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I just noticed it is officially five months since I started my helpol journey (technically it was 3 days ago but my first post was on the 8th of May so). five months ago on April 5th I lit my first candle to Lady Athena and sat with her for hours.

In those five months I made an altar, started praying whenever I could and got quite close to some of the gods.

Hellenic polytheism made the most mundane things seem beautiful to me. Cleaning and cooking is much more fun when I dedicate it to Hestia, saying hello to Helios and smiling at the sun, and getting blinded every morning by Apollo (thanks alot), reading and talking to Athena and just always feeling better after and rushing at the metro praying to Hermes to get home fast.

The last five months since I started were some of the best time I've had. I passed my exams, made alot of new friends, started getting more comfortable in my identity and I was the happiest I think I've ever been.

Gonna go make some offerings and just appreciate all the small things praise the gods :)

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the charm and the 100 le.

this came at such a convenient time too, I'm going tomorrow to get stuff for my small business for an event we're gonna have a booth in and I was going to pray to hermes before it so that things so smoothly adding that the even is very far so it's gonna be quite a journey (and we really needed the money 😭).

although this feels too special a part of me doesn't wanna spend it I just wanna leave it and have it for future luck. but we'll see how things go.

I love hermes so much

chat I bought an over priced caduceus charm (7 le) I found bc it reminded me of hermes and thought it would be such a nice offering then when I left the mall and was walking back to the car I found a 100 le on the ground 😭 and it had AH written on it. like oh hey thank you 😭

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chat I bought an over priced caduceus charm (7 le) I found bc it reminded me of hermes and thought it would be such a nice offering then when I left the mall and was walking back to the car I found a 100 le on the ground 😭 and it had AH written on it. like oh hey thank you 😭

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Hermes digital offfering!!

I've been trying to get closer to him lately and include him in my practice he is one of the gods I feel like is always there and helping me.

I'm also traveling rn lol so this is a very fitting time

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first time seeing any Helpol/Greek culture related stuff here! I plan on getting a smaller version of them later on. Although I'm still sad about not finding any statues for Lady Athena 😭 except some owl statues which I may get actually.

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that feeling of comfort and calmness that wave over after praying and talking to your gods for a while is unmatched

I'm someone who doesn't like to talk about struggles or problems alot but talking to the gods always helps cause I know Lady Athena is out there hearing my rants good or bad and I can feel her around me, comforting me and keeping me grounded any time I cry while talking it's like I can talk about anything without fear of judgment

I love this so fucking much <3

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I need Hel Pol friends too. Desperately. And I’m too afraid to talk to anyone on discord. Can we please?🥹

oh absolutely!! the too afraid to talk is so real lmaoo

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I need friends!!

I need helpol friends I'm open to literally anyone lmao I just want to talk and share my thoughts with someone whether about helpol or even other interests

this all to say f r i e n d s, please.

anyways may the gods be with you.

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me *away from home praying and panicking to Lord Hermes to get me home safely and fast because there's a huge problem back home and I gotta get there really fast* : please please please great hermes god of travelers I pray to you please PLEASE get me home faster (on the verge of a panic attack and continued praying and begging for the entire way back)

Lord Hermes probably : kid calm down I'm doing it already

I did make it there quickly and without problems thank Hermes and I gave him offerings and prayed and apologized for how annoying I must have been oh blessed be Lord Hermes 😭

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I always thought that worshipping Lady Hestia would be very hard considering my rough relationship with my family and dislike for my home and being in it. but it's times like this where I'm home alone walking around in silence cleaning the house and making food, I feel her divinity and comfort.

I devoted some self care time to Lady Aphrodite which is my first act of worship to her. and to say I felt truly amazing would be an understatement. I was truly relaxed and it was the most beautiful I felt in a while.

I don't actively worship anyone aside from Athena right now but I still worship every god I pray and devote things to them when I can.

i have been listening to hymns to the gods, right now I'm admiring the midnight sky and appreciating Lady Selene and Artemis. I love these small acts of worship just basking in the nature of the gods :)

Khaire!

