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[ochisiaa]

Entry #1

04/19/24

I was suppose to hangout with [girl] today, maybe, she said after she visits her great grandma it was her idea, she said she'd keep me upated. She didn't rext. I did 3 hous ago asking if she's coming, she didn't open it.

I have her location, it's like a drug. I check it more than I can admittedly, it’s embarrassing, stalkerish.

Maybe something happened to her grandma, she has hospie, shes dying. Maybe her parents said no and she didn’t think to tell me, her parent are crazy. Maybe she just forgot, she does have a shitty memory. Maybe she's just a cunt who only cares about herself.

She not a cunt I don’t know why I wrote that, I love her Shes my best friend. My brains just messed up.

I've been anxious all day waiting for her to show up, text back. It was building up but I kept it down.

Then my mom called, it's easter tomorrow. I threw out my basket from last year, I guess I wasn't suppose to. She yelled at me, I called her mean, she told me to shut up or my brothers would hear. I hung up and cried, then I relapsed.

I don't keep count of the days, but I know I haven’t did it in a while. It not deep but it stings.

[Girl] still hasn't text me back. My mom called me, said she wasn't mean, she didn't apologies, she never does.

[Girl] propably wont text me back tonight, tomorrow probably.

But it didn't matter what she saids, when I she her notification I forgive her instantly, mercifully.

[ochisiaa]

ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིi really like you. I'm gonna be really sad if you don't come back, unless you tell me ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི

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Dionysus Research

Dionysus is the god of wine-making, vines, vegetation, fertility, festivity, insanity, ritual madness, religious ecstasy, and theater. Also referred to as Bacchus, which the Romans later adopted, was originally found in a written record in Mycenaean Greece around 1300 BC. Jane Ellen Harrison, a British classical scholar, believed that Dionysus means "young Zeus. His origins are uncertain, and his cult took many forms. One was said to have originated in the Zagros Mountains, originally to worship or was associated with wine, which was before Mycenaean Greece even existed. The cult then made its way to the now-established Mycenaean Greece where they founded and started worshiping the then Dionysus.