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‘you put that cig out, you can hold her’

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“eldritch horror beyond your comprehension” and it’s just a generic monster with tentacles and eyes

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spec. spec. spec youve changed the game. i never realized your pointer finger and your wrist artery are the same. holy shit. im going to draw hands thank you

aasdjsd its not really an artery but its a useful landmark to facilitate the Flow of a pose imo

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I think I'm struggling with agoraphobia. In fact, I think I've been struggling with it for many years.

We moved to a new place a month ago- I was hoping the fresh start would get me out of my shell. Instead, I've retreated further.

I've even been struggling to go online. I have a Bluesky account for gushing about snails, and I've been too scared to even log back in.

I've been...alone. Just me, and my husband.

He got me out for a walk a few days ago, and it helped a lot. But we've been having an intense heatwave, so I feel stuck inside again.

I am scared of everything. Of talking to people. Of being perceived. I struggle to cross the street. To go to new places.

It hit me, a few days ago, how serious of a problem this is becoming for me. I didn't realize how terrified I'd become until I made myself sit with it for a while.

For the past few years...it's been nothing but fear.

I want to have friends...I want to go places. I used to be quite adventurous. I would walk by myself for hours to explore.

Now, I'm too scared to walk...too scared to take the bus. Too scared to do anything.

Not even "scared," the fear is all-encompassing.

I need to get my ID renewed before August, and every time I think about it, I just want to cry.

I don't know what to do.

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This whole blog looks like it's run by a bot. I'm not so sure I'm not one anymore. Whenever I read something clearly written by ChatGPT, I cringe a little because I can't help but think, "Jeez, this sounds like me." My partner assured me that he doesn't think that's necessarily a bad thing, or weird; but that, y'know, since it stole from humans, of course there are humans who write in a similar style.

It sucks because I write a lot of fiction in my free time. I keep re-reading the things I wrote and being like...damn...if I showed this to someone and they thought AI wrote it, I'd be pissed at myself and the world. But also, if I ever put it Out There into the big wide world, only for it to be fed to an AI...being honest, the thought fills me with dread.

What a weird time to live in.

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Been finally catching up on Andor. I know everyone else keeps saying it, but wow. WOW. It's so good. The writing, the sets, the costumes, just, everything, everything is so good. I can't believe how cool it is. It's such a good mature story, too- I keep being surprised at how adult it is, tonally.

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Took an edible and sobbed at the "with mama" posts. This is why I can't quit Tumblr

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"And then the echo. Lingering. The sound I awaken to in my nightmares."

This is my main submission for the 20th anniversary zine A Wound in the Force. I will never pass on the opportunity to draw Bao-Dur. Go check out the zine at the link below - it is seriously super cool and absolutely full of great art! I'd like to thank @ewylana for putting this whole thing together!

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curled up with mama.... protected by mama.... let's be warm with mama...

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happy star wars day & also happy birthday kotor 2 my beloved

it was such a joy to be a part of the A Wound in the Force fanzine to celebrate kotor 2's anniversary

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hey guys have you ever heard of THE CHARACTER. i’m thinking about THE CHARACTER. honestly can’t even get shit done because i’m thinking about THE CHARACTER. i’m listening to a song and imagining THE CHARACTER. all i know and love is THE CHARACTER

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I love when a meme gets so many steps away from its source material that it would be completely incomprehensible if I didn't know what today's date was

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im begging on my knees for games to start hiring shakespearean trained actors to do voice acting for their games again. please. please. please. please

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What's your favorite character from KOTOR II and WHY is it The Champ

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Okay I'm better now

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NO I DON'T WANT TO "ADD TAGS" TO MY SCREAMING POST, TUMBLR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!