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Just set up my official altar for Lady Athena :)

I put some new offerings and prayed. (hey the flower may be dying but it was already on my nightstand and I'm gonna get a new one tomorrow and maybe even an actual vase lol)

my family isn't home and it has been the first time since I started worshipping where I felt completely at ease and safe to just pray. how I wish it was like this all the time sadly it isn't and I will have to remove the liberations cup for when they come back, but I will savor this small bit of freedom that I got for the time being truly, thank the gods for that.

I'm gonna take a shower and some self care time as a devotional act to Lady Aphrodite and then watch a documentary about war for Lord Ares. I'm really trying to do as much as I can in this day because I won't get another opportunity like this in some time lol.

the gods truly make me happy and I continue to thank them even the ones I don't actively worship (which is everyone aside Athena. it's really all I can do right now 😭)

Praise the Gods and thank them for all their blessings I'm so grateful for them!

Khaire!

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O wise goddess,

Lady Athene,

daughter of mighty Zeus and intelligent Metis.

protector of Athens,

and patron of heroes.

you who bless us with wisdom and knowledge.

you who stands by your worshippers.

you who masculine and feminine in combines.

you who was born fully grow and armored,

ready to defend justice and truth.

I thank you for your blessings and guidance.

O bright-eyed goddess,

savior of cities, counselor, warlike, pure virgin, courageous,

Pallas Athene,

I praise you.

a digital offering to my Lady because I want to give as much as I could to her. I love her so much I'd write her poems if I could to show my adoration. I've been trying to connect and worship more and it has been quite hard because of my still there religious guilt from my ex religion and try to deconstruct the belief that maybe there isn't only one god it's so hard to fully connect and get in the right head space so I've been kinda trying to make up for thy by offering as much as I can hoping that it would help.

I'm not much of a writer so the praise to Athena might be a quite bad I tried my hardest and took too many inspirations from online prayers and praises.

Blessed be, great Athene.

Khaire!

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prayer beads for Lady Athena 🦉📿

(I had to take it apart and re do it bc I used the wrong wire good gods)

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i praise you lady athena,

leader of battles, sprung from the head of zeus,

i say this prayer out of devotion and love for you.

i say thanks for all the wisdom you bring us,

i don't ask for anything besides for you to be with me.

it will be, as you allow it, i believe in your guidance.

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The candle I dedicated to Lady Athena burned out so I decided to get her a new one. I had some burned candles and ones that I don't use, I decided to melt them into a new candle.

Made a wick out of string because I couldn't get actual ones, waxed it so it would stay intact.

The old candles and empty Nutella jar that I removed the sticker from. Added more whites bc the candles weren't enough to fill the jar and I wanted to go for a light blue color.

During that time I made a sticker design to print and put on the candle, although I don't know if I'll be able to do so without removing the goddess part so that my parents don't question it (that sure as hell won't be good). None of the illustrations are mine btw.

Melted them and added frankincense I bought earlier that day because it's a sent associated with Lady Athena. I had so troubles with holding that damn wick, forgot to hold it by something before pouring out the hot wax and had to hold it myself till my dad came and rescued me with the clip. Left it overnight.

I accidentally got water in the hot wax and when it dried this morning I had to take it out and pour out the excess water, then put it back again and added it to a hot water bath so it sticks in place. After I added sage leaves on top, also associated with Lady Athena.

And that's it :D the small candle is my old candles that I dedicated to Lady Athena. It smells really good! I haven't lit it yet bc I'm scared to ruin it lol but I'm really proud of the outcome.

Praise Lady Athena Ergane! 🦉

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On April 5th, I lit my first candle to Lady Athena.

