erase the nuances there for the sake of smut and romance and I do not particularly like that, but I also lowkey just don’t care? My personal mantra after many years of being a messy fandom bitch is don’t like don’t read. People who like sexual and romantic content with Alastor often say they experience harassment from others who are lowkey just homophobic but use the fact that Alastor is ace as a reason to verbally attack them or threaten to dox them. The claim here is that those people are always allos, which I don’t think is necessarily true. However, I definitely have seen allos do this.

Other aces who are sex-repulsed even in fiction see Alastor as sex-repulsed and romance-repulsed ( I don’t even think theyre wrong at all, that is a very accurate observation from what you see in canon) and get annoyed because so much content with Alastor doesn’t reflect that at all. And that is also a very valid thing to be upset about! It is very unfortunate that Alastor is one of the few ace characters that fans get at all and he happens to be the most shipped guy. I understand why that is annoying, upsetting and feels unfair. I just also think that to claim the problem are allos and this is how allos mistreat ace representation not only erases aroace ppl who are Alastor shippers, but also conflates fanmade, transgressive content with the show. I just don’t think it’s healthy to get mad at people for liking the blorbo differently, especially considering that the ace spectrum is actually fairly wide and thus includes many, many different forms of handling sex and relationships and there simply isn’t just one way to represent it.

The issue here is getting into The Discourse about it, because it wont lead anywhere. Hence why people usually recommend that everyone stays in their lane, which I think is the startest thing you can do. At the end of the day it often seems like semantics to me anyways. One group claims *they said drawing Alastor smut is wrong because he is ace, but ace people can fuck!!!* and the other group claims *Claiming that it’s wrong to say this character is sex-repulsed because some ace people fuck is stupid!!!* and I think both are right. I just think you need to agree to disagree on this one, my dudes. Theres literally no way around it.

However, interestingly what oftentimes falls flat here is the most underrepresented form of aroace realities in fandom, which is the *somewhere in between*. The Alastor that I rarely see in fanfics or fanart, the one who fucks not for sexual pleasure, but to gain something. Or to be entertained. Or out of a masochistic of even sadistic desire. Or to form bonds, to maintain a relationship.

Point 1: sex-favorable doesn’t necessarily mean demisexual. And this is where it gets tricky.

I feel like many aces who maybe are younger, or have always been aware of being ace and/or who grew up with the identity labels maybe can’t imagine sex to be anything but something you consent to with great enthusiasm and desire for sexual pleasure. Many people who are so indifferent to sex or even repulsed by it consider this the only valid form of consent, because that is the line they would never cross. The problem just is that this is not what it’s like for many sex-favorable aces.

Point 2: Sexual attraction is not the same as a libido. You can be ace and not feel sexual attraction, but have a functioning libido

The reason why Heat/Rut works so well as a trope for aces who ship Alastor is because sometimes that is what it feels like for us. Hormonal fluctuations causing your body to seek out sexual stimulation while you personally really wouldnt know who to go to for it, because arousal is just a bodily reaction to you, not something that you want to happen. This might be confusing for many allos, because they also have a concept of difference between attraction and libido, but it’s important to point out that aces experience NO attraction. Or in the case of demisexuals, just very little attraction. Many aces experience attraction to concepts or if they are sexually experienced, they might have physical Pavlovian responses. But there’s no day to day attraction to people in the same way allos experience it.

Point 3: sex-neutrality and the problem if seeing sex as either inherently positive or inherently negative

Something I find myself relating to the most is a very neutral relationship to sex and I feel like that it something I never be talked about online. Not in fandom, not on Instagram. It feels like being a unicorn because if you are not either avoiding sex like the plague or enthusiastically consenting, you are not able to consent to sex somehow.

Idk if this has to do with people either never having had sex, or only having bad experiences or being a young allo and not understanding that sex is more than just plap plap plap uhn uhn SPLOURCH, but there’s a lot of reasons to have sex with someone CONSENSUALLY without it being about sexual pleasure. In my personal experience, I found the physical connection during sex very unique and powerful, it feels like a very neutral way of connecting to someone. It is very hard to explain with words, but I think it’s mostly about trust building and getting to know your partner physically in the most intimate way possible. Especially aces who arent aro often say this is why they have sex. It’s not something they need, but it’s about counting freckles, smiling at each other and feeling skin and just intimacy in general.

Having peaked into a few texts about psychoanalysis makes you realize that both allos and aces have sex for many reasons other than just sexual attraction.

