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I know you're not gaslighting me, but it damn sure feels like you are.

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there's always an ulterior motive. why can't our connection be clean? why are your words so tainted?

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I'm not sure if I want you dead out of mercy or fear. I love you too much to tell the difference.

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shit. I've said too much.

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I want to cut the eyes out until the blood from the sockets cleanses me of my sons at last. at long last.

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am I really just a toy to you?

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if I kill them then they can't hurt me anymore. but their absence will. the guilt will. the eyes will bear down on me and I will break.

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don't leave me!!! please for the love of God don't leave me!!!

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is it even paranoia if you're always right

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which words are real?? were any of them ever???

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you bastard!!! you're changing the narrative I wrote in pixels and speech!!! I trusted you!!!

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my nerves are on fire. I need to run. I need to run.

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those footsteps you're hearing aren't friendly

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there is so much hate in my heart for you. you can feel it, can't you? I hope you do. I hope it terrified you as you terrified me for all those years.

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you never fucking loved me.

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you weren't who you thought you were. you never were. what if you still aren't?

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I knew it. I knew it all along. you thought I was crazy, insensitive, paranoid. look who's laughing now.