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TW mentions of almost dying and car accidents

I’m not gonna lie, today was kind of off the rails. I basically made every bus to work on time, even though I had to run back and grab my laptop from my house, and there was a ton of technical issues so my meeting started like SUPER late because of it.

And then me and my friend got into a car crash, where it honestly could have been so so much worse than what it was. The other person’s car landed perfectly between two poles and my friend and I just got hurt from the airbags and seatbelt (also I accidentally punched myself in my face with jewelry). We could have died but for some reason the fucking stars aligned and we didn’t.

Hermes is a God I’ve always passively worshipped. Whenever I find myself in his domains, I will thank him and pray to him, but I don’t reach out often like I do with Eros and Apollon. I just keep finding myself so thankful for Lord Hermes and honestly every single one of the gods. My friend and I could have died. But we didn’t. Things aligned and everyone was safe. I don’t like saying it was all thanks to a diety bit it’s comforting to think He was watching over us in that moment and made sure we didn’t die. I gave him a little offering earlier tonight and this is sort of another one. Thank you Hermes for protecting us and thank you Apollon and Eros for always watching over me.

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Shoutout to Hermes for making sure my friend and I didn’t die in a car accident today God of Travelers is pulling through

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Little reminder for any hellenist in college looking for articles/research papers on different deities to check out Jstor!!! It’s a database of academic resources, and a lot of universities automatically give students access to it. I had an art history professor recommend it as a source to find reputable articles and books for writing and it’s honestly just a really good site to have on hand in general!

I’ve managed to find some rlly interesting information abt different deities and how they’ve been perceived!! It’s super fun to just go hunting for different deities and info :]

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A poem to Dionysus

Last night I cried like a child at your feet.

I begged for you to hear me out

To forgive me

To tell me everything will be ok.

I don’t remember what you said.

All I could see was wine red and

Gold so bright it was blinding.

I could feel your presence in the winding Ivy

And all consuming grape vines

Where my friends laid me to rest.

But I didn’t know what to say to you.

You took me under your wing

as I sat in the wings of the theatres.

The shadows of the ghost light

Would tell stories of madness.

I don’t know if you’re still watching over me,

There are others who have taken your place.

The sun that shines so bright

And the one of passionate protective love.

Yet you still console me like the crying child I am

I am no different than I was at 10.

Could you let me cry a bit longer?

I just want to be ok again.

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me a few weeks ago: yeah so on tumblr they have this thing where you can boop people and-

friend: you look like the type to have tumblr

me: fuck does that mean

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You guys just have a dream where you wake up and it sticks with you for the rest of the day? It’s been a while since that happened but it did last night and Idk how to act.

Anyways Heyyyy Apollon and Dionysus (and possibly others it was hard to tell) <33 sorry for crying to you both in my dream last night luv u both mwahmwah

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eeee I love just doing small things for the gods in my practice!!!!

Thinking of Eros whenever I talk about the people I love

Whispering a small thank you to Hermes when I make my bus on time

Saying something for Asklepios whenever I take meds

Thinking of Dionysus while partying with friends, or while I stare into the ivy and grapevines that cover my childhood home

Dedicating a drawing in class, or a workday on a project to Apollon,

saying a prayer to Hypnos while I make a tea blend for sleep,

cheering for Hephaestus when I make a mechanic right in a project

thinking of Athena while I'm hunched over my computer at 3am researching for no purpose other than the pursuit of knowledge

There are so many more examples, but the point is, that the gods are everywhere. Even if you can't do big devotional acts because of time or energy, just remember that they're also there for you in the small, mundane moments of life.

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points to my altar: this one’s for you apollo *pops my meds into my mouth*

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Ok update— I got a 95% on it!!! I was a lil worried I was going too much into mythology, but my TA really liked my use of Greek cultural and religious terms!!

I'm currently writing an essay for my art history course discussing the Calyx Krater of Apollo and Artemis killing Niobe's children vs this one Hydria of Apollo playing the lyre. Its super fun and interesting (if also a bit stressful bc this is due tomorrow), but i wonder how long it'll take my TA to realize I'm an Apollo devotee. I've got like 2 paragraphs just gushing over how cool and powerful Apollo and Artemis are. Theyre both terrifying but BOY DO I LOVE THEM!! manifesting I don't get points docked for this, but even if I do, I don't care.