It was a candle that I was gifted on my birthday. I lit it a few times before, but it was the only good one that I had. This time though, I lit it to say my first prayer and introduce myself. Right after lighting it the flame went all high and crazy, which never happened before (I don't take candle reading as a reliable form of divination, especially as a beginner, but it did feel like a sign of some kind). I called upon her and gave my candle as my first offering and just sat next to it for a while. I looked up so many prayers for offerings and just random ones. I was so nervous about saying or doing something wrong, I stood in my kitchen saying my first prayer and went to my room and set the candle on my desk. I read some more prayers and just started talking about some things in my life, like my relationship with religion and my confusion about it, that I had no idea if what I'm doing is right or wrong, or if she's even real, That I don't know what to do but well... it's worth a shot. I prayed that if she's there to help me with my life, to put me on the right path, or just anything. I'm completely lost. I kept the candle on for some time and then put it off before going to sleep. I had this feeling of comfort and fear lying in bed that night.

I felt a sense of comfort for the following days. Every day I woke up, saying good morning to her and talking for a while or just lighting the candle for some time.

On April 7th, I made a Pinterest board and dedicated it to her. I put imagery of her, statues, art, things that reminded me of her, altar inspos, prayers, cheat sheets, and things related to her.

April 10, I had a university fair one that I had to talk to people and representatives there. I'm quite shit at that and I had no idea what to ask about or how college works. Before leaving I prayed to Athena for guidance and help, promising to give her an offering. I went there spoke with the first representative, and it went smoothly my dad also commented on how good I was. The rest of the day went perfectly. I was very confident and spoke clearly. I got beads and stuff to make a prayer bead as my thank you, didn't do it yet, but I have offered some food and prayed. I wanted to do it earlier but I had exams.

Not related to Athena, but one night I had a huge fight with my dad and he talked about how he would force us to wake up early morning around 3 am and work, even though I had exams and classes and I couldn't wake up. I prayed before going to sleep to anyone who would listen to help me, my dad isn't very nice, and I didn't want to find out what would've happened that morning. I prayed to Ares, protector of those in need, to Hermes, for any kind of aid, to Hypnos, to make me sleep heavily and not wake up till morning, or to literally anyone up there who could help, promising an offering. That morning I woke up my mom telling me how my dad left to work and overslept and didn't wake up that early morning. I was so relieved. I gave Hermes chocolate, devoted a video I watched to Ares about war, and prayed to Hypnos almost every night.

That's so far since I started, I pray and devote stuff anytime I can now. It's so nice and I've been quite happy lately. I was supposed to post each of these when they happened but again exams and procrastination are shit so I'm doing them now.

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⊹ ࣪ Introduction﹏﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

About me

Hello there!

I'm Alex (he / they), I'm an aroace transmasc Egyptian (not the best combo). I'm 17 yrs old and I've got adhd and dyslexia so bear with me.

➶ This blog is supposed to be my safe space and some kind of personal archive where I just put stuff that resonate with me and yell stuff into the void of the internet.

➶ I've always loved Greek mythology but never started getting really invested in yet till lately, so I lack a lot of knowledge but I'm seeking to know more.

➶ This blog is mainly dedicated to my journey of trying to find faith in Hellenic polytheism.

Worship

➶ I am extremely new to Hellenic polytheism (5 months now!) I have a complicated relationship with religions and to be honest I have no idea where I am or what I believe in. This blog is an attempt to figure it out.

➶ This will also be a devotional altar to the deities I worship. Prayers, digital offerings, mood boards and such.

➶ I just started out with Lady Athena and have an altar for her, and I'm trying to connect with Lord Hermes more.

➶ I want to start worshiping : ☤ Lord Hermes (started) ⚔ Lord Ares 𓏢 Lord Apollo ➳ Lady Artemis ☠︎︎ Lord Hades but once I'm ready and slowly.

➶ This blog an opportunity for me to do a lot more research, educate myself, and ask for guidance and help from other Helpols and anyone who's willing to talk or help.

Extra

➶ Anyone is welcome as long as they're respectful and kind.

➶ All kinds of advice are appreciated, give your thoughts, constructive criticism, asks, dms, rants, yap with me, be silly.

➶ DNI : homophobes, transphobes, TERFs, nazis, fascists, racists, sexists, right-wing conservatives, gatekeepers, people who think they're better than everyone else, etc. You get the gist.

Thats it folks, peace out! ༗

(last update August 8)