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Being unable to conceptualize god as a real thing while growing up in a pentacostal Christian family is horror movie material.

Like, what do you mean everyone in the family believes that Barney the big red dinosaur is Omni present? What do you mean they think people are out to get them because they worship Barney? What do you mean there's a man claiming to have direct contact with Barney and if I question it I'm a witch?? 😭

Barney wants you to love him and if you don't he's throwing you into the sun.

But you have a choice in not loving him DW... No that's not coersive he loves you fr fr

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Little Guy

Jumping spider

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OMG their so cute 😭♥️♥️♥️

a mini cat tree for a tiny arachnid kitty

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"I don't even like enemies to lovers." I say with a suspiciously enemies to lovers shaped lump in my pocket

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saying “i want him” about the character but not in a romantic or sexual way . i just Require him i need to Obtain him

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Happy Valentine's Day to all my very wonderful friends 🫶🏾

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TLDR: Yennao Is Emotionally abusive, this is my experience.

When I was 17, I joined a D&D game run by Yennao (she was 21 at the time). I’m autistic, and roleplay was one of the few places where I felt safe expressing myself. I’m also aware that I sometimes miss social cues so I'm very willing to take feedback —and Yennao took advantage of that.

She used the game to shame me, twist my character choices into personal moral flaws, and isolate me from the rest of the group. She painted me as uncompromising, emotionally unintelligent, and manipulative to others while blurring the line between fiction and reality. She crossed clearly stated boundaries and eventually stalked me across platforms after I blocked her.

She accused me of not knowing the difference between fiction and reality, said I lacked empathy, and constantly demanded I apologize for my character’s actions—actions other players were never punished for. If I apologized, it wasn’t “enough.” If I explained, it was “manipulative.” Eventually, I brought it to a therapist, who told me what I was describing sounded like emotional abuse.

I blocked her on every platform I could think of and moved on. But **two years later**, she found me again—on an old Pinterest account I hadn’t used in years. She messaged me, claiming it was an accident, despite Pinterest requiring you to manually search and send messages. I told her to leave me alone and blocked her again.

After that, she went public—posting as if she didn’t know who I was and made it out to seem like I was lashing out at her for no reason. I spoke up about what I went through, then she started framing me as a bitter ex-friend making things up for attention. Her girlfriend joined in, mocking me and suggesting I was mentally unwell for finally speaking up. So I made a document laying out the pattern—with direct quotes, timestamps, and context—to protect myself and warn others.

Now I'm being called “a bully” and being accused of "dragging it out.” But I haven’t messaged her since. I haven’t tried to get her attention.

She’s the one who stalked me across platforms, lied about it, and retaliated when I finally set boundaries.

I’m not doing this for revenge. I’m doing it because silence only helped her. If someone else had shared their story earlier, I might not have ended up isolated and doubting my reality for years.

Here’s the full documentation

Thank you to anyone who reads this. I’m open to support or similar stories

For those who don't want to read the doc

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Dear, Yennao

I searched my name on a completely new account and had to type out my full name—just like when you did when you block-evaded.

Believe it or not, I don’t want to deal with you or your nonsense. That’s exactly why I blocked you on everything and changed my name but alas.

Lie all you want—I have people who believe me. I also have yet to see an explanation for why you publicly admitted to ‘accidentally’ crossing boundaries.

My life is going perfectly fine 🤨

that projection is wild.

Bringing up something you posted publicly to show you don't leave people alone when told is not stalking. that's the you not leaving people alone part.

The intentional misgendering in your video was crazy. I have never once gone by she/her in my entire time of knowing you.

for the love of god actually leave me alone this time.

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THIS JUST IN: I can cure amnesia!

Taking a break from my break rq

Funny how you have to manually type out someone's username to send them something on Pinterest. Even funnier how my username is 'organizedchaotically'—a pretty specific 'accident' to type when looking for someone to send something to.

Why is she acting like I’m the unreasonable one for enforcing my boundaries after she violated them?

Why did she feel the need to post that she "accidentally" crossed someone's boundaries?

