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UGH.

Sorry to everyone who got some stupid ray ban ad from me. If it wasn’t already obvious, some jackass decided to put themselves on my list today and get into my account. Pass is changed and ad is deleted.

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Being a good person is a choice. Don’t let people fool you into believing that truly good people never have bad thoughts, are never tempted by the easier path, by the low road, never mess up or act out selfishly. Never believe a person can be good without making a conscious effort.

Every single time you do something good, you’ve made a decision to make the world a little brighter.

Goodness is not an inherent trait, it is a choice. Keep making it! I see you, I’m proud of you, and I’m rooting for you!

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The only truly ecological choice for your magic.

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Astonishing.

Darkest Places

Art: Mead

Writing: trashSavage and Mead

Alyona

Written by: trashSavage

Darkest Places is a comic Mead and I have been working on for a while now based on a little piece I wrote a couple of weeks ago. Mead did a great job translating the text to images and put a lot of heart and soul into this piece. Working with him was a pleasure.

Below you can find my original text with minor edits for spelling.

Keep reading

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Oh my goooods are these cute or what? You can have one for a pretty low price, too! <3

We’re trying to save up some money to move, so I’m taking commissions for custom pointy ponies! OCs welcome! Click the image above (or click here if that doesn’t work) to fill out the order form. 

PayPal only right now. If you can’t or don’t want to use PayPal, shoot me a message and we’ll work something out.

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KAVAT Y U SO CUTE?!

Hey, kitty-kitty.

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I spent entirely too freaking long on this pun.

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MYST;THAT'S HOW GUILDS WORK RIGHT?;

“You’re a Writer, Ha’rry!”

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I. Need. This. And some day it will hang in the Temple.

“Bastet” 11 X 14 watercolor and colored pencil. Original and prints available on my Etsy page http://www.etsy.com/shop/goldenwolfart #bast #bastet #cat #cats #kitten #kittens #egyptiangoddess #egyptian #originalart

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Yes please.

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Temple of Karnak, the Great Hypostyle Hall, 1890, Ernst Karl Eugen Koerner

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XD XD XD

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On Feminism & Womanhood

The shared experience of women is pain.

We share physical pain:

•We share the pain of these awful things called menstrual cramps. Which doesn't sound so bad until you realize the number of women who are literally disabled by them each month.

•We endure genital mutilation or genital removal in some cultures.

•We endure violent attacks on our person for various reasons - for refusing sex, for dressing the "wrong" way, for simply existing in the wrong place and being a woman. Women are regularly mutilated with knives or acid in many parts of the world.

•We bear the pain of growing  a child within us, and then the pain of birthing that child. Many times against our will, as we are told that the child we bear is more important than our own physical health, emotional stability, financial stability, or really anything else. We are told that bearing a child is more important than our own voices and opinions on what happens with our own bodies - even those of us who do not wish to have children and instead wish to have permanent birth control.

•We share the pain of sexual assault - whether molestation or outright rape - at some point in many of our lives.

 We share mental pain:

•From the time we are born we are formed and terrified by objectivism. As children we're told we have to be _____. We're told what we must like and what to despise. The unwritten implication of this, whether true or not, is that if we aren't _____ enough, we won't be loved.

•We start being objectified differently, and more aggressively when we hit puberty. We are told if we don't look _____ enough we will never survive, or thrive, be loved, be respected… we'll be seen as plain, as a whore, as a bitch…

•We share the pain of a terrified heart beating furiously in our chest as walk briskly away from the potential rapist, knowing that if we run, they'll follow.

•We share the traumatic memory that makes us beg that the dude parked on the street doesn't try anything when we walk past.

•We share the pain of being told that our opinions, feelings, and thoughts don't matter constantly. That our experience is invalid. Simply for being women. When we are attacked, made uncomfortable, taken advantage of, we are told that we should have been smarter, or that “boys will be boys”, or that we were “asking for it”. We see other women experiencing these things and don’t speak up for ourselves so that we don’t have to experience the same.

•To top it off, I should point out again that *an astonishing number of us* experience sexual assault, which leaves physical AND mental scars.

 These are only a few examples. It’s nowhere near a comprehensive list. I will point out that every single one of these is a real world example. Not one single thing here is overstated. I have observed or experienced every item on this list.

 Feminism is not about dominating the other gender. That is patriarchy's prerogative.

Feminism is about decreasing pain.