To my TA: I'm not sorry, you should have seen this coming king

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sorry boss i cant come in today i need to play history maker on loop in my room all day to mourn the loss of the ice adolescence movie

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Offerings don’t need to be expensive or bought

I’ve noticed throughout the pagan community that there’s a compulsion to associate offerings and their value, with monetary value. Even though so many people on so many platforms have tried their best to bring this to light, I still even find myself questioning if my hymns and natural offerings are enough.

I truly believe that in between religious corruption and capitalism, pagan spaces have been heavily influenced by consumerism: a value that’s so far removed from the origins of our practice. Most of the worshippers in Hellenic polytheism, (and many other pagan practices) are low income! As someone who works two jobs, lives with their working boyfriend AND lives without certain utilities (I have water powered housing), the cost of living is still way too high for the average person.

With limited time, money, and patience, sometimes I just say thank you. Sometimes I just spend some time outside, or find cool leaves and those offerings go to my deities. Pinecones, bottle caps, cute flowers. All of these are real examples of offerings I’ve made.

Using affordable materials has drastically changed my relationship with the Gods… it’s improved by so much! I feel closer, down to earth with these beings, and I’m able to afford my groceries doing so. I sing a hymn in the car or say thank you, and though it doesn’t require much, they appreciate it the same (if not more so)!

May the Gods look down and smile at their worshippers, especially the ones who need them the most.

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APOLLOOOOO!!!!

An offering because I ate his leche flan (sorry) ALSO, I'd like to think he styles his hair sometimes when he doesn't have anything on his to-do list!

Have a very microscopic version of Apollo as well!

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I'm currently writing an essay for my art history course discussing the Calyx Krater of Apollo and Artemis killing Niobe's children vs this one Hydria of Apollo playing the lyre. Its super fun and interesting (if also a bit stressful bc this is due tomorrow), but i wonder how long it'll take my TA to realize I'm an Apollo devotee. I've got like 2 paragraphs just gushing over how cool and powerful Apollo and Artemis are. Theyre both terrifying but BOY DO I LOVE THEM!! manifesting I don't get points docked for this, but even if I do, I don't care.

To my TA: I'm not sorry, you should have seen this coming king

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This week I did my first real piece of acting for someone else since pre pandemic. I know it doesn't seem like much, but there was a point in my life where I had nothing but theatre. It was my everything. I had to stop it for my own mental health (theatre folks are sometimes the worst) but I miss theatre in a way words cannot begin to express.

I have been too afraid to get near it, but I love acting, I love theatre. Yeah, I adore any artform, I consider myself a jack of all trades in that regard. but there is something so empowering about slipping into someone else, becoming someone you are not, even for a short while. The shoot was for my roommate's senior film, and it took about 4ish hours to film, so not too bad.

Since we wrapped, the image of Dionysus, Eros, and Apollon cheering me on keeps popping into my brain. I'd like to think that the three of them are proud of me for facing everything bad, in the hopes that things can be ok. They're celebrating with me. Eros helped save me from the abuse I dealt with in theatre. I am glad I left, what I went through was NOT ok, but to an extent, I regret leaving theatre and Dionysus' image behind. I used to embrace theatre and madness and chaos with open arms, It made me whole in a way nothing else could. But I needed to stop.

It's been a long 4 years to be able to do this safely in a way that won't hurt myself. I think Dionysus would welcome me back to this world with open arms, and with Apollo, Eros, and all my loved ones at my side. They're showing me I am more than my art, and I am more than a tool for a director. I have free will and I can use it. Perhaps this is my first step to returning to something I once loved more than myself.

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I dont often believe in fate, however, when I go to a bookstore and the only book of Homeric hymns they have available has a 19-page hymn to Apollo, I feel like He's trying to say something.

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Sometimes you gotta stand in front of your altar in the dark while severely overstimulated as a way to seek comfort from the divine, and that's ok

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Me giving an offering to an ancient deity at three in the morning