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take it all – bear it all, and be rid of it

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"i'll love you in every lifetime"

shut the fuck up im gonna cry on you

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“Gay, gay, gay,” I whisper in front of the mirror. And suddenly, here’s there. Right behind me. Bilbo Baggins.

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We don't talk enough about Merlin learning, after everything, that they lost Gwaine too.

I'm imagining Merlin by the lake, distraught beyond words. Arthur and Excalibur lay at the bottom of the lake, gone for who knows how long.

Merlin waits at first. No clear goal in mind. Just grief.

He waits. Gaius knows where he is and he knows someone will come eventually, Gwaine most likely.

His steadfast friend who is always ready to follow Merlin headfirst into whatever scrabble he's gotten himself into this time.

Gwaine will come. And he will joke and conjole and rile Merlin up until he feels at the very least marginally better about failing his destiny. Failing Arthur.

Merlin waits a few days. Then a week.

And then it's Leon who comes. And Merlin's world gets even darker.

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no bc i only just saw this but yes hello i love this

watching house md was the first thing that made me comfortable with the idea that i don't /need/ to just push through it or get over it

mobility aids exist for a reason and there is nothing wrong with needing them ‼️

the way that house exists, that he can use his mobility aid and still be bitter and in pain, was such a blessing to me personally due to my experience with being told to just get over it like. okay but why should i?

i had known for 7 years that i was going to have chronic pain before i got crutches, and i had /had/ that chronic pain (if not as bad as it is now) for four years before i got them

i feel like if i had watched house md earlier in my life i don't think i would've put it off for so long

gregory house and hugh laurie you are amazing and the writers of house md i thank you, for letting me believe that just because my pain could be lessened doesn't mean i can't still be bitter about having it in the first place

I love House actually. I love that he has chronic pain. I love how in one episode he goes home to sleep bc his pain is bad. I love how in season one, when they call him back to the hospital to search for the missing kid, he admits that he’s useless, but also he still comes in. I love that in the episode where he trolls Kutner and Taub with the fake patient death, he falls asleep while waiting for them. I love how fatigue and pain are so closely bound. I love the episode with the suicidal chronic pain patient where House says “he’s not in pain because he’s depressed; he’s depressed because he’s in pain.” I love how closely pain and misery are tied in the show, feedback loops into each other. The show is far from perfect, but it has so many shining moments. Through acting and costume and writing choices, House is clearly, visibly, and behaviorally IN PAIN. And I eat it up.

This has nothing to do with my migraines and neck spasms whatsoever I’m sure

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me : has not been on tumblr in so many months

also me : comes back to say one thing and immediately starts liveblogging my every thought

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anywho i turned my bed into an autism cave and finally cleaned my depression pit (bedroom) so who is the real winner here

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this blog is such a mess its just like my brain

no coherent thoughts only house md lotr haikyuu merlin the hobbit

no order to anything you will see me say oughhhghhgghghg hairy women and 3 seconds later im reblogging merthur being dumb

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My lord of the rings headcannon is that Aragorn secretly keeps count of his kills like Legolas and Gimli and silently compares his numbers without telling them.

Aragorn after Helms Deep: “they only got 43, I got 45.”

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I like that House is about resilience and the joy in the darkest of times and how dark shit fucks you up - but then what do you do? The worst thing happens… and then what?

And the thing is all of that requires fucked up shit and fucked up characters to work

And also the fucked up shit and fucked up characters can be massively fun for a variety of reasons

So like yes I do want their lives to kind of suck actually. Let's get freaky about it together

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nobody talk to me im thinking about house and wilson toxic old man yaoi they would be so terrible for each other and it's the best thing ever

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the thing with this also is like. they were fucked up from the beginning and i think that's the best part

house and wilson literally met when house bailed him out of jail

probably the only reason cuddy hasnt fired house so many times over is that he has tenure and she /can't/ fire him, but at the same time she enables him so often

they're all a little (or more than a little) fucked up and i think that is so important

house is an addict and such a terrible person that even his best friends get to a point where they can't stand to be around him - he has such little regard for other people's feelings that it very nearly costs him the one person who has stood by his side through his constant bullshit

wilson is a chronic cheater - he has had three wives and cheated on all of them. he regularly enables house's fucked up and often dangerous decisions up until the point he finally realises that house isn't going to change, but even then he just accepts it

cuddy is also a massive house enabler - she should have (and probably would have, lets be honest here) fired house a long time ago, though she couldn't due to his tenure, but even though she would've fired him a long time ago if she could, she still lets him run wild. there are so many times that decisions that house made (like taking lsd/heroin while at work???) that would've gotten him /arrested/ if he were anyone else, let alone fired

foreman is so focused on becoming a better doctor than house that instead of surpassing him he becomes just like him - bitter, antisocial and self-important, but still a damn good doctor. die a hero or live long enough to become the villain really rings true in his case i think, he became exactly what he was trying to avoid, and he has also committed a lot of crimes in his time as a doctor that would have had him lose his license, if not also been arrested

cameron is a consummate people pleaser and people /fixer/ - she spends so long trying to get house to be /better/ even though she knows it will never work. she's so attracted to damaged people that it damages her own relationships with the people around her - her first husband's death, her attraction to house, even her relationship with chase is damaged by the fact that she can't let go of the past

and lets not even talk about when chase kissed a little girl, or killed a patient.

sorry for rambling i have a lot of thoughts

I like that House is about resilience and the joy in the darkest of times and how dark shit fucks you up - but then what do you do? The worst thing happens… and then what?

And the thing is all of that requires fucked up shit and fucked up characters to work

And also the fucked up shit and fucked up characters can be massively fun for a variety of reasons

So like yes I do want their lives to kind of suck actually. Let's get freaky about it together

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so the first scene here is clearly played in canon as flirtatious sexually charged injection-as-penetration metaphor so it's only logical to conclude the same is true about the second scene (she's injecting him) and that via the metaphor we're being shown that house also likes it up the ass

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anon you are so real mr cool when will we recieve more tdick i am salivating

Hi anon here wanting to ask if there will be more t-dick to come? asking for a friend. also big fan of ur work <3

just for you i will not be drawing any more tdick until i have recieved 50£ in an unmarked envelope

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whats the idea

it's what you deserve i think

sniffle...

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you were talking about it out in the open like we WEREN'T gonna go looking. it's your own fault tbh. kicks u in the face.

irl sending his nsfw account on our discord server and me and other friend immediately vamoosing over there is something that can be so personal

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irl sending his nsfw account on our discord server and me and other friend immediately vamoosing over there is something that can be so personal