Why was my name not marked out but hers was?

You did isolate treating me like shit to DMs that's not something I'm willing to go back and forth with you on don't try and downplay it as "Mishandling the situation"

This isn't the first time you've crossed boundaries then victimized yourself

To Lilac Dova

Acknowledging my own experience and warning others doesn’t mean I don’t care about real abuse cases (because mine is a real abuse case.)—it means I refuse to let manipulation and harm go unchecked. If you ever find yourself on the receiving end, you’ll understand. And when that day comes, I hope you won’t be too afraid to speak up, too

please educate yourself on emotional abuse and common abuse tactics

and for your information. I did go to therapy, It's how I stopped blaming myself for what I went through. Go weaponize that shit somewhere else 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾

Non of you will guilt me into silence again

Woops! Dropped this!

Side note, while my user is @organizedchaotically the display name of the account was GREMLIN when she messaged me. Later changed to Nico after she was blocked as I was revamping my old account from 2020.

But she knows thousands of Nico's so..?

And why are you using an old screenshot? Why can't you ask him what he currently thinks about what happened?

Oh right.

You're not supposed to be talking to him either.

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TYSM

I really appreciate the support—more than I can put into words. But my nervous system can't differentiate between talking about what I went through and being held at gunpoint, so I'm going to go MIA to recover. :']

I love y'all, and it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I just AAAAAAAAHHH! TYSM

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For someone you claim not to know you sure have a lot of documentation of me and my D&D character, why is that?

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I recently had my abuser—whom I cut out of my life a year and a half ago—attempt to contact me again. Despite changing my name on everything, she found my account and messaged me on Pinterest, a platform I’ve never used to speak with her before. She tried to pass it off as an accident, but given our history, it was clearly an attempt to push boundaries.

When I was 17 and she was 21, She engaged in controlling and manipulative behavior that led to me cutting contact. I made it clear I did not want her in my life as a result. Now, she’s twisting the situation to make herself the victim. If you’ve seen her post on here about me (she goes by Yennao.), you can clearly see I am telling her to leave me alone—because this is not the first time I’ve had to say it. If she tries to delete anything, it’s already archived on the Wayback Machine.

She has a substantial following on TikTok, and her attempt to hoover me back into her life happened right after she lost that following due to the temporary TikTok ban. This wasn’t a coincidence—it was an attempt to make me her emotional punching bag again.

She thrives on isolating people and making them feel unreasonable. If you’ve seen this and have also been a victim of her abuse, know that you are not alone. You’re not crazy, and your story matters.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. ♥️

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Understanding Hoovering: How Toxic People Suck You Back In

Learn about hoovering, a tactic used by toxic individuals to pull victims back into abusive relationships, and discover how to recognize and resist it. #domesticviolence #domesticabuse #domesticviolenceawareness #hoovering #domesticabuseawareness

Deciding to leave an abusive or toxic relationship is a significant and courageous step. However, staying away can be equally challenging due to a manipulative tactic known as “hoovering.” This term, inspired by the vacuum cleaner brand, describes how toxic, abusive, and narcissistic individuals attempt to “suck” their victims back into the relationship. Therefore, let’s explore what hoovering…

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Understanding Reactive Abuse: What You Need to Know

In truth, reactive abuse is self-defense, not abuse.

This happens when the victim, who has been dealing with abusive behavior over a sustained period of time, reaches an internal breaking point. The prolonged physical or emotional abuse they have endured causes them to react impulsively rather than respond calmly.

A victim who reacts abusively is usually acting out of character, leaving them confused and surprised by their response. This leads to more self-doubt and self-criticism.

Even though it comes out of the body’s natural defense mechanism, which is designed to protect them from violence, reactive abuse almost always harms the victim more than the abuser.

Even in healthy relationships, there are times we respond in ways that are uncharacteristic of our true selves.

So, why isn’t reactive abuse considered abuse?

Let’s take a look. Source

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I haven't drawn my little goblin in awhile

The silly fr fr