In less romantic cases, ppl have sex because they enjoy the power dynamic, sometimes it’s to get your mind off of other things or because it’s a means to an end. Maybe even because you enjoy the vulnerability. Some people have sex because they think it’s just what you do, even if you technically don’t have to do it. And none of these scenarios happen nonconsensually to these people, because they just don’t think much of it and sex isn’t a big deal to them. That is the Definition of being sex-neutral. It’s also why some sex workers are ace and only find this out about themselves when they stop sex work and realize they don’t really miss having sex at all, but also don’t feel particularly bad about having done it.

Point 4: Aces love kink

I could write an entire essay about being ace and BDSM, this is still one of these topics where theres so much ressources online and people still get surprised when you tell them about it, but I already spend a lot of time on this post and would like to either never talk about this or maybe make a big post sometime in the future when people least expect it.

But just so you know: BDSM isn’t about sex, sex can play a role in it and does so for many people, but especially no-touch domsub, bondage, sadism and masochism can be activities that happen without sex being ever a part of it. Not even an afterthought.

I have read quite a few fanfics where any of these 4 points were explored with Alastor and I think it would do good for people to consider these options more for cool and interesting dynamics that are more unusual, especially considering the specifically weird flavor of Alastor. But at the end of the day people can write whatever they want and it’s not my business. If this post reaches even just one person and they feel like they gained new insights, that’s a win for me!

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Why Hazbin is so dear to my heart ❤️

I know this might be cringe to others but idc, here we are cringe and free ✨🙌

I’m not kidding when I say Hazbin seriously saved me when it comes to art and other things in my life. Before the first season released I was feeling so lost with where to go with my art, I only drew anime girl with simple pose, and while there is nothing bad with that cus I still do like those arts, I just felt like something was missing, I wasn’t satisfied at all but didn’t know what to do about it.

Then after watching the show and becoming completely sucked into the story and the characters, I realised what I was missing. I had stopped drawing art with emotion and a story behind it. I only drew for the aesthetic and nothing more, while that is what a lot of artists enjoy doing, it was just not the path I wanted to take.

Years ago as a kid I did draw art that had a story behind them and comics as well, and that’s what Hazbin finally brought me back to. It pushed me out of my comfort zone again and challenged me to draw different things. It has really made me look forward to doing art again, and helped with my depression. While ofc I still struggle with my depression it would be much worse if I had not gotten into this show. I honestly don’t know where I would be right now.

Hazbin helped me:

- Find my love for art again

- Find a lot of new friends to talk to since I used to only speak to like 2 people before

- Make my mood so much better that I felt well enough to move back into my own apartment

- Just find motivation in life overall and to continue fighting

Anyways don’t mind my little ramble ahahh! This is why when I constantly see hate about Hazbin such as ”Nobody likes this show” ”It is such a bad show why do people care about it?”

Like sure you can dislike it that’s fine, but don’t say that NOBODY likes this show. A lot of people do, and I know there are many artists that found their motivation again thanks to this show. So while it is not for you, it is very special to a lot of us 🩵

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Some frame redraws of pilot Alastor 🦌❤️

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HAPPY INTERNATIONAL ACE DAY 🖤🤍🩶💜

Found out that I was on the ace spectrum almost one year ago, it was comforting cus I started to think there was something wrong with me, but that wasn’t the case and it feels good to know why I am the way I am 💜

And remember, just because you are ace doesn’t make you a robot that can’t feel or give love to others 🖤🤍🩶💜

We’re all still capable of that!

Alastor has been my biggest comfort character the past year, not only because I love his design and his personality, but because of him also being ace 💜

I do wish more people will soon learn about ace being a spectrum and stop spreading missinfo pretending to care about asexuality 👏

I still get comments about that I should not portray Alastor in a romantic/sexual relationship because he is ace.

Hopefully more people will soon understand all ace people are different 🖤🤍🩶💜

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Never abandoning ship ❤️💙

(This song is so them btw)

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Just a little Alastor animation practise 🦌❤️

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People who are reblogging this with hateful comments, how about you learn to ignore and scroll? 🫶🏻

Anywayssss gorgeous art as always Vii! Draw all the rarepairs! 👏🩵 Fandoms need to learn what having fun is again!

I love a good crackpair

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Beloved TVish guy 💎📺

Somebody gotta take my pen away from me LMFAOO

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Different vacation goals 🌈📺

Yes I love this rarepair 💗

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CW: GORE ART / SUGGESTIVE ‼️

”Not even once did I escape his gaze” - 📺

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A little trend I wanted to join as well ✨🧡

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They love each other berry much 🍓🫐