Feminism is about healing an entire population of people whose scars are not just physical, but mental.

In most of our time on this planet, our attempts at taking care of the victims of war or other trauma has failed to look beyond the physical trauma. We mend bones and sew wounds shut, but we have not until recently begun to attempt to heal the psyche and ease the deep suffering these events leave on us, like a footstep in clay. The amount of damage to the female population worldwide utterly overwhelms the usability of numbers. Healing this many people is an unprecedented problem to try and tackle.

We bear the pain of a society actively set against us ; not because it means to be, but because it can not begin to understand - because if it did, it would be undone. Is it then any wonder that the shared pain of women is consistently and vocally denied? That we are constantly gaslit, not only by men, but by other women?

 Think. Listen. Decrease world suck. Be prepared to be wrong. Meet shame with compassion, forgiveness, and education, both in yourself and in others. 

Remember that it’s okay to be wrong, if you take steps towards right.

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This.

“Triggered”

I started writing a tweet, but it turns out that 140 characters is a poor method to discuss complex issues. Who knew? This isn’t intended as a lecture (and I hope it doesn’t come across as one.) It’s more of an anecdote; part of my quest for authenticity and wholehearted living.

Though it’s already fading from twitch chat in favor of newer, danker memes, I’ve noticed “triggered” popping up in streams, chats, and comment threads for a while now. As far as I understand, at worst it is a snarky pushback at the concept of hyper-sensitivity as a cultural currency. But often it’s internet shorthand for “this sucks” or “I’m frustrated.” It’s an especially potent meme because if someone says “hey, not cool, dude” they can just parrot it again and poof! A perpetual meme-tion machine. Babyrage ensues.

I’ve mentioned this a few times on social media, but in early 2015 I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder. I haven’t really discussed the root of it, and I’m not/may never be ready to do so, but I hope that you’ll believe me when I say it flat-out sucks. PTSD for any reason is shitty, and miserable, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

What I’ve learned is that the fight-or-flight control center of my brain froze the trauma in carbonite, and as a result it can’t get to my long-term memory. Any time something (a silhouette, a song, or seemingly nothing at all) reminds my fight-or-flight center of that frozen-in-time memory, I’m warped back to the emotional state I was in during the trauma, despite being entirely safe (and knowing it.) This is called being triggered. (Or, a more official definition: the Department of Veterans Affairs says “You may see, hear, or smell something that causes you to relive the event. This is called a trigger.”)  

I absolutely believe that “triggered” is overused in the zeitgeist. I can see how it feels non-malicious or inconsequential; as harmless as calling someone salty or a sellout. I suppose I just also want people to understand that even if the intent is to poke fun at one group, there’s another group of people with a really shitty brain thing who are getting caught in the crossfire. PTSD isn’t specific to any group: it doesn’t discriminate based on the subreddits you subscribe to.

When I hear “triggered” from my favorite streamers and gaming buddies, it feels like I’m shrinking. It takes me out of enjoying our hobby, and my gears start turning on my Thursday-evening therapy session that is either looming or has just passed. It trivializes the concept, which steadily perpetuates the powerless feelings that my original trauma created: you’re being too sensitive. Your feelings don’t matter. Be quiet. It’s all in your head.

I don’t expect every space to be safe, or for others to bend over backwards to help me out. But please believe me when I say it’s much more enjoyable to spend time, money, and mental bandwidth on the hobbies I love versus defragmenting the trauma in my brain. I play games to connect with friends, to decompress, to counteract the stresses of daily life. So the echoes of “triggered!” are simply a jarring reminder that the world is a shitty place.

Ultimately people using the meme and myself/people like me are on the same team. I mostly hear it said without malice: a casually chuckled “triggered!” in an awkward moment or frustrated “triggered” groan after their teammate blows it for the seventeenth time. It’s not about me; I know that. It’s a joke, a fleeting meme.

It’s just that these particular “shots fired” are an AOE with friendly fire enabled.

Thanks for reading, internets.  <3

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I may be bored.

Two mesmers and an elementalist walk into a bar.

it hurts.

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Legit saw this and went “Huh, where in D’ni was this going to be?”

concept art for Guild Wars 2

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Love this. She’s so beautiful. I can only hope to be so graceful and beautiful when I’m her age.

a sadhu lady.

a devotee of the goddess Tara , the tantric goddess kali, or shakti.